It's short, it's strange, and I'm not generally very good at things like this. Whether or not you still want to read it is your choice.
Dis.: If I owned Digimon, I would not be sitting here writing fics about it. I would be off in my yacht drinking expensive beverages, because I would be filthy rich. In fact, Digimon belongs to Toei Animation, Bandai, Fuji TV, and all those other nice people.
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I've always loved to travel.
Especially to far-away places. Places halfway across the world, that you can't walk or drive or take a train to. Places where you have to fly on an airplane to get there and back.
It made me feel special when I would be on a plane; I was *flying*! Over the land, over the sea, over everything! I could go anywhere! I could do anything!
Kind of sad to think I'll never get that feeling again when I travel. Now that I've flown as Fairymon, planes just seem bulky and large. They can't make me feel like I do when it's just me up there. Me, with my wings, looking down on the world and knowing I don't have to come down if I don't want to. I could just stay up in the air forever, and never be troubled by any of the silly land-dwellers. I'd sit on a cloud and laugh down at them, feeling sorry those poor things, who can't come up and get lost in the sky with me.
One of my favorite things to do when I'm up there is to dance. It's the most amazing thing in the world, to be dancing without anything under your feet, and nothing holding you up except yourself. I can forget everything then, even my name, because I'm not Izumi then. I'm not Fairymon, I'm not even Shutumon. I'm the dancing lady in the sky, without worries or cares, and none of Izumi or Fairymon or Shutumon's troubles are mine.
Sometimes I pretend I'm an angel, looking at the people on Earth. I pretend everyone wishes they were me, being able to fly, and they all admire me and want to be my friend. Because it's not like that in real life, I'm just a random girl on the street then, and nobody cares or even knows who I am. Even if I were to become famous, I'd still be only another one in a million.
When I fly, I am unique. I am special, and because I can soar and swoop and dance, nobody can think of me as just a girl. I'm more than just a girl. I can fly.
But I never let myself get so caught up in it that I truly forget that I do have problems, and problems have to be dealt with sooner or later. Flying is fine for sometimes, but not for all the time, because nobody can fly forever. They get shot down sooner or later, and I'd rather keep my wings to put on only when it gets to be too much for me.
Then I can fly and forget, but I won't get shot down, because I won't forget to remember. I'll remember that I'm not really the dancing lady in the sky, and while it's nice to pretend, reality can't be brushed aside. I'll remember my fantasies are only fantasies, and I'll remember that it can get lonely up in the sky, with only the birds for company. So I'll stop singing and dancing, and I'll go home, but someday...when it's too difficult to handle...
I'll put my wings on, and sing and dance again.
Dis.: If I owned Digimon, I would not be sitting here writing fics about it. I would be off in my yacht drinking expensive beverages, because I would be filthy rich. In fact, Digimon belongs to Toei Animation, Bandai, Fuji TV, and all those other nice people.
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I've always loved to travel.
Especially to far-away places. Places halfway across the world, that you can't walk or drive or take a train to. Places where you have to fly on an airplane to get there and back.
It made me feel special when I would be on a plane; I was *flying*! Over the land, over the sea, over everything! I could go anywhere! I could do anything!
Kind of sad to think I'll never get that feeling again when I travel. Now that I've flown as Fairymon, planes just seem bulky and large. They can't make me feel like I do when it's just me up there. Me, with my wings, looking down on the world and knowing I don't have to come down if I don't want to. I could just stay up in the air forever, and never be troubled by any of the silly land-dwellers. I'd sit on a cloud and laugh down at them, feeling sorry those poor things, who can't come up and get lost in the sky with me.
One of my favorite things to do when I'm up there is to dance. It's the most amazing thing in the world, to be dancing without anything under your feet, and nothing holding you up except yourself. I can forget everything then, even my name, because I'm not Izumi then. I'm not Fairymon, I'm not even Shutumon. I'm the dancing lady in the sky, without worries or cares, and none of Izumi or Fairymon or Shutumon's troubles are mine.
Sometimes I pretend I'm an angel, looking at the people on Earth. I pretend everyone wishes they were me, being able to fly, and they all admire me and want to be my friend. Because it's not like that in real life, I'm just a random girl on the street then, and nobody cares or even knows who I am. Even if I were to become famous, I'd still be only another one in a million.
When I fly, I am unique. I am special, and because I can soar and swoop and dance, nobody can think of me as just a girl. I'm more than just a girl. I can fly.
But I never let myself get so caught up in it that I truly forget that I do have problems, and problems have to be dealt with sooner or later. Flying is fine for sometimes, but not for all the time, because nobody can fly forever. They get shot down sooner or later, and I'd rather keep my wings to put on only when it gets to be too much for me.
Then I can fly and forget, but I won't get shot down, because I won't forget to remember. I'll remember that I'm not really the dancing lady in the sky, and while it's nice to pretend, reality can't be brushed aside. I'll remember my fantasies are only fantasies, and I'll remember that it can get lonely up in the sky, with only the birds for company. So I'll stop singing and dancing, and I'll go home, but someday...when it's too difficult to handle...
I'll put my wings on, and sing and dance again.