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"Usagi?" he said in a strangled voice. Hiiro immediately checked for a pulse. He found one, and his heart began beating again. Dismayed at her words, though, he slipped from her hold and left the room.
Hiiro walked briskly through the gardens, stopping at the roses. He pulled a single pink rose off one of the bushes, and then sat on a bench across from them. Sighing, he put his head in his hands, resting his elbows on his knees. In the darkness of the night, a single tear escaped from the corner of his eye, trailing down his cheek and falling off onto the rose. He watched in hidden amazement as the drop landed in the very center of the rose, and seemingly rippled outwards as the rose changed from pink to silver. Across from him, rose petals flew into the air and spun in an intricate pattern, even though there was no wind.
A small, pink flash penetrated the utter darkness and a small woman appeared. She was only two feet tall, but there was an air of confidence and mystery about her, her aura mixing with the silver glow that surrounded her presence. Her hair was also silver-white, and tied up in a familiar hairstyle. He reconized her from Usagi's memories.
"Queen Selenity?" he said in monotone. She nodded slightly, in her regal way.
"Yes. I have come to talk with you." She slowly grew to normal size and sat next to him, crossing her ankles and laying her hands gracefully in her lap. Her back was straight, not slouching, not touching the bench. In some corner of his mind he wondered if her back had ever touched the back of a chair.
"About what?" Hiiro asked in monotone. Queen Selenity's head tilted slightly towards the house.
"About my Serenity, Usagi to you I suppose." she said, smiling gently at him. Before he could reply, she began speaking again.
"You see, I watch Usagi sometimes, just to see how she's doing, just to feel close to her. A month or two ago, she fell for you. It made me so happy to see her like that. But it breaks my heart to see the way she cries over you. Right now, she's crying because you broke her heart without knowing it." she said. He raised a skeptical eye to her.
"How did I?" Hiiro asked.
"How did you hurt her?" Selenity questioned. "You show her emotions, something you've never done before. She knows she's special for this. Sometimes, though, you treat her like a prisoner, like someone you must interrogate and then destroy. It amazes me how much you haven't changed."
"What?" he demanded, though still in monotone. Selenity smiled at him, knowing full well her tongue had slipped.
"In the Silver Millenium, I mean... You were just like this. There was only one difference."
"What was that?"
"You killed yourself."
"I wouldn't take my own life unless I took the enemy down with me." he informed her in a harsh voice.
"Are you sure of yourself?" she asked. "Is that the only reason you would?" he thought for a moment, and then nodded.
"Any other reason would be dishonorable." he said in monotone. Selenity smiled sadly at him.
"That's not what you believed in the Millenium." Selenity said. "You were an orphan, adopted and raised by one of the Moon's top strategist and guard. You began training to be one of Serenity's Guard earlier than anyone ever had in the past, and became one at the age of fourteen. You were two years older than Serenity. You and she were good friends, don't you remember? Then, when you were nineteen and she was just about seventeen, she was told she had been betrothed since birth. You were secretly, furiously jealous. When the Moon was attacked you fought until you could barely move. When the army was finally destroyed, everyone else was dead, save Serenity, Endymion, and you. The other Arashi and the Senshi were already dead. You ran to find the Princess, and you did. You found her as she was facing off with Beryl, blocked from danger behind Endymion's cloak. You watched from a short distance as Endymion was taken into the air, and could not stop Serenity in time from jumping after him. You watched as Serenity killed herself over Endymion. You turned the same sword on yourself, killing yourself in much the same way as Serenity had. When I sent Serenity, Endymion, and the Senshi to be reborn, I meant to send you and the Arashi as well. I wasn't strong enough to control it the second time around... You five ended up thousands of years away from the others, with no one to bring back the memories. Until now." she finished. Her story had taken a considerable amount of time to explain because of the soft, slow way she spoke. Hiiro shook his head.
"It's not possible. I don't believe you." he said, softer than he usually spoke.
"I can prove it." Selenity replied firmly, and placed her hand on his shoulder. Images played before his eyes like a movie, and his mind registered them as memories. He held his head tightly between his hands, literally shaking as his former life flashed through his mind.
"How could I have done that, treated her like that... How?!" he demanded in whispers, still holding his head. Selenity put her arm around his shoulder.
"Help them all to remember." she said. "In the morning, take Usagi's locket and call for me. I'll come and restore the memories to them."
"Wait!" he said, stopping her before she could leave. She looked to him expectantly.
"The others- Quatre, Duo, Wufei, Trowa- they were there. Through the Millenium, they were there." Selenity smiled.
"I'd rather explain about the Arashi tomorrow, when I'll only have to do so once." she said. "It takes quite a lot of energy for me to appear like this. Even with her new control over the Ginzuishou I'm afraid I'm taxing my Serenity's energy supply. I'd better go." she decided, standing from the bench. Hiiro stood next to her.
"I'll see you tomorrow, Hiiro." she said, holding out her hand. He remembered- on the Moon he would only ever shake her hand. To her surprise, he pulled her to him in a quick hug before nearly running back to the mansion. Serenity smiled and disappeared.
Hiiro ran through the hallways silently. He reached his room and entered slowly, quietly. Usagi lay on the bed, pillows wet with her tears. He picked her up and sat on the couch opposite the end of the bed. He shook her softly, trying to wake her up.
"It's not morning yet, Aknoi, no more training, please... Let me go back to my koi... Let me go back to Hiiro..." she mumbled in her sleep as he tried to wake her. He shook her a bit harder, and she woke.
"Hii-chan." she said, awake and sitting up in his lap. He claimed her lips with his, gently massaging her back. She pulled away from him, eyes questioning his movements.
"Aishiteru, Usagi. Don't you ever forget that... Aishiteru." he swore again. She smiled.
"Aishiteru, Hiiro." she told him. "Kami-sama, I love you so much." she said. He smiled at her.
"Hiiro-" she cut off, but he urged her to finish her thought. "Can you try to smile more often? I mean- only when you're happy, I don't want you to turn into Duo or anything, it's just you're really cute when you smile and you don't do it that often and-" she was silenced quickly. As their kisses got more and more passionate, Hiiro picked Usagi up and walked over to the bed, their lips never breaking apart. Reaching out with her mind, Usagi locked the door... (Okay, now, if you want me to write a lemon to put here, tell me. If you are good at it and would like to write one for me, please do! Email it to me at akamoonsugar@yahoo.com. Thanks!)
Usagi awoke alone in the bed the next morning. She smiled slightly as she heard the sound of water falling in the bathroom, reconizing the sound of the shower. An evil grin spread across her face, and she ran to 'join' him.
The two made their way into the kitchen about an hour later. Usagi managed to make them a light breakfast and then they went to find the others.
"So why do we have to find everyone?" Usagi asked as they approached the library, where they were sure to find Quatre and Ami.
Hiiro sighed. "I talked to Selenity last night, in the rose gardens." he told her. Her eyes widened.
"Really? You talked to Okaasan? What'd she say? Did she mention me? Will she-" she was cut off as Hiiro stuck his hand over her mouth. He grinned and shook his head, giving her a look to say 'What I am going to do with you?'.
"You'll know everything in a little while." he told her, and they split up to find everyone.
A short while later the ten of them had gathered in the ballroom, a large, hard-wood floored room that simply had no one use and no other name. As they sat, stood, and layed around the room in various positions, Hiiro came in, the last to arrive.
"So, Hiiro, what's this all about?" Duo asked.
"Queen Selenity talked to me last night. In the rose gardens." he informed them. The Gundam pilots reconized the name from Usagi's tales of her past, the Senshi's eyes widened.
"And? What did she say?" Minako asked.
"She needs to tell you that." Hiiro replied.
"How is she supposed to do that? She's not here!" Matoko said impatiently.
"Usagi, can I see your locket for a minute?" Hiiro asked, seemingly off-topic. She shrugged, and pulled the golden broach out of her subdimensional pocket and gave it to him.
"Queen Selenity..." Hiiro whispered, holding the locket in his hand.
A bright light flashed through the room.
"These people are getting way too predictable with the lights thing." Duo whispered. "Their gonna make me blind." Next to him, Matoko grinned and chuckled a bit as Selenity appeared. Usagi, Minako, Matoko, Rei, and Ami curtsied. Hiiro, remembering the protocol from his days in the Arashi, bowed. Wufei, Trowa, Quatre, and Duo stood and uncertainly followed Hiiro's example. This time, Selenity appeared in her full size. Usagi ran and hugged her mother.
"Okaasan!" she exclaimed.
"My musume." she said, squeezing her daughter against her. When they reluctantly released each other, Usagi did not stray far from her mother's side.
"I'm here to restore some of your true memories, and to explain what really happened." Queen Selenity said.
"Will you please explain what the Arashi were now?" Hiiro asked. Selenity nodded.
"The Arashi were the Silver Millenium version of you Gundam pilots. You looked exactly the same; were technically the same people then as you are now. The Arashi were the male form of the Senshi. They had no powers to learn to control, therefore they did not have to train as long. They could be on the Moon, protecting the Princess 24/7 while the Senshi had to stay on their home planets a lot of the time.
"Back then, the Arashi were Serenity's best friends. She begged you to train her like you had been trained, even though she was an Eternal Senshi and was more powerful than even I. Of course, I'm not surprised, what with her father being who he was." she added the last part almost to herself.
She then borrowed the Ginzuishou from Hiiro and whispered to it, instructing them all to sit down. Usagi and the Senshi were only gaining partial memories, while the pilots were gaining another lifetime's worth of memories. They sat while the memories played out.
A whisper of Selenity's voice laced through the images, explaining all they saw as if she was the narrator of a play.
"You see, on the Moon, there were no feelings except those of friendship between the Senshi and the Arashi. We had to make sure of that, because of the coming Siege of the Moon. It was an extremely selfish thing to do, but we decided that what we did would benefit us. We wanted it so that when the Moon was attacked, the Senshi and the Arashi would fight to defend the Moon instead of each other. We saw no reason for you all to die senselessly, since you were destined soulmates anyways. So fate played out like a bad hand of cards in a poker game."
The memories ended, they all turned their eyes to Selenity.
"What now? Why did you keep this hidden for so long?" Ami asked.
"I wanted as few people as possible to die at Beryl's hands. I wanted to protect you." she answered.
"From what?!" Matoko and Minako exploded simultanously.
"From Beryl... And what she did to anyone she captured." Selenity tried to explain, but she only succeeded in making them more mad.
"We could have handled it! We spent our entire lives training as Senshi!" Makoto exclaimed.
"You should have had more faith in your own training of us!" Rei told her. The pilots moved to stand with the girls.
"You should have trusted us to be loyal to the Moon, to you and to HER! Instead you kept us apart!" Minako yelled.
"How did you, Mother?" Usagi asked quietly. "Please- tell me you didn't-" she was cut off by Selenity nodding sadly.
"How could you? How?!" Usagi demanded, her voice raising only slightly, her eyes tearing.
"What are you talking about?" Hiiro asked, looking first to Usagi and then to Selenity. It was Usagi, however, that answered.
"The Ginzuishou can be used for so many things- some more cruel than others. For example, you can assure that two people don't fall in love. It's relatively easy to do, but the consequences could be fatal. You see, when you attempt to interfere with Destiny and Fate, they do not take kindly to it. The people you are trying to keep apart for only a while could become seperated for eternity. If it didn't kill them, they would live each of their lives knowing that something was wrong, that they were missing something. I lived one of my lives like that... It's almost unbearable. It's physical pain as well as emotional pain." She turned her gaze to her mother, who returned her gaze apologetically.
"You did that to us?! You were willing to make choices for us that only we should have been allowed to make!" Duo said, stepping in front of Matoko. The others raised their voices and added to the beratement of Selenity, who made no comment to defend herself. Usagi put her hands on her temples and shook her head back and forth. Finally, she broke.
"Just STOP IT, all of you!" she screamed over them. They were silent.
"Do you think my mother did not know what she was doing when she seperated our Fates? Do you think it was an easy thing to do, to send us apart like that? Do you think she didn't know the possible consequences?" Usagi demanded.
"None of you have ever had to use the Ginzuishou. I pray you never will. Strange things happen when that Crystal is used. We do not know everything about it, and we probably never will. I am destined to carry it with me throughout eternity. When the Ginzuishou is used, it usually grants the wishes of the one using it. But it also has a mind of it's own. It's hard to control... Extremely hard..." she trailed off, saying the last few words as if to herself.
"Usagi... You're not mad at her?" Trowa asked.
"This onna could have seperated you and Hiiro for eternity, and you're not mad?" Wufei echoed Trowa's question.
"I'm not mad." Usagi said in a quiet voice that demanded their attention. "She was trying to save innocent lives. I would rather die fighting next to my soulmate and not know it, than die protecting him and watching others I could have protected die." she concluded. Selenity looked proud. She looked around at them and spoke.
"Don't you see? The bearers of the Ginzuishou have to have tremendous willpower. We could use it to do nearly anything, and it's madness to control. How do you think she feels" Selenity gestured at Usagi. "Every morning when she wakes up and looks out the window, or sees you five piloting your Gundams? How do you think she feels, knowing that she could prevent all of it? She could stop this war right now with only three words, and everyone would simply forget about it. The weapons would be gone, the grudges and politics and fighting and murder would merely disappear. It would be as if the world simply backtracked to the 21st century. It's happened before, in another timeline." she stopped and looked each one in the eye, her gaze stopping on Hiiro. Usagi's eyes widened at something her mother had said, and she slipped silently, unnoticed, from the room.
"And do you know the only reason why she won't do it? It's because she's too afraid of leaving you alone. She could stop the war, but it would kill her. She doesn't want you to live alone. She doesn't want you to go back to the way you were before. In fact, I don't think she even really understands the debt she has to you five." Selenity said.
"What are you talking about?" Quatre asked, still polite even in anger and confusion. "She owes us nothing. We owe her everything. She came here and changed us all for the better. She saved my life, and brought me my soulmate. Usagi is the most caring individual I've ever met."
"It is we who owe her, more than we could express." Trowa said.
"She owes us nothing." Wufei agreed.
"Does she really think she owes us anything?" Duo asked. Hiiro glanced around, suddenly aware that Usagi no longer stood near him.
"Has anyone seen Usagi?" he questioned. They all looked around. "When did she leave?" he asked.
"I don't know." Duo said.
"I remember she was here when you were talking about how she only had to say three words to end the war." Makoto said.
"I don't think she was here when you said there was only one reason why she wouldn't end it all." Rei said after a moment of thought.
Selenity thought back over what she had said. Mentally she smacked herself.
"Pluto." she said in a warning voice. "You'd better not tell her."
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"Usagi?" he said in a strangled voice. Hiiro immediately checked for a pulse. He found one, and his heart began beating again. Dismayed at her words, though, he slipped from her hold and left the room.
Hiiro walked briskly through the gardens, stopping at the roses. He pulled a single pink rose off one of the bushes, and then sat on a bench across from them. Sighing, he put his head in his hands, resting his elbows on his knees. In the darkness of the night, a single tear escaped from the corner of his eye, trailing down his cheek and falling off onto the rose. He watched in hidden amazement as the drop landed in the very center of the rose, and seemingly rippled outwards as the rose changed from pink to silver. Across from him, rose petals flew into the air and spun in an intricate pattern, even though there was no wind.
A small, pink flash penetrated the utter darkness and a small woman appeared. She was only two feet tall, but there was an air of confidence and mystery about her, her aura mixing with the silver glow that surrounded her presence. Her hair was also silver-white, and tied up in a familiar hairstyle. He reconized her from Usagi's memories.
"Queen Selenity?" he said in monotone. She nodded slightly, in her regal way.
"Yes. I have come to talk with you." She slowly grew to normal size and sat next to him, crossing her ankles and laying her hands gracefully in her lap. Her back was straight, not slouching, not touching the bench. In some corner of his mind he wondered if her back had ever touched the back of a chair.
"About what?" Hiiro asked in monotone. Queen Selenity's head tilted slightly towards the house.
"About my Serenity, Usagi to you I suppose." she said, smiling gently at him. Before he could reply, she began speaking again.
"You see, I watch Usagi sometimes, just to see how she's doing, just to feel close to her. A month or two ago, she fell for you. It made me so happy to see her like that. But it breaks my heart to see the way she cries over you. Right now, she's crying because you broke her heart without knowing it." she said. He raised a skeptical eye to her.
"How did I?" Hiiro asked.
"How did you hurt her?" Selenity questioned. "You show her emotions, something you've never done before. She knows she's special for this. Sometimes, though, you treat her like a prisoner, like someone you must interrogate and then destroy. It amazes me how much you haven't changed."
"What?" he demanded, though still in monotone. Selenity smiled at him, knowing full well her tongue had slipped.
"In the Silver Millenium, I mean... You were just like this. There was only one difference."
"What was that?"
"You killed yourself."
"I wouldn't take my own life unless I took the enemy down with me." he informed her in a harsh voice.
"Are you sure of yourself?" she asked. "Is that the only reason you would?" he thought for a moment, and then nodded.
"Any other reason would be dishonorable." he said in monotone. Selenity smiled sadly at him.
"That's not what you believed in the Millenium." Selenity said. "You were an orphan, adopted and raised by one of the Moon's top strategist and guard. You began training to be one of Serenity's Guard earlier than anyone ever had in the past, and became one at the age of fourteen. You were two years older than Serenity. You and she were good friends, don't you remember? Then, when you were nineteen and she was just about seventeen, she was told she had been betrothed since birth. You were secretly, furiously jealous. When the Moon was attacked you fought until you could barely move. When the army was finally destroyed, everyone else was dead, save Serenity, Endymion, and you. The other Arashi and the Senshi were already dead. You ran to find the Princess, and you did. You found her as she was facing off with Beryl, blocked from danger behind Endymion's cloak. You watched from a short distance as Endymion was taken into the air, and could not stop Serenity in time from jumping after him. You watched as Serenity killed herself over Endymion. You turned the same sword on yourself, killing yourself in much the same way as Serenity had. When I sent Serenity, Endymion, and the Senshi to be reborn, I meant to send you and the Arashi as well. I wasn't strong enough to control it the second time around... You five ended up thousands of years away from the others, with no one to bring back the memories. Until now." she finished. Her story had taken a considerable amount of time to explain because of the soft, slow way she spoke. Hiiro shook his head.
"It's not possible. I don't believe you." he said, softer than he usually spoke.
"I can prove it." Selenity replied firmly, and placed her hand on his shoulder. Images played before his eyes like a movie, and his mind registered them as memories. He held his head tightly between his hands, literally shaking as his former life flashed through his mind.
"How could I have done that, treated her like that... How?!" he demanded in whispers, still holding his head. Selenity put her arm around his shoulder.
"Help them all to remember." she said. "In the morning, take Usagi's locket and call for me. I'll come and restore the memories to them."
"Wait!" he said, stopping her before she could leave. She looked to him expectantly.
"The others- Quatre, Duo, Wufei, Trowa- they were there. Through the Millenium, they were there." Selenity smiled.
"I'd rather explain about the Arashi tomorrow, when I'll only have to do so once." she said. "It takes quite a lot of energy for me to appear like this. Even with her new control over the Ginzuishou I'm afraid I'm taxing my Serenity's energy supply. I'd better go." she decided, standing from the bench. Hiiro stood next to her.
"I'll see you tomorrow, Hiiro." she said, holding out her hand. He remembered- on the Moon he would only ever shake her hand. To her surprise, he pulled her to him in a quick hug before nearly running back to the mansion. Serenity smiled and disappeared.
Hiiro ran through the hallways silently. He reached his room and entered slowly, quietly. Usagi lay on the bed, pillows wet with her tears. He picked her up and sat on the couch opposite the end of the bed. He shook her softly, trying to wake her up.
"It's not morning yet, Aknoi, no more training, please... Let me go back to my koi... Let me go back to Hiiro..." she mumbled in her sleep as he tried to wake her. He shook her a bit harder, and she woke.
"Hii-chan." she said, awake and sitting up in his lap. He claimed her lips with his, gently massaging her back. She pulled away from him, eyes questioning his movements.
"Aishiteru, Usagi. Don't you ever forget that... Aishiteru." he swore again. She smiled.
"Aishiteru, Hiiro." she told him. "Kami-sama, I love you so much." she said. He smiled at her.
"Hiiro-" she cut off, but he urged her to finish her thought. "Can you try to smile more often? I mean- only when you're happy, I don't want you to turn into Duo or anything, it's just you're really cute when you smile and you don't do it that often and-" she was silenced quickly. As their kisses got more and more passionate, Hiiro picked Usagi up and walked over to the bed, their lips never breaking apart. Reaching out with her mind, Usagi locked the door... (Okay, now, if you want me to write a lemon to put here, tell me. If you are good at it and would like to write one for me, please do! Email it to me at akamoonsugar@yahoo.com. Thanks!)
Usagi awoke alone in the bed the next morning. She smiled slightly as she heard the sound of water falling in the bathroom, reconizing the sound of the shower. An evil grin spread across her face, and she ran to 'join' him.
The two made their way into the kitchen about an hour later. Usagi managed to make them a light breakfast and then they went to find the others.
"So why do we have to find everyone?" Usagi asked as they approached the library, where they were sure to find Quatre and Ami.
Hiiro sighed. "I talked to Selenity last night, in the rose gardens." he told her. Her eyes widened.
"Really? You talked to Okaasan? What'd she say? Did she mention me? Will she-" she was cut off as Hiiro stuck his hand over her mouth. He grinned and shook his head, giving her a look to say 'What I am going to do with you?'.
"You'll know everything in a little while." he told her, and they split up to find everyone.
A short while later the ten of them had gathered in the ballroom, a large, hard-wood floored room that simply had no one use and no other name. As they sat, stood, and layed around the room in various positions, Hiiro came in, the last to arrive.
"So, Hiiro, what's this all about?" Duo asked.
"Queen Selenity talked to me last night. In the rose gardens." he informed them. The Gundam pilots reconized the name from Usagi's tales of her past, the Senshi's eyes widened.
"And? What did she say?" Minako asked.
"She needs to tell you that." Hiiro replied.
"How is she supposed to do that? She's not here!" Matoko said impatiently.
"Usagi, can I see your locket for a minute?" Hiiro asked, seemingly off-topic. She shrugged, and pulled the golden broach out of her subdimensional pocket and gave it to him.
"Queen Selenity..." Hiiro whispered, holding the locket in his hand.
A bright light flashed through the room.
"These people are getting way too predictable with the lights thing." Duo whispered. "Their gonna make me blind." Next to him, Matoko grinned and chuckled a bit as Selenity appeared. Usagi, Minako, Matoko, Rei, and Ami curtsied. Hiiro, remembering the protocol from his days in the Arashi, bowed. Wufei, Trowa, Quatre, and Duo stood and uncertainly followed Hiiro's example. This time, Selenity appeared in her full size. Usagi ran and hugged her mother.
"Okaasan!" she exclaimed.
"My musume." she said, squeezing her daughter against her. When they reluctantly released each other, Usagi did not stray far from her mother's side.
"I'm here to restore some of your true memories, and to explain what really happened." Queen Selenity said.
"Will you please explain what the Arashi were now?" Hiiro asked. Selenity nodded.
"The Arashi were the Silver Millenium version of you Gundam pilots. You looked exactly the same; were technically the same people then as you are now. The Arashi were the male form of the Senshi. They had no powers to learn to control, therefore they did not have to train as long. They could be on the Moon, protecting the Princess 24/7 while the Senshi had to stay on their home planets a lot of the time.
"Back then, the Arashi were Serenity's best friends. She begged you to train her like you had been trained, even though she was an Eternal Senshi and was more powerful than even I. Of course, I'm not surprised, what with her father being who he was." she added the last part almost to herself.
She then borrowed the Ginzuishou from Hiiro and whispered to it, instructing them all to sit down. Usagi and the Senshi were only gaining partial memories, while the pilots were gaining another lifetime's worth of memories. They sat while the memories played out.
A whisper of Selenity's voice laced through the images, explaining all they saw as if she was the narrator of a play.
"You see, on the Moon, there were no feelings except those of friendship between the Senshi and the Arashi. We had to make sure of that, because of the coming Siege of the Moon. It was an extremely selfish thing to do, but we decided that what we did would benefit us. We wanted it so that when the Moon was attacked, the Senshi and the Arashi would fight to defend the Moon instead of each other. We saw no reason for you all to die senselessly, since you were destined soulmates anyways. So fate played out like a bad hand of cards in a poker game."
The memories ended, they all turned their eyes to Selenity.
"What now? Why did you keep this hidden for so long?" Ami asked.
"I wanted as few people as possible to die at Beryl's hands. I wanted to protect you." she answered.
"From what?!" Matoko and Minako exploded simultanously.
"From Beryl... And what she did to anyone she captured." Selenity tried to explain, but she only succeeded in making them more mad.
"We could have handled it! We spent our entire lives training as Senshi!" Makoto exclaimed.
"You should have had more faith in your own training of us!" Rei told her. The pilots moved to stand with the girls.
"You should have trusted us to be loyal to the Moon, to you and to HER! Instead you kept us apart!" Minako yelled.
"How did you, Mother?" Usagi asked quietly. "Please- tell me you didn't-" she was cut off by Selenity nodding sadly.
"How could you? How?!" Usagi demanded, her voice raising only slightly, her eyes tearing.
"What are you talking about?" Hiiro asked, looking first to Usagi and then to Selenity. It was Usagi, however, that answered.
"The Ginzuishou can be used for so many things- some more cruel than others. For example, you can assure that two people don't fall in love. It's relatively easy to do, but the consequences could be fatal. You see, when you attempt to interfere with Destiny and Fate, they do not take kindly to it. The people you are trying to keep apart for only a while could become seperated for eternity. If it didn't kill them, they would live each of their lives knowing that something was wrong, that they were missing something. I lived one of my lives like that... It's almost unbearable. It's physical pain as well as emotional pain." She turned her gaze to her mother, who returned her gaze apologetically.
"You did that to us?! You were willing to make choices for us that only we should have been allowed to make!" Duo said, stepping in front of Matoko. The others raised their voices and added to the beratement of Selenity, who made no comment to defend herself. Usagi put her hands on her temples and shook her head back and forth. Finally, she broke.
"Just STOP IT, all of you!" she screamed over them. They were silent.
"Do you think my mother did not know what she was doing when she seperated our Fates? Do you think it was an easy thing to do, to send us apart like that? Do you think she didn't know the possible consequences?" Usagi demanded.
"None of you have ever had to use the Ginzuishou. I pray you never will. Strange things happen when that Crystal is used. We do not know everything about it, and we probably never will. I am destined to carry it with me throughout eternity. When the Ginzuishou is used, it usually grants the wishes of the one using it. But it also has a mind of it's own. It's hard to control... Extremely hard..." she trailed off, saying the last few words as if to herself.
"Usagi... You're not mad at her?" Trowa asked.
"This onna could have seperated you and Hiiro for eternity, and you're not mad?" Wufei echoed Trowa's question.
"I'm not mad." Usagi said in a quiet voice that demanded their attention. "She was trying to save innocent lives. I would rather die fighting next to my soulmate and not know it, than die protecting him and watching others I could have protected die." she concluded. Selenity looked proud. She looked around at them and spoke.
"Don't you see? The bearers of the Ginzuishou have to have tremendous willpower. We could use it to do nearly anything, and it's madness to control. How do you think she feels" Selenity gestured at Usagi. "Every morning when she wakes up and looks out the window, or sees you five piloting your Gundams? How do you think she feels, knowing that she could prevent all of it? She could stop this war right now with only three words, and everyone would simply forget about it. The weapons would be gone, the grudges and politics and fighting and murder would merely disappear. It would be as if the world simply backtracked to the 21st century. It's happened before, in another timeline." she stopped and looked each one in the eye, her gaze stopping on Hiiro. Usagi's eyes widened at something her mother had said, and she slipped silently, unnoticed, from the room.
"And do you know the only reason why she won't do it? It's because she's too afraid of leaving you alone. She could stop the war, but it would kill her. She doesn't want you to live alone. She doesn't want you to go back to the way you were before. In fact, I don't think she even really understands the debt she has to you five." Selenity said.
"What are you talking about?" Quatre asked, still polite even in anger and confusion. "She owes us nothing. We owe her everything. She came here and changed us all for the better. She saved my life, and brought me my soulmate. Usagi is the most caring individual I've ever met."
"It is we who owe her, more than we could express." Trowa said.
"She owes us nothing." Wufei agreed.
"Does she really think she owes us anything?" Duo asked. Hiiro glanced around, suddenly aware that Usagi no longer stood near him.
"Has anyone seen Usagi?" he questioned. They all looked around. "When did she leave?" he asked.
"I don't know." Duo said.
"I remember she was here when you were talking about how she only had to say three words to end the war." Makoto said.
"I don't think she was here when you said there was only one reason why she wouldn't end it all." Rei said after a moment of thought.
Selenity thought back over what she had said. Mentally she smacked herself.
"Pluto." she said in a warning voice. "You'd better not tell her."