"Did you honestly think that I did not know?"
He said nothing. Knew better than to
say anything. His eyes stayed glued to
the floor. He could have -- *should*
have stayed at Hogwarts. All it would
have taken was a steadfast "no." But it would have been difficult. Saying no to Dumbledore would
have been as hard to do as going against Voldemort had been, years ago. It would have felt the same, like a betrayal.
Perhaps not one that would have cost him his life, but, still . . . it was a
step he hadn't been willing to take. He
hadn't allowed his mind to consider the refusal, let along give his lips the
opportunity to form that simple, soul-stealing, life-saving, two-letter word. And he wasn't going to say it now that his
life was going to be taken from him. So
he stayed silent, staring at the cold and callous floor, instead.
"Your posturing was . . . believable. But I still knew. I've
known for years. Ever since you warned
the Potters."
That last was surely said to get a reaction, and he did find himself caught by
it. Was it true? It couldn't be. Voldemort would have killed
him years ago if that were true. Why
let a known defector live? The man
wasn't one who could be accused of having a forgiving nature. Other Death Eaters had been killed for less.
"Your instinct for survival is admirable. Trying to stay close to both
sides . . . leaving me for Dumbledore when you sensed trouble . . . " He
bit his tongue. It might not do to
inform Voldemort that he had left when he realized that the Dark Lord was
completely insane, and would not have had any more dealings with the man after
that realization, had it been possible. 'Staying close to both sides' really hadn't been his idea.
". . . And crawling back, now that I have regained my strength. No doubt waiting until you had some helpful
pieces of information to bargain with . . ." The voice droned on. Had Voldemort always loved the sound of his
own voice this much? It was a
particularly grating voice, now . . . torturous in and of itself. Snape soon
tired of it. 'Oh, feed me to your
snake, already and let's be done with it . . . '
But that didn't happen. He was there,
weak from the interrogation, unwilling to speak aloud, barely able to keep his
feet, let alone pay close attention to what was being babbled on about. And the snake was there as well -- monstrous,
dripping with ill-intent. But there was no feeding. Just more of the insane
lecture, as though he were merely a wayward child. It was somewhat disappointing to have fully prepared himself for
consumption and then be put off for so long. He knew that offenders of his type were never blessed with swift
executions. An example had to be made of those who dared betray the Dark Lord,
and the Avada Kedavra curse simply didn't give as much of a lasting impression
as it once did.
He really had thought that spies would be fed to the damn snake. Only, now he was hearing otherwise. Hushed voices from the shadows . . .
Whispered rumors of even deadlier pets . . . harsher punishments . . . horrific
mutilations and agonizing deaths which were drawn out over weeks . . . perhaps
longer.
Not that he believed most of it. Death
Eaters could be very melodramatic. They
loved reactions. They wanted to see
fear before the fall. He was in a position to know, after all. So, he wasn't at
all surprised to hear the rumors. He
supposed that Voldemort could have acquired a creature more terrible than that
hideous snake. One that liked to 'toy' with its prey for extended periods of
time. He couldn't imagine such an animal,
however, so he saw no use in dwelling on it. He was actually rather resigned to his fate. Anything to keep from hearing anymore of
Voldemort's long, tedious monologues. Instinct
for survival, indeed.
