Real Friends Stab You in the Front
I am SUCH a witch! I can't believe what I did. How horrible am I....The guilty conscience is haunting me...My life is over as I am now confined to instant coffee for the rest of my Stars Hollow existence!
It all started ten days ago. I was sitting by a tree in town, reading The Great Gatsby when a familiar voice called my name.
"Rory!" called Jess, approaching the tree.
"Hey." I replied flatly, not looking up from the book.
"What are you reading?" he asked, taking the book from me. "...Aah! The Great Gatsby! Yes. Very romantic. Different lives, all intertwined because of their relation to Gatsby...Kind of like this town gravitating around you and your mother, I guess."
"Guess so." I said, trying to get the book back, but failing.
"Did I do something?" he asked.
"No." I replied angrily, "No, you did nothing at all. But I guess that's the problem. You never do anything. Everything is always 'Okay. Whatever.'", I said mimicking his voice.
"So, everything is fine?" he joked. But I wasn't in the mood to joke...No, that's a lie. I was just not in the mood to joke with him. I looked away. He still had my book, and didn't seem to want to leave.
"May I have my book back?" I asked flatly.
"Not until you tell me why you've been avoiding me." he said.
It was now or never. I had to tell him what was on my mind...From the moment I opened my mouth to the end of my monologue, I could see the look on his face go from confusion to sadness to anger to flat out pain. I had effectively broken off the link with Jess in 3 minutes flat!
"Well, maybe I just came to my senses. Maybe I realised what the whole town knew all along: that your just Luke's no good New Yorker bum-of-a-nephew. Maybe now I just know that there really is nothing more to you than a trouble maker, future high-school dropout with not much of a future. Maybe you've proved to me that despite everything I saw in you, you really are only a player..."
"A player?" he asked.
"Yes, a player! I mean, you kiss me..."
"Hey, YOU kissed me!" he corrected.
"Whatever. You kissed back...You kiss me, and when I come back, there you are, sucking face with this...this...this tramp! And so yeah, that's exactly why I've been ignoring you. Because my mother was right and you really are bad for me."
He stood up and with so much hurt in his eyes; he said "I don't have to take this."
"You're right. You don't." I shouted.
"Fine!"
"Fine!"
He walked away and I cried. Truth is, I didn't mean a single thing I had said. But it was exactly what the town thought of him, and I think that's what hurt him most. That now, there was truly no reason for him to be here. No one in town had a single good thing to say about him.
And now it's been ten days. Ten days where I haven't been to Luke's. I actually bribed mom to get me coffee for the first few days, but when she heard what happened from Miss. Patty, she refused to get me anything from Luke's until I made an effort to talk to Jess. And so, here I am. Sinking to a brand new low. No only letting down a friend, but also drinking instant coffee. I feel so dirty...
I am SUCH a witch! I can't believe what I did. How horrible am I....The guilty conscience is haunting me...My life is over as I am now confined to instant coffee for the rest of my Stars Hollow existence!
It all started ten days ago. I was sitting by a tree in town, reading The Great Gatsby when a familiar voice called my name.
"Rory!" called Jess, approaching the tree.
"Hey." I replied flatly, not looking up from the book.
"What are you reading?" he asked, taking the book from me. "...Aah! The Great Gatsby! Yes. Very romantic. Different lives, all intertwined because of their relation to Gatsby...Kind of like this town gravitating around you and your mother, I guess."
"Guess so." I said, trying to get the book back, but failing.
"Did I do something?" he asked.
"No." I replied angrily, "No, you did nothing at all. But I guess that's the problem. You never do anything. Everything is always 'Okay. Whatever.'", I said mimicking his voice.
"So, everything is fine?" he joked. But I wasn't in the mood to joke...No, that's a lie. I was just not in the mood to joke with him. I looked away. He still had my book, and didn't seem to want to leave.
"May I have my book back?" I asked flatly.
"Not until you tell me why you've been avoiding me." he said.
It was now or never. I had to tell him what was on my mind...From the moment I opened my mouth to the end of my monologue, I could see the look on his face go from confusion to sadness to anger to flat out pain. I had effectively broken off the link with Jess in 3 minutes flat!
"Well, maybe I just came to my senses. Maybe I realised what the whole town knew all along: that your just Luke's no good New Yorker bum-of-a-nephew. Maybe now I just know that there really is nothing more to you than a trouble maker, future high-school dropout with not much of a future. Maybe you've proved to me that despite everything I saw in you, you really are only a player..."
"A player?" he asked.
"Yes, a player! I mean, you kiss me..."
"Hey, YOU kissed me!" he corrected.
"Whatever. You kissed back...You kiss me, and when I come back, there you are, sucking face with this...this...this tramp! And so yeah, that's exactly why I've been ignoring you. Because my mother was right and you really are bad for me."
He stood up and with so much hurt in his eyes; he said "I don't have to take this."
"You're right. You don't." I shouted.
"Fine!"
"Fine!"
He walked away and I cried. Truth is, I didn't mean a single thing I had said. But it was exactly what the town thought of him, and I think that's what hurt him most. That now, there was truly no reason for him to be here. No one in town had a single good thing to say about him.
And now it's been ten days. Ten days where I haven't been to Luke's. I actually bribed mom to get me coffee for the first few days, but when she heard what happened from Miss. Patty, she refused to get me anything from Luke's until I made an effort to talk to Jess. And so, here I am. Sinking to a brand new low. No only letting down a friend, but also drinking instant coffee. I feel so dirty...