Title: Buffy and Spike, final scene
Author: Karine
Email: dawn_fanatique@hotmail.com
Paring: Buffy and Spike
Rated: PG13
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. They're Joss's.
Distribution: Want. Take. Have. Just give me the credit.
Note: season 6 spoiler. Take place couple of weeks after Gone.
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When Buffy finally get home, Dawn was asleep. She enters her sister's room and watches her sleeping peacefully. She gently brings back the covers on her and kisses her forehead.
Buffy pass the all week moping around 'til the next scooby meeting.
- Come on Buffy! Yelled Dawn from downstairs.
Buffy was still pacing in her room, wondering if she should actually go to that meeting. Spike will be there, she knew it. Willow had gone herself ask him to be present. At her return, Willow had told her that she found Spike completely drunk and talking to himself. She had leaved him a note to be sure he'll come. Buffy wasn't sure she was ready to see him yet.
- Buffy??? Yelled again Dawn.
Okay, no choice here. Gotta go…
The second Buffy enters the magic box, she knew she shouldn't have come. He was there, standing beside a table, fixing her with his so percent blue eyes. She takes a quick breath and walk in, sitting as far as Spike as she could. Willow starts describing the new demon she and Xander walk in the night before. In the middle of her explanation, Buffy suddenly stood up.
- Sorry, I need fresh air. Continue without me…
She gives Spike a quick glance before walking to the back door and get outside.
- Maybe I should check on her? Suggest Xander
- No, stop Dawn, I think Spike should go.
Spike looks at Dawn, surprised. Then he nodded.
- Sure…
Buffy lean her back against the wall and starts taking deep breath. She knew it was going to be hard but she had no idea it'll be that much. She heard the door open and saw Spike getting out.
- Spike! You didn't have to follow me.
- I know…. It was Nibblet's suggestion.
- Dawn?
- Yeah…think she figured it out…
- Kind of…
There was a tense silence between the two.
- I missed you Buffy…finally let out Spike.
Buffy's eyes filled with tears.
- I need more time Spike…please….
- Sure...
He takes a few steps towards her.
- Can I…..? he ask opening lightly his arms.
Buffy turned to him and nodded. She breaks the space between them and he takes her in his arms. He passes a hand through her hair, smelling her perfume. They stay a moment like this before Buffy pull away. She look up in his eye and smiled lightly.
- You don't smell alcohol….
- Didn't take before coming…knew you wouldn't appreciate it…
Buffy smiled again
- Then I guess I can do this…
She leans forward and kissed him. Gently, just like he did to her the week before. Spike responds hungrily and grabs her by the waist, bringing her closer to him. She passes her arms around his neck to deepen the kiss. She finally pulls away, trying to catch her breath. Spike look away, still trying to control himself.
- I'm sorry Buffy, wasn't planning on-
- No, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have starred it.
- Don't be…
Spike smiled at her and she smile back.
- We better get back, say Buffy, they might be wondering what we're doing…
- Better not tell them the truth, respond Spike as he open the door for her.
Buffy walk slowly trying to convince herself she didn't have to do this. She could just turn around and go back home and keep thinking again and again. But there she was, on her way to Spike's crypt. She was frightened. She finally arrives and knocks lightly on the door, hoping he wouldn't hear her. But he did, and he opens the door letting her in. She sit on the couch and he sit on the table facing her. They didn't say a word for a long moment.
- So…start Spike
- So?
- So, I guess you're here to tell me you love me and that you want to pass the rest of your life with me?
- Your over-confident will kill you one day.
- No….
Buffy rolled her eye.
- I mean, no I'm not being over-confident. Just being a daydream believer, he exclaims as he lits a cigarette.
Buffy sighed slowly.
- Look Spike, I though about it very carefully and…
Spike look away and get up.
- I see….
- No, let me finish.
- Don't need to…
- I want to! Please.
Spike look at her, she knew he couldn't resist when she begged.
- Go ahead….
- I can't….
Spike sighed. Why he was letting her do this to him?
- I just can't…..can't act like if we are a couple…tell everyone about us…it's too much….I'm not ready for this…I can't date a vampire. Angel was-
- Don't bring Angel! Stop Spike
Buffy sighed.
- My previous experience with an old boyfriend teaches me that it's not a good thing.
- This isn't an excuse Buffy! You and the poof didn't work because he was cursed!
- It wasn't just that!
- So, the reason we're never gonna be with each other is…Angel??
- No! Yes…no!
Buffy get up too.
- I just can't Spike. I try too and I can't.
Spike look at her, his expression hurting.
- You don't love me.
- I don't know…when it's come to you…I don't know.
Spike nodded. He walks to the door and open it.
- Good night Buffy.
- Spike…
- Good night Buffy!
- Spike! Buffy walk to him, tears in her eyes, I can't walk away! I need this. I don't want it to be over.
- But I do. I explain it to you earlier…
- Spike….
Spike voice gets angrier.
- Now, all I want you to do is leave. I don't want to be near you and I might never want it again. Go…
- Spike…
Buffy was crying now.
- Don't force me to throw you out.
Spike gazed get back to Buffy's eye.
- And stop saying my name like that….he had.
Buffy nodded slowly and walk through the door. She look over her shoulder but only see Spike leaning against the open door, fixing her in the night, tears rolling down his cheek.
She knew it was over. Really over. But maybe one day, she'll find in her what he was looking for and maybe she could come back to him. But for now, Spike was just adding to her list of her non-successful relationship. That's how it always works with her. And this time she couldn't blame the slayer for it. She had to blame Buffy…