John drove up to the Carter residence. He felt better knowing that Gamma
would sort his head out. Whatever she said he knew it would be for the
best. She wasn't like his parents. She didn't try to dictate what happened
with his life. She just loved him and supported him.
He walked into the kitchen, poured himself some cold water and realised he hadn't eaten today, so decided to make himself a sandwich. " Hello John, my darling. How are you?" She said placing a kiss on his cheek. "I've been better Gamma" "John tell me, is it Abby? You barely speak of her anymore. And you never bring her over and I miss her" John turned round to her. A tear rolled down his cheek. "I miss her Gamma. I have been so stupid" " I know how you feel about her John. And I know how she feels about you. I see it in your eyes, in your faces and in both of you hearts. Why have you never done anything about it?" "Timing, I guess. First there was Luka, and then I didn't listen to her and believe her when she said she was over him and had ended it with him because she wanted to be with me. Then it was so awkward for so long. And that killed me inside. It took time but we became friends again, like we were before. Soul mates. I realised then just how much I loved her. I didn't tell her again, as I thought it was unfair of me. I didn't want to hurt her. I would never intentionally hurt Abby, Gamma." Gamma looked at the pain and love her Grandson was feeling, and it crushed her to see him like this. "As my love grew again, I don't know why I say grew again, as it never really went anywhere, it just was hiding I guess, I didn't know what to do. I couldn't tell anyone. I grew close to Susan, but never confided in her about Abby. Then one night I got drunk with her, as I was so blue about Abby. Foolishly, I never told her why I was so sad. And never resisted when she kissed me. We went back to her apartment and I fell asleep there. I never slept with her. I couldn't, I still haven't months on. I went home and at work Susan came over to me in front of everyone and kissed me. She assumed we were together and for some unknown reason I didn't even have the strength to say otherwise. Besides everyone at work had seen this. I didn't see Abby that day, but no one must have told her because she caught up with me as I sat by the river on our bench. It had always been our place, where we went to chat, catch up, confide in each other. She told me that she loved me. That she always had and foolishly I told her I was with Susan and I loved her. She told me to be happy and since that day I have wanted to die. I don't know why I just didn't tell her how I feel"
"John, you have to tell her. She deserves to know. You cant live a lie, it will kill you inside. I know you belong together. Susan isn't for you. But she doesn't deserve to be lied to either"
" I know Gamma, I know. It's just how do I tell her. I am sure Susan will understand in the end. But apart of me doesn't even care about how she feels. I just need to be with Abby. I need her to know how much I need her. How I love her and want to spend the rest of my life making her happy. I want to marry her, have kids with her. Grow old with her"
"And that you will John. But if you don't tell her now, you risk the chance of losing her forever. If that happens you will never forgive yourself. And come to think of it, neither will I. I want you to marry her and give me great grandchildren."
"Do you think that she will understand?"
" I know she will. After everything you have both been through, it will all be okay in the end. Trust me"
"Thanks Gamma, I knew that you would help me. I will speak to her tomorrow"
"Good man. Now go to bed and as soon as you have both sorted things out, I want you to bring her round for tea."
"Night Gamma, see you in the morning"
John went upstairs to bed. He lay there for hours and finally drifter off into a world of sleep that just revolved around him and his precious Abby.
John awoke to the blaring sound of his alarm. The first thoughts of him came to Abby. He had his breakfast then made his way to work.
He opened the door to his locker and put his in his coat. Someone called out his name. He turned around to see Susan there.
"Hey Carter. How are you today?"
"Hey Susan. I'm really good. Look are you on now. I'm not on for another half an hour and I really could do with a chat. It's very important"
" I've been on since four so I guess I am due a break. Come on lets go to Magoos for coffee."
Carter and Susan sat in Magoos and ordered coffee. "Look Susan" began Carter" I have never meant to hurt you or not be a friend but.."
Carter went on to tell Susan everything he had said to Gamma. She sat in silenced as he told her of his and Abby's history. Of there missed opportunities and his love for her.
"You should have told me sooner. If it was any one else I'd feel a fool John. Thanks for telling me and being honest. You could have told me sooner but I understand. I think?. You should tell how you feel. Tell her how desperately in love with her you are and cant live without her."
Carter laughed. "Thanks Susan. You're a good friend" They both hugged, paid then left to go back into the ER.
Carter had been on for almost two hours now and had yet to see Abby. He knew she should have been on before him and just couldn't understand why he had not seen her. Surely she couldn't have avoided him for this long?
"Kerry, Have you seen Abby, I haven't seen her today?" asked Carter.
"Funny you should say that, but we have been trying to call her and she hasn't answered. She hasn't called in sick and to be honest I am very worried. It is very unlike Abby"
Carter's heart sank. Where was she? Was she okay? Oh god had she relapsed? Was it her mum? He didn't want to think bad things. Maybe she had slept in? But surely she would have heard the phone?
"Kerry, we are really quiet today and I know I shouldn't ask, but please could I go and check on her? I wont be long, I will drive and be back in no time?"
"Okay Carter, I know she's your friend. Go and see if she is at home and if she is, why the hell she hasn't rang in or answered her phone?" Kerry winked at him as he walked away. She knew the young Doctor had feelings for Abby.
He walked into the kitchen, poured himself some cold water and realised he hadn't eaten today, so decided to make himself a sandwich. " Hello John, my darling. How are you?" She said placing a kiss on his cheek. "I've been better Gamma" "John tell me, is it Abby? You barely speak of her anymore. And you never bring her over and I miss her" John turned round to her. A tear rolled down his cheek. "I miss her Gamma. I have been so stupid" " I know how you feel about her John. And I know how she feels about you. I see it in your eyes, in your faces and in both of you hearts. Why have you never done anything about it?" "Timing, I guess. First there was Luka, and then I didn't listen to her and believe her when she said she was over him and had ended it with him because she wanted to be with me. Then it was so awkward for so long. And that killed me inside. It took time but we became friends again, like we were before. Soul mates. I realised then just how much I loved her. I didn't tell her again, as I thought it was unfair of me. I didn't want to hurt her. I would never intentionally hurt Abby, Gamma." Gamma looked at the pain and love her Grandson was feeling, and it crushed her to see him like this. "As my love grew again, I don't know why I say grew again, as it never really went anywhere, it just was hiding I guess, I didn't know what to do. I couldn't tell anyone. I grew close to Susan, but never confided in her about Abby. Then one night I got drunk with her, as I was so blue about Abby. Foolishly, I never told her why I was so sad. And never resisted when she kissed me. We went back to her apartment and I fell asleep there. I never slept with her. I couldn't, I still haven't months on. I went home and at work Susan came over to me in front of everyone and kissed me. She assumed we were together and for some unknown reason I didn't even have the strength to say otherwise. Besides everyone at work had seen this. I didn't see Abby that day, but no one must have told her because she caught up with me as I sat by the river on our bench. It had always been our place, where we went to chat, catch up, confide in each other. She told me that she loved me. That she always had and foolishly I told her I was with Susan and I loved her. She told me to be happy and since that day I have wanted to die. I don't know why I just didn't tell her how I feel"
"John, you have to tell her. She deserves to know. You cant live a lie, it will kill you inside. I know you belong together. Susan isn't for you. But she doesn't deserve to be lied to either"
" I know Gamma, I know. It's just how do I tell her. I am sure Susan will understand in the end. But apart of me doesn't even care about how she feels. I just need to be with Abby. I need her to know how much I need her. How I love her and want to spend the rest of my life making her happy. I want to marry her, have kids with her. Grow old with her"
"And that you will John. But if you don't tell her now, you risk the chance of losing her forever. If that happens you will never forgive yourself. And come to think of it, neither will I. I want you to marry her and give me great grandchildren."
"Do you think that she will understand?"
" I know she will. After everything you have both been through, it will all be okay in the end. Trust me"
"Thanks Gamma, I knew that you would help me. I will speak to her tomorrow"
"Good man. Now go to bed and as soon as you have both sorted things out, I want you to bring her round for tea."
"Night Gamma, see you in the morning"
John went upstairs to bed. He lay there for hours and finally drifter off into a world of sleep that just revolved around him and his precious Abby.
John awoke to the blaring sound of his alarm. The first thoughts of him came to Abby. He had his breakfast then made his way to work.
He opened the door to his locker and put his in his coat. Someone called out his name. He turned around to see Susan there.
"Hey Carter. How are you today?"
"Hey Susan. I'm really good. Look are you on now. I'm not on for another half an hour and I really could do with a chat. It's very important"
" I've been on since four so I guess I am due a break. Come on lets go to Magoos for coffee."
Carter and Susan sat in Magoos and ordered coffee. "Look Susan" began Carter" I have never meant to hurt you or not be a friend but.."
Carter went on to tell Susan everything he had said to Gamma. She sat in silenced as he told her of his and Abby's history. Of there missed opportunities and his love for her.
"You should have told me sooner. If it was any one else I'd feel a fool John. Thanks for telling me and being honest. You could have told me sooner but I understand. I think?. You should tell how you feel. Tell her how desperately in love with her you are and cant live without her."
Carter laughed. "Thanks Susan. You're a good friend" They both hugged, paid then left to go back into the ER.
Carter had been on for almost two hours now and had yet to see Abby. He knew she should have been on before him and just couldn't understand why he had not seen her. Surely she couldn't have avoided him for this long?
"Kerry, Have you seen Abby, I haven't seen her today?" asked Carter.
"Funny you should say that, but we have been trying to call her and she hasn't answered. She hasn't called in sick and to be honest I am very worried. It is very unlike Abby"
Carter's heart sank. Where was she? Was she okay? Oh god had she relapsed? Was it her mum? He didn't want to think bad things. Maybe she had slept in? But surely she would have heard the phone?
"Kerry, we are really quiet today and I know I shouldn't ask, but please could I go and check on her? I wont be long, I will drive and be back in no time?"
"Okay Carter, I know she's your friend. Go and see if she is at home and if she is, why the hell she hasn't rang in or answered her phone?" Kerry winked at him as he walked away. She knew the young Doctor had feelings for Abby.