Cry

By: Strawberry

Chapter 10

I don't own Sailor Moon

Genre: Drama, Romance

I don't own any poem's I used in this chapter

~*~*~*~The Wake~*~*~*

I looked in the mirror in the men's bathroom in Donalan funeral homes. My eye's had very dark bags under them and they were also very red and puffy from crying, I now rarely slept, he only time I could sleep was if I played our star locket but it hurt so much to listen to it, knowing that after she died they found it, clutched in her hand. I washed my face hen walked out of the bathroom, I looked at the foyer of the funeral home, this wasn't the actual funeral, it was the wake, (where you sit there and just look at the body I guess.) and the funeral was the next day. There were little card's were you could write the person a note and put it in there casket, everyone was starting to show up, I went into the foyer to try my best to consol the people I could but I was the one who needed consoling, I sat on a couch and looked at the open doorway into the next room, the room were Serena lay, cold and lifeless. I couldn't go in there, I know my heart would just finish breaking; it was too final, I still had hoped this was all a dream. Mina and her family walked in, she was wearing a spaghetti strap dress that went up to her knee and had a little black sweater over it, she came in and hugged me tightly, I hugged her back, her parents told me how sorry they were to lose Serena, that she was always so happy and made everyone around her happy, I smiled sadly and nodded, to talk to Serena's family, Next were Andrew and Lizzie, Lizzie wore a plain sleeveless black dress and Andrew wore a black suit, similar to mine.

"Man, I'm so sorry." Andrew said as he hugged me, he cried silently on my shoulder, I kept nodding; it was all I could do. Lizzie told me if I needed to talk to come to her. Soon Everyone else showed up, I was so out of it I don't even remember what they said to me, all I remember was all the men wore black suit and the women wore black dress's, nothing fancy, just plain black dresses accept for Amara.

Everyone was waiting for me to go in first, I gulped and walked in, the room was dim, there were million's of candles and flower's, and Serena was lying there, in a white casket, her hair was in it's normal hairstyle, she wore a plain, long spaghetti strap dress that was white. I broke down crying and everyone came up to me and hugged me.

"Wake up Serena." I whispered to her, of coarse there was no answer, I took a chair and placed it next to the casket, I sat there and held her hand, of coarse this sight broke everyone's heart's, a man holding on to his dead wife's hand. My heart just keep breaking, a little more each second, I really wanted to kill myself so I could be with her but I wouldn't be with her if I killed myself, and As it ended the almost everyone kissed Serena on the hand or forehead and some people wrote Serena note's, all the scout's did and All our friend's did and all the younger children did. I didn't want anyone to know but secretly I had too. As everyone left I placed the note to Serena, I kissed her on the forehead and placed rose's in her lifeless hands and then left

Meanwhile…

Raye, Amy, Mina and Lita stood outside, they saw Darien come out of the funeral home and head to Serena's car.

"That poor guy." Lita said

"This is really killing him." Mina said

"Of coarse it's killing him; his only love has left him and all of us!" Raye yelled, she was mad, why did Serena have to leave them all behind.

"Raye you know perfectly well that it wasn't Serena's choice to leave us, she would never hurt us that much, she was… She still is the most caring person and wouldn't do that." Mina said

"Leave it to the meatball head to always slack off." Raye said as she broke down crying, Lita quickly embraced her

"The only problem is now, what are we going to do with no Sailor Moon?" Mina asked as she broke down

~*~*~*~*~*~Darien's POV~*~*~*~*~*~

I sat in the church, waiting for the service to begin, finally the reverend went up to the alter, it was the same church that we were married in, there were candle's burning everywhere, much like Serena' wake and flower's flooded the church, there were also pictures of Serena everywhere, including the wedding picture Serena had on her nightstand in the hospital, there were also some professional picture's taken of Serena, some with her family, one with Rini and I, some more from our wedding but most of the picture's were amateur picture's taken by friends..  the same reverend that married us was to perform the service, I looked at the church and thousands of memories flooded into my mind, but the sound of the reverend clearing his throat brought me out of my thought's, I bit back my lip, preparing for all the memories that I would be reminded of and all the pain this was going to cause. The reverend opened his bible

"Page 298." He told us, we opened our bibles

"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me lie down in green pastures: he leadith me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadith me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk though the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff confort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presance of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever." we all said in union, the reverend closed his book as did the rest of us

"We are here to today to honor the memory of Serena Tskino Shield's, Serena was a beautiful, bright, person who was always full of life, she is going to be greatly missed, We receive the body of Serena, with confidence in God, the giver of life, who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead." he spoke, the words cut through my heart like a knife but it was only the beginning, I was actually in pain, it wasn't mentally, it was physically. The reverend spoke again,

"There are some people here who would like to say some word's about Serena." Raye walked up to the alter were the microphone was, she took a deep breath,

"Serena was one of my best friend's, *pause* she still is, *pause* I remember how I first met Serena, I accidentally hit her with a broom, she was knocked out but when she woke we instantly became friends, we have been through so much, *pause* our first loves, Birth's and now death… I'm sure Serena's looking down on us today and telling us not to cry for her because she's dead but to rejoice that she is finally free, free to fly with all the angel's in heaven. *Raye broke down* as she ended and walked down into Chad's arm's she took a seat with her grandfather and Chad and cried, Lita walked up next, unlike Raye she didn't want to look out at the people she was speaking to, she read a piece of paper and didn't take her eye's off it,

"Serena was the first to befriend me when I first transferred here, some people had made some rumors about me, saying I had gotten kicked out of my old school for fighting, which where not true, but because of these rumor's everyone was nervous around me, Serena was told by many that weren't even her friend's that she should stay away *she started crying very hard* from me but you know Serena, she doesn't listen to anyone when it comes to thing's like this, She befriended me and introduced me to a great group of people who didn't judge me like other's had in that school. Serena could always make you feel great about yourself buy saying the simplest things because you knew how sincere she was, you could see it in her eyes. She could cheer up anyone with her smile and she didn't deserve all the pain she went through in her short but fulfilling life but, I'm sure it was all worth it for the divine gift to be with god." she said as she crumpled the piece of paper and put it in her dress pocket, she took a seat with Ken since she had no other family, Amy gulped knowing it was her turn, I watched her walk over to the podium and clear her throat.

"Serena changed me. Before I met her I was so uptight about my studies, she brighten me up. She never bothered us with her problems; she was always thinking of other's before her, she had the purest heart out of everyone. Death is not the end, it is only the beginning and we don't have to worry about Serena because were she is, she's being taken care of, like she did for us all those years. I will never forget the kindness Serena showed to me and how she changed me, everyone who met her was affected by her charm and beauty, inside as well as outside, I would like to read a passage from the bible," Amy started as she opened the book and read softly

"And Jesus said, truly I tell you, today you will be with me in Paradise." she said as she closed the book

"Today Serena is in paradise," She said before stepping down and taking her seat, I suddenly got very nervous, my eulogy would be next, right after Mina's, I know I wouldn't be able to finish my speech without sobbing my heart out, it was true, when she left she took a piece of me with her, my heart ached so bad, it really hurt a lot, it was like a piece of it was missing, the piece Serena's took with her and without that piece, the most important piece my heart would crumble into piece's, again I found myself snapping out of my daze to listen to Mina's speech.

"What can you say about Serena? She was always there to help anyway she could, always thinking of other's first. So why would god do something like this to her? Why would he hurt us all and put us through so much pain? It's because he needs an angel like Serena, a pure hearted angel to help him and though it hurt's now we will see her again and though it seems like eternity it's all worth it to see Serena's smiling face once again, when we see her again we know we will never have to go. Do not stand at her grave and weep because she's not there, she dose not sleep. She is 1,000 winds that blow She's the diamond glints on snow; she's the sun on ripened grain She's the gentle autumn rain when you awaken in the morning's hush, She's is the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled light and she is the soft star that shines at night Do not stand at her grave and cry she's not there; she did not die." Mina said, she cried silently for a moment then went down, a tear went down my cheek that was one of the most beautiful poem's Mina had ever written. I gulped and made my way up to the alter and took another deep breath. "Serena was my dear wife, even though we weren't married long we shared a great amount of love for each other. Serena and I first met when she crumpled up a test paper and threw it behind her, well I was behind her and it hit me, ever since that day we fought all the time, I was the one who made up meatball head, *I started sniffing* even though we had to same group of school friend's we never got along, but there was always chemistry between us, we eventually figured out we loved each other. I was luckily to have been loved by Serena *I started sniffing and crying harder* she was the most beautiful creature I have even laid my eyes on. Before I met her my heart was cold, I knew nothing about love since I never had anyone to love me because I had no family. Serena taught me how to love *I started breaking down*, she taught me, it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all, I would trade everything to just to have 5 minute's with her, a week or so ago so she came across this poem in a book, she gave me this poem and told me not to open it until she passed, she said it would bring me comfort, and it did, the little comfort it brought me made me realize that we have just lost one person who we loved, she has lost everyone she love's and I know she's watching down on us today and will always be the brightest star in the sky you see every night or that shooting star that streaks across the sky, she will always be looking after us. I would like to share the poem..." I said, I cleared my throat and tried to wipe away the tear's but couldn't, it took me a moment to recover from it, I cried even harder but still read in between sobs. "When I am gone, release me, let me go. I have too many things' to see and do. You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears, be happy that we had too many beautiful years. *I started crying again, my voice also started cracking*  I gave you my love; you can only guess how much you gave me in happiness. I thank you for the love you each have shown. But now it's time I traveled alone. So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must. Then let your grieve be comforted by trust. It's only for awhile that we must part, so bless the memories within your heart. I won't be far away, for life goes on. So if you need me, call and I will come. Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near. And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear all my love around you soft and clear. *I sighed and tried to hold in my sobs* and then when you must come this way alone, I'll great you with a smile and say, "welcome home"" I tried to say more but couldn't "I'm sorry." I muffled into the microphone as I took a seat. Michelle came up to the microphone next "Though Serena and I didn't have a chance to get to know each other that much we became friends, she was greatly loved and will be greatly missed, but Serena dose live inside all of hearts there's a part of her, like the poem says we all have to travel a journey alone. But death is not the end, it's just the beginning we brought nothing into the world, and we take nothing out. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord." She said simply as she finished her speech, to rest of the service I couldn't pay attention, I just stared at Serena's lifeless body until the service ended, there was a line formed as everyone put something in Serena coffin, when it was my turn I pulled out a wilting red rose, it was one of the rose's that was in her bouquet from the wedding's I also pulled out her wedding ring and placed it on her wedding finger and refolded her cold hands, I kissed her forehead and whispered in her ear I loved her, before they closed the casket I looked at her, she didn't look like her self, she was always smiling when she was alive, even in her sleep but here she had a blank look, I suppose it would be ere for them to make her smiled though, as her husband I accompanied her father, Uncle, brother, Andrew and Chris to carry her coffin to the hearse. I sat with her coffin in the hearse all the way to the graveyard, when the hearse stopped I got out of the car and looked at the freshly dug grave waiting for Serena's coffin, I gulped hard and helped the men take out Serena's coffin, my heart just went numb kind of while I was carrying the coffin, I can't explain the feeling, yet I'll never forget it. They placed the coffin on the stand (the place you put it when it goes down), I took a seat on a foldable chair next to Lita and Mina, right in front of the grave, I heard a violinist played Amazing grace, along with a man on the bagpipes, I had asked Michelle to do it but she refused. "O God,
whose Son Jesus Christ was laid in a tomb:
bless, we pray, this grave
as the place where the body of Serena, your servant
may rest in peace,
through your Son, who is the resurrection and the life;
who died and is alive and reigns with you
now and for ever. Our father, who aren't in heaven, Hollow be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done. On earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us of are trespasses, As we forgive those who trespass against us, lead us not into temptation But deliver us from evil, The diamonds in the kingdom, The power and the glory,
forever and ever,
amen. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, please lord put Serena, in your earth's crust." he finished, Slowly the coffin started to go down, into the grave, I heard gasps then sobs. "Oh god." I whispered as, I covered my mouth and started sobbing uncontrollably. Mina sobbed too and put her arm around me to try to comfort me, Lita did the same, I slowly saw the coffin going deeper and deeper, the reverend even was choking up, but I was sobbing most and I wasn't embarrassed, I didn't care if it was loud and uncontrollable, the hole in my heart that had started out as a dent just kept getting bigger and bigger and it was slowly breaking, it felt like knife's lodged in my heart that someone keep pushing deeper and deeper in. as the coffin was in the grave, the only thing left was to fill it up with dirt, I was told it may be comforting to maybe throw a bit of dirt on the coffin first. I scooped up a little bit and throw it on the coffin, then all the men in the family and some friend's throw dirt as well. I threw 2 roses, 2 for the years we had known loved each other in this life. soon everyone left, the grave was buried and my heart was now completely broken, it was in piece's I sighed and kneeled down by the grave, I took out another note I had written to Serena and placed it by the tombstone, I looked at the tombstone, there were place's for candles, but covers for them so they didn't blow out, there was an inscription I couldn't make out because of my tears but there was also inscribed in the tombstone was a creasant moon. I cried even harder, but then spoke to her. "Hey Serena, I miss you, I know it hasn't even been a week but I miss you so much, I want to be with you but I want you to be happy to and you'll be happy there." I said as I looked up at the sky, it was a beautiful day, it was raining during the funeral but it had cleared up after the coffin was buried.

TBC