Disclaimer: I don't own Final Fantasy 8... I doubt I ever will...
~*Where Life Begins*~
~*Chapter 4: Essence of Darkness*~
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Day 7: And She Said, "Don't Make Others Suffer For Your Personal Pain!"
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Squall's tired eyes blinked lazily open to see the infirmary ceiling once more. The small notches that decorated the plaster ceiling stared back at him. "I hate this ceiling." Squall told himself as he rubbed his head. As he pulled his hand away from his head he thought of that girl, Rinoa. She was beautiful. Her eyes showed some much compassion, it was the most he had seen in one persons eyes. Well, he had never seen any. Strict rules here and there. People would always bitch about training, and that's it.
"Finally." A voice said , waking him from his thoughts. He looked up to see a girl's figure silhouetted against the background of the light from the hall. Squall's let his eyes crawl down her body. Perfect curves, or at least from what he could see. She tossed her hip to one side and let a hand rest on it while the other lightly grabbed the door. Squall could easily tell that the girl's skirt was short. His mouth almost began to water, but he quickly swallowed the thought and threw his head back down to the pillow.
"Who are you, and what do you want?" He asked, trying to sound annoyed as much as possible, despite the fact that he wanted get up her skirt and-Squall mentally slapped himself for thinking of doing such things.
"Wanted to check on you. You were the one who saved my life you know." The girl said with a laugh as the silhouette disappeared as she walked closer to him.
"Rinoa?" He questioned, his head slightly tilting up.
"Yep. Right on the mark." She said with a laugh. As she walked closer to him his eyes flew all over her body in a quick frenzy as to scan every part of her body. She was wearing a tight, white, T-Shirt that left her navel exposed, and just below that was the infamous skirt. But before he could get carried away with her luscious body, he pulled his eyes up to hers.
"W-why do you want to check on me?" He asked, shifting slightly in the infirmary bed.
"To see how you were doing." She exclaimed irrationally loudly. Squall gave her a quizzical look as she looked out the door and down the hall to the main hall. She returned her head back in and gave a smile to Squall. Squall just stared. "Well, anyways. After you get better, you want to go play tennis with me, Selphie and Zell?" She asked invitingly.
"I-I don't socialize much." Squall said reluctantly as he pulled his head to the side to avoid eye contact.
"C'mon. It's fun." She said with a laugh as she imitated movements you would do in tennis. As she pretended to slap the ball back, she did a slight jump which revealed more of her perfect legs. Squall's eyes bulged.
"Okay." Squall absentmindedly said as he kept his eyes on her skirt. Rinoa gave a large smile to him and began to bob her shoulders, alternating from one to the other.
"I knew you would say yes!" She said with a yelp of excitement. Squall looked quizzically at her as she bounced out of the room. Then he turned his attention to what he had just agreed to.
"Shit." He quietly cursed.
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"This is mean, Rinoa!" Selphie exclaimed. The two were at the small balcony which over looked the large city of Balamb, in the dark of night. "Don't use people!"
"I'll use whatever I want." Rinoa said with a smirk.
"Your willing to sacrifice someone's heart to satisfy your personal needs!? This is all to get back at Irvine!!" Selphie wailed as she turned to her friend who was already turned from her.
"Selphie, I don't need a lecture." Rinoa told her as she felt annoyance building up inside of her.
"This isn't a lecture, this is a lesson. A lesson in life." Selphie told her harshly.
"I don't want to be taught, I don't want to be told and I don't want to be lectured!" Rinoa yelled as she counted them all down. They were now face to face.
"Well," Selphie began as she looked to her right solemnly. "Don't make others suffer for your personal pain." She told her....
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Day 8: Everyone Hates Me
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Squall stood longingly out the window as he saw Rinoa playing tennis with Zell and Selphie. It was where he was supposed to be, if he wasn't such a coward. No, wait he wasn't a coward, jus training, yah, just training, that's all. The large window viewed the entire campus. For this building was a completely separate area then Garden.
He pushed away from the glass and turned around to face the large uncomfortable looking lounge chair inside a large sphere.
"Squall, the test will begin in 1 minute. Please be seated." A voice over the intercom instructed. Squall began walked for the chair. The room was completely dark, the only thing light about it was the large window. He pulled himself onto the chair and flopped into the seat. "Now please grip the controls with the appropriate hand." The intercom commanded. Squall gripped the left control with his left hand and gripped his right hand to the right control.
The sphere closed, entrapping Squall in the pitch black bubble. The darkness was meant to ease his mind, and make him relax physically. He would stay there for the next hour. Just thinking of possible ideas while Cid and the others looked on at his harmonics and brain wave patterns.
Mountains...
Many Mountains...
Mountains Change and Move through the passage of time...
Sky...
Large Sky...
The sky is blue and will never change...
Though that is subjective...
The truth is subjective...
The truth? It is given to us by ourselves or by others...
Me? I am Squall Leonhart...
I am the image recognized as Squall Leonhart...
I am lonely...
I am shy...
I am cold...
Why?
Because he left me...
Who?
My father...
My father left me for death...
He never wanted me...
I was supposed to be his happiest possession...
I was neither...
I wasn't his possession, nor was I his happiest...
I wasn't happy with myself...
That's why he wasn't happy with me?
Possibly...
I hated myself...
I still hate myself...
He still hates me, wherever he is...
Everyone hates me...
Because I hate yourself?
No, I'm just hated...
Nobody cares for me...
Everyone wants me for my fighting ability...
They just want to see myself get tortured?
Yes...
They see me as their little puppet, and when they're mad they punch me...
That's why everyone hates me...
I'm nothing more than a scrawny little doll...
...............Everybody hates me.............
"That's enough, Squall. You can get out." Xu told him as the sphere opened up, letting in a blast of white light. "And, can I speak with you in thirty minutes, please?" Xu said as she walked off. Squall stood from the chair and stretched. He groggily walked to the window and looked down below to see Rinoa and Selphie sitting in the middle of the tennis court drinking and chatting.
"They probably forgot about me." Squall said as his heart dropped. "Everyone hates me." He mumbled.....
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A/N: Well... I hope this was good... ^__^
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