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Forgiveness
Videl Talks to Gohan
Videl started to feel hot, she wasn't sure if it was because of the sun beating down on her face, or it was the fact that Gohan scared her so. It had to be around 2 or 3 in the afternoon, so it could be the sun.
"What kind of dreams?"
She said softly as she stared at Gohan. Gohan lift his head, looking up into the clouds.
"Dreams of me running, running from something I'm not really sure of. It's dark, I can't see a thing in front of me, but I still run. A voice, that sounds a lot like Lime, my mom told you about her right?"
Gohan eyes turned to Videl, without moving his body turning to her. She jumped a little when she found out that Gohan asked her something. She shadowed hard and shook her head yes.
"I had a feeling she would."
Gohan said as he looked down at the ground.
"The voice speaks to me, telling me that I could never run away, " a long pause, "of what I did."
Gohan looked to the opposite side from were Videl was at. Looking at the tree filled with apples in them.
"What happens after that."
Videl said in almost a whisper, Gohan looked up from his daze, and turned his head around, looking at the ground.
"Memories…Memories from the Cell Games, things that happen that I don't even remember. I'm glad not to remember it. But the dream hunts me from what I did."
Videl didn't know what to say, after the fight with Buu and the Earth came back to their peaceful times, Gohan had told her everything that he remembered about the Cell Games. She did know to this day, that it hurt him. However, never this much, having nightmares about it.
"Why."
Gohan said as he leaned against his knees. Videl started to walk closer to the man she loved. She kneed down to him, and put her hand on his shoulder.
"Things happen for a reason Gohan. Things could have been worst if you…"
Gohan shot up to his feet.
"Everyone says that, that things would have been worst if I didn't kill Cell when I had the chance. That isn't true, Dad would have been alive, Goten would have had a father, Krillin wouldn't daze up into the sky wondering what my father would be doing at the time, Vegeta would have the same look in his eyes when he fights, Bulma wouldn't whispered his name until the sky when something remind her of him, Mom wouldn't of been in her rooms crying her eyes out wishing that my father was back, and I…,"
Gohan, who has been yelling this whole time, started to cry Videl got up and looked at him with hurt in her eyes.
"I wouldn't be feeling this pain that is burning in my heart. This guilt, this pain, everyone feeling pity for me, telling me it was not my fault. But I saw it in their eyes, the blamed me for the death of their friend, their lover, and their father. Goten, who looks and acts like my father mocking me, right in my face for what I done. What I have done to them all, my father, and myself!"
Gohan slowly dropped to the floor, crying like a mer child. Videl sat down right next to him, tried to put her arm around him, but he stopped and got back up. Pacing while he talked.
"Then Lime had to come, I never been so happy since I was a child before Piccolo trained me. She taught me how to be a child again. Running, laughing, and a bit carefree. However, the one thing that she had taught me that should never have been taught… Is to hide the feelings in my eyes."
Gohan stopped walking and looked up at Videl, right until her eyes.
"That's why it's so hard to see how I truly feel. That is how I would show my mother that their was nothing wrong, how I can convince Goten that I was so carefree as he. In addition, everyone at school and the gang (the z gang) see that I can, or act as if I can be happy after all that has happen. But my heart burns, burns for every fake smile that I have to pull, every time I tell the others that I am okay. No one, not even Lime can understand how hard it is…To pretend to be happy, because it burns your heart even more. But I had to be strong, not just mom and my brother…For everyone. Even if it comes at a price"
Gohan, which had nothing more to say. Sat down, but he didn't cry this time, he looked stare ahead, not daring to look at Videl now. After that long speech, he just told Videl about all the pain he feels. He had never opened up to anyone like that other then Lime. It left him with no feelings, like a hollow shell.
Videl in the other hand didn't really no what to think. It was all confession in her head. No she understood Gohan's pain, when her mother and father got a divorce and her mother wanted nothing to do with her. But after a year or so she got over it. However, the thing that confused her so is why he would still abuse his family, running away until someone would find him. It didn't seem like Gohan, Gohan seemed like that kind of guy who would lock himself in his room, not daring to talk to anyone. But that wasn't it, he would hit his mother and little brother. Getting knockout just to come back home. It didn't seem like Gohan at all.
"Gohan, I have a question."
Gohan looked up from the daze that he was in, it seemed like he does that a lot more.
"Why…Why did you hit your mother, and run away from home."
Gohan looked at he ground away from his girl. He didn't know what to say, he never really remembered hitting them.
"I don't know."
He whispered, Videl walked closer to Gohan.
"Yes you do, you know why Gohan just tell me!"
Gohan stood up.
"I'm mad at them."
Videl blinked at this, first he said that he was sorry that he hurt them so bad, now he is saying he is mad at them. Videl could feel her head hurting more and more.
"I don't get you son Gohan."
Gohan looked up, he turned around to see Videl's hand on her hips. Gohan blinked.
"I mean you are saying that you blame yourself that your family isn't happy because your dad is gone. But your mad for who does what. Do you even know why you are mad at them?"
Gohan looked away, this was to hard on him. Videl walked in front of Gohan, waiting for her answer.
"I don't remember why, just what ever happens at the time."
"That's no answer."
Videl yell at Gohan, Gohan stood up from were he was sitting.
"I have this hidden power in me that when I get mad I hurt the person that stands in my way. Thank Kami that I don't use that much of my power when I get like this. I don't know if I could live with my self if I killed one of them. I can barely living with myself now, every time I hit them, I pop back into reality. I love my family you know that, but once more like most of the time. I come in and out of reality, I always see my mom as Cell, and my little brother as Frieza. They both still haunt me. I can barely tell what's real any more."
Gohan started to cry once again, he has cried so much that he can't even count. At some points in his life he can't feel like he can cry anymore. His life has been so hard, so painful, and he didn't like living it. Videl didn't do anything.
"Believe me Videl, if I would just wish away all this I would, if I can just wish that I never lived I would."
"Don't say that Gohan."
Videl whispered as she walked closer to Gohan.
"None of this is your fault, believe me Gohan. As much as you think it is, it isn't."
Gohan head was down with tears flowing. Videl left up his chin, so he can look into her eyes.
"Just remember, no matter how much you feel pain, how much you feel like you can't hold on anymore, just remember all the people who love you. After all this they will be by your side. And remember me, because I will be for you no matter what."
Videl and Gohan leaded into each other, and sharing their first kiss. Once they were done with their moment and grew apart. Videl smiled at the young saiyan.
"You to your father, he really wants to talk to you my love."
Gohan looked a little shocked at the last word, he didn't complained, but smiled.
"Everyone deceivers a 2nd chance, I just hope he will talk to me."
Videl laughed a little about what Gohan said. She smiled back at him, and flew up to meet him eye to eye. Kissed him on the forehead, and flew away. Raising her ki, she smiled at her self, she knew that Gohan will be okay.
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I hope you all liked this chapter, very sad but Gohan will be okay. So don't worry about him, on this story I couldn't have a sad ending. It would be too much for me.
I do not own Dragonball Z
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Forgiveness
Videl Talks to Gohan
Videl started to feel hot, she wasn't sure if it was because of the sun beating down on her face, or it was the fact that Gohan scared her so. It had to be around 2 or 3 in the afternoon, so it could be the sun.
"What kind of dreams?"
She said softly as she stared at Gohan. Gohan lift his head, looking up into the clouds.
"Dreams of me running, running from something I'm not really sure of. It's dark, I can't see a thing in front of me, but I still run. A voice, that sounds a lot like Lime, my mom told you about her right?"
Gohan eyes turned to Videl, without moving his body turning to her. She jumped a little when she found out that Gohan asked her something. She shadowed hard and shook her head yes.
"I had a feeling she would."
Gohan said as he looked down at the ground.
"The voice speaks to me, telling me that I could never run away, " a long pause, "of what I did."
Gohan looked to the opposite side from were Videl was at. Looking at the tree filled with apples in them.
"What happens after that."
Videl said in almost a whisper, Gohan looked up from his daze, and turned his head around, looking at the ground.
"Memories…Memories from the Cell Games, things that happen that I don't even remember. I'm glad not to remember it. But the dream hunts me from what I did."
Videl didn't know what to say, after the fight with Buu and the Earth came back to their peaceful times, Gohan had told her everything that he remembered about the Cell Games. She did know to this day, that it hurt him. However, never this much, having nightmares about it.
"Why."
Gohan said as he leaned against his knees. Videl started to walk closer to the man she loved. She kneed down to him, and put her hand on his shoulder.
"Things happen for a reason Gohan. Things could have been worst if you…"
Gohan shot up to his feet.
"Everyone says that, that things would have been worst if I didn't kill Cell when I had the chance. That isn't true, Dad would have been alive, Goten would have had a father, Krillin wouldn't daze up into the sky wondering what my father would be doing at the time, Vegeta would have the same look in his eyes when he fights, Bulma wouldn't whispered his name until the sky when something remind her of him, Mom wouldn't of been in her rooms crying her eyes out wishing that my father was back, and I…,"
Gohan, who has been yelling this whole time, started to cry Videl got up and looked at him with hurt in her eyes.
"I wouldn't be feeling this pain that is burning in my heart. This guilt, this pain, everyone feeling pity for me, telling me it was not my fault. But I saw it in their eyes, the blamed me for the death of their friend, their lover, and their father. Goten, who looks and acts like my father mocking me, right in my face for what I done. What I have done to them all, my father, and myself!"
Gohan slowly dropped to the floor, crying like a mer child. Videl sat down right next to him, tried to put her arm around him, but he stopped and got back up. Pacing while he talked.
"Then Lime had to come, I never been so happy since I was a child before Piccolo trained me. She taught me how to be a child again. Running, laughing, and a bit carefree. However, the one thing that she had taught me that should never have been taught… Is to hide the feelings in my eyes."
Gohan stopped walking and looked up at Videl, right until her eyes.
"That's why it's so hard to see how I truly feel. That is how I would show my mother that their was nothing wrong, how I can convince Goten that I was so carefree as he. In addition, everyone at school and the gang (the z gang) see that I can, or act as if I can be happy after all that has happen. But my heart burns, burns for every fake smile that I have to pull, every time I tell the others that I am okay. No one, not even Lime can understand how hard it is…To pretend to be happy, because it burns your heart even more. But I had to be strong, not just mom and my brother…For everyone. Even if it comes at a price"
Gohan, which had nothing more to say. Sat down, but he didn't cry this time, he looked stare ahead, not daring to look at Videl now. After that long speech, he just told Videl about all the pain he feels. He had never opened up to anyone like that other then Lime. It left him with no feelings, like a hollow shell.
Videl in the other hand didn't really no what to think. It was all confession in her head. No she understood Gohan's pain, when her mother and father got a divorce and her mother wanted nothing to do with her. But after a year or so she got over it. However, the thing that confused her so is why he would still abuse his family, running away until someone would find him. It didn't seem like Gohan, Gohan seemed like that kind of guy who would lock himself in his room, not daring to talk to anyone. But that wasn't it, he would hit his mother and little brother. Getting knockout just to come back home. It didn't seem like Gohan at all.
"Gohan, I have a question."
Gohan looked up from the daze that he was in, it seemed like he does that a lot more.
"Why…Why did you hit your mother, and run away from home."
Gohan looked at he ground away from his girl. He didn't know what to say, he never really remembered hitting them.
"I don't know."
He whispered, Videl walked closer to Gohan.
"Yes you do, you know why Gohan just tell me!"
Gohan stood up.
"I'm mad at them."
Videl blinked at this, first he said that he was sorry that he hurt them so bad, now he is saying he is mad at them. Videl could feel her head hurting more and more.
"I don't get you son Gohan."
Gohan looked up, he turned around to see Videl's hand on her hips. Gohan blinked.
"I mean you are saying that you blame yourself that your family isn't happy because your dad is gone. But your mad for who does what. Do you even know why you are mad at them?"
Gohan looked away, this was to hard on him. Videl walked in front of Gohan, waiting for her answer.
"I don't remember why, just what ever happens at the time."
"That's no answer."
Videl yell at Gohan, Gohan stood up from were he was sitting.
"I have this hidden power in me that when I get mad I hurt the person that stands in my way. Thank Kami that I don't use that much of my power when I get like this. I don't know if I could live with my self if I killed one of them. I can barely living with myself now, every time I hit them, I pop back into reality. I love my family you know that, but once more like most of the time. I come in and out of reality, I always see my mom as Cell, and my little brother as Frieza. They both still haunt me. I can barely tell what's real any more."
Gohan started to cry once again, he has cried so much that he can't even count. At some points in his life he can't feel like he can cry anymore. His life has been so hard, so painful, and he didn't like living it. Videl didn't do anything.
"Believe me Videl, if I would just wish away all this I would, if I can just wish that I never lived I would."
"Don't say that Gohan."
Videl whispered as she walked closer to Gohan.
"None of this is your fault, believe me Gohan. As much as you think it is, it isn't."
Gohan head was down with tears flowing. Videl left up his chin, so he can look into her eyes.
"Just remember, no matter how much you feel pain, how much you feel like you can't hold on anymore, just remember all the people who love you. After all this they will be by your side. And remember me, because I will be for you no matter what."
Videl and Gohan leaded into each other, and sharing their first kiss. Once they were done with their moment and grew apart. Videl smiled at the young saiyan.
"You to your father, he really wants to talk to you my love."
Gohan looked a little shocked at the last word, he didn't complained, but smiled.
"Everyone deceivers a 2nd chance, I just hope he will talk to me."
Videl laughed a little about what Gohan said. She smiled back at him, and flew up to meet him eye to eye. Kissed him on the forehead, and flew away. Raising her ki, she smiled at her self, she knew that Gohan will be okay.
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I hope you all liked this chapter, very sad but Gohan will be okay. So don't worry about him, on this story I couldn't have a sad ending. It would be too much for me.