A/N: Well so much for the previous chapter. I hope it wasn't that bad. Sadly it had to be done. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this one.
Peace.

Chapter 11

~*~Outburst Of Emotion~*~



Mikey typed away rapidly on my labtop looking at the information I had collected so far. 2 days had passed since that horrible day. I now had 5
more days to complete my mission. Since 2 days ago I hadn't seen Duo and all I did was lie in my room on my bed. I hadn't eaten or even slept,
only thought. How did I get home you ask? Well lets just say I owe alot to Mikey. After that day, Trigger and his companions dumped me in a
ditch. Both my hands and legs were tied and my mouth was still taped. Mikey searched for me and found me. He then took me home and nursed me
back to health. Still even now I didn't feel so healthy.

I felt so paranoid now. I felt as if a man were to touch me, I'd twitch or move away. The only male I did trust however was Mikey. Don't
ask why because I can't explain it myself. I heard a small knock at my bedroom door." Keense you have to eat something..." said Mikey worriedly.
I closed my eyes and continued to lie there on the bed. " You've been in there for 2 days straight without eating! Common, just have something!"
he said once again. Even though I wanted to eat, I couldn't. My mind said that I should, but my stomach hadn't the appetite. Again my bedroom
door was knocked on. This time it was more louder,' Damnit Keense! Say something!' I continued to ignore him. I knew it was rude but I didn't
feel like talking very much.

"^sigh^ Thats it. I'm going down town and I'm buying you a burger...I'll be back in about an hour or two" he said walking away. I could hear his
footsteps leaving faintly until I couldn't hear them anymore. He seemed angry for when he closed the door, he almost slammed it. I felt guilty
for making him worry about me so. But I felt like shit and I didn't want to do anything. A horrible thought kept haunting my mind. What if I did
end up with a child? I would no longer be able to be part of I.C.O.N and I'd be hunted for the rest of my life until I was dead. Suddenly I
heard a knock on the front door of the appartment. I wasn't sure who it was and I really didn't care at the moment. After a few seconds, the
knocking stopped. I felt relieved now that I could be alone once again. Then, to my surprise, a knock was heard on my bedroom door again. I
closed my eyes even tigher.

" Mikey just put it in the fridge. I'll eat it later" I said weakly. " Keense? Is that you?" said a voice I've been wanting to hear for 2 days.
I opened my eyes widely and gasped. " D-Duo?" I said in a whimper. He was alive? He was ok! He wasn't killed! He was fine! " Do you want me to
leave you alone?" he said concernly. I closed my eyes and forced a smile to my face. I could feel tears escaping my face. " N-no. You can come
in" I said weakly once again. I forced myself to sit up and had a hard time doing so. I felt so weak that I just wanted to sleep. The bedroom
door than opened and I looked at the entrance. There he stood. He was in great condition, giving me that suave smile as he usually does. But
what got me feeling guilty was that his arm was in a sling.

I lowered my eyebrows in concern as he walked in and closed the door. I sat there on the bed with my eyes wavering in guilt. I prayed that his
arm wasn't broken. Even if it wasn't broken, he was still injured and it was my fault. He leaned there on the back of the door looking at me in
pity. " Are you alright?" he asked worriedly but in a calm tone. I didn't care about me right now,' Is it broken?' The long haired boy looked at
me curiously then at his arm,' Heh this thing? Nah its fine. It was just dislocated thats all. I'll be fine after awhile' I forced a smile and
looked away in guilt once again. I then heard him walking over towards the side of the bed. He then leaned himself on the dresser asked once
again, ' Are you ok?' I turned my head the other way and closed my eyes tightly. I then clentched the bedsheets and gritted my teeth.

Duo's eyes wavered in empathy. He felt bad for me even though he shouldn't have. He then reached out his hand and layed it upon my shoulder.
As if it were a new instinct, I jumped away to another spot on the bed. I looked at Duo with fear. He looked back at me with that same pity
struck look. First he gains these feelings for me and yet I didn't have these feelings for him making it hard for him to bare. And now he
wasn't even able to touch me anymore. Realising what I had done, I started to cry. For the first time in a long time I actually forgot what
I was trained to do and let my emotions out. " I didn't know what to do...if I hadn't of went with him he would have killed you! I had no
choice...I had no choice." I said burrying my face in a pillow sobbing as if I were a kid that had scraped my knee.

" I know what happened to you is horrible. Something like that shouldn't happen to any woman especially you. I wish you hadn't of went with him
because of me. Even if they tried to kill me they wouldn't have gotten very far" he said assuringly. I then ripped my head from the pillow. My
face wet with tears and my cheeks red with guilt,' You don't understand do you? They could have killed you in an instant if I hadn't of gone
with him! We're not just your average people, Duo! We were trained how to kill without being caught! Trained how to kill without making a big
scene! You would have died in an instant if I hadn't of done what he said! So don't fucking say that you could have handled it yourself!'
More tears rained down my cheeks as I yelled at him.

" So you'd rather risk yourself than me?" he said just as angrily. " I would rather die myself then let another innocent person die!" I yelled
back even louder. Duo stood there in shock,' What do you mean...' I moved on the bed then stood up on the opposite end,' That girl I was in love
with...SHE WAS KILLED BY A FUCKING GUNDAM PILOT! AND THAT BASTARD IS GOING TO PAY WITH HIS LIFE FOR WHAT HE DID! IF HE HADN'T OF KILLED HER,
NONE OF THIS SHIT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED! I JOINED I.C.O.N SOLEY TO KILL HIM!' I was now sobbing madly, not being able to control myself. I leaned
up against the wall covering my face so that he wouldn't see me. I then heard him walking around the bed and felt his warmth infront of me. Not
being able to resist, I layed my hands and head on his chest and he instantly embraced me with his good arm. I continued crying and I could feel
my tears falling onto his black clothes. I then felt him stroking my head gently, trying to calm me down. After a few seconds of intense crying,
I sniffeled a few times. His chest was so warm that I didn't want to move my head.

I clentched his clothing in my hands nervously as I almost panted from exhaustion. He then asked me a question,' What gundam was it...' I closed
my eyes and sighed heavily. " Gundam Pilot...02" I said in a muffle. Duo then closed his eyes tightly. Wishing he wouldn't have to open them
ever again. I cuddled my head onto his chest and continued to sniffle while he continued to pet my head comfortingly, ' Gundam 02 eh...'

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1 more day had passed and I had regained full strength and Duo was now able to rid himself of the sling. I was now down to 4 days to find the
gundam pilot and bring him to the colony. I didn't have to worry about bareing a child anymore. Mikey reminded me about the pills the commanding
officers had insisted on giving me. When I had told him that I had taken one, he told me to feel extremely gratefull. That, I was indeed. Mikey
was now gone and I was forced to be alone for the time being. He was safely back on the colony hopefully behaving himself. He suggested before
he left that I take at least one day off from my work. It sounded good, but one day was crucial. I decided half a day would be good enough. I was
awake early that morning so that I could start half the day decently. I made myself eggs and toast and ate peacefully.

It felt great not having to worry about my mission. It was relaxing aswell. I sat down in the living room and decided to watch a little T.V. I
flipped through the channels until I came upon something rather interesting,' Today more bomb threats have been made. Anonymous letters of these
threats were sent to the Trade Centre. A total number of 5 leters have been confirmed so far. Security has doubled since the 2nd letter. More
information on this event will be given later on...' I sat back and bit into a piece of my toast. I remembered Duo telling me something simliar
like this. I thought he was just making it up but now that I've seen it on the television myself, I wasn't sure what to make of it. The states
are a powerful country. Who would be crazy enough to challange their might?

I decided not to let that bother me. It was one less issue I needed to worry about. I shut the T.V off and sat there for a moment, thinking
about what I was going to do in my spare time. Suddenly the phone rang. I jumped off from the couch and scrambeled to get to it before it
stopped ringing. I then grabbed the receiver and placed it to my ear,' Amina speaking, may I ask who's calling?' " It's me..." said a firmilliar
voice that had now brought a smile to my face,' Hey, how's your arm?' " Well I can move it again if thats what your asking. Anyways since school
is still closed, I was thinking about going downtown to get a bite to eat. Then I thought maybe you'd like to join me..." he said happily. I
thought about this for a moment. Maybe it'd be best if I didn't see him anymore. It would only put him in more jepordy BUT I didn't want to be
alone and I was bored.

" It sounds great but...well why don't you come here instead?" I asked hoping he would reply yes. " Hmmm...ya sure why not. I'll stop by timmy's
and get a bite to eat for the both of us...how bout an ice cap?" he said. I thought for a moment wondering what in the world he had just said.
" An ice whacha-who?" I said with the most confused look a person could have. I then heard my braided friend laugh hysterically,' Nevermind.
you'll find out when I get there. Just hang tight, I'll be there in a bit' " Ok...bye" I said hanging up the phone. I then walked back over to
the couch thinking about something,' Ice Capa-who-nee?'

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Mikey walked down the halls of the colony. With him he carried my secret. It wouldn't be that big of a deal if the commanding officers found
out. They wouldn't have given me those pills if they knew something like that wouldn't have happened right? They never said that the mission
would be a piece of cake.

My roommate continued walking down the halls of the colony, trying to get to the 2nd level to get something to snack on. He was summoned by the
commanding officers personally. It seemed as if they wanted some information on how I was doing. But before Mikey went, he needed to satify
his hunger. He walked into the cafeteria and took a tray. Taking a sandwich here and a jello there. An orange pop to drink and an ice cream for
desert. He smiled to the woman who was serving the food then walked over to a table and sat by himself. He was about to take a bite out of his
sandwich when suddenly a face he didn't want to see was there. " Hey Mikey!" said the voice. The brown haired boy looked up with shock,' HUH?
T-Trigger? But I thou-' " Hey buddy how's it going? Is everything cool?" he asked suspiciously.

My male friend celntched his fist then grabbed the cuff of the man's shirt,' Listen you sick fuck...don't play with me because I have zero
tolerance for asswipes like you. Now I don't know if I heard right but I thought you escaped from this colony hm?' Trigger began to laugh
silently as he was almost pulled over the table. Mikey didn't loosen his grip on his uniform, instead he tightened it. " So...I'm guessing you
ran into Keense...is she doing well?" he asked evily. My allie growled. He then brought his fist back and launched it right into his sorry face.
Trigger fell to the floor hard on his backside, though his lip was in more pain. Everyone in the cafeteria looked on at what just happened.
Mikey stood up and towered over the paining man,' If I see your face around me again...you'll get more than just a bleeding lip' He then
kneeled down and smiled at him,' Buddy'

Mikey then patted him on the back but NOT in a buddy buddy way. He then got up and started making his way out from the cafeteria, deciding that
he should go see the commanding officers now and get it over with. From behind, he could hear Trigger yelling out,' Your fucking dead Mikey!'

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" Eh?" I said looking at a strange drink. I took a whiff of it and it smelled like coffee except it was cold,' I'm suppose to drink this?' Duo
looked at me oddly as we both sat there on the couch. He drank thirstily away at his own frozen like beverage, yet I still tried to figure out
why it was suppose to seem delicious. " Put your mouth over the straw and drink...try that for starters..." said Duo sarcastically. I shot him
an unamused look,' Ha...Ha. Your extrememly funny' I looked back at this ^Iced Cappaccino^ and decided to take a small sip. When I did, I
instantly favoured it. It's taste was like nothing I had ever tried before. " Mmmm, hey not bad" I said sipping away happily. " Ya and the best
part is, I won't have to worry about getting any on my face" he replied happily. I cocked an eyebrow and gave him a devious look,' Really?'

" Hey! Common, cut me some slack! " he whimpered as I threatened him with a straw. I then began to laugh. A laugh I had never been able to do
ever since Amina died. For some reason it was as if I had met Amina all over again. I could see a bit of her personality in this charming boy.
It made me, feel whole again. I then placed my drink down then lied back on the couch. I looked at Duo and he seemed as if he was sitting
upside down from my point of view. " Having fun?" he asked with a smile. I smiled back, ' More than you could imagine...' my male companion
nodded. He seemed happy now that I was back to myself once again. " So...what happened to your parents?" he asked curiously, sipping the last
few drops of his drink. I sighed as I continued to lie there. I then replied,' My mother died just after giving birth to me. My father was
killed the same day Amina was killed. Gundam 02 was destroying a military base and my father was a corporal there. There were no survivors left
on that base except me...I guess what they say about a gundam is true. Once you lay your eyes on one, it will be the last thing you'd see'

It suddenly became silent. I wasn't saddened by telling my story, but somehow Duo seemed to be. I tapped him on the leg,' Hey...whats wrong?'
" Huh? Oh...um nothing. It's just sad that your father died like that. I wish there was something I could have done" he said sadly. I smiled.
" Don't worry about it. I never really liked my father and there was nothing you could have done anyways..." I said assuring him. * If you only
knew...* he said in thought to himself. Once again I saw him with that look of sadness. This was the second time. What was wrong with him? If I
wasn't saddened by this, then he shouldn't be. I sat up properly and looked at him,' Duo whats wrong? You look sad...' Once again he seemed as
if he came back from a daze,' Huh?...ah sorry. I was just thinking about something' I then smiled at him hoping everything was alright.

" Listen...I don't mean to change the topic but, but are you currently on a mission?" he asked. I then nodded, agreeing with what he said,
' Yes. The ones that gave me my mission are the commanding officers. The leaders of I.C.O.N. My mission is to bring back a gundam pilot to
I.C.O.N but he can't be harmed' Duo shifted and had a look of seriousness,' And you plan of finding gundam pilot 02 right?' I nodded once
again,' After the commanding officers are done with him, I'm going to ask permission if I could personally kill him. I want him to die by my
hands...'

" What would you say if I were to tell you that I can help you find him..." he said calmly. I sat there with shock for a moment,' H-how...'
He then looked back at me with his eyes admiring me. I knew once again what he was thinking,' Do it...' His goofy expression then changed to a
curious one,' Do what?' I continued smiling at him,' Kiss me...' He then stood up and looked away. He felt as if he was forcing me into it each
time he looked at me that way. Making me feel bad for him. " Keense...I don't think thats a good idea. Like I said before, I'm not going to kiss
you if-" " If I'm not attracted to you...right?" I said interupting him. He then nodded. I looked down. For once I started to feel the emotion
of embarassment taking over me. " Well...I wouldn't have asked...if I wasn't interested" I said nervously.

I heard a hint of shock in his voice. I then stood up and looked at him standing there. " I wouldn't know what love is. I've never really
experienced its full potential for almost 3 years. I was trained how to be emotionless and how to act..." I said nervously. I then
closed my eyes and my smile brodened,' But...it seemed as if each time we encountered, you slowly started chiping away at the barrier that had
kept me so isolated for the past 3 years...I thought I'd end up killing you for getting in my way. But each time we met again, I slowly started
enjoying your company because I wasn't alone anymore. I had someone who shared a similar past as me...but regardless of what training I've been
through, or what I have been taught, or even what has happened to me that I'll never forget. I'm still a woman who can have feelings for someone
she cares about no matter what she has been taught or trained to do'

I looked down at my feet, afraid of what was going to happen next. As I stood there looking down, I saw another pair of feet facing mine. I
looked up and saw him staring down at me with that admiring expression. He looked as if he knew exactly what I was talking about. It was as if
He would have said the same thing if he were in my place. Slowly his face neared mine. My heart pounded for a few unsure seconds, not knowing if
this was right or not. I closed my eyes slowly and waited to feel his lips upon mine. Even though I kissed him before, It was nothing compared
to how it was expressed right now. He was so gentle. So patient. Previously I wasn't sure if this was the right thing, but now I was sure. I
was in love with Duo Maxwell.

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A/N: OH HO HO! You just wait for the next one....Don't forget to review. Oh and Katia, you asked me why Duo was knocked out so easily? Well have
you watched the endless waltz? Memba when Heero Jabs Duo in the same spot? Duo didn't last to long! He actually Fainted! So if you think about
it, I made him seem a tad stronger than what he really is...heh heh heh...