Someone Like Me
Chapter 6: Zell
Woohoo! another chapter! teehee! How'd ya like the last one? Hope it was okay! ^_^ this chapter is an even major turning point! Teehee! Read to find out! I wonder how I should end this?? hehehe, dunno. I have found that I put a lot more of my emotions into Fuuji-chan's part... maybe it's because I'm a girl and I understand her better. heh ^_^ R&R, ya know the deal! ^_^ Thankies to all!
"Woah! Hey, Zell, look!" I hear Irvine say in awe. I am too buisy eating two hotdogs to care at the moment. I am depressed... what else can I say? Yes... DEPRESSED. It's strange to label myself that way because I am not normally depressed. But when a beautiful Albino, who you have never really gotten along with, is in tears and hugs you so tightly just blows you off and leaves without saying anything to you for the rest of the week... well... You'd be depressed too... it was like it didn't even happen... I tried to confront her about it but my nerves got the best of me. Luckly, eating hotdogs takes my mind off of it. They're damned good hotdogs, let me tell ya. I dunno why I even bothered to come to this dance. To make myself even more depressed? I shove the last 1/3 of a hotdog in my mouth. Oh yeah... That's why I came... hotdogs... *drool*
"Umm... Zell, man, ya hatfa see THIS," Irvine insists as he pats my shoulder. I grunt a little, angry that he is bothering me. I lift my head to see what Irvine's goin' on about. When I do, all I see is Rinoa leading someone I don't really recognize by the hand.
"Why is Squall wearing a dress?" I ask without thinking.
"That's not Squall, BAKA!" Irvine sighs as he smacks me upside the head.
"Owchies," I sob and rub the back of my head. Irvine leans closer to me.
"Look closer, THEN tell me who it is," he says. I squint my eyes to see better. It was... Wow... such beauty... Her...
"I... I uh... have to go... get a drink. Want one?" I mutter as I get up to leave.
"No, wait, Zell. Don't you want a closer look? Man, Fuujin's HOT!" Irvine cries. I felt the angry brewing in my body. I had to go away from this spot. So, I leave to the drink counter. When I get there, I turn back to see what's going on. I watch Irvine tip his hat to both Rinoa and Fuujin and it looks as though he says something, which causes both girls to blush. *growl*
Fuujin looks... incredible. No words can even describe how different and beautiful she looks. She had always been rather pretty but always hid behind a boyish attitude.
She is wearing this hot little light blue dress that fits snuggly on her body. Yikes! It looks so good on her. I also notice she is not wearing her eye patch... but I can't see her eyes from here... I want to look into them... All of a sudden she looks up at me. I know she was looking right at me... our eyes locked... Gah! I fumble for a drink and look away. What am I doing? Just go over there and hang out with all your friends. A slow song comes on. Oh great, now my friends will be dancing. Just stay here. I see a guy walk up to Fuujin. He says something to her and tries to take her hand. She shakes her head looking a little angry and pulls her hand away, then she points in my direction. The Guy looks over to me with a strange look on his face. I give a small wave confusedly. Then I watch in shock as Fuujin glides over to me.
"DANCE." she says to me. Why is she tormenting me? She grabs my hands.
"No. I can't I don't like to dance," I try to explain but it is too late. I feel myself giving in to her strange beauty.
"That student was harassing me... It wouldn't look good if a teacher assaulted a student... no matter how much that student deserved it… I told him you were my date," Fuujin whispers in my ear. I pull back from her startled by her use of complete sentences but also smiling at the comment. I gaze into her eyes... heh... yes, this time eyes. They are strange but exotic. Her left eye, which had been covered by the eye patch, was almost a crystal white color without any color pigment in it.
"You... you actually spoke to me. That is somewhat surprising. Heh heh. *nervous chuckle* Umm... You look very nice..." I stammer. Oi, what an idiot!
"I... " Fuujin begins but it seems like she has a loss for words. She leans in closer to me and lays her head on my shoulder. I close my eyes at the warm feeling she gives me. The slow song ends and the lights brighten slightly. I can feel eyes staring at me and a low whisper near by. It made me uncomfortable and it apparently made Fuujin feel out of place too because she jolted out of my arms and looked around almost embarrassedly. I look at her not caring about the others... She frantically looks around unhappy with all the stares she is receiving. I'm used to being stared at because of the way I act but she is used to scaring people into not looking at her.
"I... I have to go," she mutters quickly as she breaks free from my hold on her. She bolts for the exit.
"F... Fuujin!" I cry as I stand there. Go after her!
"Way ta go, Zell! Yeehaw!" I hear Irvine call as he makes his way towards me. I push him out of my way angrily and head towards the exit.
"You better not have done anything to hurt her, Chicken wuss," Seifer growls as he blocks my path. I would have gotten VERY pissed of at that name if I hadn't been on a mission.
"Out of my way. I have to go see if she's all right, 'cause Hyne knows you don't give a damn!" I bark and push through him leaving him speechless.
"Zell!" I hear Instructor gasp as I leave the auditorium. Tch. Where should I possibly start looking? Where would I go if I was upset? ...The Training Area! I hurry to the Training Area, hoping to find her there.
I walk along the dirt path looking around in the trees and on rocks. I finally get to the entrance of the Secret Area and stop in front of it. She's not in there. Don't even bother looking. A girl like her doesn't go to places like this. But I rarely do the logical thing, so I enter the Secret Area. There are only three other people in the Secret Area tonight. The usuals who reside here are probably still at the dance. In the upper right hand corner is a couple, pressed up against the wall kissing. I shake my head disapprovingly and turn my attention the single person sitting on the balcony rail. She has her knees pressed to her chest and she is staring out at the horizon, which has vanished in the darkness. I walk slowly towards her trying to avoid looking at her white panties as I approach. I feel myself blush. Thank Hyne I don't take jerk lessons from Irvine.
"F... Fuujin?" I ask gently. Her head perks up and she looks at me with those eyes. She's holding a flute in her hand and her eye patch also dangles along side it. She only stares at me.
"I... I don't even know what to say right now, Fuujin. I don't even know why I came here," Is all I could think of to say.
"How did you know to find me here?" she asks almost in a whisper. She looks past me, waiting for an answer.
"I didn't think I would find you here... I had come to check the Training Area... A warrior at heart would have come to the fighting before anything else," I reply. She still gazes passed me now looking slightly annoyed. I turned and realized what was bothering her. The couple who had been making out against the wall now seemed to find Fuujin and I more interesting.
"COME." Fuujin commands as she takes my hand. She leads me out of the secret area and away from gawking eyes. When we had reached the halls of Garden she still held onto my hand. She held so tight as though she were afraid that I would leave if she loosened her grip. We walk more slowly now still not saying a word. What is there to be said? It's like a dream.
"I... I've been thinking about you all week..." Fuujin finally says in a gentle voice. Lie! Why would she be thinking of me?
"I... I..." she begins. I'm not very quick so I can't just catch on to what she's trying to say. I bring my free hand to her cheek and stare into her eyes. She puts her own hand on top of mine and closes her eyes. Her bottom lip begins to tremble... I have never seen such a strong woman look so vulnerable... except the last time I confronted her...
"I don't want to be alone any more..." Fuujin suddenly cries as she falls into my arms. I hold her tightly for a moment not wanting to let her go. Is this for real? I have always been intrigued by this woman and now she is in my arms. My heart feels strange. Am I... in love with her? I've never felt true love before. I hold her tighter not ever wanting to let her go. I... I don't want to be alone either... I'm tired of being alone. We stay in a loving embrace for a few minutes until a group of noisy people came near the dormitory entrance. Fuujin quickly lets me go and takes my hand, kissing it before she pulls me into the dormitory hallway. Is she embarrassed by me? She leads me to her bedroom. I pause a moment at her doorway after she has entered. What is she doing? Without a second thought I enter her room and she closes the door behind me.
"Are... are you embarrassed by me?" I ask as she sits on the edge of her bed. Her bedroom smells beautiful like baby powder and flowers.
"No... I don't like unnecessary attention," she answers keeping her eyes fixed on mine. I sit next to her on the bed and run my hand through her hair. I lean to kiss her. Her lips make me feel so loved. I can feel my heart pound in my chest.
"I... I love you. I've been waiting for you all my life. I truly love you," I tell her. She gazes up at me as I wait for her reply.
"There is only one other man I have ever been in love with... But I realized that he was never mine to love," she says. I didn't know whether to be hurt by this or not. She continues, "But you... You are the one I am supposed to be with... Another lonely soul... like mine. I love you." She presses her lips passionately against mine and gently pulls me down as she lies backwards onto the bed. She is so warm... and loving... from there we...