AUTHOR: Jennifer
EMAIL: webmaster@melaniechisholm.net
CATEGORY: JC/SL
RATING: PG
SPOILERS: Seasons 1 and 2
ARCHIVE: Yes, just e-mail me, please!
DISCLAIMER: Nothing belongs to me. Everything belongs to the amazing people who create ER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is my first attempt at a Carsan story. There needs to be more Carsan stories out there, so people, start writing!!
SUMMARY: Carter finds Susan heart-broken and tries to console her.
I feel so empty now that she's gone. For so long I was alone and then she came into this world, into my world. She brought me a year of happiness, although, many days I thought I couldn't handle it all. Work, Kerry breathing down my neck, taking care of Little Susie, worrying about Chloe. All that added up to stress, stress that I didn't need to add to my already hectic life. But it was all worth it when I saw that little girl smile. Her smile always made my days go by a little faster. Now that she's gone I don't know what to do.
I decide to take a walk around the city to keep my mind off things, specifically Little Susie. It's a rather chilly night for being May and I figure it's best to bring my jacket. I walk over to the coat rack and notice something out of the corner of my eye. Sitting on the coffee table is the music box Carter gave me two Christmases ago, and for a moment I think of him. It brings a little smile to my face and I wonder what would've happened if I did let him kiss me that night.
I walk out of my apartment building and feel the breeze hit my face. My jacket comes in handy because I find myself stuffing my hands into the pockets to keep warm. I walk around for a bit and finally end up sitting on a bench along the water. I glance at the skyline and admire the beauty of the city lights. My mind wanders and I start thinking about all the people in Chicago, in the very buildings I'm staring at. But eventually I come to my senses and realize how depressed I am. I need someone here with me, to help me get through this. I don't want to be alone.
My head falls down and I take a look at my watch. 9:42. It seems so much later. Susie really did take up most of my free time. Now that I have more of it the time passes by so slow. I don't have her smile to get me through the day anymore.
"Susan?"
I slowly turn around to find Carter standing behind me.
"What are you doing here?" he asked.
"I just needed to think, get away from everything."
"You should be home. Don't you have an early shift tomorrow?" Carter sounded a little concerned, but tried not to pry into my personal problems.
"Yeah, don't remind me. I won't be able to sleep anyway so I might as well keep my mind off things." He doesn't know what things I'm taking about.
Carter walked around the bench and sat beside me. "Susan, are you ok?"
"Yeah. I...I'm fine." I lied to him. I am far from being fine. I turn my head to look at Carter and I try to put a smile on my face. He can tell I'm trying too hard to make the facial gesture and speaks.
"I can tell when you're fine, and you're not fine." A moment of silence occurs between us while Carter tries to think of something to say. "Do you wanna talk about it?.....I mean, only if you want to."
"No, it's alright. I'm fine." The words blurted out of my mouth. I want so desperately to talk to him, but I don't want to take the chance. The tears will stream down my face if I talk about it with him. I don't want him to see me like that.
"Come on, Susan. I won't bite." Carter was soon standing in front of me. "We can pick up some ice cream and head over to my place, or your place if you prefer." He took my hand and I stood up. We then started walking to the convenience store which was at the end of the block. The conversation until that point was the usual 'How was work today?' I didn't want to make a fool of myself in public so I avoided the subject of Little Susie. Carter knew I was avoiding it, but he respected my decision and acted as if everything was normal.
Five minutes later we were walking out of the store with two pints of ice cream in the blue bag Carter was carrying; one Rocky Road and one Mint Chocolate Chip. We made our way to the El and ended up at Carter's house a few minutes later. Little was spoken between us on the train but I was preparing myself for the conversation to come.
EMAIL: webmaster@melaniechisholm.net
CATEGORY: JC/SL
RATING: PG
SPOILERS: Seasons 1 and 2
ARCHIVE: Yes, just e-mail me, please!
DISCLAIMER: Nothing belongs to me. Everything belongs to the amazing people who create ER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is my first attempt at a Carsan story. There needs to be more Carsan stories out there, so people, start writing!!
SUMMARY: Carter finds Susan heart-broken and tries to console her.
I feel so empty now that she's gone. For so long I was alone and then she came into this world, into my world. She brought me a year of happiness, although, many days I thought I couldn't handle it all. Work, Kerry breathing down my neck, taking care of Little Susie, worrying about Chloe. All that added up to stress, stress that I didn't need to add to my already hectic life. But it was all worth it when I saw that little girl smile. Her smile always made my days go by a little faster. Now that she's gone I don't know what to do.
I decide to take a walk around the city to keep my mind off things, specifically Little Susie. It's a rather chilly night for being May and I figure it's best to bring my jacket. I walk over to the coat rack and notice something out of the corner of my eye. Sitting on the coffee table is the music box Carter gave me two Christmases ago, and for a moment I think of him. It brings a little smile to my face and I wonder what would've happened if I did let him kiss me that night.
I walk out of my apartment building and feel the breeze hit my face. My jacket comes in handy because I find myself stuffing my hands into the pockets to keep warm. I walk around for a bit and finally end up sitting on a bench along the water. I glance at the skyline and admire the beauty of the city lights. My mind wanders and I start thinking about all the people in Chicago, in the very buildings I'm staring at. But eventually I come to my senses and realize how depressed I am. I need someone here with me, to help me get through this. I don't want to be alone.
My head falls down and I take a look at my watch. 9:42. It seems so much later. Susie really did take up most of my free time. Now that I have more of it the time passes by so slow. I don't have her smile to get me through the day anymore.
"Susan?"
I slowly turn around to find Carter standing behind me.
"What are you doing here?" he asked.
"I just needed to think, get away from everything."
"You should be home. Don't you have an early shift tomorrow?" Carter sounded a little concerned, but tried not to pry into my personal problems.
"Yeah, don't remind me. I won't be able to sleep anyway so I might as well keep my mind off things." He doesn't know what things I'm taking about.
Carter walked around the bench and sat beside me. "Susan, are you ok?"
"Yeah. I...I'm fine." I lied to him. I am far from being fine. I turn my head to look at Carter and I try to put a smile on my face. He can tell I'm trying too hard to make the facial gesture and speaks.
"I can tell when you're fine, and you're not fine." A moment of silence occurs between us while Carter tries to think of something to say. "Do you wanna talk about it?.....I mean, only if you want to."
"No, it's alright. I'm fine." The words blurted out of my mouth. I want so desperately to talk to him, but I don't want to take the chance. The tears will stream down my face if I talk about it with him. I don't want him to see me like that.
"Come on, Susan. I won't bite." Carter was soon standing in front of me. "We can pick up some ice cream and head over to my place, or your place if you prefer." He took my hand and I stood up. We then started walking to the convenience store which was at the end of the block. The conversation until that point was the usual 'How was work today?' I didn't want to make a fool of myself in public so I avoided the subject of Little Susie. Carter knew I was avoiding it, but he respected my decision and acted as if everything was normal.
Five minutes later we were walking out of the store with two pints of ice cream in the blue bag Carter was carrying; one Rocky Road and one Mint Chocolate Chip. We made our way to the El and ended up at Carter's house a few minutes later. Little was spoken between us on the train but I was preparing myself for the conversation to come.