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Chapter 6: Apologies
I really like helping out Wolfwood. He`s very generous about letting Millie and myself off of work and such. He never fails to see that we are people too.
Oh yeah! About Wolfwood…I wondered for a long time how he lived that day awhile back when he got shot. He said that he lived because the church helped him out and took care of him. He kept it a secret for our own safety he said. He explained that, during the time, he feared that Knives would try and use him to get to Vash or one of us. We understood what he meant and we respect him for that.
Anyways…Vash quit his job to come work with us. He said that Knives got around very well now by himself. I was happy to hear that. I was mostly happy because Vash could work with us now. He is so sweet. He constantly reassures me that Knives is sorry. I don`t care. Why should I care? If it makes Vash happy to think so then I`m happy.
I can`t say that we get any work done with Vash down there. He`s always being the loveable goofball that we all know and love. He always finds some way to make us laugh or want to slap him silly. I missed that. I`m glad that I took Wolfwood`s offer to be down here.
Millie and Vash…a bad combination. Though I love them both to death I have to say that they do not mesh well near heavy machinery. They involve themselves in attempting to help build while Wolfwood and myself go over plans. We both make a pretty good team. After we discuss we give them orders. Other people in town help too.
All in all this is turning into one of the greatest things that I have ever done.
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Ahhh! What a lovely day! I don`t usually act so happy but I feel so alive today! The project has been going on for a couple of weeks now.
`I wonder where Vash is?`
He hasn`t been here for about an hour now.
`He`s late…the donut stuffing baka!`
I have no idea what he`s doing. Knowing Vash he could be anywhere.
"Meryl, where`s Vash?" Millie asks me. I shrug without turning to face her.
"I don`t know."
"Oh! There he is! Look and Mr. Knives is with him! Maybe he`s going to help us!"
I look up. Shock is the best word I can come up with at this moment. There they both come. Vash is dressed in his usual work attire and he managed to get Knives into some as well.
`What is he doing here?`
Vash smiles and puts up his hand.
"Hey, Meryl! I convinced Knives to come out here and help us out! I told him that he could help you and Wolfwood plan so he wouldn`t have to do anything that could injure him!"
I look at Knives. His blue eyes are averted from my own. He finally turns his eyes to me.
"Is that okay?"
`How strange. He acts like it`s up to me.`
"Uh…of course. If Vash likes the idea then I like the idea."
Vash glomps me and spins me around.
`Here we go again.`
I can`t help but smile every time that he does this.
"Oh thank you, Meryl! Thank you! You won`t regret it!"
He lets me go after a few minutes. I playfully punch him in the shoulder.
"He`d better or I`ll hold you personally responsible!" I joke. He salutes me. I giggle. We go on like that a little while longer until Wolfwood appears.
"Alright now! Get a room, you two, or get to work!"
Vash and I make eye contact then simultaneously blush. Vash leaves quickly after scratching the back of his head sheepishly. I turn to face Knives. He blinks.
"Come on, Knives. Let`s…"
He grabs a hold of my hand. I feel that fear in my heart.
`Does he remember?`
"Meryl…I want to apologize for getting angry with you a couple of weeks ago. It really was uncalled for and ill-mannered of me. Can you forgive me?"
His eyes look so sad yet hopeful at the same time. I can`t help but feel a certain sympathy for him not only from his amnesia but for letting this go on for so long without fixing it myself. I nod as I peer up into his face.
"Yes."
He smiles. His eyes appear full of relief. I feel my heart soar at the sight of it. He puts his hand out and on my shoulder.
"I`m glad."
"So am I. I thought that you hated me."
"I`m sorry that I made you feel that way. I just couldn`t take what I was hearing. I learned that I was some kind of psychotic plant. I just couldn`t take that kind of news lightly.
"I understand. I mean…I don`t understand completely but I understand why you reacted the way that you did."
I move my eyes from his hand on my shoulder to his face and continue that back and forth until he removes it. We stand in awkward silence. I love my hand out and behind me.
"Let`s get to work."
He nods. He follows me as I lead him.
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Knives wasn`t that helpful. First off he didn`t know what to do or say. Secondly he felt afraid of everyone out there besides Vash, Millie and myself. He still didn`t know Wolfwood well enough to trust him. He would hide behind me when Wolfwood approached. I found it hilarious. Finally…well…he just wasn`t much help.
On a lighter note he kept me company. He would talk to me if I asked him a question and he would answer. He asked me a lot of questions too. It was strange how much that I missed talking to him.
`Long first day but I`m glad that so many things could work out as they did.`
I pick up the plans and wave to Wolfwood.
"I`ll catch up later! I`m going to collect all of our things then catch up with you!"
"Alright!" he replies. I watch as Millie catches up with him. I smile to myself. I get the presence that I`m being watched. I look behind me. Vash and Knives both stand there.
`What…are they doing?`
I turn completely around. They both smile.
`They look so alike when they smile….is that good or bad?`
"I was just talking with Knives and we agreed that we need to go out to eat today." Vash says "I…we wanted to know if you would grace us with your presence."
He mock bows. I laugh.
"Stop it, knucklehead!"
Vash shrugs.
"Alright." he says in a whinny voice. I can`t help but slap him as usual. Knives is watching me expectedly for an answer. I look at both of them. I feel uneasy and I don`t understand why. I should feel ecstatic that the both of them want me to come along but something just doesn`t feel right. They`re staring at me so strangely. I want to say no but…
"What did you have in mind?"
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We end up going to a bar and grill type place. I`m actually not that hungry so I only grab a salad from the buffet. Vash and Knives took whatever they could. Now we sit in a corner and eat silently. I don`t understand why it`s so quiet. Vash usually tells a lot of jokes when we eat. Now it`s too quiet.
"…How is work coming along for you?" I ask. Knives takes a second to realize that I`m speaking to him. He smiles at me.
"It was good….but I keep feeling like I`m holding you and Wolfwood back. I don`t really know what to do."
"Tomorrow I will try and fix that." I reply. He nods. More silence.
I glance over at Vash. He`s getting food all over himself.
`Like always.`
He suddenly pops his head up and looks around.
"Is there something on my face?"
We all burst into fits of laughter. Vash does it again. The rest of the dinner we all three talk about this and that and Vash of course breaks any ice with jokes.
`This is more like it.`
Knives speaks the least during any conversation. I have a feeling that he would have if he had remembered anything. When he does talk though it does not involve any comments to hurt us. He sounds exactly like he should for this conversation. I can`t help but glance over at Vash once more. He`s laughing still. I don`t think that he could ever stop laughing.
`What a baka.`
He pats his stomach.
"I`m stuffed! Ready to go?"
Knives and I nod. After paying we get up and leave.
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We arrive at the house. I stop.
"You two can go in. I`m going to sit out here for awhile."
They both nod and say goodnight. After they go inside I find a nice place to sit down on a small rock facing the horizon where the sun is quickly setting. I think about the events of that day.
`Today was good. Really good.`
I really do hope that Knives doesn`t get his memory back. I hate to think about what he`ll do. I `m starting to feel better and better. He shows no sign of doing so even after I reminded him of everything that he did before. I also think that Vash is pleased as well. He says that he wants Knives to remember but judging from the way that he reacted to Knives` being timid of other people he doesn`t seem to mind. He would laugh and such. When I look into Vash`s eyes I can tell what he`s thinking most of the time. He definitely was not in pain. He was content.
`That`s the way that it should be. Life should go on.`
I`ll help him out always. I am what I fondly call myself: Vash`s faithful servant. I would do anything for that baka. I would walk to the ends of the earth for him. I think that he knows that. He always asks things of me a lot more than he would Millie or Wolfwood. I feel deeply flattered by this. I understand completely.
`He trusts me.`
Trust is a word that Vash lives by. Besides protection of those he loves and courage to stand up against the masses he craves trust. He needs this to feel like someone is there for him. I admire him for that. Trust for me usually comes to if Millie will remember to take out the trash. It`s funny to think about that. For me the fact that Vash trusted me for awhile with his own brother is amazing. This intrigues me.
I`ve had feelings for Vash and I still have feelings for Vash. I think that the feelings had subsided for the time that I was watching over Knives but some are beginning to resurface again…but not all of them.
I shift slightly on the rock I`m sitting on.
`Damn rock! Can`t get comfortable!`
…Where was I? Oh yeah! Vash…I feel tired all of a sudden. I can`t think about this right now. I get up and walk to the door. I walk inside and nearly run into Knives.
"You scared me!" I exclaim "What are you doing down here?"
"I`m sorry. I was going to get something to drink."
I give myself a few minutes to catch my breath while Knives gets a glass of water. I turn to leave.
"Will you sit with me in my room…like you used to?"
I don`t say anything.
"I really am sorry about what happened. I…I missed you being in there."
`Missed me?`
Strange. Those words tug at my heart. I don`t know what that means. It means fear or…no. That`s not possible. Not him. I nod slightly without turning.
"I`ll sit with you."
We go back to his room where I take the chair that I sat in a couple of weeks ago. Knives settles in. He turns away from me as he usually does. I turn my chair to face the window where the moon is fully visible and I wonder what the new day will bring tomorrow.
***Yep. Another cliffhanger. I`m evil….: ) This chapter was kind of just something to let Knives apologize. Still don`t know what the pairing will be? Good. On another note: There will be more excitement soon enough. Me promises that. Anyways…I`ll try and get out another chapter soon. See ya!
***^.^ I love you people!
Chapter 6: Apologies
I really like helping out Wolfwood. He`s very generous about letting Millie and myself off of work and such. He never fails to see that we are people too.
Oh yeah! About Wolfwood…I wondered for a long time how he lived that day awhile back when he got shot. He said that he lived because the church helped him out and took care of him. He kept it a secret for our own safety he said. He explained that, during the time, he feared that Knives would try and use him to get to Vash or one of us. We understood what he meant and we respect him for that.
Anyways…Vash quit his job to come work with us. He said that Knives got around very well now by himself. I was happy to hear that. I was mostly happy because Vash could work with us now. He is so sweet. He constantly reassures me that Knives is sorry. I don`t care. Why should I care? If it makes Vash happy to think so then I`m happy.
I can`t say that we get any work done with Vash down there. He`s always being the loveable goofball that we all know and love. He always finds some way to make us laugh or want to slap him silly. I missed that. I`m glad that I took Wolfwood`s offer to be down here.
Millie and Vash…a bad combination. Though I love them both to death I have to say that they do not mesh well near heavy machinery. They involve themselves in attempting to help build while Wolfwood and myself go over plans. We both make a pretty good team. After we discuss we give them orders. Other people in town help too.
All in all this is turning into one of the greatest things that I have ever done.
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Ahhh! What a lovely day! I don`t usually act so happy but I feel so alive today! The project has been going on for a couple of weeks now.
`I wonder where Vash is?`
He hasn`t been here for about an hour now.
`He`s late…the donut stuffing baka!`
I have no idea what he`s doing. Knowing Vash he could be anywhere.
"Meryl, where`s Vash?" Millie asks me. I shrug without turning to face her.
"I don`t know."
"Oh! There he is! Look and Mr. Knives is with him! Maybe he`s going to help us!"
I look up. Shock is the best word I can come up with at this moment. There they both come. Vash is dressed in his usual work attire and he managed to get Knives into some as well.
`What is he doing here?`
Vash smiles and puts up his hand.
"Hey, Meryl! I convinced Knives to come out here and help us out! I told him that he could help you and Wolfwood plan so he wouldn`t have to do anything that could injure him!"
I look at Knives. His blue eyes are averted from my own. He finally turns his eyes to me.
"Is that okay?"
`How strange. He acts like it`s up to me.`
"Uh…of course. If Vash likes the idea then I like the idea."
Vash glomps me and spins me around.
`Here we go again.`
I can`t help but smile every time that he does this.
"Oh thank you, Meryl! Thank you! You won`t regret it!"
He lets me go after a few minutes. I playfully punch him in the shoulder.
"He`d better or I`ll hold you personally responsible!" I joke. He salutes me. I giggle. We go on like that a little while longer until Wolfwood appears.
"Alright now! Get a room, you two, or get to work!"
Vash and I make eye contact then simultaneously blush. Vash leaves quickly after scratching the back of his head sheepishly. I turn to face Knives. He blinks.
"Come on, Knives. Let`s…"
He grabs a hold of my hand. I feel that fear in my heart.
`Does he remember?`
"Meryl…I want to apologize for getting angry with you a couple of weeks ago. It really was uncalled for and ill-mannered of me. Can you forgive me?"
His eyes look so sad yet hopeful at the same time. I can`t help but feel a certain sympathy for him not only from his amnesia but for letting this go on for so long without fixing it myself. I nod as I peer up into his face.
"Yes."
He smiles. His eyes appear full of relief. I feel my heart soar at the sight of it. He puts his hand out and on my shoulder.
"I`m glad."
"So am I. I thought that you hated me."
"I`m sorry that I made you feel that way. I just couldn`t take what I was hearing. I learned that I was some kind of psychotic plant. I just couldn`t take that kind of news lightly.
"I understand. I mean…I don`t understand completely but I understand why you reacted the way that you did."
I move my eyes from his hand on my shoulder to his face and continue that back and forth until he removes it. We stand in awkward silence. I love my hand out and behind me.
"Let`s get to work."
He nods. He follows me as I lead him.
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Knives wasn`t that helpful. First off he didn`t know what to do or say. Secondly he felt afraid of everyone out there besides Vash, Millie and myself. He still didn`t know Wolfwood well enough to trust him. He would hide behind me when Wolfwood approached. I found it hilarious. Finally…well…he just wasn`t much help.
On a lighter note he kept me company. He would talk to me if I asked him a question and he would answer. He asked me a lot of questions too. It was strange how much that I missed talking to him.
`Long first day but I`m glad that so many things could work out as they did.`
I pick up the plans and wave to Wolfwood.
"I`ll catch up later! I`m going to collect all of our things then catch up with you!"
"Alright!" he replies. I watch as Millie catches up with him. I smile to myself. I get the presence that I`m being watched. I look behind me. Vash and Knives both stand there.
`What…are they doing?`
I turn completely around. They both smile.
`They look so alike when they smile….is that good or bad?`
"I was just talking with Knives and we agreed that we need to go out to eat today." Vash says "I…we wanted to know if you would grace us with your presence."
He mock bows. I laugh.
"Stop it, knucklehead!"
Vash shrugs.
"Alright." he says in a whinny voice. I can`t help but slap him as usual. Knives is watching me expectedly for an answer. I look at both of them. I feel uneasy and I don`t understand why. I should feel ecstatic that the both of them want me to come along but something just doesn`t feel right. They`re staring at me so strangely. I want to say no but…
"What did you have in mind?"
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We end up going to a bar and grill type place. I`m actually not that hungry so I only grab a salad from the buffet. Vash and Knives took whatever they could. Now we sit in a corner and eat silently. I don`t understand why it`s so quiet. Vash usually tells a lot of jokes when we eat. Now it`s too quiet.
"…How is work coming along for you?" I ask. Knives takes a second to realize that I`m speaking to him. He smiles at me.
"It was good….but I keep feeling like I`m holding you and Wolfwood back. I don`t really know what to do."
"Tomorrow I will try and fix that." I reply. He nods. More silence.
I glance over at Vash. He`s getting food all over himself.
`Like always.`
He suddenly pops his head up and looks around.
"Is there something on my face?"
We all burst into fits of laughter. Vash does it again. The rest of the dinner we all three talk about this and that and Vash of course breaks any ice with jokes.
`This is more like it.`
Knives speaks the least during any conversation. I have a feeling that he would have if he had remembered anything. When he does talk though it does not involve any comments to hurt us. He sounds exactly like he should for this conversation. I can`t help but glance over at Vash once more. He`s laughing still. I don`t think that he could ever stop laughing.
`What a baka.`
He pats his stomach.
"I`m stuffed! Ready to go?"
Knives and I nod. After paying we get up and leave.
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We arrive at the house. I stop.
"You two can go in. I`m going to sit out here for awhile."
They both nod and say goodnight. After they go inside I find a nice place to sit down on a small rock facing the horizon where the sun is quickly setting. I think about the events of that day.
`Today was good. Really good.`
I really do hope that Knives doesn`t get his memory back. I hate to think about what he`ll do. I `m starting to feel better and better. He shows no sign of doing so even after I reminded him of everything that he did before. I also think that Vash is pleased as well. He says that he wants Knives to remember but judging from the way that he reacted to Knives` being timid of other people he doesn`t seem to mind. He would laugh and such. When I look into Vash`s eyes I can tell what he`s thinking most of the time. He definitely was not in pain. He was content.
`That`s the way that it should be. Life should go on.`
I`ll help him out always. I am what I fondly call myself: Vash`s faithful servant. I would do anything for that baka. I would walk to the ends of the earth for him. I think that he knows that. He always asks things of me a lot more than he would Millie or Wolfwood. I feel deeply flattered by this. I understand completely.
`He trusts me.`
Trust is a word that Vash lives by. Besides protection of those he loves and courage to stand up against the masses he craves trust. He needs this to feel like someone is there for him. I admire him for that. Trust for me usually comes to if Millie will remember to take out the trash. It`s funny to think about that. For me the fact that Vash trusted me for awhile with his own brother is amazing. This intrigues me.
I`ve had feelings for Vash and I still have feelings for Vash. I think that the feelings had subsided for the time that I was watching over Knives but some are beginning to resurface again…but not all of them.
I shift slightly on the rock I`m sitting on.
`Damn rock! Can`t get comfortable!`
…Where was I? Oh yeah! Vash…I feel tired all of a sudden. I can`t think about this right now. I get up and walk to the door. I walk inside and nearly run into Knives.
"You scared me!" I exclaim "What are you doing down here?"
"I`m sorry. I was going to get something to drink."
I give myself a few minutes to catch my breath while Knives gets a glass of water. I turn to leave.
"Will you sit with me in my room…like you used to?"
I don`t say anything.
"I really am sorry about what happened. I…I missed you being in there."
`Missed me?`
Strange. Those words tug at my heart. I don`t know what that means. It means fear or…no. That`s not possible. Not him. I nod slightly without turning.
"I`ll sit with you."
We go back to his room where I take the chair that I sat in a couple of weeks ago. Knives settles in. He turns away from me as he usually does. I turn my chair to face the window where the moon is fully visible and I wonder what the new day will bring tomorrow.
***Yep. Another cliffhanger. I`m evil….: ) This chapter was kind of just something to let Knives apologize. Still don`t know what the pairing will be? Good. On another note: There will be more excitement soon enough. Me promises that. Anyways…I`ll try and get out another chapter soon. See ya!