She ran, closing her mind for a few brief moments, reveling in the simple
sounds of her shoes hitting the pavement. Then images and emotions flared
back to life and she slowed, finally collapsing on the nearest raised
surface. She just sat there, letting the memories of the last twenty
minutes run through her brain over and over again. "What's wrong with me?"
she sobbed. "Kari?" startled at hearing her name she saw a welcome sight,
her best friend, Takeru.
Hikari, what's wrong?" Takeru was worried, here was his best friend
clinging to a garbage can, crying. The sight startled him so badly that he
almost turned around and ran. "Hey, are you alright?" his anxious voice
brought her back to the present. She nodded slightly, barely perceptibly
but Takeru saw it. He knew she was lying, people who are alright just don't
sit there crying in the middle of the night, but he also knew his best
friend. He knew that she does not like to burden people with her problems,
even if they want to help. Without saying a word Takeru picked up Hikari's
shuddering body and carried her to a bench. Hikari, was just glad for the
warmth his body let her, her mind was still reeling from the interlude with
his brother.
A fully dressed Ishda Yamato was sitting on a swing set in a big park not to far from the apartment and he too could not forget the feelings, the feel of her skin. Just everything she meant to him. Standing up he kicked the pole holding up the swings. "I'm an IDIOT!" he yelled. As if the pain in his foot were a catalyst he suddenly realized that he had been worse than an idiot. He had finally found a girl he genuinely cared for, maybe even LOVED. That thought caused Yamato to sit down on the ground hard. He loved her? He almost laughed in relief. That was why whenever he thought of her hair, her voice, her mere NAME he was filled with a. feeling. It was like a warm glow descended on him, and he couldn't think straight and only had past experiences with girls to draw on. Hikari wasn't like those other girls was she? He looked up at the moon, shining oblivious to the world basking in its reflected glows, and he just knew that he needed another chance. Tomorrow, when things had cooled down a bit, he would go see her. He would tell her what she meant to him. He, Yamato, would go crawling back to this Angel of Light with no sense of dignity. That's just what he would do. "I need her." was his only thought, but then a yell coming from his left. Yamato stood up and dashed in the direction of the noise.
The loss of the extra body warmth made Hikari realize where she was; as she looked into her best friends face she found worry, and a lot of warmth? No, that didn't make sense. Her head hurt, all these emotions playing around her and with her. Why was life so confusing sometimes? She tried to smile, and managed a half decent one. "I'm ok Tk, really, I just." she trailed off, looking at her cold hands. Takeru looked at her sad face behind the fake smile and placed his hands around hers, warming them. Leaning in so his whisper would be heard he pushed. "Just what 'Kari? Why is it that I found you clinging to a garbage can, CRYING at 11 o'clock at night?" he tried not to sound like an overwrought father, but he couldn't help himself, he loved her too much. She sniffled, pulling her hands away from his warm fingers. "I can't tell you Takeru, it's. it's just too complicated", and I don't know myself, she wanted to add, but somehow she knew that Takeru would push harder with that addition. Takeru was aghast. "Complicated? What's so complicated? What HAPPENED?" when the only response that he got after a few minutes was a salty tear on his hand Takeru lost control of his mouth. "Kami Hikari! You scared the living daylights out of me. I thought you had been hurt, or mugged or SOMETHING. Damnit Kari, I love you too much, if you were EVER hurt I would kill whoever did it. Don't you understand? I need to help you!" suddenly his mind regained control and Takeru backed off a bit. Hikari's mind was reeling like it was on the deck of a boat in the middle of a hurricane. 'Takeru LOVES me? No, that's not right, I heard wrong. he must mean as a friend, sister even.' "Takeru?" her small voice stopped his mind and heart completely "You love me like a friend or sister right? That kind of love?" Takeru wanted to lie to her, she just looked so, pathetic, but he knew that once he had said it, he couldn't take it back. "No Hikari, I mean like love. The kind of love of a man for a woman. I've loved you since that first time in the digital world. So long as we were together it didn't seem to matter that everyone was out to get us, or that we were the smallest kids on a dangerous adventure. I love you, and I always will." he waited. He needed some kind of response. Did she feel the same way? Was he about to be rejected and have to wander the streets forlornly? Hikari was about to explode, first the ENCOUNTER with things she had never thought about before just barely a half hour ago, and then her best friend confessing undying love. This was all just too much for poor exhausted Kari, she did the only thing she could. She yelled. "HOW could you say that to me Takeru? Are you trying to make me go insane? Do you know how long I liked you? I thought that you and I were always meant to be together. you never showed any interest and I lay that hope aside for another when your BROTHER asked me out. I fell in love with him, and I'm sorry Takeru, but I can't love you like you do. You are a brother to me, and will always be my best friend, but you will never be anything more." with tears in her eyes she turned and walked along the path. So deep was she in her thoughts of love and love gone wrong that she walked right into one of the reasons she was so distraught. Yamato. His arms encircled her waist when she collided with him on instinct, but when he realized who it was, he didn't let go.
In the second it took to look up Hikari recognized the smell and feel of his body against his and was torn between pushing away or holding him close. When their eyes met, something in his eyes made her stay where she was. "Hikari, I'm so sorry for the way I acted. When I see you, it's like I lose all control, you make me go crazy. If you can ever forgive me. Hikari I can't live without you. I love you" His voice was so tight with barely controlled emotion that she felt her eyes water up with tears. When he said the last she was torn between crying and laughing. "You know Yamato; your brother said the exact same thing barely 5 minutes ago?" Yamato looked surprised. "Do you know how HARD it was for me to tell him, my best friend, that I didn't return his feelings? To break his heart right there, by telling him he wasn't the one I loved anymore?" Yamato felt his hope rising, did she love him? She must have seen his thoughts on his face because she said calmly "Yes, you're the one I love Yamato, you just pushed me a bit fast love. Can you wait until I'm ready?" Yamato was too dumbfounded to do more than nod. When he found his voice the only thing he could think of to say was "What now?" Hikari laughed her light lilting laugh, amazed at suddenly having the power in their relationship. "Just kiss me Yamato, Just Kiss Me" and he did. Many times did he kiss her, but he remembered to let her take her time.
As Takeru watched the chance meeting he felt his heart break a million different ways. He had missed his chance. He vowed never to do that again. He turned and collected the pieces of his broken heart. He knew he would always love his Hikari in one part of his heart.
Ok, Finished on August 19, 2002 at 1 am, I started this on Thursday, June 28, 2001. OVER A YEAR People. Ok, Upichan, you better like this. I made it a YAkari for you. So many thanks to Aiplaya (g1m.com) for pushing and threatening and generally bugging me about this since April of this year. Shout out to Krys because she did tell me that "this part is crap" and to fix my story to make it good. The first chapter may get a revamp someday because of her opinion. Whoa. I'm getting CHILLS I am so happy to have finally finished this fic. Aw well, soon I will probably start a CCS or DBZ fic. Love you lots readers! Hugs nights all
A fully dressed Ishda Yamato was sitting on a swing set in a big park not to far from the apartment and he too could not forget the feelings, the feel of her skin. Just everything she meant to him. Standing up he kicked the pole holding up the swings. "I'm an IDIOT!" he yelled. As if the pain in his foot were a catalyst he suddenly realized that he had been worse than an idiot. He had finally found a girl he genuinely cared for, maybe even LOVED. That thought caused Yamato to sit down on the ground hard. He loved her? He almost laughed in relief. That was why whenever he thought of her hair, her voice, her mere NAME he was filled with a. feeling. It was like a warm glow descended on him, and he couldn't think straight and only had past experiences with girls to draw on. Hikari wasn't like those other girls was she? He looked up at the moon, shining oblivious to the world basking in its reflected glows, and he just knew that he needed another chance. Tomorrow, when things had cooled down a bit, he would go see her. He would tell her what she meant to him. He, Yamato, would go crawling back to this Angel of Light with no sense of dignity. That's just what he would do. "I need her." was his only thought, but then a yell coming from his left. Yamato stood up and dashed in the direction of the noise.
The loss of the extra body warmth made Hikari realize where she was; as she looked into her best friends face she found worry, and a lot of warmth? No, that didn't make sense. Her head hurt, all these emotions playing around her and with her. Why was life so confusing sometimes? She tried to smile, and managed a half decent one. "I'm ok Tk, really, I just." she trailed off, looking at her cold hands. Takeru looked at her sad face behind the fake smile and placed his hands around hers, warming them. Leaning in so his whisper would be heard he pushed. "Just what 'Kari? Why is it that I found you clinging to a garbage can, CRYING at 11 o'clock at night?" he tried not to sound like an overwrought father, but he couldn't help himself, he loved her too much. She sniffled, pulling her hands away from his warm fingers. "I can't tell you Takeru, it's. it's just too complicated", and I don't know myself, she wanted to add, but somehow she knew that Takeru would push harder with that addition. Takeru was aghast. "Complicated? What's so complicated? What HAPPENED?" when the only response that he got after a few minutes was a salty tear on his hand Takeru lost control of his mouth. "Kami Hikari! You scared the living daylights out of me. I thought you had been hurt, or mugged or SOMETHING. Damnit Kari, I love you too much, if you were EVER hurt I would kill whoever did it. Don't you understand? I need to help you!" suddenly his mind regained control and Takeru backed off a bit. Hikari's mind was reeling like it was on the deck of a boat in the middle of a hurricane. 'Takeru LOVES me? No, that's not right, I heard wrong. he must mean as a friend, sister even.' "Takeru?" her small voice stopped his mind and heart completely "You love me like a friend or sister right? That kind of love?" Takeru wanted to lie to her, she just looked so, pathetic, but he knew that once he had said it, he couldn't take it back. "No Hikari, I mean like love. The kind of love of a man for a woman. I've loved you since that first time in the digital world. So long as we were together it didn't seem to matter that everyone was out to get us, or that we were the smallest kids on a dangerous adventure. I love you, and I always will." he waited. He needed some kind of response. Did she feel the same way? Was he about to be rejected and have to wander the streets forlornly? Hikari was about to explode, first the ENCOUNTER with things she had never thought about before just barely a half hour ago, and then her best friend confessing undying love. This was all just too much for poor exhausted Kari, she did the only thing she could. She yelled. "HOW could you say that to me Takeru? Are you trying to make me go insane? Do you know how long I liked you? I thought that you and I were always meant to be together. you never showed any interest and I lay that hope aside for another when your BROTHER asked me out. I fell in love with him, and I'm sorry Takeru, but I can't love you like you do. You are a brother to me, and will always be my best friend, but you will never be anything more." with tears in her eyes she turned and walked along the path. So deep was she in her thoughts of love and love gone wrong that she walked right into one of the reasons she was so distraught. Yamato. His arms encircled her waist when she collided with him on instinct, but when he realized who it was, he didn't let go.
In the second it took to look up Hikari recognized the smell and feel of his body against his and was torn between pushing away or holding him close. When their eyes met, something in his eyes made her stay where she was. "Hikari, I'm so sorry for the way I acted. When I see you, it's like I lose all control, you make me go crazy. If you can ever forgive me. Hikari I can't live without you. I love you" His voice was so tight with barely controlled emotion that she felt her eyes water up with tears. When he said the last she was torn between crying and laughing. "You know Yamato; your brother said the exact same thing barely 5 minutes ago?" Yamato looked surprised. "Do you know how HARD it was for me to tell him, my best friend, that I didn't return his feelings? To break his heart right there, by telling him he wasn't the one I loved anymore?" Yamato felt his hope rising, did she love him? She must have seen his thoughts on his face because she said calmly "Yes, you're the one I love Yamato, you just pushed me a bit fast love. Can you wait until I'm ready?" Yamato was too dumbfounded to do more than nod. When he found his voice the only thing he could think of to say was "What now?" Hikari laughed her light lilting laugh, amazed at suddenly having the power in their relationship. "Just kiss me Yamato, Just Kiss Me" and he did. Many times did he kiss her, but he remembered to let her take her time.
As Takeru watched the chance meeting he felt his heart break a million different ways. He had missed his chance. He vowed never to do that again. He turned and collected the pieces of his broken heart. He knew he would always love his Hikari in one part of his heart.
Ok, Finished on August 19, 2002 at 1 am, I started this on Thursday, June 28, 2001. OVER A YEAR People. Ok, Upichan, you better like this. I made it a YAkari for you. So many thanks to Aiplaya (g1m.com) for pushing and threatening and generally bugging me about this since April of this year. Shout out to Krys because she did tell me that "this part is crap" and to fix my story to make it good. The first chapter may get a revamp someday because of her opinion. Whoa. I'm getting CHILLS I am so happy to have finally finished this fic. Aw well, soon I will probably start a CCS or DBZ fic. Love you lots readers! Hugs nights all