Someone Like Me
Chapter 8: Zell
Hi hi again! *tear of happiness* Thank you for all your support! I feel so special! ^_^ teehee! I am having some difficulties getting ideas for this chapter. So I think I will just pop in my brand spankin' new FF 8 music CD and listen to it for inspiration. There is this song called There is (i think heh) by Boxcar Racer that reminds me of this fic I am writing.... but anyways on with the reading! teehee! -.^
You tell me that you love me?? WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT! I watched you as you stormed off in anger! How pathetic and dumb do you think I am! "Look there's stupid, childish Zell! I'll just tell him beautiful things then crush his heart with actions that tell differently! Hahaha!" I thought we were the same! I thought you truly loved me! I gave my heart, my soul to you! I still do... Do you still love him, Fuujin? Are you jealous that Instructor is taking him away from you? Is that why you get so angry?
"What has gotten into her!" Instructor wonders as everyone stares at the door to the cottage. I stand there angrier than hell.
"She is just a little uptight about being best man. She doesn't agree too well with us getting married," Seifer tells everyone.
"It's you," I grumble.
"What was that?" Squall asks, as usual he is the only one to even pretend to listen to me. I grow even angrier.
"It's your fault!" I yell as I point at Seifer, "You confused her heart! Now she doesn't know how to feel!"
"Shut up! You don't know what the hell you're talking about! You don't even know her!" Seifer growls back.
"I know a hell of a lot more about her than you do, Seifer. You know where Squall found me this morning?" I spit. Squall moves towards me.
"Zell, don't," Squall tries to help.
"I was with HER! *points towards the cottage where fuujin is inside now* The entire NIGHT! We spent the night in her dorm room! I learned more about that beautiful warrior last night than you learned the whole time you have known her!!" With that I leave, not even waiting for a response. I know she needs me... she must feel alone. I don't want her to cry... I hurry into the cottage. I find Fuujin on her knees with her head lowered and her back to me on the main-room floor.
"F... Fuujin... please don't cry," I say gently as I walk to her. I kneel next to her and wrap my arms around her. I notice her eye patch is on the floor next to her.
"D... Do you still love him...?" I get the nerve to ask. She stops and lifts her head to show me her face.
"No. Do you hate me? I know how it looks... I'm not sure why it upsets me so... I am just very protective of him... He is a fool..." she replies very seriously. I believe her... I wanted to cry out 'Don't lie to me!' But just looking into her eyes... I knew she meant what she said.
"Do you love me?" I ask. She touches my face.
"Yes... I do love you," she replies. I suddenly don't know what comes over me.
"Then... marry me," I say. I don't know why I said it... It just happened. I know I meant it... but all of a sudden? She stares at me with a furrowed brow, not knowing how to respond to what I asked.
"You just asked me to make me feel better... Don't play with my heart in that manner..." she responds in a soft voice. Although I am hurt by her response, I continue with full agreement to what I had asked.
"No... I mean it Fuujin. I don't ever want to lose you. I know that if we marry, I won't. You will have to be mine forever..." I explain. Her face softens up.
"Fine. I will marry you, Zell. I want to be yours for ever..." she finally answers. I hold her to me. Is this what I want? We are both barely eight-teen. I wonder, though, if she agreed only out of spite... I realize that it doesn't matter as long as she wants to love only me.
A while passes and the others come inside. There are four small bedrooms in the cottage and all couples sleep in their own rooms with exception to me, Fuujin, Squall and Rinoa. Rinoa brings out a pillow and two blankets.
"I'm sorry, Zell. Squall doesn't believe in sleeping in the same bed or room before marrage... go figure that one," she says rolling her eyes as she sets the bed stuff down. She and Fuujin are sleeping in the last room and Squall and I are sleeping in the main room. Fuujin has already gone off to bed.
"Don't worry about it," I say with a small smile. Rinoa looks at me for a moment then touches my arm.
"You better take care of her, Zell," she says with a smirk. I smile a little bigger. She must understand because of her relationship with Squall... I nod and Rinoa leaves. I get ready to sleep on the couch and Squall enters.
"Heya Squall," I say as he lies down. (not laying WITH Zell! sheesh all you silly ZxSq lovers! ^_^)
"What were you thinking, Zell?" Squall says as he gets himself comfortable. He's a real piece of work, that's for sure.
"Maybe you would let the woman you love be torment by something and not do anything about it... but I can't do that," I reply, trying not to sound upset. Squall sighs and is quiet for a moment.
"You really love her? ...Are you sure you know what you are doing, Zell?" he has the nerve to ask me.
"Of course... to both questions," I answer seriously.
"Good night, Zell," Squall says, lying his head on his pillow. *sigh* He is so difficult to understand.
"Night." I close my eyes and with in minutes I fall asleep.
I am startled awake by a soft sound of music. I blink and try to get the sleep out of my eyes. It is still pretty dark out so I assume it is really early morning. The gentle sound of a flute or some sort of flute like instrument is playing. It almost sounded like singing. It is so beautiful. I get up and follow the hypnotic melody outside. I stand on the back porch and try to find where the music is coming from. I jump onto the rail that surrounds the porch then onto the roof. (go anime jumps! woohoo! ^_^)
Fuujin is sitting on the roof playing a hand carved flute. She is wearing only a white button up shirt that is noticeably too big for her.
"Couldn't sleep?" I ask as I take a seat next to her. She stops playing.
"I don't feel well... I had a nightmare too," she answers. The wind gently blows her hair and the moon makes it glisten a silver colour.
"I'm sorry," I say as I wrap an arm around her. She cuddles against me.
"I spoke to Seifer before I went to bed... Everything between us is alright now... He was not too happy about what you said when I left earlier... You told him?" she tells me. I feel my face flush as I lean back and rub the back of my head. She was smirking at me. And let's be honest... I hadn't just told Seifer... I told EVERYONE. She didn't seem to mind, though.
"He just made me angry... I didn't like seeing you upset," I answer, still blushing. She chuckles gently and a moment later I let out a laugh as well. We ended up staying on the roof until sunrise. The others eventually woke up and we all had breakfast.
The rest of our vacation went well. There was little bickering and after a while almost everyone had gotten used to Fuujin and I holding hands. We never kissed in public, though. Maybe we don't because we don't want to be gawked at... or maybe that is just something that we wanted to cherish between only the two of us.
By the time school had finally started back up, everyone, and I do mean EVERYONE, at Garden knew that Fuujin and I were a couple. A couple...? Is that it? I smile to myself. I would wait for her at her classroom in order to walk with her to lunch. The third day back from school was a little different...
"Oi, Zell. You have to be a little more careful when using Blizaga," Rinoa scolds as she drags me towards the infirmary. I had accidentally frozen one of each of our hands to a chair when practicing with Blizaga in our Third Degree Elemental Magic class.
"Yeah, I know. I can't help that I am a little clumsy," I respond. When we enter the Infirmary hall I spot Fuujin coming out of the door.
"Heya Fuujin! Whatch ya doin' here?" I call as I try to wave the hand that is frozen to the chair. Oops. Hehehe, Rinoa doesn't appreciate my flinging her arm along with my own and the chair.
"Careful, Zell," she cries. I notice Fuujin look away slightly as we get closer. I hope she's not ashamed of how dumb I must look right now.
"HELLO." Fuujin greets.
"What brings you here, Fuujin? You aren't sick, are you?" Rinoa asks, also sensing something strange. Fuujin tries to give a smile as she holds up her pointing finger. She has a band-aid around it.
"CUT. NEEDED BAND-AID." she explains. Rinoa looks at her for a moment. I shrug it off. It doesn't seem like anything too strange.
"HAPPENED?" Fuujin asks seeing our hands on the chair. I can tell she is holding bad a laugh.
"Ehehehehe... I accidentally froze our hands to the chair when I was trying to use Blizaga," I answer with a blush as I rub the back of my head. She chuckles just a little.
"MUST GO." Fuujin finally says and begins to walk past. I grab her hand as she goes by and give it a gentle squeeze. Then Rinoa and I continue into the infirmary.
When the two of us enter we are greeted by Dr. Kadowaki. (it took me ten minutes to figure out how to spell her stupid name! I couldn't remember! ^_^)
"Oh, Zell! You just missed Fuujin! Why weren't you here with her?" The Doc asks. I cock an eyebrow at her not quite understanding why I should have been here. Dr. Kadowaki smiles warmly then her eyes widen in shock when she sees why we are there.
"Oh dear! What did you two do?" Dr. Kadowaki asks. She hurries to start fixing our mess...
^_^ heh! So what did ya think? Sorry I ended it so poorly. but I was running out of ideas. I think I know what I will do for the next chapter. hehehehe... or at least some of it. I think I may have a little action/adventure added to this later on. I have some interesting ideas with sorceresses and stuffs. tell me what you think about that? Thank you to everyone, love to all! ^_^ ~XaXona