I lied. Today, when I said that I didn't come for you, that I came only to test my EX...I lied. To you, and to myself. Since I met you I have been telling myself that I hated you. The I wanted to beat you at all cost's. But today...
Today, when you drifted off, I was happy. Not because you were gone, But because you would be safe. Away from anything that got past the Goddess's. Then I saw you shoot past me and up to the battle...It hurt me so badly. I thought you were going to die. I thought that I would get back to G.O.A and you would be dead. I think...I think that if that's what making Pilot is all about, then...then I don't want to be a pilot.
Stupid. I know. You would even tell me I was being dumb. But you have no idea how strongly I feel, you may know HOW I feel...but not how much I feel. But that is mostly my fault because I won't admit it to myself. How can I admit it to you?
So I went after you. As fast as I could. Using my EX...and I could feel you using yours. And when I finally got to you. Everything was frozen besides you and I. And her. But as soon as she had wiped out those Victim, it's was only you. And me. I think that you're begining to understand me. To well. Just now, when you told me that I wasn't such a bad guy...it felt really good. To allow someone to touch me again... and mostly because it was you that touched me. But I can't tell you yet. I can't let myself know yet. I have to become a Goddess Pilot. And so do you.
So I told you that I didn't come for you. That I only wanted to try out my EX...So I lied. But it's okay for now. Because we'll continue to fight...Trading victories. Switching off on beating each other. And one of us will make Top Candidate. And it won't matter who, because the other Goddess's have been fighting for so long. And you know that EX kills you after a while. So one of us will make top, then become a Pilot. Then the other will make Top and become a Pilot.
Then I can tell you, and then I can admit it. But only then. And if you want the truth...I don't think it matters which one of us makes it first. Because no matter what happens...we will both become Pilots. We will both become very different people and then we will both admit what we already know. And I won't have to hide it from you, already knowing that you understand. And the same will apply to you. Because I already understand.
So I walk away from you, done the hallways and back to our room. And as I listen to that annoying friend of yours I think, of you. And of the time when everyone is safe, and they tell stories of you, Zero Enna, and me. Hiead. That's all they will call me. Hiead. That's all they will remember. And I wonder, if any history lessons will include the fact that Candidate 87 and Candidate 88 fell in love before become the two people who saved Zion...
...or maybe, they will simply say, in the future, that we were brave and that we loved...each other...simply...because...
...we can.
Notes: Wah!! Please tell me if you know of any place that I can find CfG fics!!! I really want to read some. ;_;
BTW: I am not concentrating on Tatsie's and Tira's fics. ~_~;; I have been bad and been neglecting them. But it is 1:38 AM of 8.10.2002 and I have just finished watching all episodes of CfG episodes...so forgive me, ne?
Today, when you drifted off, I was happy. Not because you were gone, But because you would be safe. Away from anything that got past the Goddess's. Then I saw you shoot past me and up to the battle...It hurt me so badly. I thought you were going to die. I thought that I would get back to G.O.A and you would be dead. I think...I think that if that's what making Pilot is all about, then...then I don't want to be a pilot.
Stupid. I know. You would even tell me I was being dumb. But you have no idea how strongly I feel, you may know HOW I feel...but not how much I feel. But that is mostly my fault because I won't admit it to myself. How can I admit it to you?
So I went after you. As fast as I could. Using my EX...and I could feel you using yours. And when I finally got to you. Everything was frozen besides you and I. And her. But as soon as she had wiped out those Victim, it's was only you. And me. I think that you're begining to understand me. To well. Just now, when you told me that I wasn't such a bad guy...it felt really good. To allow someone to touch me again... and mostly because it was you that touched me. But I can't tell you yet. I can't let myself know yet. I have to become a Goddess Pilot. And so do you.
So I told you that I didn't come for you. That I only wanted to try out my EX...So I lied. But it's okay for now. Because we'll continue to fight...Trading victories. Switching off on beating each other. And one of us will make Top Candidate. And it won't matter who, because the other Goddess's have been fighting for so long. And you know that EX kills you after a while. So one of us will make top, then become a Pilot. Then the other will make Top and become a Pilot.
Then I can tell you, and then I can admit it. But only then. And if you want the truth...I don't think it matters which one of us makes it first. Because no matter what happens...we will both become Pilots. We will both become very different people and then we will both admit what we already know. And I won't have to hide it from you, already knowing that you understand. And the same will apply to you. Because I already understand.
So I walk away from you, done the hallways and back to our room. And as I listen to that annoying friend of yours I think, of you. And of the time when everyone is safe, and they tell stories of you, Zero Enna, and me. Hiead. That's all they will call me. Hiead. That's all they will remember. And I wonder, if any history lessons will include the fact that Candidate 87 and Candidate 88 fell in love before become the two people who saved Zion...
...or maybe, they will simply say, in the future, that we were brave and that we loved...each other...simply...because...
...we can.
Notes: Wah!! Please tell me if you know of any place that I can find CfG fics!!! I really want to read some. ;_;
BTW: I am not concentrating on Tatsie's and Tira's fics. ~_~;; I have been bad and been neglecting them. But it is 1:38 AM of 8.10.2002 and I have just finished watching all episodes of CfG episodes...so forgive me, ne?