I Will Survive

Morning broke out, strong and bright, the sun¡¦s radiant energy permeating the very air as I got up and headed for the bathroom. Suddenly, I heard the doorbell ring a few short notes and I froze paralyzed with fear. ¡¥ I-I-I-It can¡¦t be¡K. I ditched him 6 years ago¡K¡¦ Was my first coherent thought as I gulped and told myself to get a grip and that he¡¦s a big fat loser. Finally, I unfroze myself and walked confidently to the door.

* First I was afraid, I was petrified, kept thinking I could never live without you by my side¡Kbut I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong. I grew strong, I learned how to carry on¡K*

¡§ Well, hello there, Shinji.¡¨ I said coldly. ¡§ Why don¡¦t-no-WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?!¡¨ My fingers were quivering with fright, but I didn¡¦t give in to such childish emotions. Instead, I looked him straight in the eyes, and he said, ¡§ Didn¡¦t you hear? I returned from space to see you, and only you, my dear sweet Asuka.¡¨ ¡§ You make me sick. Tell me, why did you return? And please walk out the door and don¡¦t look back.¡¨ I said with such a menacing tone of voice and glares that could melt the polar icecaps, that is, if it weren¡¦t already melted.

* And so you¡¦re back from outer space. I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face. I should¡¦ve changed my stupid lock; I should¡¦ve made you leave your key. If I had known for just one second that you¡¦d be back to bother me, go on now go walk out the door; just turn around now, ¡¥cause you¡¦re not welcome anymore. Weren¡¦t you the one who tried to hurt me with good-bye, you¡¦d think I¡¦d crumble, you¡¦d think I¡¦d lay down and die? Oh no, not I, I will survive, as long as I know how to love; I know I¡¦d stay alive. I¡¦ve got all my life to live, I¡¦ve got all my love to give¡Kand I¡¦ll survive. I will survive. *

¡§ No. I won¡¦t.¡¨ He replied and took a few menacing steps towards me. ¡§ Get out!¡¨ I practically snarled and backed up towards the wall. ¡§ HA! Looks like Asuka¡¦s not as smart as she claims to be, huh?¡¨ He taunted with traces of whiskey in his breath. ¡¥ No! No! NO! Don¡¦t touch me!¡¦ I thought and he pinned me to the wall. ¡§ THAT¡¦S IT!¡¨ I snarled viciously and attacked. Kicking and punching, suddenly falling into a crying heap on top of him.

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart; kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart and I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself.

¡¥ What am I doing?¡¦ I thought shocked at my apparently weak behavior. I stood shakily to my feet and saw my disheveled appearance reflected sadly at me, mocking me on a nearby mirror, so, to prove to myself that I¡¦m no weakling, I summoned up all my courage and left for the bathroom to ¡¥freshen up¡¦.

* I used to cry, now I hold my head up high and you see me, somebody new. I¡¦m not that chained up little person who¡¦s still in love with you, and so you felt like dropping in¡Kand just expect me to be free? Now I¡¦m saving all my loving for someone who loves me. *

I walked out the door after a cold refreshing shower dressed in a sexy form fitting black tube top and fiery red-orange bell bottoms, best of all, I held my head up high, full of renewed energy, vigor, strength and best of all confidence. I smiled despite myself and said good-naturedly, ¡§ Well, Mr. Ikari, I don¡¦t think this is the best of times for you to drop by¡Kbecause I¡¦m about to be late for a very important date with Hikari. Ta-ta.¡¨ And left.

Author¡¦s Note: Sorry, the lyrics are to I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor. Thank-you.