Author's Note: Had to be a bit longer than the others. Because it's a diary
entry and stuff. I had a bit of spare time, so I tried it. I think it's
about two and a half pages in Microsoft Word. Enjoy it. REVIEW it (I put
stress on that one). Well Zell fans, I'm sorta mad at you. Why didn't you
review my Zell chapter? I tried hard on it too. :-(
Convinced by his Angel (Squall) by WitchHazel
Diary Entry #1 It's quite awkward writing this down. I've never even thought of having a diary before. But Rinoa persuaded me, using her usual tactics.
I remember the conversation, her sweet voice convincing, her perfectly formed mouth stubborn. "Squall!" She whined, in a way that was never annoying to me. "Those GF's are taking away all our memories!"
"Then maybe they'll take away all memories of this conversation." I replied wryly, wanting to get her mad. Somehow, I don't really know why, she looked even better to me when she was angry. I flashed a smile nicely to show her that I was just kidding, and saw her anger fade.
Oh Hyne, I really do love her. This girl who saved me from death, and a life alone. She melted me and I'm glad she did it. What I would do for her.
Even I was shocked at the gigantic grunge I still had for Seifer, because of what he did to Rinny. Even though they say he was possessed. Even though she had forgiven him already.
"Squall," her tone serious now, "You don't want to forget how we met, do you?"
That got to me. So here I am, writing this shit down, my feelings and my concerns. And my love for Rinoa. I swear, if I ever finish this book, three- fourths of it would be about her. I need to go now, I have to talk to Cid in a while.
Diary Entry #2
I was thinking about Selphie and Irvine.And Zell. I don't know why, but I can see there's a bit of trouble with those three. No, I'm not talking about some "love triangle," Selphie and Zell used to be so close. But now, Selphie seems to have become separate from us. Well, I was never close to her, but I heard that she's talking with Rinoa lesser and lesser about personal stuff and talking more about the things nobody cares about. And Irvine, I think that he's the one she keeps on stressing about. He seems sort of out of it too, sometimes he's the usual loud and outgoing person that he is, but in other moods, he wont even look too long at a girl without glancing worriedly at Selphie. I know he's not cheating on the brunette though. He's a good person.
I guess I'm observant that way. Maybe I picked it up in my pre-Rinoa years. The whole, "Don't pay attention to your thoughts, thing, just look at other people's lives" style.
Diary Entry #3 I can't sleep. I keep on stewing about what I would have become if Rinoa wasn't there. If she never hired SeeD. If she never met Seifer. I would still be a mercenary. I still would have saved the world, I think. I would still be the commander.
If I were alive.
If I hadn't met her I would still be empty, with that blank feeling and the bitterness packed inside of me. I wouldn't feel sad, but I sure wouldn't feel the bliss I often feel now.
Sometimes I wonder why Rinoa didn't affect Seifer like she did to me. She cured my ice and resentment to the world. How about him? Didn't she change him? He also resembled me in a way people never noticed. But I mustn't concentrate on that. It will only make me even wearier, thinking of them together.
What made her persist on trying to help me? I close my eyes for a moment and remember what she said. "You're the cutest guy in the room." Was it that? Something shallow like looks? Or was it something deeper?
I was terrible to her in the beginning. It felt like she was a beautiful, but highly annoying bug that needed to be swatted away. And swat I did. But still she persisted. She refused to leave me be, the way I wanted it back then. And I'm continuing to wonder why.
I still can't sleep.
Diary Entry #4 It's about our Matron. Cid and her are finally reunited, but we have another problem. Edea wants to fix up the orphanage, but Cid still has to be the headmaster of this Garden. If he goes with her, he'll have to abandon us even though the Garden and the orphanage are somehow connected in a way. I was ready to complain and speak up for the whole student body when Cid told me the other option. He suggested that I would command Garden, and keep it safe, acting as a Headmaster-in-Garden, while Cid does the complicated paperwork at the orphanage, with Edea, being the Headmaster- out-of-Garden. That's all good for them, I know, but what will I do?
Sure, I was commander before, but I really have no idea what a headmaster does, from what I know, its just paperwork, and Cid is supposed to do that! Do I talk to the instructors and command the SeeD's? Or will he do that?
I don't have any of the experience or anything. I hope the others will be willing to help me.
Diary Entry #5 A new, petrifying thought has entered in my mind. What if she doesn't love me back? Maybe I was just a part time person!? She might have been playing with me all this time. Will she leave me like Sis did?
I feel empty again. Like I'm all alone. I'm shivering and I can't help it. Am I alone?!
I can't stand it. I have to go for a while, maybe to see Laguna, my newly found father, who people still believe I dislike. This journal is making me imagine unthinkable thoughts. It's making me uncomfortable. I'm going to Esthar, without this thing.
~~~*~~~
Hey Mr. Big-Time Commander!
I couldn't help myself and took a look! You see, I found it on top of your table at the dorm when I visited, and was tempted. Sorry. There's really no harm done, right? Please say so. I swear I won't do it again.
Oh, and Squall? This IS forever. I won't leave you alone. I promise you that!
Love from Your Angel
Rinoa Heartilly
Author's note: Was it ok? I mean, was it worth doing? Do you want me to rewrite it like the others? What do you think of the ending? Please tell in the MUCH-NEEDED-REVIEWS that you WILL do. Please? Pretty please? Ok, whatever (squalls word, tee hee). I'll quit groveling
Argh! Zell fans!!! Review!!! Grr.
Convinced by his Angel (Squall) by WitchHazel
Diary Entry #1 It's quite awkward writing this down. I've never even thought of having a diary before. But Rinoa persuaded me, using her usual tactics.
I remember the conversation, her sweet voice convincing, her perfectly formed mouth stubborn. "Squall!" She whined, in a way that was never annoying to me. "Those GF's are taking away all our memories!"
"Then maybe they'll take away all memories of this conversation." I replied wryly, wanting to get her mad. Somehow, I don't really know why, she looked even better to me when she was angry. I flashed a smile nicely to show her that I was just kidding, and saw her anger fade.
Oh Hyne, I really do love her. This girl who saved me from death, and a life alone. She melted me and I'm glad she did it. What I would do for her.
Even I was shocked at the gigantic grunge I still had for Seifer, because of what he did to Rinny. Even though they say he was possessed. Even though she had forgiven him already.
"Squall," her tone serious now, "You don't want to forget how we met, do you?"
That got to me. So here I am, writing this shit down, my feelings and my concerns. And my love for Rinoa. I swear, if I ever finish this book, three- fourths of it would be about her. I need to go now, I have to talk to Cid in a while.
Diary Entry #2
I was thinking about Selphie and Irvine.And Zell. I don't know why, but I can see there's a bit of trouble with those three. No, I'm not talking about some "love triangle," Selphie and Zell used to be so close. But now, Selphie seems to have become separate from us. Well, I was never close to her, but I heard that she's talking with Rinoa lesser and lesser about personal stuff and talking more about the things nobody cares about. And Irvine, I think that he's the one she keeps on stressing about. He seems sort of out of it too, sometimes he's the usual loud and outgoing person that he is, but in other moods, he wont even look too long at a girl without glancing worriedly at Selphie. I know he's not cheating on the brunette though. He's a good person.
I guess I'm observant that way. Maybe I picked it up in my pre-Rinoa years. The whole, "Don't pay attention to your thoughts, thing, just look at other people's lives" style.
Diary Entry #3 I can't sleep. I keep on stewing about what I would have become if Rinoa wasn't there. If she never hired SeeD. If she never met Seifer. I would still be a mercenary. I still would have saved the world, I think. I would still be the commander.
If I were alive.
If I hadn't met her I would still be empty, with that blank feeling and the bitterness packed inside of me. I wouldn't feel sad, but I sure wouldn't feel the bliss I often feel now.
Sometimes I wonder why Rinoa didn't affect Seifer like she did to me. She cured my ice and resentment to the world. How about him? Didn't she change him? He also resembled me in a way people never noticed. But I mustn't concentrate on that. It will only make me even wearier, thinking of them together.
What made her persist on trying to help me? I close my eyes for a moment and remember what she said. "You're the cutest guy in the room." Was it that? Something shallow like looks? Or was it something deeper?
I was terrible to her in the beginning. It felt like she was a beautiful, but highly annoying bug that needed to be swatted away. And swat I did. But still she persisted. She refused to leave me be, the way I wanted it back then. And I'm continuing to wonder why.
I still can't sleep.
Diary Entry #4 It's about our Matron. Cid and her are finally reunited, but we have another problem. Edea wants to fix up the orphanage, but Cid still has to be the headmaster of this Garden. If he goes with her, he'll have to abandon us even though the Garden and the orphanage are somehow connected in a way. I was ready to complain and speak up for the whole student body when Cid told me the other option. He suggested that I would command Garden, and keep it safe, acting as a Headmaster-in-Garden, while Cid does the complicated paperwork at the orphanage, with Edea, being the Headmaster- out-of-Garden. That's all good for them, I know, but what will I do?
Sure, I was commander before, but I really have no idea what a headmaster does, from what I know, its just paperwork, and Cid is supposed to do that! Do I talk to the instructors and command the SeeD's? Or will he do that?
I don't have any of the experience or anything. I hope the others will be willing to help me.
Diary Entry #5 A new, petrifying thought has entered in my mind. What if she doesn't love me back? Maybe I was just a part time person!? She might have been playing with me all this time. Will she leave me like Sis did?
I feel empty again. Like I'm all alone. I'm shivering and I can't help it. Am I alone?!
I can't stand it. I have to go for a while, maybe to see Laguna, my newly found father, who people still believe I dislike. This journal is making me imagine unthinkable thoughts. It's making me uncomfortable. I'm going to Esthar, without this thing.
~~~*~~~
Hey Mr. Big-Time Commander!
I couldn't help myself and took a look! You see, I found it on top of your table at the dorm when I visited, and was tempted. Sorry. There's really no harm done, right? Please say so. I swear I won't do it again.
Oh, and Squall? This IS forever. I won't leave you alone. I promise you that!
Love from Your Angel
Rinoa Heartilly
Author's note: Was it ok? I mean, was it worth doing? Do you want me to rewrite it like the others? What do you think of the ending? Please tell in the MUCH-NEEDED-REVIEWS that you WILL do. Please? Pretty please? Ok, whatever (squalls word, tee hee). I'll quit groveling
Argh! Zell fans!!! Review!!! Grr.