-Sorry I have not written in a while. It has been so busy here.



-I am also writing The Adleshaw. Go. Read it.



-I have stayed up to 2 in the morning watching the x-files (A friend got me obsessed 2 days ago) for the past 2 nights and I am not fully uh, well. So please bear with me. And my awful spelling abilities.



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It had been 10 hours. It was 4 in the morning. We left in 1 hour. I was in the snow for what I think was an hour and the girls got me up. I am sitting up in my bed, a blanket over me. None of us had said a word. They were getting ready. Missy was changing. Amber making the beds and Jerrie just sitting there. They are all in girls clothes. No use in lying even more. Pants onto my head.

"Get dressed." Jerrie simply said. They expect me to go?

"No." I threw them back at her. Was it right I exposed all of them too? "I ain't going."

"Yes you are." Missy said dragging me out of my top bunk.

"Ow!" I hit the floor with a loud thunk. The infamous thump from Mrs. Kirchoff. "Shut the fuck up you old bag! That is louder than us! I am surprised you can here anything you wrinkle monster!" My anger turned to tears. Nobody went to consol me. I mean I don't expect Amber to come over here and hug me or anything but still. I got up and Jerrie forced clothes on me.

We got outside. What if I try to rush back in? It didn't work. Nobody said anything.

"Achoo." No God bless you. No nothing. We were almost there. Everybody started slowing their pace.

We all stepped up. Everybody slowly turns to us.

"Let's uh, get in line." I stuttered. I take it they made the exception and we can sell here. Nobody said a word until Miss bitch Ashley entered. She has apparently been informed.

"You looked better as a boy." She said getting into the line.

"Listen Ashley I have been enough hell with in the last 24 hours and I don't need your shit Bitch." I said my pain turning to anger again.

"I guess your right. I mean your life id hell. You look like that, you live on the street, the guy you loves wishes you were dead." She licked her lips. I was about to retaliate when none other than Amber spoke up.

"Yeah, so she has had it hard. At least people love her at all. You, your own father doesn't love you. That is why he buys you everything. He doesn't love you Ashley." With that Ashley walked over to Amber and slapped on her left cheek. A red mark formed. The next thing I herd was the sound of Ashley falling to the groung after my fist flew into her pretty face. She got up. All out war raged on. Just me and her. And I was kicking her ass. But she had nails. The guys just watched. And my friends did to. I didn't know I was crying until the salt of my tears stung mu cut on my right cheek. Enter Jack. He stood up on a couple crates.

"Hey Ash! Uh, Gwen." He doesn't know what to call me. "Stop!" She got um, primped herself.

"Uh! Jack it was awful. She told me she was jealous of me and she just jumped me! I tried to defend myself." She said crying running up to him and embracing him.

"Is that what happened?" He looked around at everybody. Nobody spoke. I must took patheditic

I was half lying down on the snow covered ground . Blood and tears streamed my face.

"No. She said something, I said something, she hit me and Gwen hit her." Amber spoke up. Was she defending me?

"Ashley I think you should leave. This isn't a place for you." He said still staring at me. He kind of pushed her away. "Go." He went to get his papers.

"100 papes." He said to Wesel not taking his eyes off of me. He started to walk away.

"Amber I-"

"Don't worry, I know. Go get him Gwennie." She said. We hugged. And I ran after Jack.

I caught up to him in a busy street a good half mile away from the D.O. The sun was coming up and the fog disappearing.

"Jack! Let's end this all now! I love you. Let's run away. To- to Santa Fee." I pleaded tears streaming down my face.

"Who said I loved you. I don't know anything about you Gwen. You lie. You lie a lot." he said turning away from me. I can feel the coldness of his eyes even though he was turned away. "Just because you have a crush on me doesn't mean everything is perfect."

"You don't understand." I want to tell him everything I had been feeling over the past months but the words wont come out.

"How can I understand when you won't tell me the truth?" we ducked into an empty ally because people started giving us looks.

"I have told you the truth." Nobody spoke. "Missy and I are cousins." I said shyly. I told the truth. Sometimes.

"No you said me and Steven are cousins. You don't get it. I have gone through everything in my life time and I don't need-"

"You have gone through everything?" I asked getting angery. "I have been to hell and back. Repeatedly. And the past months with you have been worse."

"Well if I have made your life living hell why do you want to be with me."

"I thought I have made that clear dumb ass! I love you!"

"You keep saying that but if you really loved me you would want me to be happy. And let me tell you," He said pointing at me. "Seeing you is NOT making me happy." It started raining.

"What if we started over. Or, or worked everything out?" I suggested. I think he is crying to.

"We can't. I could never be with you," He said getting close to me. "You make me sick knowing how you lied yourself and your little friends into my life." I slapped him. At least I didn't hit him.

"Bastard." I whispered. "I love you and you can't accept the fact I screwed things up a little."

"I just want to be something we will never be."

"Oh yeah, and what is that?" I asked staring him straight in the eye.

"A normal couple." He whispered to me. "Every time I see you I want hold you in my arms forever but think I could never be you knowing you lied to me." It sounded familiar.

"I have a plan. You kiss me. You will forget any pain I caused you and I will forget any pain you caused me! In that one moment we will be a normal couple."

"What happens when we stop?" He grabbed his papers and walked away. I just stood there in the freezing rain sobbing for a moment cursing the Lord and why he did this to me. Then I felt a strong pair of arms spin me around and his soft lips slowly grasp mine. And I was right. Every moment I have even doubted him melted away and we just stood there. Just him and I ready to face the world. But it had to end. We just stood there. As it began to snow we left hand in hand to the lodging house.

"If we'se gonna be together I don't want you 'searching through the cards Cowboy." He laughed. They laughed. And Gwen was finally happy.

You know that feeling when you wake up in the middle of the afternoon and you haven't quite opened your eyes yet? And you can slip in and out of a dream world you control? Do you know that feeling? I love that feeling. In my dream world I am in the real world. I love to open my eyes and see his loving face staring at me from the other side of the bed.



-Just an epilog left folks!