Eli: I am now slowly recovering from writers block. It took many hours of
watching "Pride and Prejudice" and "Strictly Ballroom" to finally knock the
wall over. I now present (finally) chap five. Enjoy.
Sara found Ian leaning against a wall. He got up the minute he saw her. "Sara."
"Nottingham. So what surprising message do you have for me?"
"Nothing to top what I related to you last night. First, I would like to apologize for getting angry with you."
"You didn't need to apologize, but since you did, I accept your apology."
"Second of all, I want you to know that how I feel about you has not changed, nor will it."
"I still have no clue how you came to have those feelings. Nottingham." She looked back at him. "You barely know me. How the hell can you be in love with me?"
"Why do you find it so hard to believe? What reason would I have to lie to you?"
"None that I can think of, but still."
"I can try to relate to you how I came to feel this for you, but words might fail me. Should I try to relate it to you?"
Sara shrugged her shoulders. "Sure, why not?"
"I was under orders to watch you two months prior to your finding of the witchblade."
"Yeah, I noticed."
"With all my observations of you, I saw things not found all in one person: Compassion, strength, bravery, intelligence, grace, life, happiness, loyalty...." Sara put her hand over his mouth to get him to stop. "I'm not all those things." Ian moved away from her.
"But you are! That and so much more! You are perfect in everyway possible. I have known that since I first met you all those years ago, and to see you now is almost beyond comprehension." Sara got confused "What do you mean beyond comprehension?"
"You are so perfect to behold that I know no words that could rise up to the occasion to describe you."
"You said you have no reason to lie to me, yet you're still lying."
"I am not lying! Why can't you understand?"
"I understand that you love me for things I'm not. I'm not perfect. Get out more and you'll see that."
"I've been out and I've seen what they call perfect. I don't care what they have to say on the matter! To me, you are perfect. Do you believe me?" He and Sara stared at each other for a long time. "Do you believe me, Sara?"
Sara was trapped by his gaze. His brown eyes were pleading with her to believe him. She looked away and shook her head. "No, I don't believe you. You're only saying these things to confuse me. I can't take it." She walked away from him and started back towards her office. "Just leave me alone."
-Back at her office-
Sara collapsed into her chair and put her head back.
"Whoa, Pez. What the hell happened?"
"He tried to explain why he is in love with me."
"What did he say?"
"He said I was perfect and that he's thought that ever since he met me. That means he has thought that since he was about seven!"
"So it developed from a little kid crush and has lasted for about 25 years? Damn, he's got it bad. So what did you say to him about it?"
"I told him I didn't believe him and to leave me alone."
"You what!?!"
"What? What the hell was I suppose to do?"
"Well, not that. Why don't you believe him?"
"He thinks I'm perfect."
"So?"
"I'm not perfect. He says he loves me because I'm perfect. It's based off a lie."
"Sara, we all see perfect differently. I find my wife absolutely perfect and I know for a fact many don't see her that way, but just because she isn't perfect to others doesn't mean that I don't see her that way."
"I know all of our perception is different, it's just...What he said confused me, okay? I panicked."
"Confusion tolerance, Sara. Think about what you have just done. You just told a guy who is head over heels in love with you that you want him to stay away from you and worst off; you told him you don't believe him. Do you believe him?"
Sara sighed. "Yes." The thought of her actions finally kicked in. "Oh God! What the hell did I just do?"
"The stupidest thing I have ever seen you do."
"I think I've destroyed him."
"There's only one way to find out. You're gonna have to talk to him."
"Yeah. I owe him that." She leaned on the desk and out her head in her hands. "My God! I can't believe I did something like that." Danny put his hand on her shoulder.
"Hey, we all do stupid things. Hopefully, you can stop him from killing himself over it. You should call him now."
"Don't have his number."
"Then how are you gonna talk to him?"
"If I am lucky, he'll be where he has been every night for almost 3 months."
"Where's that?"
"The fire escape outside my window."
"Rejoiced as I am that I've talked you into talking to him, I have to ask: Your fire escape?"
"Another time my wise, Asian master. I need to get this work done so I can head home."
"All right, but tomorrow your under interrogation for details."
"Deal."
Eli: So you can tell I have been watching too many romantic movies. What is wrong with me? I need to watch some violence. Why didn't I tape Consectatio or Thanatopsis?
Sara found Ian leaning against a wall. He got up the minute he saw her. "Sara."
"Nottingham. So what surprising message do you have for me?"
"Nothing to top what I related to you last night. First, I would like to apologize for getting angry with you."
"You didn't need to apologize, but since you did, I accept your apology."
"Second of all, I want you to know that how I feel about you has not changed, nor will it."
"I still have no clue how you came to have those feelings. Nottingham." She looked back at him. "You barely know me. How the hell can you be in love with me?"
"Why do you find it so hard to believe? What reason would I have to lie to you?"
"None that I can think of, but still."
"I can try to relate to you how I came to feel this for you, but words might fail me. Should I try to relate it to you?"
Sara shrugged her shoulders. "Sure, why not?"
"I was under orders to watch you two months prior to your finding of the witchblade."
"Yeah, I noticed."
"With all my observations of you, I saw things not found all in one person: Compassion, strength, bravery, intelligence, grace, life, happiness, loyalty...." Sara put her hand over his mouth to get him to stop. "I'm not all those things." Ian moved away from her.
"But you are! That and so much more! You are perfect in everyway possible. I have known that since I first met you all those years ago, and to see you now is almost beyond comprehension." Sara got confused "What do you mean beyond comprehension?"
"You are so perfect to behold that I know no words that could rise up to the occasion to describe you."
"You said you have no reason to lie to me, yet you're still lying."
"I am not lying! Why can't you understand?"
"I understand that you love me for things I'm not. I'm not perfect. Get out more and you'll see that."
"I've been out and I've seen what they call perfect. I don't care what they have to say on the matter! To me, you are perfect. Do you believe me?" He and Sara stared at each other for a long time. "Do you believe me, Sara?"
Sara was trapped by his gaze. His brown eyes were pleading with her to believe him. She looked away and shook her head. "No, I don't believe you. You're only saying these things to confuse me. I can't take it." She walked away from him and started back towards her office. "Just leave me alone."
-Back at her office-
Sara collapsed into her chair and put her head back.
"Whoa, Pez. What the hell happened?"
"He tried to explain why he is in love with me."
"What did he say?"
"He said I was perfect and that he's thought that ever since he met me. That means he has thought that since he was about seven!"
"So it developed from a little kid crush and has lasted for about 25 years? Damn, he's got it bad. So what did you say to him about it?"
"I told him I didn't believe him and to leave me alone."
"You what!?!"
"What? What the hell was I suppose to do?"
"Well, not that. Why don't you believe him?"
"He thinks I'm perfect."
"So?"
"I'm not perfect. He says he loves me because I'm perfect. It's based off a lie."
"Sara, we all see perfect differently. I find my wife absolutely perfect and I know for a fact many don't see her that way, but just because she isn't perfect to others doesn't mean that I don't see her that way."
"I know all of our perception is different, it's just...What he said confused me, okay? I panicked."
"Confusion tolerance, Sara. Think about what you have just done. You just told a guy who is head over heels in love with you that you want him to stay away from you and worst off; you told him you don't believe him. Do you believe him?"
Sara sighed. "Yes." The thought of her actions finally kicked in. "Oh God! What the hell did I just do?"
"The stupidest thing I have ever seen you do."
"I think I've destroyed him."
"There's only one way to find out. You're gonna have to talk to him."
"Yeah. I owe him that." She leaned on the desk and out her head in her hands. "My God! I can't believe I did something like that." Danny put his hand on her shoulder.
"Hey, we all do stupid things. Hopefully, you can stop him from killing himself over it. You should call him now."
"Don't have his number."
"Then how are you gonna talk to him?"
"If I am lucky, he'll be where he has been every night for almost 3 months."
"Where's that?"
"The fire escape outside my window."
"Rejoiced as I am that I've talked you into talking to him, I have to ask: Your fire escape?"
"Another time my wise, Asian master. I need to get this work done so I can head home."
"All right, but tomorrow your under interrogation for details."
"Deal."
Eli: So you can tell I have been watching too many romantic movies. What is wrong with me? I need to watch some violence. Why didn't I tape Consectatio or Thanatopsis?