Chapter 15: Journal Entry
The next few days were wonderful. It was like any new relationship. There
was a lot of PDA. I'm sure we annoyed everyone who saw us. Lord knows we
certainly annoyed a lot of the superstars. Everyone was happy for us
though. Amy and I had become great friends and Jeff was just like a brother
to me. Matt's friends had taken me in. It was one big, happy family. The
superstars were great and all their girlfriends/wives are lots of fun to
hang out with. They are all very laid back and incredibly sweet.
Now comes the hard stuff. Matt has to go back out on the road. He's traveling for a solid two weeks, then he's headed to North Carolina to visit his father and friends back home. It's part of his job and I need to be able to deal with it. I'm trying to look at it practically. We both knew this day would come and I pride myself on being sensible.
I'm not taking him to the airport. We decided it would be best if Jeff and Amy pick Matt up from my house that morning. They have an early flight and chances are I won't be awake when they leave. I just don't want it to be a heart-wrenching goodbye; that's more dramatic than he or I really want. This way it's more like he's going off to work and he'll be back soon. It will feel more temporary. At least, that's what we're hoping.
. . . Two and a half weeks later . . .
So far, so good. Matt and I have been apart just over two weeks. In the beginning, it was hard. I cried myself to sleep every night for the first week. The morning Matt left I had to leave work early I was such a mess.
Shayla's been over to watch the broadcasts with me. I think she's here more to keep me calm these days. We've always watched wrestling together, but she's gotten good at preventing me from freaking out every time Matt goes for an extreme move. And to think, they're known for the TLC matches. I wouldn't be able to handle that right now. I keep trying to tell myself this is an adjustment period. Matt and I haven't been together that long, and I have never been like this when it comes to a man. I don't know what to make of it. * Have I turned into one of those needy girls who has to cling on to her guy? Is it because of his job? What is wrong with me? *
Matt's father seemed nice. I was a bit embarrassed when I called his house this morning looking for Matt, but he was just as sweet as pie. Apparently, Matt had kept nothing from his father. Mr. Hardy knew exactly who I was as soon as I said my name. It made me a bit nervous, the idea of Matt talking to his father about me. I hoped he liked what Matt had told him. Then again, it is sweet that Matt is so close with his father. And it's nice to know Matt thinks seriously enough about us to tell his father already.
Now comes the hard stuff. Matt has to go back out on the road. He's traveling for a solid two weeks, then he's headed to North Carolina to visit his father and friends back home. It's part of his job and I need to be able to deal with it. I'm trying to look at it practically. We both knew this day would come and I pride myself on being sensible.
I'm not taking him to the airport. We decided it would be best if Jeff and Amy pick Matt up from my house that morning. They have an early flight and chances are I won't be awake when they leave. I just don't want it to be a heart-wrenching goodbye; that's more dramatic than he or I really want. This way it's more like he's going off to work and he'll be back soon. It will feel more temporary. At least, that's what we're hoping.
. . . Two and a half weeks later . . .
So far, so good. Matt and I have been apart just over two weeks. In the beginning, it was hard. I cried myself to sleep every night for the first week. The morning Matt left I had to leave work early I was such a mess.
Shayla's been over to watch the broadcasts with me. I think she's here more to keep me calm these days. We've always watched wrestling together, but she's gotten good at preventing me from freaking out every time Matt goes for an extreme move. And to think, they're known for the TLC matches. I wouldn't be able to handle that right now. I keep trying to tell myself this is an adjustment period. Matt and I haven't been together that long, and I have never been like this when it comes to a man. I don't know what to make of it. * Have I turned into one of those needy girls who has to cling on to her guy? Is it because of his job? What is wrong with me? *
Matt's father seemed nice. I was a bit embarrassed when I called his house this morning looking for Matt, but he was just as sweet as pie. Apparently, Matt had kept nothing from his father. Mr. Hardy knew exactly who I was as soon as I said my name. It made me a bit nervous, the idea of Matt talking to his father about me. I hoped he liked what Matt had told him. Then again, it is sweet that Matt is so close with his father. And it's nice to know Matt thinks seriously enough about us to tell his father already.