Rating: PG-13
Archiving: Please ask
Disclaimer: Oooh, if I could have Scott and Bobby all to myself...but I can't cause they aren't mine :(
Notes: As always thanks to the inimitable Alyx and Jenn, I have no idea why they put up with me!
Part 6:
She knew it was a bad idea.
He knew they'd only end up hurting the people they loved.
They both knew they'd do it anyway. They did.
It amazed her, how good it could be.
He'd never had anything like it.
They both knew they couldn't let go of what ever it was they had found.
She knew it was breaking Bobby's heart.
He knew Jean was growing lonely and bitter.
They both knew that hearts would be broken before it ended, but they couldn't stop.
She cried, he cried.
He left, she yelled.
They both remembered
When the world is dark, cold and cynical and someone comes along who understands, you're unspeakably grateful. You stay as close to them as possible, fearing that the darkness will return. Kitty trusted Scott to keep the darkness away.
Scott trusted Kitty too. His trust in Jean and the Professor, the people who should have kept him safe, but who inadvertently dumped the darkness on him had disappeared. He distanced himself because he was scared.
Not scared of the repercussions of their actions, because neither Kitty nor Scott saw what they were doing as wrong. They were scared that the darkness would overtake them again, the were scared of loosing light. It was another way to be safe, to be warm. Kitty understood that Bobby was growing jealous of her relationship with Scott, and was justified. Before, before the dark, before everything, they had been very much in love and spent every waking moment together.
Scott knew he was hurting Jean because of his inability to explain the nature of his relationship with Kitty. But at least, it was a selfish thought but he was tired of being selfless, at least he wasn't hurting, wasn't frozen and blind. At long last he had someone who understood without having to probe, who could care without being clingy.
Kitty justified her actions a thousand times a day. But when Scott came to her at the end of the school day all that mattered was warmth. It was the only time when she wasn't confused, guilty, or scared. For an hour twice a week Kitty was able to push away the darkness and experience nothing but good, happy thoughts.
When he justified it long enough, their interludes could almost be considered medicinal. They needed it, not in a sleazy drug addict way, but in the way someone with allergies needed Claritin. One could barely function without it, but the with it the world became a beautiful place once more.
In a quiet part of the mansion Kitty had found a little bedroom and been using it as a meditation spot when she and Scott began their...thing. Now it was their spot. A room that always smelled warm, that at four o'clock in the afternoon was bathed in light.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Archiving: Please ask
Disclaimer: Oooh, if I could have Scott and Bobby all to myself...but I can't cause they aren't mine :(
Notes: As always thanks to the inimitable Alyx and Jenn, I have no idea why they put up with me!
Part 6:
She knew it was a bad idea.
He knew they'd only end up hurting the people they loved.
They both knew they'd do it anyway. They did.
It amazed her, how good it could be.
He'd never had anything like it.
They both knew they couldn't let go of what ever it was they had found.
She knew it was breaking Bobby's heart.
He knew Jean was growing lonely and bitter.
They both knew that hearts would be broken before it ended, but they couldn't stop.
She cried, he cried.
He left, she yelled.
They both remembered
When the world is dark, cold and cynical and someone comes along who understands, you're unspeakably grateful. You stay as close to them as possible, fearing that the darkness will return. Kitty trusted Scott to keep the darkness away.
Scott trusted Kitty too. His trust in Jean and the Professor, the people who should have kept him safe, but who inadvertently dumped the darkness on him had disappeared. He distanced himself because he was scared.
Not scared of the repercussions of their actions, because neither Kitty nor Scott saw what they were doing as wrong. They were scared that the darkness would overtake them again, the were scared of loosing light. It was another way to be safe, to be warm. Kitty understood that Bobby was growing jealous of her relationship with Scott, and was justified. Before, before the dark, before everything, they had been very much in love and spent every waking moment together.
Scott knew he was hurting Jean because of his inability to explain the nature of his relationship with Kitty. But at least, it was a selfish thought but he was tired of being selfless, at least he wasn't hurting, wasn't frozen and blind. At long last he had someone who understood without having to probe, who could care without being clingy.
Kitty justified her actions a thousand times a day. But when Scott came to her at the end of the school day all that mattered was warmth. It was the only time when she wasn't confused, guilty, or scared. For an hour twice a week Kitty was able to push away the darkness and experience nothing but good, happy thoughts.
When he justified it long enough, their interludes could almost be considered medicinal. They needed it, not in a sleazy drug addict way, but in the way someone with allergies needed Claritin. One could barely function without it, but the with it the world became a beautiful place once more.
In a quiet part of the mansion Kitty had found a little bedroom and been using it as a meditation spot when she and Scott began their...thing. Now it was their spot. A room that always smelled warm, that at four o'clock in the afternoon was bathed in light.
CHAPTER SEVEN