Accidental Love
Chapter 13: Phone call from Matt
* denotes thought
Matt called the next day. At first there was an awkwardness between us.
I don't think either of us knew what to say. Amy's phone call had given
me a lot to think about. In all honesty, she hadn't given me any pros
and I was wrestling with the cons.
Matt broke the awkward silence. "Sam . . . I care about you, more than
I've ever cared for anyone. I promise you that if we decide to make a
go of it, it will be hard and there will be a time when one or both of
will wonder if it's all worth it. I can guarantee you that I love you
and I would never do anything to hurt you." I could hear the sincerity
in his voice and in my mind I could see the concerned look I was sure
his face expressed.
I wanted desperately to be able to say 'yes I will be yours' and watch
the fears fade from his face, but I couldn't. "I need some more time,
Matt. It's a lot to think about and I'm just not ready to make a
decision yet," I replied.
"I don't want to pressure you into anything. Take all the time you
need. If we decide to do this, I want it to be right," he said.
And that was it. We made arrangements for me to meet him, Jeff, and
Amy at the airport before Matt left for the arena. I have to admit,
the phone call didn't give me much hope for a future. Actually, I was
having major doubts now. * It's like everyone expects this relationship
with Matt will fail no matter what. *
Chapter 13: Phone call from Matt
* denotes thought
Matt called the next day. At first there was an awkwardness between us.
I don't think either of us knew what to say. Amy's phone call had given
me a lot to think about. In all honesty, she hadn't given me any pros
and I was wrestling with the cons.
Matt broke the awkward silence. "Sam . . . I care about you, more than
I've ever cared for anyone. I promise you that if we decide to make a
go of it, it will be hard and there will be a time when one or both of
will wonder if it's all worth it. I can guarantee you that I love you
and I would never do anything to hurt you." I could hear the sincerity
in his voice and in my mind I could see the concerned look I was sure
his face expressed.
I wanted desperately to be able to say 'yes I will be yours' and watch
the fears fade from his face, but I couldn't. "I need some more time,
Matt. It's a lot to think about and I'm just not ready to make a
decision yet," I replied.
"I don't want to pressure you into anything. Take all the time you
need. If we decide to do this, I want it to be right," he said.
And that was it. We made arrangements for me to meet him, Jeff, and
Amy at the airport before Matt left for the arena. I have to admit,
the phone call didn't give me much hope for a future. Actually, I was
having major doubts now. * It's like everyone expects this relationship
with Matt will fail no matter what. *