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Guardian Angel
Confusion and Illusion
by Sapphire Goddess


After Matt had disappeared, I laid upon the couch and stared at the ceiling. I hadn't realized that's what I'd been doing for a long time, and even then I'm not not sure how much time passed. I just know that it was morning when Kari and TK had been over and now the sun was beginning to set.

He disappeared. Just like that. It was like living his death over again, except this time I couldn't cry. There was nothing left in me to do that. How could I weep over him again? I wouldn't and couldn't let myself.

I was still laying on the uncomfortable couch that had springs popping into my back due to the cushions being ripped when I sighed. Only a week before Matt's accident, we had talked about buying a new one. After his death, it just didn't seem to matter. Then again, nothing seemed to matter, and it still doesn't matter. Who cares about a couch? I'm fine keeping the couch. It was Matt I wanted back, and as cliched as it sounds, I would do anything to get him back.

Sighing, I closed my eyes and began willing myself to stand. My legs were cramped from laying here so long and my head hurt. If I could make it to the kitchen and get pain killers, it would put me to sleep and I wouldn't have to think of Matt all night long - the perfect plan.

I found myself standing in a few moments, heading towards the kitchen. It took me a few minutes to find the Tylenol, but it finally showed up in a cupboard I least suspected it would be in. Figures that things are never where they are supposed to be.

The bottle told me to take three as a maximum, but I took four to keep me asleep all night. Hopefully, it wouldn't overdose me. I laughed to myself, thinking how stupid that was. I had overdosed on pain killers before and it was much more than four tablets taken.

It only took twenty minutes for the pills to take effect, and I found myself stumbling drowsily to my bedroom and laying in my bed. It was much more comfortable than the couch. I had no problems beginning to doze off, and I could feel myself beginning to fall asleep, but when a peaceful voice began singing to me, my eyes drifted open and I found myself staring at him.

You came back, I croaked, immediately clearing my throat after saying that.

Matt only nodded and continued singing the soothing words. I recognized the song right away; it was the song we first danced to at a school dance, when we finally came out as a couple. The song originated from his former band and this one had always been my favorite ever since he dedicated it to me.

I closed my eyes as the words of the song engulfed me, bringing serenity to mind. His voice had always been so soothing, but now it seemed to have a tranquil touch to it. The feeling of sleep began washing upon me again, and this time it was welcomed. As Matt's singing ended, I fell into a peaceful slumber.

***

My body twitched as my eyes opened and I couldn't help but groan. Looking at the clock, it read 9:30. I must have slept for over twelve hours. Those pills really knocked me out.

[They sure did. I've been bored out of my mind sitting here.]

I looked to the right of my bed and began screaming. The covers were thrown off of me and I jumped up, backing myself into the wall. How are you here? Why are you here?! I don't understand!

Tears filled my eyes and I couldn't help but let them slip down my face. This didn't make any sense. How could he be here again? He's supposed to be dead! How could he just show up again after six months? How's this even possible?

[Tai, I'm sorry for scaring you. Really, I am.]

How are you here, Matt? I asked, leaning against the wall. I still felt that if I went near him, he would suddenly disappear. He did yesterday, didn't he? Speaking of that... Where'd you go yesterday?

[Sorry about that, but I had a duty to take care of.] He grinned when saying this, and I wanted to ask what he meant, but felt obliged not to. Instead, I pushed myself away from the wall and forced myself to take a seat next to him on the bed.

I don't understand any of this.

[It's rather confusing, isn't it?]

I nodded and signaled him to explain - explain any of it! I just needed to hear his voice, and I needed to hear some sort of explanation to his presence in front of me.

He moved up the bed and leaned against the head board, sitting cross legged. It was then that he patted his lap and I took that offer to rest my head on his lap. When I touched him, I felt nothing. It was strange - like he wasn't even there.

[Comfortable?] When I nodded, he continued, [You see, we - us Angels - have to wait six months in order to come down to Earth again to see our loved ones. He makes us wait so that we get used to living in Heaven and the idea of being dead.]

How come my grandmother never continued visiting my dad after she died? I asked, confused. What he was saying didn't make much sense to me.

[Many choose not to go down and bother their loved ones because it only prologues their pain and suffering longer.] he said thoughtfully, tilting his head. [I came back because I was tired of the angels up there. They're so annoying.]

So you are an angel in heaven? I asked.

He nodded and glanced away from me, staring at the ceiling. [I should go now. I am not allowed to spend too much of my time down here.]

When will I see you again? I asked, sitting up.

[Soon.] That was the last thing he said before disappearing, and in seeing that it frightened me. He just disappeared, again. Would he be doing this my entire life? Did I want this? Surely I love him, but could I handle him disappearing in and out of my life? Great, I sound like one of those soap stars on daily television.

Groaning, I laid back against the pillow of my bed and frowned as I realized laying upon it felt exactly how it did when I was laying on Matt's lap.

***

Here's the laundry, TK announced, walking into the room.

Kari smiled as she took the basket from him and set it on my bed. All I could do was sigh as I made up my bed. Not too long after Matt left, Kari and TK came - stupid spare of Kari's! - and this time, had the objective to clean up my bedroom. Looking around, it was awfully messy, but thanks to Kari I could now actually see the pale blue carpet that lay underneath the heaps of clothing now sitting in the basket.

I returned to doing my task of arranging the covers onto my bed, whilst thinking of Matt. I was still in disbelief of how he could be here. Ghosts were never an issue of beliefs for me; I had never been one to believe in ghosts, spirits, and angels.

Wha'cha thinking about, Tai? TK asked, pulling the opposite side of the bed's quilt towards my pillows.

Nothing really, I said, not really wanting to sound crazy. If Kari and TK found out what I was seeing, they might think I'm crazy. On the other hand, maybe they would see Matt too. After all, he does love TK as much as me, so maybe he'd see him too!

With that in mind, I began willing Matt to come back. I wondered if that would do anything and kept my hopes high; now I really wanted himto come.

Tai, are you okay? TK asked, tugging on the sleeve of my shirt.

I blinked, realizing I had spaced out. Kari and TK were giving me concerned looks and I smiled to relieve them. I'm fine. I had a bad sleep last night.

How come? Kari asked, concern not only still showing on her face but now in her voice as well.

However, I never gave her an answer because there he was, standing in the corner. He winked at me and ran a hand through that heavenly hair of his.

I cried out, and began to lunge towards him. A smile welcomed me when I had called his name.

I reached him and smiled, turning around. The smile dropped right off my face when I saw the looks Kari and TK were giving me. Maybe this wasn't such a wonderful idea...

End of Chapter 3

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