― Chapter I "The Dream" ―
Disclaimer: I don't own Lord of the Rings, its characters, or its places. But, I do own this story and the ideas.
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You're everything my dream has seenBut, what are dreams?
I'm walking where my dreams have been
But, what are dreams?
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I woke up in a stunning meadow. foliages were blossoming, there were elanors, and many other flowers that I don't know. Many unseen birds were singing a song of joy. But, somehow I felt vacant despite the beauty that surrounds me. I felt, alone. I was going to drop back to sleep, when a call startled me.
I stood up, and looked around my surroundings. Then I ran. I didn't know why I was running, my body just moves without my control. But, sometimes I would stop to look around and run again. It is as if I was searching for something, someone. It was then I found her. It was Celebrian, my mother. I started running towards her, as a lost child would when she found her mother. Wait a minute, I thought as I stopped. Celebrian is in Aman. So, I wouldn't find her, because I am not in Aman yet. Narrowing my eyes, I examined her with my vision. That's when she called my name, Arwen.
Quickly I ran to her, only to find that she vanished, and only her garments were left. I fell to the ground with a thump, and slowly all the beautiful things around me started to fade. Then, I was left alone in the darkness.
I gripped the garment in hope that it will bring me out of the darkness, but it was of no use. So, I gathered my courage, stood up, and looked around to find a pair of grievous eyes staring back at me. They were not ugly, they're actually attractive. Attractive and yet, enchanting. I couldn't take my eyes off them. I just stared back in wonder, as those eyes moved nearer to me. Then, fear started to grip me as it reached the distance whereas I could touch it. I weaved it away with the garment, and it vanished, leaving me all alone in the darkness.
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Can I believe these spells I feel?
I'm wary now
Can I believe, or is this real?
I'm wary now
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Waking up with sweat all over my body, I sat up and scanned over my room. I took a long breath, glad that it was only a nightmare, a mere nightmare. 'Well, I am not really sure if it is a mere nightmare, as it had been haunting me every night after Estel left, and I reached Rivendell.'
'Is it trying to tell me something? Is it? I hope it really is not something as terrible as Sauron succeeding in conquering middle-earth. Or maybe, Sauron will rise again, even though the Ring is destroyed. I will ask ada* if he knows something.'
I left my bed, and strode to the closet to change my clothes. Picking up a grey dress, with silver threads, I slid my nightgown off. The sunshine that slipped out of the gap in the curtain shone right on top a green dress put on my chair by a servant. But, I was too busy changing my clothes, that I didn't notice it.
I put on the grey dress quickly, not patient enough to wait for my ada's words about the dream. After I had finished straightening my waist-length hair, trying not to look as if I'm in a hurry, I quickly slid out of my room's door to go to my ada's huge room.
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Just like some new-born creature, I
What are dreams?
A child in need of love and care
Tell me what, tell me what are dreams?
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I heard the rushed footsteps, and know instantly that it is Arwen. No one else would stroll that way except her and Legolas, and he is in Mirkwood right now. I closed my book and turned my chair to face the door, when it was suddenly opened by my daughter.
" Ada, I'd been dreaming the same, bizarre dream since a week ago when I arrived here." She told me as she moves toward a chair that is positioned in front of me, and sat down.
" And you suppose I know what it means, am I right ?", I asked her while turning back to reading the book I closed earlier.
" Yes! I was sitting in a wonderful meadow, then I heard somebody call me. I stood up, and started looking for the one calling me. But, I wasn't in control of my body that time, as I run and run.", She suddenly bursted.
" Well, what happened next ?", I asked her, as I know that the dream she was talking about wouldn't only be that short.
" Then, I saw naneth*. I was so thrilled that I ran to her immediately, but I remembered that naneth is in Grey Havens, so I stopped, and stared at her.", the elf said. " Suddenly, she called my name. I immediately knew that it was naneth, so I ran to her. But when I reached to her, she just vanished. And, my surroundings grew darker and darker, until it was completely black." She added.
I lifted my eyes off the book as the word 'Naneth' was mentioned. Celebrian sailed over the sea almost 450 years ago, but the grief is still here in my heart. I took a deep breath before telling her to continue on with her story.
" This is where my dream started to grow peculiar.", her tone was serious, not excited like the one before. " There were eyes, heartbreaking eyes looking at me. They seemed familiar, but I couldn't remember. It moved nearer and nearer to me, so I reached out my hand to touch it. But before I could touch it, it vanished. What could that mean, ada?", she asked me with a desperate tone.
" I do not know.", I told her. " Why don't you try asking your grandmother about it, while she is still here." I suggested. She nodded in agreement, seeing that I am not able to tell her anything. Standing up, she was walking toward the door when she turned back and asked, " Ada, does it mean that I will lose everything ? And be left alone ?", she asked me with grievous eyes.
" No, my dear. You are not going to lose everything. I will always be there for you, as long as you let me." I answered reassuringly. She smiled at me, and went out of the door.
I actually do not know if I will always be there for her. And I actually can help her with her dreams, but I don't want her to see me break down and cry over Celebrian as I talk about her mother. I want to support her, so I need to be strong in front of her. And I am sure that Galadriel can help her better in these kinds of things.
I do not know what the dream is trying to tell her, but I know for sure that she is not going to lose her life unless all that she has is taken away from her. She may look vulnerable and weak, but inside she is strong, just like her mother. Even stronger.
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Can I believe these spells I feel?
I'm wary now
Can I believe, or is this real?
I'm wary now
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Closing the heavy door behind me, I sighed, and walked silently toward my Grandparents' room. This is the first time Elrond had said that he could not help me in more than a thousand years. In truth, I know that Elrond can help me figure out what the dream means, or if it mean anything at all. There must be a reason why he wouldn't help me. But, I will need to figure that later, because I have to find out about the dream first.
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I knocked on the thick decorated door softly, as I already hear footsteps from behind the door. I didn't have to wait long, because before I could knock on the door again, a female figure appeared in front of me in a long white robe. Galadriel smiled as she gestured for me to go inside her room. I got in and closed the door behind me, as the regal lady told me to sit on a chair. I sat down and made myself comfortable.
" Where is grandfather?" I asked her. She turned towards me.
" He is in the garden, talking with Haldir.", She answered. " Now, on what purpose did you come here?" She asked back.
I shifted uncomfortably, and looked into her azure eyes. Then, she smiled consciously as she always did after knowing what somebody will do next. And she escpecially did the one with a smile only for me.
" So you want me to tell you what your dream means?" She asked. I knew that I don't have to explain it to her, as she can read my mind through my eyes.
" Yes please, if you would." I answered.
" Well, then you should tell me what the dream is." She said while still smiling.
" I don't think I should, as you already know what the dream is." I stated the obvious. I do not know how she could know what people are thinkng about, only by looking into their eyes, for seconds.
" Hmm, this could get really complicating. So, do you want me to tell you what the dream means, or help you to find out what the dream means." This question might make some people confused, but not me. I am already too used to my grandmother's riddles.
" I want you to tell me what it means, but if you could not, then I want you to help me find out what it means.", I answered her confusing question.
" I can tell you what the dream means, but I cannot help you to understand what I mean.", she stated before continuing. " You were in perfect bliss before your Nana left, and when she left, you were in despair and great pain was in your heart. Then, you found someone that is able to soothe that pain, and that someone could heal it if you let him. You will have to accept that someone so that he will be able to heal you. But you could not accept him, as you are still bound to the memory of your naneth."
" What do you mean?", I asked, confused with her words.
" I could not tell you that, you need to find that out by yourself.", she answered.
" But," I was going to protest, but her sad smile stopped me. I looked down for a moment, and stood up. I heard her sigh as I closed the door behind me.
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Just like some new-born creature
What are dreams?
A child in need of love and care
What are dreams?
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Author's Note: Thank you once again, for reading my story, and still have time to read my extremely long note! J I promise you guys that I'm going to finish this chaptered story of mine, unlike the others that I abandoned L Well, I got this habit of getting bored with my own stories. : P Anyway, please review! I need critics and suggestions to get better, so please help me learn how to be a good writer! J And oh, I also got this habit of putting smiley faces on notes, J L *_* ^_^ _^ ^_ ^_^' _ @_@ @_^ ^_@ BWAHAHHAHAHUHUHUHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Uhm, sorry about that! And once again, thank you!
This one is; 3009, after Arwen was sent for by Elrond, Page 1127 Appendix B.
* Ada means dad or daddy in elvish, learned from reading too many fics, I don't remember which one.
* Naneth means mother in elvish, learned from reading too many fics too.
PS: I'm not going to put so many extra notes today, just one wouldn't hurt. In this fic, I used the song "Dreams" by Enya. It doesn't really fit, but it talks about dreams too, right?
POVs: Arwen-Arwen-Elrond-Arwen-Arwen
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Trailer for the next chapter…
" Father, this is the time."
" Yes, this is, my dear."
" Then why do I feel…lost?"
" Lost? You'll never feel lost in the Havens ever again, my heart."
" I…I guess so…"
Next Chapter: "Departure For The Havens"