Hi hi! I thought since I didn't say who the characters were (because even I don't know) I thought I'd write a second half to this fic. I wonder if this helps any of you determine who it is.......Anyway same old disclaimer: don't either of 'em so don't sue me! Enjoy! I really wanna hear who you think it is....
Full of Grace (the other side)
I feel you move beside me. I can feel you sit up. I open my eyes and look out the window. It's dark and snowing.
The winter here's cold, and bitter
A draft sweeps in under the blankets as you get up. I feel a shiver go down my spine.
It's chilled us to the bone
I wonder if you're getting up to go to the bathroom. I don't think you are. I haven't heard the door open or close. I don't move. I haven't moved since I heard you get up. I want you to think I'm still asleep. Are you leaving?
We haven't seen the sun for weeks
If you leave it won't feel like home anymore. I don't have a home, you know that. This room with you is the closest thing to home for me. If you leave than it'll be just another place.
Too long too far from home
I feel bad for what I have done to you lately. I've yelled a lot. I don't mean too. I'm just fighting on the inside with what's been going on in my life lately. I can't even begin to explain it to you. I'm sorry. I'm having enough trouble explaining it to myself.
I feel just like I'm sinking
When I look at you I try to smile but for some reason I can't anymore. Not since I heard about you and him. I know it was in the past but it still hurts. I'm fighting for reason to smile now. Something in me is nagging at me that you still love him even though he hurt you. I wish I could smile.
And I claw for solid ground
I feel like my life has been consumed by a hatred for him. I feel like he's taking over your life again. I know it's been a long time since you've seen him but I'm jealous. I've heard you mention his name in passing. I see that look in your eyes when you do. I don't like it.
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I caught myself yelling at you a while ago. I caught what I said. I called you stupid. I didn't realize it when I yelled it but if felt good when I did it. I thought you were thinking about him. I wanted to get some of the anger I felt out. So I took it out on you thinking you were the safest person to do it to. You would forgive me regardless right? I guess I was wrong. I saw the hurt in your eyes after I said it. It made me feel like scum.
I never thought I could feel so low
I wanted to say sorry then. I wanted to hold you and tell you how much I loved you but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I just left you standing there with your head hanging. I walked past you and went back to work. I thought you would have done something then. Yelled, broken up with me, something. That would have made me feel better. But no, you didn't yell. You never yell. When you didn't react it caused a gut-wrenching feel in me.
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
I wish I could move right now. I can bring myself to. I can't bring myself to get up and hold you. I can't bring myself to say 'I'm sorry'. Two little words that could change everything.
If all of the strength and all of the courage
I hear you open the closest door and a zipper being zipped. I saw those bags on the closet floor. I was hoping that they were empty. I was too afraid to check. I think you think I don't know about them. I do. I couldn't bring myself to do anything about them. Why can't I get up?
Come and lift me from this place
I don't deserve you. I don't deserve all that you have to offer. You deserve someone who could love you better.
I know I could love you much better than this
I remember seeing you for the first time. You were beautiful.
Full of grace
I was in awe of everything you did
Full of grace
I loved you right then.
My love
I want to know what you're thinking. Maybe you think it's best to do this. I suppose it is.
It's better this way, I said
I've been this position before. I've been left before. Never quite like this but I have been. I didn't love them like I love you though.
Having seen this place before
I suppose it's for the best though. Who knows what'll happen if you stay. I may become like him. He hit you and left you. You told me. I'm afraid of becoming him. You always said that I reminded you of him. Is that why you loved me? Or said you loved me?
Where everything we say and do
Maybe I'm already worse than him. I may not have hit you but I think I've hurt you with what I've said. I called you horrible things. I can't believe it know but I know I did. I'm sorry.
Hurts us all the more
Why are you leaving? I want to know. Are you afraid of me becoming him and hitting you? I don't know. Maybe it's that fear that has been keeping me from you. Maybe I've been afraid of hurting you. Maybe that's why you're leaving. Maybe we've been together for just too long.
It's just that we've stayed too long
Do I remind you of him that much? So much that I remind you of a man that hit you and left you? I feel like my skin doesn't belong to me any more. I feel like you see me as him.
In the same old sickly skin
I'm sorry. These thoughts have plagued me for so long.
I'm pulled down by the undertow
They've ripped me up inside.
I never thought I could feel so low
I wish I had the guts you do. I wish I could say something to you about how I feel but I can't. Maybe it's for the best that you're leaving.
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
NO! No! It's not alright. I don't want you to leave me. I want to say I'm sorry. I hear a car door close. Wait! Please!
If all of the strength all of the courage
I throw myself from the bed and run out the door.
Come and lift me from this place
I race down the stairs dressed only in my boxers.
I know I could love you much better than this
I rip the door open and throw myself out side.
Full of grace
I look down the street to see your cab turning the corner.
Full of grace
I've missed you. I'm sorry.
My love
I know I could love you much better than this
It's better this way
~owari~
-any other thoughts on who it could be? Please review!
also anyone who can find a mistake I made in the song lyrics in the first chapter will get an email knowing who the fic is about.
I feel you move beside me. I can feel you sit up. I open my eyes and look out the window. It's dark and snowing.
The winter here's cold, and bitter
A draft sweeps in under the blankets as you get up. I feel a shiver go down my spine.
It's chilled us to the bone
I wonder if you're getting up to go to the bathroom. I don't think you are. I haven't heard the door open or close. I don't move. I haven't moved since I heard you get up. I want you to think I'm still asleep. Are you leaving?
We haven't seen the sun for weeks
If you leave it won't feel like home anymore. I don't have a home, you know that. This room with you is the closest thing to home for me. If you leave than it'll be just another place.
Too long too far from home
I feel bad for what I have done to you lately. I've yelled a lot. I don't mean too. I'm just fighting on the inside with what's been going on in my life lately. I can't even begin to explain it to you. I'm sorry. I'm having enough trouble explaining it to myself.
I feel just like I'm sinking
When I look at you I try to smile but for some reason I can't anymore. Not since I heard about you and him. I know it was in the past but it still hurts. I'm fighting for reason to smile now. Something in me is nagging at me that you still love him even though he hurt you. I wish I could smile.
And I claw for solid ground
I feel like my life has been consumed by a hatred for him. I feel like he's taking over your life again. I know it's been a long time since you've seen him but I'm jealous. I've heard you mention his name in passing. I see that look in your eyes when you do. I don't like it.
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I caught myself yelling at you a while ago. I caught what I said. I called you stupid. I didn't realize it when I yelled it but if felt good when I did it. I thought you were thinking about him. I wanted to get some of the anger I felt out. So I took it out on you thinking you were the safest person to do it to. You would forgive me regardless right? I guess I was wrong. I saw the hurt in your eyes after I said it. It made me feel like scum.
I never thought I could feel so low
I wanted to say sorry then. I wanted to hold you and tell you how much I loved you but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I just left you standing there with your head hanging. I walked past you and went back to work. I thought you would have done something then. Yelled, broken up with me, something. That would have made me feel better. But no, you didn't yell. You never yell. When you didn't react it caused a gut-wrenching feel in me.
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
I wish I could move right now. I can bring myself to. I can't bring myself to get up and hold you. I can't bring myself to say 'I'm sorry'. Two little words that could change everything.
If all of the strength and all of the courage
I hear you open the closest door and a zipper being zipped. I saw those bags on the closet floor. I was hoping that they were empty. I was too afraid to check. I think you think I don't know about them. I do. I couldn't bring myself to do anything about them. Why can't I get up?
Come and lift me from this place
I don't deserve you. I don't deserve all that you have to offer. You deserve someone who could love you better.
I know I could love you much better than this
I remember seeing you for the first time. You were beautiful.
Full of grace
I was in awe of everything you did
Full of grace
I loved you right then.
My love
I want to know what you're thinking. Maybe you think it's best to do this. I suppose it is.
It's better this way, I said
I've been this position before. I've been left before. Never quite like this but I have been. I didn't love them like I love you though.
Having seen this place before
I suppose it's for the best though. Who knows what'll happen if you stay. I may become like him. He hit you and left you. You told me. I'm afraid of becoming him. You always said that I reminded you of him. Is that why you loved me? Or said you loved me?
Where everything we say and do
Maybe I'm already worse than him. I may not have hit you but I think I've hurt you with what I've said. I called you horrible things. I can't believe it know but I know I did. I'm sorry.
Hurts us all the more
Why are you leaving? I want to know. Are you afraid of me becoming him and hitting you? I don't know. Maybe it's that fear that has been keeping me from you. Maybe I've been afraid of hurting you. Maybe that's why you're leaving. Maybe we've been together for just too long.
It's just that we've stayed too long
Do I remind you of him that much? So much that I remind you of a man that hit you and left you? I feel like my skin doesn't belong to me any more. I feel like you see me as him.
In the same old sickly skin
I'm sorry. These thoughts have plagued me for so long.
I'm pulled down by the undertow
They've ripped me up inside.
I never thought I could feel so low
I wish I had the guts you do. I wish I could say something to you about how I feel but I can't. Maybe it's for the best that you're leaving.
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
NO! No! It's not alright. I don't want you to leave me. I want to say I'm sorry. I hear a car door close. Wait! Please!
If all of the strength all of the courage
I throw myself from the bed and run out the door.
Come and lift me from this place
I race down the stairs dressed only in my boxers.
I know I could love you much better than this
I rip the door open and throw myself out side.
Full of grace
I look down the street to see your cab turning the corner.
Full of grace
I've missed you. I'm sorry.
My love
I know I could love you much better than this
It's better this way
~owari~
-any other thoughts on who it could be? Please review!
also anyone who can find a mistake I made in the song lyrics in the first chapter will get an email knowing who the fic is about.