**Dedicated to Erin, Strawberry Shortcake, Crashdown Gurlie, roswellluver! Thanks for the support!**
Liz looked up when she heard the chimes of the bells above the door, to see Max holding the door open to one of Pam's friends, Vicky. Her breath caught in her throat as his eyes suddenly met hers, and she felt something in her shatter as disappointment washed over her. He tore his eyes away from hers and walked away, never looking back.
Liz turned back to Sean, laying her head down as one lone tear trekked down her cheeks.
Chapter 7: Visible Changes
Liz.
Liz..
Liz…
Liz!
Someone was calling her, but her mind would not let her respond, not that she wanted to anyways. When she had first started to retreat back into her mind, she was so alert and would respond to anything around her, but it had finally came to the point where she could just hide away from the world and its distraction, losing herself in her mind, in the memories, the pain, and the love. Her mind replayed countless memories and conversations, everything in slow motion, the emotions were so tangible that there were times she would come out of her unconscious like state of mind to find tears trekking down her cheeks. They were coming now, those memories taunting her. All because of him. All because the faith she had in him was shattered when he walked out of that door with Vicky on his arm…all because of her unrequited love.
**Flash**
"What is love?" Liz raised her head from his chest, startled doe eyes meeting serious amber ones as his question swirled around her mind. Her mind tried to come up with an answer to help her best friend, almost brother, but in the end her heart spoke the words of wisdom.
"I think it's different for everyone, but for me it's when you care for someone and love them despite their faults. You see past what everyone else thinks of them because your heart knows what is true. It's that weird feeling you get whenever they're around. How happy and alive your whole spirit is when you feel their presence near…and how much you miss them when they're not. It's how you can only think of them every waking moment of your life." She paused and looked down at him, and for the first time, Liz Parker lost herself in Max Evans's eyes and she continued whispering softly, "It's when you look into their eyes and just know…just know that everything would be alright as long as they were with you. It's unbreakable and rare."
**Flash**
"What's your dream Max?" A curious Liz asked as he pushed her on the swing. She knew she was too old to be on a swing, but she couldn't help it. She loved the feeling of soaring through the air, the wind brushing her hair back and forth.
"I want to find her." Was his simple answer.
"Who's her?" Liz stopped swinging and looked over at Max who was watching her with a smile on his face.
"The one who makes my heart beat fast, the one who heals my soul, the one who sets my spirit free, the one who brightens up my world with a smile, my soulmate…you know…the ONE. My dream girl."
Liz watched him as he said this, and with all her heart she wished that he would find that special someone because in her mind, no one deserved this more than he did. Walking over to him she sat down and grasped his hand, "I'll help you find her Max. I promise."
**Flash**
Liz listened with a frown as Michael and Max bragged about their latest conquests. Max's voice reverberated in her mind- "I want to find her."
How was sleeping with all these girls helping him find her? Had he given up on his soulmate already? Liz could think of nothing sadder than the thought of Max losing faith in his dream girl.
**Flash**
'Why did you jump in front of the bullet? You could have been killed.'
'…'
'Max?'
'It was you.'
**Flash**
"Max, I love you Max."
"I love you too Lizzie. Stay with me, please. I love you."
"Not like I love you, goodnight Max."
"Liz!"
**Flash**
"Liz, your mom and I decided to let you have the choice. Do you want to stay in Florida or go back to Roswell?"
**Flash**
"Lizzie, sweetie, your mom and I decided to let you stay in Florida." Jeff's voice cracked as he spoke.
"Yes, you can stay here as long as you want sweetie. Stay until you feel better, and when you do…come back to Roswell, come back home to us."
**Flash**
"Goodbye Lizzie. Remember, we'll always love you."
"Please come back to us soon."
**Flash**
She felt something bump against her leg and looked up into a pair of deep brown eyes with small golden flecks, her heart leapt and dropped. It wasn't him.
**Flash**
"You need to live Liz, and I'm going to be the one who shows you how."
"…"
**Flash**
"I love you Liz." Deep eyes filled with passion and unending love.
"I-I…"
"Shh. You don't have to say anything. Not until you're ready." A warm kiss.
A confession, whispered in her mind. I love you too.
**Flash**
No! Her mind screamed before darkness overwhelmed her, the last thing on her mind was unbearable pain.
**Flash**
"You're lying!" Liz shook her head in denial. "No! He's going to be fine. I love him. I can't lose him too!"
**Flash**
"I think it's time for you to go back Liz."
"But-"
"You can't keep running from your past. I don't want you to leave, trust me, but with what had just happened…I think you need to go back to Roswell. To heal."
"Anna! I can't leave him. He needs me."
"He needs you to be strong! You can't be with all this hurt and pain inside of you. You say you love him, but first make sure he's the only one who owns your heart. He deserves that much."
"You're right. I'll go."
**Flash**
…it's like coming back as reawakened all these feelings that I had locked away long ago, feelings that I thought had vanished that day I met him. Anna was right; I need to find out who I love more. I can't love him if I'm still in love with Max, but my heart just won't let me forget Max. I don't know what to do anymore, my life is crumbling again and the foundation I built is falling before my eyes. I remember telling Max that love was unbreakable…but apparently…it is breakable. So very easily broken.
**Flash**
"Anything for my Lizzie."
**Flash**
She watched as he walked away from her again, his back turned and arm around another girl. It was happening again.
"LIZ!!" Liz was pulled out of her thoughts by her brother's irritated voice and saw that Michael was now standing in her door, hands crossed and foot tapping impatiently.
"What?"
"Hurry and get ready for school. We're going to be late!" Michael commanded as he ran a hand through his unruly hair. Liz shrugged him off and took her time to get out of bed. "It's still early."
"Yeah, but Max is taking us and Iz has to get to school early today. They'll be here any minute now." Michael sighed trying unsuccessfully to get Liz to hurry.
"It's ok. I have my own ride." Liz replied as she started gathering her school things together. She couldn't really do much else with Michael in her room.
"Is it that Sean guy? I don't know about that…" Michael started but Liz rolled her eyes over his protectiveness. "No, it's not with Sean."
"Maria then?" Liz just shrugged and replied, "Relax. I got it covered."
"Fine, but I want you to meet me in the quad. I want to make sure that you're there." Michael commanded as he walked out of her room.
"Yes dad." Liz muttered under her breath.
"I heard that!" Michael's voice reached her ears making her smile as she headed into the shower. She hadn't got much sleep last night, instead she tossed and turned with unpleasant images of the past in her mind and even more unpleasant ones of what Max and Vicky had probably that night. She shook her head in disgust. Eww. Mental pictures! Well Max naked…now that's different…ok Parker mind out of gutter…. but Max's chest with sweat trickling down his all so fine…stop! The gutter is not a good place to leave your mind Parker…. am I drooling?!
Liz looked up startled and nope…no drooling though her face was flushed. "A cold shower would be good right about now."
Thirty minutes later and a freshly showered and dressed Liz Parker exited the back of the Crashdown and walked over to a small corner of the alley where it was hidden. It was his pride and joy. He had given it to her after he had taught her how to ride one. She remembered the feeling of having his arms tight around her as they raced through the silent streets, the wind pushing her hair from eyes, his lips on her forehead kissing her, her hand covering his as they sped along. Pulling the cover off of her motorcycle, Liz took a second to look at it. It was completely black with deep silver etchings of flames all over it. She was saddened somewhat at the memory of him before she pushed that away as she climbed onto the bike, helmet on her head, she sped off.
-=-=-=-=-=-
"Where's Liz?" Alex asked as he walked up to where everyone was sitting beneath the shade of the tree. Kyle and Tess were off in their own little world, Maria and Michael were bickering, Max was trying to avoid Vicky Delaney's glare(?), and Isabel was smiling shyly at him. Him? Well he was blushing wildly and was staring right back at the goddess in front of him. Her beautiful warm brown eyes, long flowing golden hair, beautiful smile….
"Maria here was supposed to give her a ride." Michael interrupted his train of thought as Maria glared at Michael.
"I'm telling you, she never mentioned anything to me!" Maria nearly screeched as Michael once again covered his ears.
"Whoa! Guys back to your corners. I just wanted to know where Liz is…so I'm assuming Ms. Parker is getting a ride with someone, because Lord knows Liz would never miss school, especially the first day!" Alex asked sitting down next to Isabel who smiled at him, he smiled in return and his smile only widened when she leaned her head on his shoulder.
"Maybe she caught a ride with Sean?" Tess suggested as she finally came out of her Kyle induced world. No one noticed the way Max tensed up at those words, no one but Isabel who only raised her eyebrow at her brother.
"I don't…" Kyle's sentenced trailed off at the sound of a loud motor filled the air causing them all to look towards the source of the noise to see someone parking a motorcycle. Said someone got off the vehicle and removed his or her helmet, causing everyone's jaw to drop. Liz Parker had just stepped off a motorcycle and was now shaking her unruly hair; unaware at how much appeal she was showing right then.
"Oh my god! Liz!?" Maria shrieked while Michael noticed something else altogether, "What the hell is she wearing?!"
Max was quiet the whole time just looking Liz over, his eyes not missing a single part of her appearance from her wild and silky hair to her beautiful eyes to her full red lips, but her outfit…it was so un-Lizlike. She was wearing a pair of dark, form fitting jeans that flared just a little at the bottom, black boots, and her shirt. Her shirt was tight and showed off her tanned and trim stomach as well as her cleavage. Max noticed how much his best friend had filled out and matured over the years, but he wasn't the only one to notice as catcalls were heard here and there. The male population had taken it upon themselves to flock around Roswell's new piece of meat, all vying for the beauty's attention…. well not if he, Michael, Alex, and Kyle could help it. He followed Michael who was stalking towards the large crowd.
-=-=-=-=-=-
Liz barely turned around and there was already a huge crowd surrounding her. Confused, she leaned over to one guy and asked what was happening. He smiled and whispered back, "You are babe. You are."
Then he smacked her @$$ causing Liz to yelp slightly. She vaguely heard the voices of Michael, Max, Kyle, and Alex as they made their way through the crowd, obviously seeing what the creep had done. Instead, Liz turned around and grabbed the guy's hand and faster than lightening she had his arm twisted behind his back as she began threatening him, not noticing that everyone was backing up. Liz Parker was a really scary girl to anger. Finally Liz let go of the loser and he ran off with his friends as they laughed at him, meanwhile Michael had came over and pulled off his over shirt and wrapped it around Liz's shoulders.
Kyle and Alex were falling all over themselves laughing, "Did you see that? Big, muscleman Larry got told by Little Lizzie!"
Max meanwhile smiled despite himself, glad that Liz now had something covering herself from the male's view. Liz was none to happy as she glared at Michael, who glared back. The girls had come up and were surrounding Liz, all but Isabel who was staring at the ground.
"Wow! Where did you learn to do that?? You had him pissing in his pants!" Tess exclaimed.
"Forget Hurricane Valenti, watch out for Hurricane Parker." Maria added making Liz blush as she stammered out a response, "My friend in Florida did. He thought I needed to learn how to defend myself."
"Ohhh, he thought? Who is this friend? How good of friends are you guys?" Maria raised her eyebrows suggestively. Liz's smile faltered but brightened again before anyone noticed, "He's a very good friend."
She looked over to Max and for a moment she thought she had seen a flash of pain in his amber depths, but it was gone so she dismissed it as her imagination. Before she had to explain herself any further she heard someone call her name.
"Beth!" Looking back she smiled when she saw Sean Williams running towards them. He stopped in front of her and smiled to which she returned it with a bright smile of her own, causing him to blush. He didn't look away however and noticed her outfit, his eyes traveling her body, unaware and not caring that he was checking her out in front of two guys who were now glaring at him. One with jealous rage…although he didn't realize it, and the other with brotherly concern and protectiveness.
"You look great." He whispered causing Liz to blush and duck her head, "Thanks."
Noticing that the others were watching them and that Max and Michael were practically drilling holes into Sean's head, she asked quickly, "Where's Serena? Isn't she back yet?"
Sean blinked coming out of his little daydream involving a certain brunette beauty, "Huh? Oh, no. Our aunt's really sick so mom flew out and the two of them are caring for her."
"That's so sad. I hope your aunt feels better." Liz responded honestly.
"Thanks, uh…could you show me where the front office is? I really don't want to get lost on my first day." Sean asked nervously, glancing at her friends. Liz nodded and grabbed his hand as she dragged him off, but not before shredding the shirt that Michael had given her.
No one noticed the fact that Max's face had grown darker and that it had turned red, and he didn't noticed that the little green-eyed monster had reared its ugly head.
Tbc…
A/N: Anyone still interested in more???
Liz looked up when she heard the chimes of the bells above the door, to see Max holding the door open to one of Pam's friends, Vicky. Her breath caught in her throat as his eyes suddenly met hers, and she felt something in her shatter as disappointment washed over her. He tore his eyes away from hers and walked away, never looking back.
Liz turned back to Sean, laying her head down as one lone tear trekked down her cheeks.
Chapter 7: Visible Changes
Liz.
Liz..
Liz…
Liz!
Someone was calling her, but her mind would not let her respond, not that she wanted to anyways. When she had first started to retreat back into her mind, she was so alert and would respond to anything around her, but it had finally came to the point where she could just hide away from the world and its distraction, losing herself in her mind, in the memories, the pain, and the love. Her mind replayed countless memories and conversations, everything in slow motion, the emotions were so tangible that there were times she would come out of her unconscious like state of mind to find tears trekking down her cheeks. They were coming now, those memories taunting her. All because of him. All because the faith she had in him was shattered when he walked out of that door with Vicky on his arm…all because of her unrequited love.
**Flash**
"What is love?" Liz raised her head from his chest, startled doe eyes meeting serious amber ones as his question swirled around her mind. Her mind tried to come up with an answer to help her best friend, almost brother, but in the end her heart spoke the words of wisdom.
"I think it's different for everyone, but for me it's when you care for someone and love them despite their faults. You see past what everyone else thinks of them because your heart knows what is true. It's that weird feeling you get whenever they're around. How happy and alive your whole spirit is when you feel their presence near…and how much you miss them when they're not. It's how you can only think of them every waking moment of your life." She paused and looked down at him, and for the first time, Liz Parker lost herself in Max Evans's eyes and she continued whispering softly, "It's when you look into their eyes and just know…just know that everything would be alright as long as they were with you. It's unbreakable and rare."
**Flash**
"What's your dream Max?" A curious Liz asked as he pushed her on the swing. She knew she was too old to be on a swing, but she couldn't help it. She loved the feeling of soaring through the air, the wind brushing her hair back and forth.
"I want to find her." Was his simple answer.
"Who's her?" Liz stopped swinging and looked over at Max who was watching her with a smile on his face.
"The one who makes my heart beat fast, the one who heals my soul, the one who sets my spirit free, the one who brightens up my world with a smile, my soulmate…you know…the ONE. My dream girl."
Liz watched him as he said this, and with all her heart she wished that he would find that special someone because in her mind, no one deserved this more than he did. Walking over to him she sat down and grasped his hand, "I'll help you find her Max. I promise."
**Flash**
Liz listened with a frown as Michael and Max bragged about their latest conquests. Max's voice reverberated in her mind- "I want to find her."
How was sleeping with all these girls helping him find her? Had he given up on his soulmate already? Liz could think of nothing sadder than the thought of Max losing faith in his dream girl.
**Flash**
'Why did you jump in front of the bullet? You could have been killed.'
'…'
'Max?'
'It was you.'
**Flash**
"Max, I love you Max."
"I love you too Lizzie. Stay with me, please. I love you."
"Not like I love you, goodnight Max."
"Liz!"
**Flash**
"Liz, your mom and I decided to let you have the choice. Do you want to stay in Florida or go back to Roswell?"
**Flash**
"Lizzie, sweetie, your mom and I decided to let you stay in Florida." Jeff's voice cracked as he spoke.
"Yes, you can stay here as long as you want sweetie. Stay until you feel better, and when you do…come back to Roswell, come back home to us."
**Flash**
"Goodbye Lizzie. Remember, we'll always love you."
"Please come back to us soon."
**Flash**
She felt something bump against her leg and looked up into a pair of deep brown eyes with small golden flecks, her heart leapt and dropped. It wasn't him.
**Flash**
"You need to live Liz, and I'm going to be the one who shows you how."
"…"
**Flash**
"I love you Liz." Deep eyes filled with passion and unending love.
"I-I…"
"Shh. You don't have to say anything. Not until you're ready." A warm kiss.
A confession, whispered in her mind. I love you too.
**Flash**
No! Her mind screamed before darkness overwhelmed her, the last thing on her mind was unbearable pain.
**Flash**
"You're lying!" Liz shook her head in denial. "No! He's going to be fine. I love him. I can't lose him too!"
**Flash**
"I think it's time for you to go back Liz."
"But-"
"You can't keep running from your past. I don't want you to leave, trust me, but with what had just happened…I think you need to go back to Roswell. To heal."
"Anna! I can't leave him. He needs me."
"He needs you to be strong! You can't be with all this hurt and pain inside of you. You say you love him, but first make sure he's the only one who owns your heart. He deserves that much."
"You're right. I'll go."
**Flash**
…it's like coming back as reawakened all these feelings that I had locked away long ago, feelings that I thought had vanished that day I met him. Anna was right; I need to find out who I love more. I can't love him if I'm still in love with Max, but my heart just won't let me forget Max. I don't know what to do anymore, my life is crumbling again and the foundation I built is falling before my eyes. I remember telling Max that love was unbreakable…but apparently…it is breakable. So very easily broken.
**Flash**
"Anything for my Lizzie."
**Flash**
She watched as he walked away from her again, his back turned and arm around another girl. It was happening again.
"LIZ!!" Liz was pulled out of her thoughts by her brother's irritated voice and saw that Michael was now standing in her door, hands crossed and foot tapping impatiently.
"What?"
"Hurry and get ready for school. We're going to be late!" Michael commanded as he ran a hand through his unruly hair. Liz shrugged him off and took her time to get out of bed. "It's still early."
"Yeah, but Max is taking us and Iz has to get to school early today. They'll be here any minute now." Michael sighed trying unsuccessfully to get Liz to hurry.
"It's ok. I have my own ride." Liz replied as she started gathering her school things together. She couldn't really do much else with Michael in her room.
"Is it that Sean guy? I don't know about that…" Michael started but Liz rolled her eyes over his protectiveness. "No, it's not with Sean."
"Maria then?" Liz just shrugged and replied, "Relax. I got it covered."
"Fine, but I want you to meet me in the quad. I want to make sure that you're there." Michael commanded as he walked out of her room.
"Yes dad." Liz muttered under her breath.
"I heard that!" Michael's voice reached her ears making her smile as she headed into the shower. She hadn't got much sleep last night, instead she tossed and turned with unpleasant images of the past in her mind and even more unpleasant ones of what Max and Vicky had probably that night. She shook her head in disgust. Eww. Mental pictures! Well Max naked…now that's different…ok Parker mind out of gutter…. but Max's chest with sweat trickling down his all so fine…stop! The gutter is not a good place to leave your mind Parker…. am I drooling?!
Liz looked up startled and nope…no drooling though her face was flushed. "A cold shower would be good right about now."
Thirty minutes later and a freshly showered and dressed Liz Parker exited the back of the Crashdown and walked over to a small corner of the alley where it was hidden. It was his pride and joy. He had given it to her after he had taught her how to ride one. She remembered the feeling of having his arms tight around her as they raced through the silent streets, the wind pushing her hair from eyes, his lips on her forehead kissing her, her hand covering his as they sped along. Pulling the cover off of her motorcycle, Liz took a second to look at it. It was completely black with deep silver etchings of flames all over it. She was saddened somewhat at the memory of him before she pushed that away as she climbed onto the bike, helmet on her head, she sped off.
-=-=-=-=-=-
"Where's Liz?" Alex asked as he walked up to where everyone was sitting beneath the shade of the tree. Kyle and Tess were off in their own little world, Maria and Michael were bickering, Max was trying to avoid Vicky Delaney's glare(?), and Isabel was smiling shyly at him. Him? Well he was blushing wildly and was staring right back at the goddess in front of him. Her beautiful warm brown eyes, long flowing golden hair, beautiful smile….
"Maria here was supposed to give her a ride." Michael interrupted his train of thought as Maria glared at Michael.
"I'm telling you, she never mentioned anything to me!" Maria nearly screeched as Michael once again covered his ears.
"Whoa! Guys back to your corners. I just wanted to know where Liz is…so I'm assuming Ms. Parker is getting a ride with someone, because Lord knows Liz would never miss school, especially the first day!" Alex asked sitting down next to Isabel who smiled at him, he smiled in return and his smile only widened when she leaned her head on his shoulder.
"Maybe she caught a ride with Sean?" Tess suggested as she finally came out of her Kyle induced world. No one noticed the way Max tensed up at those words, no one but Isabel who only raised her eyebrow at her brother.
"I don't…" Kyle's sentenced trailed off at the sound of a loud motor filled the air causing them all to look towards the source of the noise to see someone parking a motorcycle. Said someone got off the vehicle and removed his or her helmet, causing everyone's jaw to drop. Liz Parker had just stepped off a motorcycle and was now shaking her unruly hair; unaware at how much appeal she was showing right then.
"Oh my god! Liz!?" Maria shrieked while Michael noticed something else altogether, "What the hell is she wearing?!"
Max was quiet the whole time just looking Liz over, his eyes not missing a single part of her appearance from her wild and silky hair to her beautiful eyes to her full red lips, but her outfit…it was so un-Lizlike. She was wearing a pair of dark, form fitting jeans that flared just a little at the bottom, black boots, and her shirt. Her shirt was tight and showed off her tanned and trim stomach as well as her cleavage. Max noticed how much his best friend had filled out and matured over the years, but he wasn't the only one to notice as catcalls were heard here and there. The male population had taken it upon themselves to flock around Roswell's new piece of meat, all vying for the beauty's attention…. well not if he, Michael, Alex, and Kyle could help it. He followed Michael who was stalking towards the large crowd.
-=-=-=-=-=-
Liz barely turned around and there was already a huge crowd surrounding her. Confused, she leaned over to one guy and asked what was happening. He smiled and whispered back, "You are babe. You are."
Then he smacked her @$$ causing Liz to yelp slightly. She vaguely heard the voices of Michael, Max, Kyle, and Alex as they made their way through the crowd, obviously seeing what the creep had done. Instead, Liz turned around and grabbed the guy's hand and faster than lightening she had his arm twisted behind his back as she began threatening him, not noticing that everyone was backing up. Liz Parker was a really scary girl to anger. Finally Liz let go of the loser and he ran off with his friends as they laughed at him, meanwhile Michael had came over and pulled off his over shirt and wrapped it around Liz's shoulders.
Kyle and Alex were falling all over themselves laughing, "Did you see that? Big, muscleman Larry got told by Little Lizzie!"
Max meanwhile smiled despite himself, glad that Liz now had something covering herself from the male's view. Liz was none to happy as she glared at Michael, who glared back. The girls had come up and were surrounding Liz, all but Isabel who was staring at the ground.
"Wow! Where did you learn to do that?? You had him pissing in his pants!" Tess exclaimed.
"Forget Hurricane Valenti, watch out for Hurricane Parker." Maria added making Liz blush as she stammered out a response, "My friend in Florida did. He thought I needed to learn how to defend myself."
"Ohhh, he thought? Who is this friend? How good of friends are you guys?" Maria raised her eyebrows suggestively. Liz's smile faltered but brightened again before anyone noticed, "He's a very good friend."
She looked over to Max and for a moment she thought she had seen a flash of pain in his amber depths, but it was gone so she dismissed it as her imagination. Before she had to explain herself any further she heard someone call her name.
"Beth!" Looking back she smiled when she saw Sean Williams running towards them. He stopped in front of her and smiled to which she returned it with a bright smile of her own, causing him to blush. He didn't look away however and noticed her outfit, his eyes traveling her body, unaware and not caring that he was checking her out in front of two guys who were now glaring at him. One with jealous rage…although he didn't realize it, and the other with brotherly concern and protectiveness.
"You look great." He whispered causing Liz to blush and duck her head, "Thanks."
Noticing that the others were watching them and that Max and Michael were practically drilling holes into Sean's head, she asked quickly, "Where's Serena? Isn't she back yet?"
Sean blinked coming out of his little daydream involving a certain brunette beauty, "Huh? Oh, no. Our aunt's really sick so mom flew out and the two of them are caring for her."
"That's so sad. I hope your aunt feels better." Liz responded honestly.
"Thanks, uh…could you show me where the front office is? I really don't want to get lost on my first day." Sean asked nervously, glancing at her friends. Liz nodded and grabbed his hand as she dragged him off, but not before shredding the shirt that Michael had given her.
No one noticed the fact that Max's face had grown darker and that it had turned red, and he didn't noticed that the little green-eyed monster had reared its ugly head.
Tbc…
A/N: Anyone still interested in more???