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Not A Good Reason
(5)
Julia walked slowly out of the school campus. Summer vacation. She was so close to her graduation she could feel it. One more semester and it would all be over. Two whole months to relax. She and Hwoarang would have so much fun. They would go to fairs and to the beach. They would go to parties and they would just have fun. But it was Jin that was bugging her. He had become so distant towards her. It was as if they weren't even friends anymore. There was the occasional phone call. They would say hi in school at the lockers. But that was it. She hardly spoke to him, and for what reasons she didn't know. Was it because of Hwoarang? Did Jin hate Hwoarang so much that for the sake of that hate he abandoned her friendship? Or was it her fault? Did she ignore him too much? Had she become so obsessed with protecting Hwoarang that she completely forgot all about Jin? Did she unconsciously push him away when he had needed her a while back? Should she be ashamed? All that friendship gone down the drain. And what about Ling? Ling had always liked Jin. Were they together now? "Dear God…" she whispered. She didn't even know what was going on in his life! She quickened her pace and instead of turning left, she turned to the right and walked toward Jin's house. She just hoped that she wasn't too late.
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Julia rapped on the door to Jin's little house. She got no answer and tried again. The door was finally opened by Jin. He was dressed in an old T-shirt and a pair of jeans. He looked tired and strained. His face darkened when he saw her. "Hey Jin." She said. "Hey Julia." He said. She took a breath. "Um, Jin, uh, can I come in? I need to talk to you." She said. He looked at her suspiciously for a minute and then he sighed. "Ok, you can come in." he said. She walked into the once familiar living room. She remembered how she used to be here every weekend, chatting with him, planning fake parties and fighting in the back yard. She remembered how many times they had broken glasses and other things. It held a lot of memories. This is where she had her first kiss, but that was another story. All their pictures. The photos of them which had once graciously been on the walls were all gone. She still had her photos up at her place, but apparently the malice for her and Hwoarang had been more than she had expected. She felt a wave of sadness wash over her as she sat on the couch. He sat opposite her. "Can I get you anything?" he asked. She shook her head. "Thanks it's ok," she said. "So what do you want to talk about?" he asked. She sighed and looked at him. She looked into his onyx eyes and she quickly looked away as he caught her stare. "Well? You came here to talk to me didn't you?" he asked. She nodded. "Well, um, you see, I've noticed that we don't really talk anymore." She said. He laughed softly. "Julia, you just realized this?" he asked. "Well no, I've noticed this for a while and I want to know if you're blaming me. Do you think it's my fault?" she asked. Jin sighed and got up. "Julia, ever since you and Hwoarang started to go out, you deserted me. I think that I understand that you were excited about having a boyfriend and all, but after a while I thought it would pass, and I thought that you would come back on your own ya know? I thought that we would speak again the way we used to, but I saw that it wasn't happening, and I knew that if I tried to approach you, you would get apprehensive and you would kick me out before I even started running." She sat back and listened quietly. "So it's true huh?" she asked. "You do blame me for it…" she said. "Of course Julia, I blamed you for a long time. I was so depressed. You wouldn't know, I fought every night, I drank. I almost crashed the car." She gasped. "And the only one who was there for me was Ling. God I hated it, but she was there. When I came home hurting from my fights, she dressed my wounds, she cooked, she cleaned the house, washed my clothes, and all this she did for love, and me? I never loved her. No matter how much I try to thank her, she takes no money, all she wants is love. But that I can't give, I only had eyes for one person, and I can't love her. I tried but I just can't."
Julia stood up and had her right arm across her chest and her left hand on her chin. Tears had welled up in her eyes because of the honest testimony to her by Jin. She did this! She caused all of this and she didn't even know! She caused so much pain for her own selfish desires! She looked up and saw Jin looking out the window. "Jin, I'm sorry," she said. He turned around and looked at her. "Julie," he said. He sighed and turned back around. "I'm leaving," he said. "What? Leaving? Where are you going?" she asked. "I'm going away for the summer, and I don't know if I'll come back. I'll have to make a decision." He said. She said nothing but looked at him waiting for him to continue. "I need some time-" "Some time!? Some time alone so you can kill yourself?!" she asked angrily. "I'm not going to kill myself Julia," he said turning around angrily. "How do I know that!" "What the hell do you care!" "I care damn it! Shit! I may have deserted you for a while but I'm back, why the hell can't you see that!" "Because-" "Because you're gonna give me some fucking sorry ass reason!" " Because I love you damnit! How frigin long did it take for you to see that!" he blurted out. She looked at him in awe. "So that's the reason huh?" she asked. "Why couldn't you say that a long time ago!" she asked angrily. She was shaking and tears were spilling from her eyes. He went up to her and looked into her eyes. "Because I couldn't Julia, I didn't know how to," he said softly. She looked at him and then she turned away. "I'm sorry Jin, I'm sorry that I wasted my time here." She said. "Julia." He said grabbing her hand. "Jin let go of me." She said. "Let me apologize." She sighed. "Fine." She said. He pulled her towards him and she looked into his eyes. He kissed her. She tried to pull away but she found herself lost in his arms frantically kissing him back. She gasped and pulled away. "Jin…what the hell is wrong with you?" she whispered shaking. He looked at her and sighed. "There, I apologized. You can go." He said. She looked at him and touched his face. "I'm sorry Jin, I didn't mean to cause you such pain, I'll always be your friend, and I'll always love you that way. You know where to find me if you need me. Good Luck." She said. He touched her hand that was on his face. "Thanks Julie, I knew I could count on you." She nodded and turned away. "I'll see you soon," she said. "I hope I can say the same." He said. She left.
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The rain poured cats and dogs outside and Julia lay on her bed. She couldn't stop thinking about what Jin had said. She touched her lips and closed her eyes, feeling once again the rapture. If only he had kept on going …if only he had-no! She had to stop. She couldn't start having feelings for him now, and to make no one but herself feel sure of that she took up the phone and dialed Hwoarang's number. He would spend the night at her place…in her room…in her bed…
^_^ Oohhhh…**Next chapter may contain lemon**