Someone Like Me
Chapter 9: Fuujin
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How horrible... running into Zell when I came out of the Infirmary. I walk slowly from the Infirmary towards my empty classroom. What am I doing? What AM I doing? I sit at my desk and lower my head into my hands. Maybe it's not such a bad thing after all... The bell rings and a few students stagger in and take their seats. I immediately get to my feet and stand with my hands behind my back... the usual stance. A couple students hurry past me, still not used to me being a teacher. Thank Hyne it was the last period of the day.
Class finally ends and I collect my papers once all students have cleared the room. I go to leave my classroom but to my surprise, Zell is not standing outside waiting for me. I would have been upset under the current circumstances, but instead I am confused. Standing before me is Rinoa. What does SHE want? I try to figure out why she continues to bother me but I give up once she starts speaking.
"Hi. I told Zell that I was taking you out for a 'girls only' shopping trip. I hope you don't mind," she explains. I do mind! It is the truth! There are things I need to talk to Zell about, and now she has ruined it. I remain silent.
"FINE." I say finally. I don't know what else to do. I see her eyes light up.
"Goody! Come on!" Rinoa exclaims. She grabs my hand and drags me to the parking lot.
We arrive at Balamb and begin walking through the street. Rinoa would chirp about one thing or another. She wasn't to bad of a person, I must admit. I am glad she is trying to befriend me, rather than Quistis or *shutters* Selphie. I doubt that I would ever get along correctly with Quistis. And Selphie... Well, that poor child is a little too hyperactive for my liking. She does not mean harm, but she is quite annoying... and annoying creatures are of no use to me.
"Fuujin? Are you listening? Seesh, if I didn't know any better, I would think I was talking to Squall or something," Rinoa says with a small laugh.
"SORRY." I reply. I was too. I should at least pretend to pay attention; after all, she is trying to... bond with me. o_O
"It's alright. I'm used to it. Heh!" she smirks.
"So... is something wrong? You didn't look too well earlier when Zell and I saw you. You also seem a little lost in thought," Rinoa adds.
"NOTHING." I answer. I look away as she gives a small sigh.
"Well, I can help you... with whatever is going on in you're head. I've gotten used to that too! ^_^ I bet ya I COULD help," she tries to convince. No, you cannot.
"THANK YOU." I answer shaking my head slowly.
"Fuujin............ daughter of the wind...." I hear a voice moan. It sounded like the wind. I spin around franticly searching for the owner of the eerie voice.
"What's the matter, Fuujin?" Rinoa asks confusedly. I slowly turn back to her.
"VOICE. HEAR?" I ask. Rinoa looks at me blankly.
"Come on, Fuujin. Maybe we should get something to drink. You may need to take a little break," she offers, leading me to a bench. I clench her arm a little.
"THANK YOU." I say looking into her eyes. She smiles warmly.
"Honestly, Fuujin, what would ya do with out me?" she chortles and sits beside me. I do not hear the voice again during our whole outing. What had it been? I know I heard something.
I tiredly drag myself to my dormitory after our afternoon in town. I normally don't get this tired so easily but I have been feeling... a little under the weather. When I get close to my dormitory, I see Zell sitting on the floor right in front of my door. I cannot help but smile, yet I get a horrible feeling in my stomach that makes me want to be sick. I try my hardest not to be sick. Zell sees me and leaps happily to his feet.
"Fuujin! Finally you're back!" he exclaims as he pulls me into an embrace. I then unlock my door and we both enter. After I close the door, Zell kisses my gently and caresses my cheek. I feel so ill... what is wrong? Oh... that's right... I remove my eye patch and prepare for what is coming next...
"Zell..." I begin a moment later. He steps back a little to look into my eyes better. I look away, feeling even more ill. Concern strikes him suddenly.
"Are you alright? What's wrong?" he asks franticly.
"......"
"Hey... I have something to give to you..." He says with a smile. He reaches into his pocket and pulls something out. I look at his hand as he holds it out for me to see.
"I made them... until we get married... Then I will buy real ones. But I figured this made it a little more special... because I made them and all..." he takes my hand and places one of the small silver bands on my finger. It really is beautiful. I wanted to hug him and tell him how much I love him... but I can't... I can only cry... not out of happiness, even though it should be. They are tears of cruel tormented sadness.
"Oh, Fuujin, don't cry. Please don't cry!" he says.
"Zell..." I hold onto him tightly, tears streaming uncontrollably. Why am I being so weak? Just say it, DAMN IT!!!
"What's wrong, Love. You don't like them? I can make different ones if you want," he tries to help. He is an idiot.
"No... Zell... *sob* I... I... am pregnant! That's why *sniffle* I was at the Infirmary today! *cries harder* I had to talk to Dr. Kadowaki about it! Zell... I..." I slip out of his arms and drop to my knees. Zell only stands there in shock. I want to believe it is not true. But it is. Having a child can be a beautiful thing... but we are still so young. We just barely hit eight-teen...
"Th... that isn't funny, Fuujin," Zell stutters quietly. I look at him, hurt that he doesn't believe me.
"I... I am telling no lie." A moment later he drops to his knees in front of me.
"But... we haven't... I see... our one night of love and passion... results in this..." he says so softly that I can barely hear him. He brings his hand to my chin and lifts my head.
"Don't be sad Fuujin... please?" Zell comforts. His voice sooths me. How can he be so calm?
"It... it isn't so bad. Our child... *gently places hand on fuujin's stomach* represents our love... It's beautiful..." Zell continues. I cannot believe how calm and alright he is about this. He does realize that we are still young and, I am sure, not ready to bring a child into this world.
"Y... you want us to keep it then?" I ask. I look away at the thought. I do not think that I would have the nerve not to have this child. It would not be fair to get rid of it. Besides... Zell is right... it is beautiful.
"Yes! Of course. I would never make you get rid of our child unless you wanted to. So you can decide... but... *brings face closer to hers and speaks softer* I want us to keep it..." he tells me. He gazes so deeply into my eyes that I am forced to turn my eyes away. I do not understand. He is so calm and understanding. I hug him tightly.
"I love you so much, Zell," I say in a muddle of tears. I do not think I have ever cried this much before.
"Don't cry anymore. Okay? It will be okay... I will always be here for you... We can do anything together, right?" Zell comforts and I nod. I look up at him and force a smile. I give him a kiss.
"See, there now. No worries. *smile* Everything will be alright. 'Kay?" Zell tells me as he runs his fingers through my hair. I feel so tired and drained again. I get up and crawl on to my bed, bringing Zell with me.
"I must sleep... I am not feeling well," I say gently as I lay down. He cuddles next to me.
"I will stay here with you," Zell tells me and wraps his arm around me. I slowly drift off to sleep.
"...Child of the Wind... Come to me..." I jolt awake in my bed. That voice... I know I heard that voice again...
"...Fuujin.... My child..." I feel so strange suddenly. I can't see! Why can't I see...? I can feel myself move. It was like I was gliding across the room. WHY CAN'T I SEE OR MOVE MYSELF!! The strange voice rings in my ears. I feel different... Where am I... Zell!! Help!
"You have been chosen, my child... I need an adversary... and you... Child of the Wind... Fuujin... You are the one with whom I will become one... and we will become the most powerful Sorceress there ever was! Your unborn child will become most useful... Come to me... Fuujin... Daughter of the Wind... I HAVE SUMMONED THEE!" I hear the voice say in my head. I try to speak but nothing comes out of my mouth. STOP IT!!!!!! ZELL!!!!!!!!!
There we go! Teehee! End of chapter 9! ^_^ What do you guys think. I really hope I haven't gotten worse or anything. hehehe. Tell me what you think, all right! It was really hard doing this one because I have fallen slightly out of my FF story writing. Sad, huh? But it's been cool cause I have been drawing a lot of cute Harry Potter stuff because I am on a HP kick! hehehe! Yes I LOVE HARRY POTTER! teehee! ^_^ Please tell me how you think I'm doing. And ch. 10 should be coming soon cause I have an interesting idea for it.