*~Chapter 4: Dear Diary~*

Dear Diary,

This is all Lila's fault. She made me do it! I swore to myself I would never tell my beloved Arnold my feelings. It's only been a year and I broke it. I tried to patch it up, but. here's how it went.

"Hey, uh Arnold?" I asked Arnold, as Lila left. "I hope you know I hate you. I lied when I told you I loved you. I am a very good actress. so, I hope you didn't fall for my little charm. Lila had the idea!"

"I don't believe you, Helga," said Arnold. "I mean, I know you hate me. But I don't think Lila would make you tell me. Besides, did she know?"

"Uh. no. I told her a lie too.'

"You lied to both of us?" asked Arnold.

"Doi!" I said. "I mean, isn't it obvious? Why would I ever tell you the truth! What a weird bucko you are!"

"Helga. I."

"I what?" I snorted. "What do you want?!"

"Well. I have a little bit of feelings for you too. A little bit. A smidge." I felt my heart beating very fast and I clutched it.

"Arnold." I began. Arnold wrapped his arms around me and kissed me. "I know we are only in 5th grade, but I cannot help it."

"Help what Helga?" Arnold asked soothingly.

"I can't help being so mushy!" I cried. "If anyone finds out about this-and- -- if they found out I told you-"

'Why do you care so much about what people think?' Arnold asked. I froze. He was right. His grip around me was warm, but I felt cold.

"Arnold? Just kiss me." I was being so mushy!

Arnold kissed me, and he stopped for a minute. He looked up over my shoulder.

"Arnoldo. what is it?" I asked.

"Wolfgang," he said. "He saw us making out!" Arnold nearly dropped me.

"No!" I cried. "No. he will tell the whole school-and what will they think? We are just 5th graders!"

"We better stop him," Arnold said hotly. "I mean, I know that we shouldn't care what people think-but I admit-we were snogging pretty hard?"

'Snogging?" I asked. "Don't you mean making out or kissing-?" Arnold gripped my hand and raced out of the alley.