Disclaimer: I don't own these characters, I just play with them. I promise to put them back when I'm done.
Warning:LESBIAN THEMES!!! This is the last warning about them but they'll still be in the story. Forgive if words are missing out of sentences, just try to figure them out if you can.
Part Two
She made it home just in time to see it rain outside. Sitting on the edge of the window seal, Lizzie stuck her hand outside the open window to feel the rain. Her head was propped back against the side of the window as she thought about what to do.
Reaching over for the phone, Lizzie dialed the number Joan gave her. She waited, hearing it ring four times, then somebody picked up. "Hey, this is Joan."
"Hey Joan, its Lizzie."
Joan didn't like the sound of her voice. "Hey girl, what's up? Is something wrong?"
"I was hoping that we could talk. I didn't get a chance to tell you earlier because of Miranda and Gordo coming in."
"I'm free to listen, what's up?"
"Well like I said earlier, I have this crush on someone that I shouldn't."
"Right, I remember. Why can't you have a crush on this person?"
Lizzie's heart was pounding in her chest. "Because I'm afraid." Her voice dropped a little. "The person is someone that know one would understand why I like them."
"Okay you're playing the he/she game." Joan said.
"What does that mean?" Lizzie pushed herself off of the window ledge to walk around the room.
"That's the game people play when they have a crush on the same sex person. They always use sentences like 'I really like them and I'm sure if its okay that I'm allowed to like this person.' Never saying if its a male or female that they have a crush on. Am I right?"
She was stunned. "I knew that there was a reason you were in high school." She laughed. "Yeah, you're right. I've never had a crush on a female before and I don't know how to handle it."
"So who's the lucky girl?"
"Um...uh...well..." Suddenly she couldn't remember words, or English for that matter. "...y...you-you."
The line was quiet, nothing could be heard except for Joan's breathing. Lizzie worried that she had done the wrong thing by telling her. "Can't say that I saw that one coming."
"Joan, just forget about it." Lizzie spat out quickly.
"Why?"
"Because I messed up, I shouldn't have said anything."
"Listen Lizzie..."
She didn't let Joan finish. "I know that you hate me now, I'm sorry. Let's forget about it and just be friends."
"Lizzie..."
"I'll talk to you later." Lizzie quickly hung up the phone in panic. She didn't know what else to do other than hang up because her fear got the best of her. That had never happened to her before. Everything of late had never happened to her before, this was all new.
The blonde curled up in her bed, wrapping her arms around her knees as she began to cry. She had totally messed up everything, her life, her friendship with Joan, everything. Now she wouldn't be able to go back to the Digital Bean. The rain crushed down on the roof. It seemed louder now than it did earlier. Maybe because she was paying more attention to it than she was earlier.
"Get a grip Lizzie." She said to herself.
"Lizzie! Dinner's ready!" Her mother called from downstairs.
Cleaning up herself, and reapplying her makeup, Lizzie readied herself to face her family. Under no circumstance whatsoever could they find out about this. And mom's had a way of finding things out. She came down the stairs with her normal walk, though her heart hurt every time she took a step. Her stomach was bunched up still from talking to Joan.
Lizzie was heading for the dinner table when she heard the doorbell ring. "I'll get it." She called out to her family. Opening the door, she found a very wet Joan standing there.
Joan was leaning up against the doorframe with a smile on her face. "I don't give up easily."
Lizzie laughed as she started to tear up again. "Come in, its raining outside." She pulled the girl inside. Joan was dripping all over the floor, but Lizzie didn't care.
"You hung up before I could say anything." She smiled. "The feelings are mutual. I never said anything because I didn't want to lose you. You're very important to me."
"I am?" Lizzie asked coyly.
"Yes. How could you not be?" Joan took Lizzie's hands within hers. "It just shocked me that you felt the same way, that's why I could say anything. But now I can and I want to say, I really like you Lizzie."
"Lizzie? Dinner's ready." Her father came around the corner. "Oh sorry."
"I'll be there in a minute." She said in a tone that explained to him that this was private and he was invading. He left them standing there.
"I should go I guess. Will I see you tomorrow?" Joan's voice held some hope.
"Yes. I'll meet you at the Digital Bean." Lizzie smiled happily at the girl. Joan laid her hand on the doorknob, getting ready to leave, when Lizzie stopped her. She pulled Joan's face to meet hers. Tentatively their lips met together in a slow unison. It was just a small, chaste kiss, much like the one that Lizzie had shared with Ronny.
"Can't wait until then." Joan whispered into the blonde's ear, planting one more quick kiss to her cheek before leaving. Hearing the sound of the door click, Lizzie wanted to run and do jumps and cartwheels around the house. But she knew that she had to keep her cool because her parents didn't know.
"Lizzie, are you coming?" Her mother's voice floated into her mind.
"Huh? Uh, yeah I'm coming." Lizzie followed after her mother into the kitchen where questioning eyes looked at her.
"Who was that at the door?" Sam asked.
"Just a friend." She tried brushing off the question in hopes that they wouldn't keep on prying into her business.
"She walked all the way over here in the rain just to see you?" Jo sat the salad bowl down on the table.
Taking her seat, Lizzie grinned. "Yes she did."
Part Three
"I have some things that I have to do before I can go." Lizzie gave the excuse to her friends. They had asked her to go to the Digital Bean after school, as always. That was their hangout. It was their sanctuary when they needed to escape the horrors of middle school and their parents.
But not today, today was Lizzie's day. She was determined on figuring this situation out with Joan. Things needed to be said out loud and realizations needed to be made.
"Oh, well..." Miranda's voice was deflated. "...we'll meet you there then. How about around five?"
Lizzie nodded and left her friends standing there in the hallway. School was over with now and she had major plans that didn't involve standing around here.
"Something's still off about her." Gordo commented before getting a smack from Miranda.
It was crowded today, which she was thankful for. After already getting into one argument with Lindsey, Joan decided to take a break before she said the wrong things to Lindsey. Spotting Lizzie going through a magazine.
"Having fun?" Joan sat to the left of the blonde. She looked up with a smile.
"Not as much as you seem to be having."
Joan could feel herself losing control around Lizzie. She wanted to kiss those perfect lips, but she couldn't they were in public after all. Lizzie slid her hand from her own lap to sit on Joan's knee. It was a bold move that she knew would be accepted.
"I think we should figure this out." Lizzie said, scooting a little closer to Joan. "Are we dating?" Her mouth was mere centimeters from Joan's ear.
The girl shivered with delight as she felt the warm breath on her skin. "D-do you w-want to be my girlfriend?"
Cute, I made her stutter. Lizzie wanted to pursue it to see how much more she could do to the girl but decided that it was too mean, for now anyways. "Of course I do. Otherwise I wouldn't have let you kiss me last night." She backed away so that they could talk normally.
"That wasn't a kiss, that was a prelude to a kiss. I could show you what a real kiss if we weren't in public."
She was intrigued, now she wanted to know more. "And what would you do to me if we weren't in public?"
Joan looked at her and without missing a beat said, "Make you scream in ecstasy until your were hoarse."
Lizzie could feel the excitement that ran through her with that comment. "I'll hold you to that one day."
The hand that laid comfortable on her knee began to make small little circles on her thigh. Joan looked over at Lizzie who was pretending to read her magazine but she was really concentrating on touching Joan.
"What are you doing?" Joan questioned.
"Touching my girlfriend's leg. Is that a problem?"
"I don't have a problem with it, but Miranda and Gordo might." Joan nodded her head towards the coming twosome. Lizzie removed her hand from Joan's leg. She tried to smile happily at her friends but she was upset that her time with Joan was cut short.
"Hey guys." Joan said as they sat down.
Gordo and Miranda were still uncertain of this girl. They didn't know much about her. And Miranda wasn't sure that she wanted to spend the time to get know her. Lizzie watched as they studied Joan. She knew that they weren't very accepting of her still. But they were going to have to accept her because Lizzie wasn't giving her up yet.
"Yeah, well I'm going to go. Call me tonight?" Joan asked Lizzie. The blonde nodded with a smile. She got up and left the others to deal on their own.
"You two seem to be getting on friendly terms." Gordo commented. Lizzie nodded and went back to her magazine, actually reading it this time.
"Are you still going to the party?" Miranda had a hint of jealousy in her voice.
"Yes. Are you?"
"No I'm not. Neither is Gordo."
Lizzie shrugged, "Its your choice. I'll tell you all about it on Monday."
She rushed home to call Joan. All she wanted to do was hear her girlfriend's voice. 'Her girlfriend,' those were words that she never thought she would say. But it made her feel good to know that she did have a girlfriend. Lizzie was twirling her hair in her finger as she waited on Joan to pick up the phone.
"You've reached the second hottest chick in town. How can I help you?"
"Just the second, why not the first?" Lizzie chuckled into the phone.
"Because the hottest chick in town, and in the state, is of course Lizzie McGuire." Joan knew who it was.
"Really and what makes her so special?"
"She has the second hottest chick in town as her girlfriend. And she has a really great ass."
Lizzie laughed when heard the last part. She scoffed. "Please."
"Its the truth, you should see it for yourself."
"Whatever. You made a quick exit after Miranda and Gordo showed up."
"Yeah, I have this feeling that they don't like me."
Lizzie sat down on her bed. She pulled one foot under her butt while her other leg hung off the bed. "I was thinking about telling them about us."
Joan was quiet for a moment. "Are you sure? This can be a difficult thing to do."
"I'm sure. I want them to be happy for us. And I don't like lying to them. But if I tell them then I want to tell my parents."
"Now I know that that is a bad idea." Joan didn't hesitate on her comment. "Your parents are going to freak when you tell them that you're dating a girl. And I would be banned from the McGuire house for good. I think that you should think about this for a while before telling them."
"Why don't you come over and spend the night with me tomorrow?" She asked coyly.
"We'll see. I'll talk to you tomorrow at the Digital Bean."
"Okay, good night."
"Good night and sweet dreams to you lovely."
Lizzie hung up the phone and took a deep breath. She threw herself back onto the bed feeling happier than she ever had been in months. But her happiness was cut short when her bedroom door opened. Miranda was standing there with her arms crossed over her chest.
"We need to talk." Miranda came in and shut the door.
"About what?" Lizzie was slightly irritated that her love fantasy got interrupted.
"Joan. I overheard Kate and Claire talking at the Digital Bean about her." Lizzie could feel her muscles tense up. Somebody was talking bad about her girlfriend? "They said that she's a lesbian." Miranda spoke the last part lower incase someone could hear her.
"I know and there is something that I have to tell you about her." Lizzie took in a deep breath. "Joan and I are...well...she's my girlfriend."
Miranda sat there in shock. She kept going over the words in her head to make sure that she had heard it right. Her words got stuck in her throat as she tried ask questions. This wasn't what she wanted to hear right now. But that explained why Lizzie and Joan acted different around each other.
"Miranda say something, please?" Lizzie worried that she might have lost her friend.
"When did this happen?" Anger was in her voice for sure.
"Yesterday and today."
Miranda stood up, her mind was racing. She looked confused before deciding what to do. "I've got to go."
"Miranda wait. Please talk to me." Lizzie asked of her.
"There's nothing left to say. I need time to think about this." She took off running down the stairs.
"This sucks." Lizzie said to herself.
"Lizzie?" Her mother came to her door. "Is everything okay? I just saw Miranda running out the door."
"She had an emergency at home. Um, can a friend of mine spend the night tomorrow?" She didn't want to tell her mother just yet about Joan cause that could ruin her chances of having the girl over.
"Sure as long Miranda's parents say that she can."
"No Mom, not Miranda." Lizzie laughed.
"Oh really? Well who is it?" She didn't know Lizzie had another friends other than Miranda and Gordo.
"Joan Geller. She's really nice, you'll like her."