blockTitle: Would You Still Love Me If.
Author: Virginie
Disclaimer: I own none of them. *sob.sniff.sob.*
A/N: This takes place after Rory comes back from DC. Includes spoilers.
Also, anyone who would like to beta read for me, please e-mail me at
francofolle@sympatico.ca .Please please R&R. Chapter 2 through 5 are
already written, but wont be posted unless I get reviews (positive or
otherwise.) God, I love blackmail.
Coming Back
It's not that I don't like school. God knows I love it, but there is something that makes me a little sad about going back tomorrow. It's not the classes, and seeing Paris, or having to be vice-president. It's more about what I'll be leaving behind unsolved. Two months ago, at Sookie's wedding, I kissed Jess...Yeah, I know I already wrote about that, and I don't want to open that wound again, because I know it'll hurt. But so much happened while I was in Washington, all because of that one little kiss.
First, no more than a day after I got there, I got a phone call from Dean (who had mysteriously disappeared before my departure. But this phone call wasn't a happy one, and I immediately knew it by the tone of his voice. He was calling to break up with me. He had seen Jess and I. I guess it all makes sense now: his mysterious disappearance, his attitude at the wedding and how he didn't kiss me goodnight that night. I was inconsolable, for a few days. Then something clicked. Maybe it wasn't meant to be between me and Dean. Maybe that kiss with Jess happened for a reason.
It was a wonderful kiss. More than I had ever had with Dean. It was more than that kiss with Tristan. With them, things were rational and sensible. This was reckless...passionate. I even surprised myself, and to be honest, I liked it. And I want more of those kisses. I want more book banter and reading margins. I want more boyish teasing and immature pranks. I just want more Jess Mariano. Even if it's hard for me to admit. Even if he isn't the boy my mother trusts the most (in fact, she doesn't trust him at all). Even if I've deceived a ton of people when I'm around him...Despite all that, I want to be with him. How could I have been foolish enough to think he wanted to be with me as well?
When I came back from Washington, I was determined to tell Jess how I felt. Even if that meant exposing myself to the town and starting up the gossip mill. I hadn't talked to Jess after our kiss, and I knew something needed to be said. And I was going to speak first. I went to Luke's and saw what broke my heart into a thousand little pieces: Jess was kissing another girl. Slim, blond, attractive...I'd seen her around when I went to Stars Hollow High. I didn't even go in. I walked past and around and made my way back home, tears streaming down my face...Shane! I just remembered, that was her name. Shane Johnson. And he was dating her. Or maybe not dating...But he was doing things with her, and obviously it's not the things friends do...Well, most friends do...Ok, let's just say it was the type of things that PLATONIC friends don't do...
This all happened today, and I guess in a way school will be a welcomed distraction. Sure, things are still unsolved. My kiss hasn't been explained, but I don't think I will. After all, he has a girlfriend now. I think breaking up two relationships in a month would be a bit much. /block
Coming Back
It's not that I don't like school. God knows I love it, but there is something that makes me a little sad about going back tomorrow. It's not the classes, and seeing Paris, or having to be vice-president. It's more about what I'll be leaving behind unsolved. Two months ago, at Sookie's wedding, I kissed Jess...Yeah, I know I already wrote about that, and I don't want to open that wound again, because I know it'll hurt. But so much happened while I was in Washington, all because of that one little kiss.
First, no more than a day after I got there, I got a phone call from Dean (who had mysteriously disappeared before my departure. But this phone call wasn't a happy one, and I immediately knew it by the tone of his voice. He was calling to break up with me. He had seen Jess and I. I guess it all makes sense now: his mysterious disappearance, his attitude at the wedding and how he didn't kiss me goodnight that night. I was inconsolable, for a few days. Then something clicked. Maybe it wasn't meant to be between me and Dean. Maybe that kiss with Jess happened for a reason.
It was a wonderful kiss. More than I had ever had with Dean. It was more than that kiss with Tristan. With them, things were rational and sensible. This was reckless...passionate. I even surprised myself, and to be honest, I liked it. And I want more of those kisses. I want more book banter and reading margins. I want more boyish teasing and immature pranks. I just want more Jess Mariano. Even if it's hard for me to admit. Even if he isn't the boy my mother trusts the most (in fact, she doesn't trust him at all). Even if I've deceived a ton of people when I'm around him...Despite all that, I want to be with him. How could I have been foolish enough to think he wanted to be with me as well?
When I came back from Washington, I was determined to tell Jess how I felt. Even if that meant exposing myself to the town and starting up the gossip mill. I hadn't talked to Jess after our kiss, and I knew something needed to be said. And I was going to speak first. I went to Luke's and saw what broke my heart into a thousand little pieces: Jess was kissing another girl. Slim, blond, attractive...I'd seen her around when I went to Stars Hollow High. I didn't even go in. I walked past and around and made my way back home, tears streaming down my face...Shane! I just remembered, that was her name. Shane Johnson. And he was dating her. Or maybe not dating...But he was doing things with her, and obviously it's not the things friends do...Well, most friends do...Ok, let's just say it was the type of things that PLATONIC friends don't do...
This all happened today, and I guess in a way school will be a welcomed distraction. Sure, things are still unsolved. My kiss hasn't been explained, but I don't think I will. After all, he has a girlfriend now. I think breaking up two relationships in a month would be a bit much. /block