Return to Gaea

A/N: Yep I thought I'd give you another chapter to munch on (until I right my next one). I hope it grips you ^.^

Thanks to Tayles (I liked the review, especially the way it started; is it really that amazing that it's NC 17? I just thought that my story was planned well and that it would be good to have that 'lemon' in there, trust me, never writing it again (in this story)) and also to Music.

June Bug

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Hitomi sat on the bay and watched the seagulls fly around. It had been one month since she had gone to Gaea and saw Van, it had been twenty-nine days since she realised she was pregnant and she was still waiting for that right moment to tell her family and friends. The sun was just setting over the horizon. She was so lucky to live so near to the water and watch this spectacular sight. She brushed her hair from her face and then rested on her hands.

She couldn't get rid of the child, it was just something she couldn't do. She wouldn't have the guts to kill a living person that was growing inside of her. And it had been a month, was that too late? She looked to Amano on her left ad smiled at him. He smiled back and kissed her on the cheeks. She then looked to Yukari on her right. Her best ever friends didn't even know that she was pregnant.

"Beautiful night." Said Amano and he took Hitomi's hands in his. Hitomi nodded.

"I'm so glad I'm here with you." Hitomi said. Yukari coughed. "And you of course."

"Hey, if you want me to leave I will." Yukari said. Hitomi shook her head. Amano looked behind Hitomi and nodded to Yukari. Yukari nodded and then yawned. "Well I'm going to anyway, I'm too tired to be out here watching the sunset." Hitomi looked up at Yukari who had just stood up.

"Oh, okay then." Hitomi said, not really wanting to be left alone, any other time, any other place but not now, not with Amano, not pregnant. Yukari smiled ad walked off. Hitomi turned back to Amano.

"Do you love me." He asked, a question full of innocence. Hitomi smiled and nodded. Amano put his hands around Hitomi and pulled her tighter to him and kissed her again. "Good." Hitomi didn't turn and kiss him on the lips. She felt too uncomfortable. She hadn't kissed him since she returned from Gaea and Amano hadn't realised that something was wrong, until however tonight. "Sweetie what's wrong?" Hitomi looked at Amano and shook her head.

"Nothing, why?" Hitomi asked, although she knew the answer.

"You're extremely quiet, it's not like you." Hitomi smiled.

"I'm fine," She said and she kissed him on the cheeks. She had waited for such a long time to be going out with him and he finally asked her, after two long years, he finally asked her if she would go out with him. She naturally said yes, then two weeks later she went to Gaea. Ever since that night she had been torn between two people she loved so much. Amano because he was gently and kind and loving. Van because he was exciting different, a King!

Amano nodded and rubbed her arms. He could feel her shivering for some reason. Hitomi smiled at the comfort and rested her head on his shoulder.

"Hitomi…" Amano paused and Hitomi turned to him.

"What is it?" Hitomi asked.

"Well, there's something I've wanted to ask for some time now, ever since that night you said you felt guilty and wanted to make it up to me, even though I had no idea what you were talking about and said no." Hitomi nodded. The night she came back from Gaea she felt guilty that she had betrayed Amano and wanted desperately to do some to make herself feel better. She didn't know what though. She went over to Amano's house with a picnic basket and demanded that they go for a midnight picnic. He accepted. "Well, I thought that it was so lovely of you to do something spontaneous like that and it meant a lot to me and I…" Amano stopped again.

"Just tell me Amano." Hitomi demanded gently. She put her hands on top of his.

"I love you so much and this will sound wrong, I just know it will…"

"Tell me, come on, it can't be that bad." Hitomi said and she smiled at him.

"Okay." Amano took a deep breath. "I love you so much and I don't want to push you in to anything but I was just wondering, would you ever have…"

"Have what?" Hitomi said.

"I feel uncomfortable." Amano said.

"Have sex?" Hitomi asked. Amano blushed. Hitomi could see that he had gone red in the Moonlight.

"I knew it was stupid." Amano said and he turned away.

"Amano, there is nothing stupid about sex." Hitomi said, and she of all people would know that. Amano turned back and looked at her with a smile.

"You will?" Amano asked. Hitomi shook her head.

"I would love to," Hitomi said, "Really, I really would. I love you so much and if sleeping with you would show that then I would but…"

"No, I know you love me, that midnight picnic showed me that." Amano interrupted. "It's just you mean something so special to me. I've never felt like that before and it hurts when you aren't around me. I always want you round me." Amano laughed. "I can't believe that I actually feel like this. It's funny." Hitomi smiled and wiped her hair from her face. Amano quickly took his hand away from Hitomi's single-handed clutch and moved her hair for her; he brushed it behind her ears and then rested his hand on her cheek. Hitomi shut her eyes as she remembered Van doing the exact same thing. A tear fell from her eye and rolled down her cheek.

"Hitomi? What's wrong?" Amano asked. Hitomi stood up.

"I have to go." Hitomi said and she turned to walk away. "Amano I'm sorry." Hitomi cried and she walked away.

She wiped the tears away from her face and headed for her house. She loved Amano, she loved Van. She hurt so much. Love was a stupid emotion, who ever invented it was mad! She walked to her house, said hello to her mum and then walked up to her room. She shut her door and climbed on to her bed. She then wiped more and more tears away as they fell faster and faster.

"Stupid." She muttered, "Why am I so stupid?"

'I can't fall in love with two people but I have and I can't fall out of love with either of them. If I fall out with Amano then he will hate me for the rest of my life, I don't want that. If I fall out with Van he will be heart broken, I just know he will, he will come down and see me. Take my child away and then I will be left torn completely and yet still have Amano. If I sleep with Amano then I can easily that the child is his and then never go back to Van, never see him again, he will never know that I have named his child as someone else's. Or I could go up to Gaea right now, right this minute, then stay until I have the child and then go back home again.'

Hitomi looked up.

'I could do that. I could just go, make Van happy, the he will have child and I know he will like that. Then I can go home and live my life with Amano. Then it will be good both ways. Van will have his child, and I will have made Van happy and I will have Amano.'

Hitomi nodded and pulled out a bag from under her bed. She walked to her wardrobe and pulled a load of clothes from it and chucked then in her bag. She then took out a pen and paper.

Dear friends and family

I am going on a small journey I promise you that we will meet again and if my calculations are correct you will se me in about nine months time.

Hitomi paused. That letter was completely rubbish but it was al true. She would do to Gaea, wait until he child was born then go back home again after a month of it being born so as she could recover from the birth.

I don't want to give the reason for why I am going and I don't want to contact any of you but I promise you all that I will be completely safe where I am going and will be put in no danger at all. I wish you a nice nine months and all my love

Hitomi

She signed her name and left the letter on her desk. She then made sure she had packed everything. She the looked out of her window.

"Van, if you can hear me, please, let me be back in Gaea, I need to be up there with you Van please." Hitomi closed her eyes and the whole room lit up. Van had somehow heard her plea. A beam of light came to take her back to Gaea, back to her second home.

"Hitomi…" Hitomi turned and looked at the door, her mother was opening. "Hitomi are you okay?" Hitomi wanted to call out goodbye but she knew that once she had done that the she wouldn't want to go to Gaea. She turned back to the window and felt herself lift in to the air. She heard her door open but she was gone. Her mother would in no way be able to pull her back down.

After only a few moments Hitomi felt herself land on the soil of Gaea. She looked around and tried to work out where she was. She saw a few small houses the in the background she could see Lord Van's house, or better mansion. It looked brand new. Which it was only two years old, after the Zaibach had destroyed his first one in the attack on Finalia.

Hitomi sat down for a few moments and waited for Van to arrive. He must have called for her so he would be expecting her.

"Hitomi?" Hitomi looked round after she heard a voice. It wasn't however Van, it was a female voice. Merle? "It's you." Hitomi nodded at the small cat girl.

"You called me here?" Hitomi asked. Merle nodded and walked over to Hitomi and sat down by her side.

"Van has been moping around for a whole month, wanting you back but he wouldn't call for you because he knew you'd come and then go again. Like last time." Hitomi hung her head.

"I never wanted him to fell bad." Merle rolled her eyes.

"Well he knows you are here and he wants you to go right back home again. He will grow more and more attached to you then when you go home he'll hurt so much." Hitomi stood up.

"I'm not going any where." Hitomi said. She then looked at Merle and wondered if Merle knew she was pregnant with Van's child. She didn't want to ask though. "I have to see Van, it's important." Merle rolled her eyes again.

"Fine, but if you upset him I can assure you you will get scratched." Hitomi nodded and followed merle to the castle.

***

Van was sitting in the main hall when Hitomi walked in. She looked tired and exhausted. Van stood up and walked over to her. She fell in to his arms.

"Oh Van." She cried. "I didn't know what to do, I had to do something and so I chose to be with you, have the child here and then go back home again." She grabbed on to Van's shirt and started to cry. Van just brushed his fingers through her hair and rubbed her back, trying to comfort her. So she was leaving again?

"You'll be leaving the child here then?" Hitomi wiped her eyes and nodded.

"I can't care for it on Earth. People will start asking questions." Merle was still in the room.

"Child?" She asked and she walked over to Van. "You ever said anything about a child."

"Please Merle just leave the room." Van asked. Merle growled at Van then turned to Hitomi. She shook her head and then walked out of the hall.

"Fine, I'll look after the child here but what am I going to do when it's grown up and wants to know who its mother is?" Van asked. Hitomi looked at Van,

"When that time comes I will return and meet it, then will have to go again. I can't stay here you know that." Hitomi said.

"I'm not saying you should I was just…"

"That's in the future, we have to think about right now. I only have a few clothes and I have no money Van. You'll have to take care of me." Hitomi said. Van nodded.

"I will look after, you know I will, I'll get you anything you need I promise, I will be by your side the whole of the way." Hitomi smiled and wiped a tear away.

"You are so sweet." Hitomi said and she kissed Van on the cheek. "I love you." She said. Van smiled and hugged Hitomi.

"I love you too."

Hitomi had her things taken up to her room, where she went up as well, she was too tired to stay up and talk with Van. She climbed in to her bed and shut her eyes. She promised herself that she would never think of Amano or Yukari of her mother or any other friends or family while she was on Gaea, it would probably be no good for the child. She heard about it somewhere.

Van walked past her room and opened the door to see that she was okay but she was asleep.

"Goodnight." He whispered and he shut her door quietly. He then walked to his room where he slept.

T.B.C
Yep, another chapter done and dusted, now all you have to do is be nice and review for me ^.^