Accidental Love
Chapter 10: Journal Entry - 11/01
Disclaimer: I do not own Matt Hardy, Lita, or any other superstar nor am I in any way associated with WWFE or Titan Sports Entertainment
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I am sitting in my living room, in complete quiet, surrounded only by candlelight. Tears stream down my face and I can taste their salty remains on my lips. Matt left tonight. He had a show to be at. I didn't go to the airport to see him off. I just couldn't make myself go. I knew I would break down in tears and I promised myself I wouldn't cry in front of him ...not yet. I don't know where I stand with him. Are we casual acquaintances, friends, or something more? I could see myself getting majorly hung up on this guy. Until I know what's going on I can't get too attached. It hurts too much already.
Matt is incredible! He's warm and caring, sweet and kind. He doesn't expect anything from me. Most of the time we've spent together, he has catered to my wants and needs. He never asks anything of me. And we have conversations like I've never known before. There aren't any awkward silences, I can talk about anything and trust that he understands. I mean, he helped me through my breakup with Stephen.
What if that's all this is? A rebound relationship doomed from the outset. What if that's why I feel so connected to him? I need to feel loved...special. Matt definitely makes me feel special. Do I really care for him or am I just desperate to be with someone?
All right, already I'm ahead of myself. Matt hasn't made any grand stand professions of love to me. He could think of me as a little sister.
I have to stop this! I am driving myself mad!
Chapter 10: Journal Entry - 11/01
Disclaimer: I do not own Matt Hardy, Lita, or any other superstar nor am I in any way associated with WWFE or Titan Sports Entertainment
* denotes thought
I am sitting in my living room, in complete quiet, surrounded only by candlelight. Tears stream down my face and I can taste their salty remains on my lips. Matt left tonight. He had a show to be at. I didn't go to the airport to see him off. I just couldn't make myself go. I knew I would break down in tears and I promised myself I wouldn't cry in front of him ...not yet. I don't know where I stand with him. Are we casual acquaintances, friends, or something more? I could see myself getting majorly hung up on this guy. Until I know what's going on I can't get too attached. It hurts too much already.
Matt is incredible! He's warm and caring, sweet and kind. He doesn't expect anything from me. Most of the time we've spent together, he has catered to my wants and needs. He never asks anything of me. And we have conversations like I've never known before. There aren't any awkward silences, I can talk about anything and trust that he understands. I mean, he helped me through my breakup with Stephen.
What if that's all this is? A rebound relationship doomed from the outset. What if that's why I feel so connected to him? I need to feel loved...special. Matt definitely makes me feel special. Do I really care for him or am I just desperate to be with someone?
All right, already I'm ahead of myself. Matt hasn't made any grand stand professions of love to me. He could think of me as a little sister.
I have to stop this! I am driving myself mad!