Disclaimer: Hate everything why would I want to own it.
I hate myself, I hate life, I hate everything, everything dies eventually, you are just delaying fate. Some people put on a mask of happiness, others hide in dark corners, either way death always catches up on you sooner or later. Hopefully sooner for me, every time I see something die I envy it, why do I have to continue suffering this life when something or somebody who wants to live has to die, why do we always get what we don't want, I don't want life, others don't want pain. I don't mind pain, I'm used to it, it's the only thing that makes me realise I'm still real, and that I'm not just playing an awful game. Suicide is such a nice word 'intentional self killing' so many people do it every day why don't I join them. I fight everybody with quick insults I pretend theirs don't hurt me for I have a reputation the almighty evil Ash Redfern nobody ever cares what I feel like they don't care. All they care about is that Ash fights off the bad guys, keeps them safe. Nobody keeps me safe. They want me dead, its obvious, they say 'go kill yourself' or 'run into a stake while your out', people think they're only joking but they're not, they want me dead, mummified, but of course not on their carpet not in their way. I can do whatever I like, as long as I don't come near them, kill anyone, get in the way of anything, make any interaction with any life form, make a noise, basically I can sit in a corner and die of bloodlust, then they would be happy. I would like to see their faces when they find a body on my floor and find my note to them it's a nice note, well it could have been worse. I left them a few numbers as well they'll be needing them. I want to be dead I don't want to know the people I know. I said 'a body' and 'my note', a made vampire came to my assistance and is now lying dead on my floor, that's now me, in their heads anyway. I'm dead. When I don't show up to work tomorrow, I'm sorry I said work I meant ass licking up to Thierry the o so lovely leader of circle daybreak, he'll come round with my spare key, which I tried to get off of him and he'll find the body I would love to see his face a mixture of joy, and who's going to protect Hannah now look. I still hate myself but I cant go yet I have some things to sort out, sort out some people, give them the pain they caused me, then I can leave, and go to hell where I belong.
I hate myself, I hate life, I hate everything, everything dies eventually, you are just delaying fate. Some people put on a mask of happiness, others hide in dark corners, either way death always catches up on you sooner or later. Hopefully sooner for me, every time I see something die I envy it, why do I have to continue suffering this life when something or somebody who wants to live has to die, why do we always get what we don't want, I don't want life, others don't want pain. I don't mind pain, I'm used to it, it's the only thing that makes me realise I'm still real, and that I'm not just playing an awful game. Suicide is such a nice word 'intentional self killing' so many people do it every day why don't I join them. I fight everybody with quick insults I pretend theirs don't hurt me for I have a reputation the almighty evil Ash Redfern nobody ever cares what I feel like they don't care. All they care about is that Ash fights off the bad guys, keeps them safe. Nobody keeps me safe. They want me dead, its obvious, they say 'go kill yourself' or 'run into a stake while your out', people think they're only joking but they're not, they want me dead, mummified, but of course not on their carpet not in their way. I can do whatever I like, as long as I don't come near them, kill anyone, get in the way of anything, make any interaction with any life form, make a noise, basically I can sit in a corner and die of bloodlust, then they would be happy. I would like to see their faces when they find a body on my floor and find my note to them it's a nice note, well it could have been worse. I left them a few numbers as well they'll be needing them. I want to be dead I don't want to know the people I know. I said 'a body' and 'my note', a made vampire came to my assistance and is now lying dead on my floor, that's now me, in their heads anyway. I'm dead. When I don't show up to work tomorrow, I'm sorry I said work I meant ass licking up to Thierry the o so lovely leader of circle daybreak, he'll come round with my spare key, which I tried to get off of him and he'll find the body I would love to see his face a mixture of joy, and who's going to protect Hannah now look. I still hate myself but I cant go yet I have some things to sort out, sort out some people, give them the pain they caused me, then I can leave, and go to hell where I belong.