sf - Saiyuki fandom is reaaaallly quiet, naaa. And as for longer chapters, I could've made seven longer, but I purposely cut it short*grin* Eh..besides I needed to do a little research on Jiroshin and Kanzeon and I couldn't wait so I snipped it! Kya ha! But my original stuff tends to be longer ^^ because I have to explain things.
Ionia -*screams*Oh my god! I love your picture! That's so cuuuute~!(Don't let go Goku-chan*grin* ::Sanzo::*sweatdrop*) Of course I'll keep writing ^_^.
By the way, some plans for Incarcerated; Rain are sometimes talked about in my blog(located at the bottom of my ff.net bio).
And Koumyou will be called Koumyou because calling him Sanzo is too confusing o.o. And there's something about Sanzo's theme that's so alluring-it's freaky!
Incarcerated; Rain
Chapter Eight
{Existence}
("I can't let Sanzo die!"( Most important thing to you ) - Goku, Volume 6)
"Jiroshin, well? Did you find Sanzo?"
Jiroshin shook his head, "No, but I found an path that most likely leads to him."
Goku sprung up immediately, "Tell me!"
Jiroshin stared in awe at the youkai(wasn't he supposed to be injured?) before clearing his throat, "The path I found looked like a mass murder had occured. There was blood everywhere. Youkai blood to be exact. And sakura blossoms started blooming. They don't bloom until next month."
"Sakura blossoms...We saw those the first time Sanzo was gone," Gojyo murmured.
"What does this mean though?"
Kanzeon sighed, "I can't answer that. Anyways, you guys have to go look for him. We're not even supposed to be here, but well...I couldn't help it okay? Kanan and Koumyou agreed to help you. If you guys got beat up like that, you're going to need more people on your side. Hakkai can't heal all the time and he obviously can't do too much in his condition right now."
Hakkai muttered in his sleep, before bringing the blanket closer to his shoulders, catching the undivided attention of a certain half-youkai. Gojyo slipped out of the bed and with a flick of the wrist gave his side of the blanket over to the other man, who in return just slept. Red irises looked up, "Well, saru, you up to it?"
"Of course cockroach kappa! I can't believe you have to ask that!"
"You're a lot more energetic than you were a couple days ago. Before you just moped around."
"It's different now," Koumyou murmured, " He knows he can find him."
Goku looked down,"It..is different but..I could've saved him. I should've protected him better! If I did, then he wouldn't be gone! I want to protect Sanzo. Sanzo's everything to me. I don't care about anything else right now. I want him back..."
[Thinking of you, wherever you are]
Gojyo watched silently as Kanan looked out the window and then back to Hakkai once everyone was away from the room. Today, or rather this night was certainly odd. Even he didn't feel like womanizing at all. Maybe it was because he was worried? Sure, he knew he was worried for Hakkai but also Goku, and maybe even Sanzo. The red haired youkai mentally shook his head. It's not important right now.
Kanan chose that moment to speak up,"How long have you known Gonou?"
"..A few years. Why?"
"It's nothing." Kanan was a lot more distant than Hakkai. But then again, Hakkai was just hiding behind a smile that was fake most of the time.
'Looking at Hakkai's smiles were just as painful as looking at Goku a couple days ago. That smile..that never reached his eyes at all.'
"Nothing?"
"Right." This conversation, if you could call it that, was getting nowhere. Sighing, Gojyo went after Koumyou and Goku, leaving Kanan alone with the sleeping healer. As the door closed, Kanan let her fingers drift over the monocle on Hakkai's right eye. The night was entirely silent. It was becoming unerving. But looking at what Gonou had become..or seemed to become... She shook her head, letting her bangs brush along her forehead and withdrew her hand, lacing it over her braid.
"You never changed yourself. For how long did you fool these people?" With that laugh, that smile.
"That's right. I'm still the same hopeless person," Kanan's emerald eyes dilated as she ended up looking into the one visible iris and pupil that was her brother's and her lover's, "The one who never had true love for anyone. The same person who cannot love anyone. Isn't that right, Kanan?"
"Gonou..."
Gojyo found Goku staring at Koumyou, who in return just stared back. Goku's eyes looked around the man's face, even to the outfit he wore. It wasn't the same. Everything was still so incrediblely awkward. He wasn't even sure if he had to call this man, Sanzo. Whenever he said Sanzo he would always be seeing the familar blonde with the violet irises, but now he was looking at a brunette with a long braid. This wasn't right! At least to him.
"Saru, didn't the monk ever teach you not to stare?"
"Eh?"
Koumyou laughed and looked at Gojyo, "It's fine. I know this is very different for all of you."
"Y..you're not trying to replace Sanzo are you?" The brunette human gazed back into the youkai's golden eyes. He could see the fear laced in them, the huge hope that the answer was no. He only smiled and walked away.
"Naaa?"
"Man, he's right. It ain't the same without the damn monk!"Gojyo sighed and scratched his head, "This is gonna be one hell of a trip."
"H-He's can't take Sanzo's place! That don't allow that! Right? And..and he's already dead anyways!"
"I don't know, saru. God this is frustrating. I'm not cut out for this!"
"I want Sanzo..."
"......Yeah."
"Well, Kanan? Isn't it?"
Kanan stayed silent, watching Hakkai as he lifted himself off the bed, bandages loose around his wounds and dirty with blood. The girl soon found it frightening just to look in his eyes that bulid up so much coldness in them she couldn't stand it.
"Can't look your own brother in the eye? Before you used to be able to look at me. Was it because I was your lover? Am I now just your brother, Kanan?"
"No Gonou, you don't understand..."
"Then make me understand."
There was only silence. Hakkai smiled, but that was only a smirk. He felt like Gonou again. He didn't need to hide anything. He could be bitter if he wanted to. He was Cho Gonou, the one who could never love, never truly smile; the one who sinned a thousand times by killing a thousand youkai.
"Why did I kill all those youkai, Kanan? I'm sure you would know about that."
Kanan's fingers nervously gripped at her braid, "Um..you were mad."
"Why was I mad?"
"Because...I killed myself."
"Hmmmm."
Koumyou gazed out the window, watching the humans crowd around the bloody path, "We're going to save you, Kouryuu."
And the fake sakura blossoms continued falling at his feet.
"Killing a thousand for one. It sounds stupid doesn't it, Kanan?"
"Gonou..."
Hakkai stopped looking at her and walked around behind the girl, taking off his bandages. His reunion with Kanan should be happy like all lover's reunions were, but now he was ready to break her now. What the hell was going on with him? Why was he suddenly bitter to his sister and lover? Kanan sniffled. Hakkai knew she was trying to hold back tears that he was causing.
"I'm sorry I made you suffer like this Gonou. I really am! I didn't want it to be like this! I-I couldn't help myself! I was devastated! Gonou!"
"A little late on apology, aren't you Kanan?" Hakkai's eyes softened a little, forcing himself not to look as Kanan rubbed at her eyes. Maybe his heart was aching the same as well and he didn't know it.
"Gonou, please. I know it's been years since, but I'm still hurting over it! Gonou!"
Hakkai shook his head, not taking one look before he had left the room.
Gojyo and Goku were still there in the hallway once he emerged. He didn't even try smiling this time, which immediately made the other two worried because it seemed unusual..even if some of those smiles were fake. Hakkai looked at each of them before shoving past Gojyo down the opposite way Koumyou had left. The red haired youkai looked after at the man's back, before starting off after him, "Hakkai?!"
Goku blinked and raced after, "Wait, Gojyo!"
"Goku, you stay here!" The youkai blinked again and halted with the back of his heels, "Um..Okay."
{Be there------}
A pair of unnaturally bright violet eyes looked out to the forest, hands wrapped around the exposed flesh of Genjo Sanzo. A long fingernail that could've been a claw trailed over the blonde's chest, absently brushing at his sleeping face. Long, golden hair spewed from the figure's head, pouring over Sanzo's shoulders like a waterfall.
The bloody path was drying up, the sakura trees were fading away.
"I won't let anyone take you from me, my child. No one can."
{----and I'll be waiting for you}
"Hakkai, what's wrong with you?"
"I hated the rain. But yet in some ways I liked it too. The rain always hid my tears."
"Hakkai..."
Koumyou watched as the blossoms landed and died in shrivels. A hand went up to brush the long brunette hair away from his eyes as he looked down the pathway and to the mountains where traces of it disappeared. And yet in some ways he felt was being watched. Not by humans, by violet eyes. Not Kouryuu's. Someone else's. Koumyou didn't say anything as Goku walked up behind him, followed by Kanan, who just looked down at her feet.
"That's the path we're taking?"
"Yes. Gather Gojyo and Hakkai. We should leave now before the blood is absorbed by the earth."
Hakuryuu floated by and perched onto Goku's shoulder before Kanan spoke up, "Gonou..is having some difficulties right now." Goku shuffled his feet, letting his fingers pet the small dragon and letting his thoughts wander.
'I feel different. I know I can find him now, I still don't feel as happy as I normally would. Is it because...I can lose him forever this time?'
What was life without a sun?
"We should get back to others. We need to look for the monk."
Hakkai wrapped his hands around his arms, "I know...but I just feel like...I can't go on. Not like this. I feel so gulity that inside I have this feeling that I wouldn't care if Sanzo was gone. I don't want to feel that way and I didn't realize I felt like such about this until Kanan came back and awakened Gonou. Am I a sadist?"
"You're Cho Hakkai. You're not Gonou anymore. Gonou is dead."
TBC
I'm mean. I make the boys go through all these conflicts ^^. Ah well.
Ionia -*screams*Oh my god! I love your picture! That's so cuuuute~!(Don't let go Goku-chan*grin* ::Sanzo::*sweatdrop*) Of course I'll keep writing ^_^.
By the way, some plans for Incarcerated; Rain are sometimes talked about in my blog(located at the bottom of my ff.net bio).
And Koumyou will be called Koumyou because calling him Sanzo is too confusing o.o. And there's something about Sanzo's theme that's so alluring-it's freaky!
Incarcerated; Rain
Chapter Eight
{Existence}
("I can't let Sanzo die!"( Most important thing to you ) - Goku, Volume 6)
"Jiroshin, well? Did you find Sanzo?"
Jiroshin shook his head, "No, but I found an path that most likely leads to him."
Goku sprung up immediately, "Tell me!"
Jiroshin stared in awe at the youkai(wasn't he supposed to be injured?) before clearing his throat, "The path I found looked like a mass murder had occured. There was blood everywhere. Youkai blood to be exact. And sakura blossoms started blooming. They don't bloom until next month."
"Sakura blossoms...We saw those the first time Sanzo was gone," Gojyo murmured.
"What does this mean though?"
Kanzeon sighed, "I can't answer that. Anyways, you guys have to go look for him. We're not even supposed to be here, but well...I couldn't help it okay? Kanan and Koumyou agreed to help you. If you guys got beat up like that, you're going to need more people on your side. Hakkai can't heal all the time and he obviously can't do too much in his condition right now."
Hakkai muttered in his sleep, before bringing the blanket closer to his shoulders, catching the undivided attention of a certain half-youkai. Gojyo slipped out of the bed and with a flick of the wrist gave his side of the blanket over to the other man, who in return just slept. Red irises looked up, "Well, saru, you up to it?"
"Of course cockroach kappa! I can't believe you have to ask that!"
"You're a lot more energetic than you were a couple days ago. Before you just moped around."
"It's different now," Koumyou murmured, " He knows he can find him."
Goku looked down,"It..is different but..I could've saved him. I should've protected him better! If I did, then he wouldn't be gone! I want to protect Sanzo. Sanzo's everything to me. I don't care about anything else right now. I want him back..."
[Thinking of you, wherever you are]
Gojyo watched silently as Kanan looked out the window and then back to Hakkai once everyone was away from the room. Today, or rather this night was certainly odd. Even he didn't feel like womanizing at all. Maybe it was because he was worried? Sure, he knew he was worried for Hakkai but also Goku, and maybe even Sanzo. The red haired youkai mentally shook his head. It's not important right now.
Kanan chose that moment to speak up,"How long have you known Gonou?"
"..A few years. Why?"
"It's nothing." Kanan was a lot more distant than Hakkai. But then again, Hakkai was just hiding behind a smile that was fake most of the time.
'Looking at Hakkai's smiles were just as painful as looking at Goku a couple days ago. That smile..that never reached his eyes at all.'
"Nothing?"
"Right." This conversation, if you could call it that, was getting nowhere. Sighing, Gojyo went after Koumyou and Goku, leaving Kanan alone with the sleeping healer. As the door closed, Kanan let her fingers drift over the monocle on Hakkai's right eye. The night was entirely silent. It was becoming unerving. But looking at what Gonou had become..or seemed to become... She shook her head, letting her bangs brush along her forehead and withdrew her hand, lacing it over her braid.
"You never changed yourself. For how long did you fool these people?" With that laugh, that smile.
"That's right. I'm still the same hopeless person," Kanan's emerald eyes dilated as she ended up looking into the one visible iris and pupil that was her brother's and her lover's, "The one who never had true love for anyone. The same person who cannot love anyone. Isn't that right, Kanan?"
"Gonou..."
Gojyo found Goku staring at Koumyou, who in return just stared back. Goku's eyes looked around the man's face, even to the outfit he wore. It wasn't the same. Everything was still so incrediblely awkward. He wasn't even sure if he had to call this man, Sanzo. Whenever he said Sanzo he would always be seeing the familar blonde with the violet irises, but now he was looking at a brunette with a long braid. This wasn't right! At least to him.
"Saru, didn't the monk ever teach you not to stare?"
"Eh?"
Koumyou laughed and looked at Gojyo, "It's fine. I know this is very different for all of you."
"Y..you're not trying to replace Sanzo are you?" The brunette human gazed back into the youkai's golden eyes. He could see the fear laced in them, the huge hope that the answer was no. He only smiled and walked away.
"Naaa?"
"Man, he's right. It ain't the same without the damn monk!"Gojyo sighed and scratched his head, "This is gonna be one hell of a trip."
"H-He's can't take Sanzo's place! That don't allow that! Right? And..and he's already dead anyways!"
"I don't know, saru. God this is frustrating. I'm not cut out for this!"
"I want Sanzo..."
"......Yeah."
"Well, Kanan? Isn't it?"
Kanan stayed silent, watching Hakkai as he lifted himself off the bed, bandages loose around his wounds and dirty with blood. The girl soon found it frightening just to look in his eyes that bulid up so much coldness in them she couldn't stand it.
"Can't look your own brother in the eye? Before you used to be able to look at me. Was it because I was your lover? Am I now just your brother, Kanan?"
"No Gonou, you don't understand..."
"Then make me understand."
There was only silence. Hakkai smiled, but that was only a smirk. He felt like Gonou again. He didn't need to hide anything. He could be bitter if he wanted to. He was Cho Gonou, the one who could never love, never truly smile; the one who sinned a thousand times by killing a thousand youkai.
"Why did I kill all those youkai, Kanan? I'm sure you would know about that."
Kanan's fingers nervously gripped at her braid, "Um..you were mad."
"Why was I mad?"
"Because...I killed myself."
"Hmmmm."
Koumyou gazed out the window, watching the humans crowd around the bloody path, "We're going to save you, Kouryuu."
And the fake sakura blossoms continued falling at his feet.
"Killing a thousand for one. It sounds stupid doesn't it, Kanan?"
"Gonou..."
Hakkai stopped looking at her and walked around behind the girl, taking off his bandages. His reunion with Kanan should be happy like all lover's reunions were, but now he was ready to break her now. What the hell was going on with him? Why was he suddenly bitter to his sister and lover? Kanan sniffled. Hakkai knew she was trying to hold back tears that he was causing.
"I'm sorry I made you suffer like this Gonou. I really am! I didn't want it to be like this! I-I couldn't help myself! I was devastated! Gonou!"
"A little late on apology, aren't you Kanan?" Hakkai's eyes softened a little, forcing himself not to look as Kanan rubbed at her eyes. Maybe his heart was aching the same as well and he didn't know it.
"Gonou, please. I know it's been years since, but I'm still hurting over it! Gonou!"
Hakkai shook his head, not taking one look before he had left the room.
Gojyo and Goku were still there in the hallway once he emerged. He didn't even try smiling this time, which immediately made the other two worried because it seemed unusual..even if some of those smiles were fake. Hakkai looked at each of them before shoving past Gojyo down the opposite way Koumyou had left. The red haired youkai looked after at the man's back, before starting off after him, "Hakkai?!"
Goku blinked and raced after, "Wait, Gojyo!"
"Goku, you stay here!" The youkai blinked again and halted with the back of his heels, "Um..Okay."
{Be there------}
A pair of unnaturally bright violet eyes looked out to the forest, hands wrapped around the exposed flesh of Genjo Sanzo. A long fingernail that could've been a claw trailed over the blonde's chest, absently brushing at his sleeping face. Long, golden hair spewed from the figure's head, pouring over Sanzo's shoulders like a waterfall.
The bloody path was drying up, the sakura trees were fading away.
"I won't let anyone take you from me, my child. No one can."
{----and I'll be waiting for you}
"Hakkai, what's wrong with you?"
"I hated the rain. But yet in some ways I liked it too. The rain always hid my tears."
"Hakkai..."
Koumyou watched as the blossoms landed and died in shrivels. A hand went up to brush the long brunette hair away from his eyes as he looked down the pathway and to the mountains where traces of it disappeared. And yet in some ways he felt was being watched. Not by humans, by violet eyes. Not Kouryuu's. Someone else's. Koumyou didn't say anything as Goku walked up behind him, followed by Kanan, who just looked down at her feet.
"That's the path we're taking?"
"Yes. Gather Gojyo and Hakkai. We should leave now before the blood is absorbed by the earth."
Hakuryuu floated by and perched onto Goku's shoulder before Kanan spoke up, "Gonou..is having some difficulties right now." Goku shuffled his feet, letting his fingers pet the small dragon and letting his thoughts wander.
'I feel different. I know I can find him now, I still don't feel as happy as I normally would. Is it because...I can lose him forever this time?'
What was life without a sun?
"We should get back to others. We need to look for the monk."
Hakkai wrapped his hands around his arms, "I know...but I just feel like...I can't go on. Not like this. I feel so gulity that inside I have this feeling that I wouldn't care if Sanzo was gone. I don't want to feel that way and I didn't realize I felt like such about this until Kanan came back and awakened Gonou. Am I a sadist?"
"You're Cho Hakkai. You're not Gonou anymore. Gonou is dead."
TBC
I'm mean. I make the boys go through all these conflicts ^^. Ah well.