Notes:
-Umm umm yeah ok I know my last chapter was kind of weird at the ending but here goes the next so here we go I'll do rambling after the story.
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The next couple of days I just sat around the house not doing much, most the time I was uncomfortable because of my ribs being broken. I never even worked on my gundam. One day I went out to get the mail and newspaper. I walked back down the drive way and halfway down as I was looking through the mail you could hear a loud happy scream immediately Duo Trowa Quatre and the others appeared in the doorway. I completely forgot about my broken ribs and set the mail and newspaper on the ground except for one letter and I started doing round offs and flips and all kinds of old routines I used to do a lot all the way down the driveway. The others just stared at me as I picked up the papers and ran inside and threw them on the counter. No one said a word they were a bit scared at the moment.
What could make me so happy, they were wondering. Then a sharp pain went through my side like a bullet and I remembered my ribs and settled down. My eyes became blood shot red at the pain and when I was finally calmed down Quatre decided to be the first one to speak up. "Why are you so happy?" He asked softly. "Because I'm going to college! I'm going to college I'm going to college!" I kept repeating myself. "You're leaving?" Xamick asked sadly. I calmed down "Xamick I'm sorry but I can't try to beat OZ with a broken up rib cage. And I can't really sit around here all day. I need some time on my own I promise I'll drop my courses after a little while ok" Xamick still got upset and left. Everyone else just stared at me amazed. I started to feel uncomfortable and went up to my room.
I got a big duffel bag and began to pack my stuff into them. I had gotten into the college I really wanted to be in. I was happy but why couldn't anyone be happy for me. Now I felt really bad about it. Tears swelled up in my eyes. I grabbed my stuff and slung it over my shoulder. I left without saying goodbye. I took my motorcycle to the college. I got my information, I went to my dorm and unpacked I had a dorm to myself I was thankful for that.
The next week I went through my classes finding them all not hard but not easy. I didn't make many friends. To be exact I didn't make any friends at all. Everyone even the teacher's thought I was just too young to be at the school. One day we were called to an assembly. We all filed into the auditorium. As the head of school came onto the stage he had an OZ soldier with him. He began to speak "Now if you'll all be quiet I'd like to begin. We have guests among us today, OZ soldiers. They are to be treated as our guests and treated properly. They seem to think that there is someone at this school that they are looking for and I have allowed them to go ahead and search the dorm." He said. Everyone gave a small moan. He said a few other things and dismissed us.
On the way back to my room I stayed in the shadows away from OZ. When I got back to my room I had run to fast. I sat down at my laptop and held my rib with one hand and typed with the other. "Come on pick up" I whispered to myself and gave up trying to contact the other pilots there was a knock on the door OZ had come to search my dorm now. "Just a minute" I called sounding natural as I stuffed everything into my duffel bag. They heard this and broke down the door and shot at me. I jumped out of the window and landed on my feet. With my duffel bag in hand I sprinted many soldiers were following me everyone was staring at me all the civilians as the OZ troops called, "Get that gundam pilot quick". I ran fast as I could jumping on my motorcycle and driving off. I drove for two das straight without eating or sleeping just riding non-stop. When I got back I opened the front door and walked into the kitchen.
I dropped my bad and then dropped to my knees the pilots (including Xamick now) ran to me. Heero picked me up and laid me in my bed. "OZ is coming" I whispered tiredly they nodded their heads and I closed my eyes falling asleep. I woke up later. I walked downstairs sleepily. Great I thought I slept in my clothes. Oh well. I walked into the kitchen where everyone looked up at me surprised I was up. Quatre handed me a bowl of cereal. I ate it and didn't feel hungry anymore. They said I should eat more but I didn't. I went back upstairs I felt sick. I crawled in bed and pulled the covers over my head. I feel back asleep.
When I woke up that evening I was awoken by the sound of a knock on my door. Everyone had been quiet all day to let me asleep. "Come in" I called. Xamick and the others walked in. They said OZ had come by and attacked and was surprised I slept through it. Trowa put the back of his hand to my forehead. "No wonder you slept through all that noise" He said, "You have a high fever". I moaned this was not my year this war I hated it, I liked the other wars I didn't mind them, I could handle them they weren't miserable like this, I didn't get sick, I didn't have friends involved, I didn't brake many bones. The gundam pilots left me to sleep but I didn't sleep I went to my punching bag and began to hit it not caring if I hit it the wrong or right way (Yes there is a wrong and right was to punch if you did not know it). I hit until my energy was gone, I punched until I had let my anger and sorrow out, I hit until my knuckles were red and beginning to bleed.
I went to the bathroom it was midnight. My eyes were blood shot I didn't feel good. I turned on hot water and stuck my knuckles under it then I cleaned them painfully with peroxide. (If you do not know what peroxide is which I hope you do please let me know and I'll explain it to you.) I wrapped my knuckles with a gauze. As I began to wrap my other knuckles the pilots appeared all but Xamick who had gone to sleep. No one said a word though they wanted to. "Just leave me alone" I said with anger. "You need to get some rest," Heero said in his usual tone. I pushed pass them and went to work on my gundam I didn't care about my ribs or knuckles I just wanted to do something to keep my mind off my troubles.
I worked hard until morning. Then I got up and went outside. I told everyone I would be back. I walked out side and started to sprint crossing over into Roseville. I was doing a nice jog and began to think about the old wars and I had a flash back
* Begin Flashback *
I was at a safe house me and the other pilots sat around. We were all smiling even Heero. We were playing all kinds of stupid games and it was fun. We were relaxing waiting on our missions. We could have fun. Duo was the funniest of all. We played bored games and kid games and well all kinds of stuff. Then Heero got a mission then Quatre. Then one by one we got missions but we didn't mind because we were all happy.
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I arrived back home and walked in. I found Dr J talking to the other pilots and introducing them to some knew pilots that weren't gundam pilots but were highly skilled and had advanced mobile suits to help them fight. I ignored him being there I personally didn't care. But when I walked by him to go downstairs her stopped me. "Hello Lori" he said "Hey J" I said knowing calling him J would make him mad. " You know your not to call me that" He spoke harshly. "Yeah and you put me off the team so I can say what I want now if you'll excuse me I have to rewrap my knuckles and go work on my gundam." At the word gundam he looked at me suspiciously he thought I was lying. But did I care. No I didn't I just wanted to be left alone and it showed. I walked down to my gundam and sat in the cockpit. I felt sick again. I still had a fever and my ribs and knuckles hurt but I chose to ignore it all.
I suddenly jumped down from my cockpit ran out of the hanger up the stairs through the kitchen down the hall up another flight of stairs down the hall to my bathroom and puked. I didn't puke because I was sick I puked because I was upset. I walked into my room and put my gun away I walked down stairs. I walked up to Xamick not caring about the others. "Xamick I'm sorry," I said and I began to walk towards the front door. "What do you mean" I didn't answer just walked out the front door. The other pilots knew what I was going to do and as I shut the door I could hear all of them running to grab their guns and weapons and come after me.
walked and grabbed my motorcycle I sped off. It would take awhile for the other pilots to catch up with me. I rode to an OZ base. I went to Trieze. He was surprised to see me coming to him. "I give," I said. With that he pulled out his gun I had hoped he wouldn't do it this way but he was going to. He shot me in the ribs and stomach then in the shoulder. I collapsed to the ground someone busted down the door and I black out.
I woke up, days later. I didn't know where I was or what day it was or anything. I just remembered going to OZ last. I opened my eyes. A hospital my worst nightmare. My entire body ached. How badly had I been beat? Was I beat more? I didn't know I wanted to know but yet I didn't I could also tell that I had on restraints. I had probably had a seizure or something. The room looked familiar then it hit me I knew what hospital I was in. Potomac Hospital I knew the place so well. Quatre's sister Ira came over and undid the restraints on me. She told me not to sit up and to wait just a minute.
I waited a few moments and the pilots came in. I wondered how long had they been waiting for me. Xamick looked happy and so did duo as usual, Heero had his normal expression on and Trowa and Quatre looked concerned. Right away I asked, "What happened why do I hurt so much!" "Because you can be an idiot" Heero said. If it hadn't been that I was weak I would of hit him as hard as I could. Ira said I could go home. I was put to bed rest though. I didn't mind for once. I had to be pushed in a wheel chair out to the truck. Then when we got home I had to be carried up to my room because I was half asleep and I was too weak to walk. I was glad for once Wufei knew to shut up about Women being weak.
I rested in bed for the next few days. I was bored out of my mind and was beginning to regain my strength. One morning I woke up earlier then everyone else. I got up out of bed even though I wasn't supposed to. I went downstairs and went down into the hanger. I didn't know why but I had a bad feeling about the day that woke me up. I began to work on my gundam taking it easy. No one so far had said anything about what I did. I knew they understood how miserable I felt and left me alone. As I was thinking this the doorbell rang I looked at my watch 4:30 AM, who would be here at this hour. Then it hit me Dr J. I walked up and unlocked the door and let him in I knew he was trying to make me feel worse.
The pilots heard the door and came down the new recruits had come with Dr J. I went back to my hanger without a word. A few minutes later everyone came down. I knew the pilots wanted to drag me back up to my room because I needed rest but they didn't bother. Heero spoke first "Come down here we have to talk" he said. "No." that was all my reply was and I just kept working in my cockpit. Then Xamick spoke "Come off it Lorim". I looked at her. "Why should I you guys don't matter to me. To me the god for saken war is over." I spoke harshly and went back to work, I was still upset about a lot of things. To much was on my mind. After awhile of trying to get me to come down they gave up. I worked the rest of the day and when I finally went upstairs to get something to eat around 10PM there was no one. I walked upstairs no one. I walked outside. No one was to be found. I found this strange but didn't let it get to me. I went back inside and fixed me a normal dinner. I ate it and got online. A bunch of people were on and I began chatting. I acted like everything was normal until AOL said "You've got mail" I opened up the mail and it was from the recruits. This was really strange. This was my normal life private email address. They didn't have it. I read the email it wrote.
Dear Lori,
We the new recruits and gundam pilots along with Xamick are about to enter a battle. We write you this letter on behalf of us all here. This battle will be the final battle we hope. But it will be hard and we may not come back. Xamick requests that if she dies that you tell her family and friends goodbye for her. Heero requests that in his death that you wipe out files talking about him and all of us pilots we don't want to become heroes. Duo said to make sure Hilde finds out if he dies. Quatre ask that the Winner Corporation be handed to you and to say goodbye to the macqunacs. (excuse the spelling I can't remember how to spell it.) Wufei has nothing to say. Trowa requests that you say goodbye to Catherine for him. We must all go now. We will probably not see you again until our after lives.
Take Care,
Everyone
Tears began to well up in my eyes as I read the letter. They were trying to end the war and I wouldn't listen to them this was my fault. I signed off AOL quickly. I ran up to my room and turned on the TV they were talking about the battle and showing pictures I watched as I hacked getting more info on the on going battle I had to know what was going on. I wanted Xamick now. I wanted to be normal if things were normal again I could stop wishing that there was another war. I couldn't take this much longer. Why couldn't it just stop? Why couldn't I be happy? I just sat and waited. The night was long the day longer and the battle still went one. Second after second, minute after minute, Hour after hour, time moved slowly. I watched with wide eyes. I couldn't pilot my gundam I was still to weak and I knew I would to die if I went out there. I just sat and waited locked up in my room I had over one hundred IMs on my away message but I didn't care I just left my away message up. I didn't want to talk to anyone.
-Umm umm yeah ok I know my last chapter was kind of weird at the ending but here goes the next so here we go I'll do rambling after the story.
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The next couple of days I just sat around the house not doing much, most the time I was uncomfortable because of my ribs being broken. I never even worked on my gundam. One day I went out to get the mail and newspaper. I walked back down the drive way and halfway down as I was looking through the mail you could hear a loud happy scream immediately Duo Trowa Quatre and the others appeared in the doorway. I completely forgot about my broken ribs and set the mail and newspaper on the ground except for one letter and I started doing round offs and flips and all kinds of old routines I used to do a lot all the way down the driveway. The others just stared at me as I picked up the papers and ran inside and threw them on the counter. No one said a word they were a bit scared at the moment.
What could make me so happy, they were wondering. Then a sharp pain went through my side like a bullet and I remembered my ribs and settled down. My eyes became blood shot red at the pain and when I was finally calmed down Quatre decided to be the first one to speak up. "Why are you so happy?" He asked softly. "Because I'm going to college! I'm going to college I'm going to college!" I kept repeating myself. "You're leaving?" Xamick asked sadly. I calmed down "Xamick I'm sorry but I can't try to beat OZ with a broken up rib cage. And I can't really sit around here all day. I need some time on my own I promise I'll drop my courses after a little while ok" Xamick still got upset and left. Everyone else just stared at me amazed. I started to feel uncomfortable and went up to my room.
I got a big duffel bag and began to pack my stuff into them. I had gotten into the college I really wanted to be in. I was happy but why couldn't anyone be happy for me. Now I felt really bad about it. Tears swelled up in my eyes. I grabbed my stuff and slung it over my shoulder. I left without saying goodbye. I took my motorcycle to the college. I got my information, I went to my dorm and unpacked I had a dorm to myself I was thankful for that.
The next week I went through my classes finding them all not hard but not easy. I didn't make many friends. To be exact I didn't make any friends at all. Everyone even the teacher's thought I was just too young to be at the school. One day we were called to an assembly. We all filed into the auditorium. As the head of school came onto the stage he had an OZ soldier with him. He began to speak "Now if you'll all be quiet I'd like to begin. We have guests among us today, OZ soldiers. They are to be treated as our guests and treated properly. They seem to think that there is someone at this school that they are looking for and I have allowed them to go ahead and search the dorm." He said. Everyone gave a small moan. He said a few other things and dismissed us.
On the way back to my room I stayed in the shadows away from OZ. When I got back to my room I had run to fast. I sat down at my laptop and held my rib with one hand and typed with the other. "Come on pick up" I whispered to myself and gave up trying to contact the other pilots there was a knock on the door OZ had come to search my dorm now. "Just a minute" I called sounding natural as I stuffed everything into my duffel bag. They heard this and broke down the door and shot at me. I jumped out of the window and landed on my feet. With my duffel bag in hand I sprinted many soldiers were following me everyone was staring at me all the civilians as the OZ troops called, "Get that gundam pilot quick". I ran fast as I could jumping on my motorcycle and driving off. I drove for two das straight without eating or sleeping just riding non-stop. When I got back I opened the front door and walked into the kitchen.
I dropped my bad and then dropped to my knees the pilots (including Xamick now) ran to me. Heero picked me up and laid me in my bed. "OZ is coming" I whispered tiredly they nodded their heads and I closed my eyes falling asleep. I woke up later. I walked downstairs sleepily. Great I thought I slept in my clothes. Oh well. I walked into the kitchen where everyone looked up at me surprised I was up. Quatre handed me a bowl of cereal. I ate it and didn't feel hungry anymore. They said I should eat more but I didn't. I went back upstairs I felt sick. I crawled in bed and pulled the covers over my head. I feel back asleep.
When I woke up that evening I was awoken by the sound of a knock on my door. Everyone had been quiet all day to let me asleep. "Come in" I called. Xamick and the others walked in. They said OZ had come by and attacked and was surprised I slept through it. Trowa put the back of his hand to my forehead. "No wonder you slept through all that noise" He said, "You have a high fever". I moaned this was not my year this war I hated it, I liked the other wars I didn't mind them, I could handle them they weren't miserable like this, I didn't get sick, I didn't have friends involved, I didn't brake many bones. The gundam pilots left me to sleep but I didn't sleep I went to my punching bag and began to hit it not caring if I hit it the wrong or right way (Yes there is a wrong and right was to punch if you did not know it). I hit until my energy was gone, I punched until I had let my anger and sorrow out, I hit until my knuckles were red and beginning to bleed.
I went to the bathroom it was midnight. My eyes were blood shot I didn't feel good. I turned on hot water and stuck my knuckles under it then I cleaned them painfully with peroxide. (If you do not know what peroxide is which I hope you do please let me know and I'll explain it to you.) I wrapped my knuckles with a gauze. As I began to wrap my other knuckles the pilots appeared all but Xamick who had gone to sleep. No one said a word though they wanted to. "Just leave me alone" I said with anger. "You need to get some rest," Heero said in his usual tone. I pushed pass them and went to work on my gundam I didn't care about my ribs or knuckles I just wanted to do something to keep my mind off my troubles.
I worked hard until morning. Then I got up and went outside. I told everyone I would be back. I walked out side and started to sprint crossing over into Roseville. I was doing a nice jog and began to think about the old wars and I had a flash back
* Begin Flashback *
I was at a safe house me and the other pilots sat around. We were all smiling even Heero. We were playing all kinds of stupid games and it was fun. We were relaxing waiting on our missions. We could have fun. Duo was the funniest of all. We played bored games and kid games and well all kinds of stuff. Then Heero got a mission then Quatre. Then one by one we got missions but we didn't mind because we were all happy.
* End flashback *
I arrived back home and walked in. I found Dr J talking to the other pilots and introducing them to some knew pilots that weren't gundam pilots but were highly skilled and had advanced mobile suits to help them fight. I ignored him being there I personally didn't care. But when I walked by him to go downstairs her stopped me. "Hello Lori" he said "Hey J" I said knowing calling him J would make him mad. " You know your not to call me that" He spoke harshly. "Yeah and you put me off the team so I can say what I want now if you'll excuse me I have to rewrap my knuckles and go work on my gundam." At the word gundam he looked at me suspiciously he thought I was lying. But did I care. No I didn't I just wanted to be left alone and it showed. I walked down to my gundam and sat in the cockpit. I felt sick again. I still had a fever and my ribs and knuckles hurt but I chose to ignore it all.
I suddenly jumped down from my cockpit ran out of the hanger up the stairs through the kitchen down the hall up another flight of stairs down the hall to my bathroom and puked. I didn't puke because I was sick I puked because I was upset. I walked into my room and put my gun away I walked down stairs. I walked up to Xamick not caring about the others. "Xamick I'm sorry," I said and I began to walk towards the front door. "What do you mean" I didn't answer just walked out the front door. The other pilots knew what I was going to do and as I shut the door I could hear all of them running to grab their guns and weapons and come after me.
walked and grabbed my motorcycle I sped off. It would take awhile for the other pilots to catch up with me. I rode to an OZ base. I went to Trieze. He was surprised to see me coming to him. "I give," I said. With that he pulled out his gun I had hoped he wouldn't do it this way but he was going to. He shot me in the ribs and stomach then in the shoulder. I collapsed to the ground someone busted down the door and I black out.
I woke up, days later. I didn't know where I was or what day it was or anything. I just remembered going to OZ last. I opened my eyes. A hospital my worst nightmare. My entire body ached. How badly had I been beat? Was I beat more? I didn't know I wanted to know but yet I didn't I could also tell that I had on restraints. I had probably had a seizure or something. The room looked familiar then it hit me I knew what hospital I was in. Potomac Hospital I knew the place so well. Quatre's sister Ira came over and undid the restraints on me. She told me not to sit up and to wait just a minute.
I waited a few moments and the pilots came in. I wondered how long had they been waiting for me. Xamick looked happy and so did duo as usual, Heero had his normal expression on and Trowa and Quatre looked concerned. Right away I asked, "What happened why do I hurt so much!" "Because you can be an idiot" Heero said. If it hadn't been that I was weak I would of hit him as hard as I could. Ira said I could go home. I was put to bed rest though. I didn't mind for once. I had to be pushed in a wheel chair out to the truck. Then when we got home I had to be carried up to my room because I was half asleep and I was too weak to walk. I was glad for once Wufei knew to shut up about Women being weak.
I rested in bed for the next few days. I was bored out of my mind and was beginning to regain my strength. One morning I woke up earlier then everyone else. I got up out of bed even though I wasn't supposed to. I went downstairs and went down into the hanger. I didn't know why but I had a bad feeling about the day that woke me up. I began to work on my gundam taking it easy. No one so far had said anything about what I did. I knew they understood how miserable I felt and left me alone. As I was thinking this the doorbell rang I looked at my watch 4:30 AM, who would be here at this hour. Then it hit me Dr J. I walked up and unlocked the door and let him in I knew he was trying to make me feel worse.
The pilots heard the door and came down the new recruits had come with Dr J. I went back to my hanger without a word. A few minutes later everyone came down. I knew the pilots wanted to drag me back up to my room because I needed rest but they didn't bother. Heero spoke first "Come down here we have to talk" he said. "No." that was all my reply was and I just kept working in my cockpit. Then Xamick spoke "Come off it Lorim". I looked at her. "Why should I you guys don't matter to me. To me the god for saken war is over." I spoke harshly and went back to work, I was still upset about a lot of things. To much was on my mind. After awhile of trying to get me to come down they gave up. I worked the rest of the day and when I finally went upstairs to get something to eat around 10PM there was no one. I walked upstairs no one. I walked outside. No one was to be found. I found this strange but didn't let it get to me. I went back inside and fixed me a normal dinner. I ate it and got online. A bunch of people were on and I began chatting. I acted like everything was normal until AOL said "You've got mail" I opened up the mail and it was from the recruits. This was really strange. This was my normal life private email address. They didn't have it. I read the email it wrote.
Dear Lori,
We the new recruits and gundam pilots along with Xamick are about to enter a battle. We write you this letter on behalf of us all here. This battle will be the final battle we hope. But it will be hard and we may not come back. Xamick requests that if she dies that you tell her family and friends goodbye for her. Heero requests that in his death that you wipe out files talking about him and all of us pilots we don't want to become heroes. Duo said to make sure Hilde finds out if he dies. Quatre ask that the Winner Corporation be handed to you and to say goodbye to the macqunacs. (excuse the spelling I can't remember how to spell it.) Wufei has nothing to say. Trowa requests that you say goodbye to Catherine for him. We must all go now. We will probably not see you again until our after lives.
Take Care,
Everyone
Tears began to well up in my eyes as I read the letter. They were trying to end the war and I wouldn't listen to them this was my fault. I signed off AOL quickly. I ran up to my room and turned on the TV they were talking about the battle and showing pictures I watched as I hacked getting more info on the on going battle I had to know what was going on. I wanted Xamick now. I wanted to be normal if things were normal again I could stop wishing that there was another war. I couldn't take this much longer. Why couldn't it just stop? Why couldn't I be happy? I just sat and waited. The night was long the day longer and the battle still went one. Second after second, minute after minute, Hour after hour, time moved slowly. I watched with wide eyes. I couldn't pilot my gundam I was still to weak and I knew I would to die if I went out there. I just sat and waited locked up in my room I had over one hundred IMs on my away message but I didn't care I just left my away message up. I didn't want to talk to anyone.