::MIRAI::
(future)
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Sixteen
Disclaimers apply..Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm just a poor high school stud..... Don't sue me! ^_^
As soon as Kaori stepped into her room, the first thing she did was check her machine for calls. She had a feeling someone had called while she was away. Someone who's the cause of all this uneasiness she's feeling.
The voice in the machine made Kaori's heart jump.
"Kaori.. hey.. I dunno where you are right now, I tried calling your cell, but no one was answering.. so ..uh…"
There was a short pause
"Uh.. you didn't say goodbye earlier.. I was really worried…. Um…… so call me, okay?"
Kaori took a deep breath. She forgot to tell Kenji she left with Arashi. "It's not like I'm sneaking around or anything." Kaori insisted to no one in particular. But still, it was not nice leaving him like that. she thought glumly.
Kaori picked up her princess phone and punched Kenji's number.
"Moshi moshi!" Kenji's usually cheerful voice sounded strained.
A warm feeling surged through Kaori's body and suddenly she felt she's safe and finally at home. It was foolish of me to think we weren't okay at all! Kaori thought.
"Kenji? This is Kaori.. I just got home.."
"Oi Kaori!!" Kenji's sounded like some heavy weight had been lifted off him. "Where have you been? I've been worried sick!!" His voice dripped with concern and love.
Suddenly Kaori was overcome with guilt. How could it have occurred to me to think of Arashi that way when I have someone wonderful like Kenji already?! Kaori hated herself for being unfaithful even in thought to Kenji.
"Gomen ne, Kenji.." Kaori inhaled deeply. She was going to tell the truth. There was nothing to it. "I was with.. uh.. Arashi today." She paused again. Get it together Kaori! She scolded herself. "I had to buy a dress for the dance and her accompanied me cuz there was no one else to.. uh.." She trailed off, feeling that Kenji saw through her. She knew he always did.
Another awkward pause.
"Oh..?" Kenji's voice sounded a little forced. "So.. um.. you two have been getting along pretty great, I suppose."
"Yeah, I guess so." Kaori replied curtly.
"Um, okay.. cool." Kenji stated. "That's, like, good news, right?"
"Righhhhhht."
"Yeah"
"Good."
"Okay"
"Uh-huh." Kaori was getting annoyed. This wasn't how it was supposed to turn out. Kenji was supposed to understand, right? But Kaori also knew that something was not right with her, that's why Kenji wasn't at ease either. "Listen, Kenji, I still have tons of work to do. I'll see you tomorrow, okay?"
"Yeah, sure." Kenji replied quickly, as if stung. "I'll pick you up, okay?"
"Okay. Aishiteru." Kaori replied automatically.
Kenji noticed this but let it go. "I love you too. Sleep well." Then he put the phone down.
Kaori clutched the phone tightly and without notice, started sobbing. She thought when she told Kenji the truth, it would be okay. But instead she felt rotten. Kaori knew she was being unfair, thinking Kenji would understand. "How could he understand? What I'm doing is so wrong! And it's even wrong to expect him to understand!!" Kaori wept. "I'm so confused…" She didn't know what she felt, the perplexity and chaos inside her made her cry harder.
In the darkness, she wept.. she knew she loved Kenji with all her heart, but these feelings for Arashi are unrelenting and insistent. But the fact is, they are also most unwelcome. Kaori knew that all too well.
The moment Kenji put the phone down; he knew something was terribly wrong. It was similar to the way the rurouni in his dreams felt before a fight would occur. He specifically remembered the last time the guy felt this way was before the white-haired guy took the rurouni's girl away from him forever. Is this the same? Is someone going to take Kaori away from me, too? Kenji's mind swam in a whirlpool of thoughts.
It was his idea for Kaori and Arashi to become friends. He saw some potential between the two and he wanted friendship to blossom between them. But he didn't expect this to happen so soon. "Shopping buddies?!" Kenji breathed to himself. He scratched his already rumpled hair and tried to make sense out of it all. He sighed and paced around his room, trying to sort out his thoughts. He loved Kaori so much, and Kami knew what he'd become if he lost her. Above all, he trusted her with his life. He knew Kaori wouldn't do anything to hurt him.
"Damn, why is one shopping trip driving me nuts?!"
He flopped onto his bed and stared at the ceiling.
"This I going to be a loooooooong night."
Arashi peeked into the refrigerator and took out a can of beer. He sat down in the kitchen and fiddled with the can. He thought of school. He thought of his homeworks, projects, quizzes, his teachers, his classmates, his schoolmates – Kaori. "No" Then he thought of Kendo, the awards, his training, his competitions, his kendo captain – Kaori. "No." So he thought of home, his mom, his dad, their house, his car, even his dog- just to take his mind off Kaori.
"It's no use, mate." He muttered to himself. "You're captivated by a certain blue-eyed girl, plain and simple."
But he knew it was neither plain nor simple. He could have anyone he wanted, why on earth did he have to want Kaori?! He knew she was taken and from the way he saw things, both of them were so much in love.
He was also aware that the same force pulling him to Kaori was also taking some kind of effect on her. They were like yoyo toys.. Not knowing whether to go up or down.
He knew that he could turn back and not talk to her ever again. Temptation would be lost and his problem solved. But he'll confuse her in the process and hurt himself. Besides, he knew that it would take more than distance to place his mind off Kaori.
He could turn to Maki.. but, no, that would be unfair. And he wouldn't forget Kaori that way. It was like trying to correct a wrong with another wrong.
He was slowly going crazy.
What could he do?!
A few days ago, he didn't even know she exists. Well, he did, and she was one of the few girls he admired. But that was all. Now he didn't know what to do because of her.
He took one last gulp of his beer and threw it in the open trash can.
"Kuso." He stood up and left the big cold kitchen.
Okay.. this is kinda like a POV chappie.. The lead characters' dilemmas and fears and oh, so complicated!!! Sorry.. I just found out my college course.. and it was not what I really7 wanted, so I'm a little crabby.. hey, I'm only fifteen.. :p I'm excused, right? ;)
It was hard to write this.. imagining how they all must've felt.. -_- I knew I was a bad writer in this chap.. making them all sad.. but, hey! Maybe the next chappie would bring better days.. *sigh*
As usual, C's and C's are so welcome.. you guys motivate me to write.. ::Sniff sniff:: Arigatou minna!!
(future)
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Sixteen
Disclaimers apply..Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm just a poor high school stud..... Don't sue me! ^_^
As soon as Kaori stepped into her room, the first thing she did was check her machine for calls. She had a feeling someone had called while she was away. Someone who's the cause of all this uneasiness she's feeling.
The voice in the machine made Kaori's heart jump.
"Kaori.. hey.. I dunno where you are right now, I tried calling your cell, but no one was answering.. so ..uh…"
There was a short pause
"Uh.. you didn't say goodbye earlier.. I was really worried…. Um…… so call me, okay?"
Kaori took a deep breath. She forgot to tell Kenji she left with Arashi. "It's not like I'm sneaking around or anything." Kaori insisted to no one in particular. But still, it was not nice leaving him like that. she thought glumly.
Kaori picked up her princess phone and punched Kenji's number.
"Moshi moshi!" Kenji's usually cheerful voice sounded strained.
A warm feeling surged through Kaori's body and suddenly she felt she's safe and finally at home. It was foolish of me to think we weren't okay at all! Kaori thought.
"Kenji? This is Kaori.. I just got home.."
"Oi Kaori!!" Kenji's sounded like some heavy weight had been lifted off him. "Where have you been? I've been worried sick!!" His voice dripped with concern and love.
Suddenly Kaori was overcome with guilt. How could it have occurred to me to think of Arashi that way when I have someone wonderful like Kenji already?! Kaori hated herself for being unfaithful even in thought to Kenji.
"Gomen ne, Kenji.." Kaori inhaled deeply. She was going to tell the truth. There was nothing to it. "I was with.. uh.. Arashi today." She paused again. Get it together Kaori! She scolded herself. "I had to buy a dress for the dance and her accompanied me cuz there was no one else to.. uh.." She trailed off, feeling that Kenji saw through her. She knew he always did.
Another awkward pause.
"Oh..?" Kenji's voice sounded a little forced. "So.. um.. you two have been getting along pretty great, I suppose."
"Yeah, I guess so." Kaori replied curtly.
"Um, okay.. cool." Kenji stated. "That's, like, good news, right?"
"Righhhhhht."
"Yeah"
"Good."
"Okay"
"Uh-huh." Kaori was getting annoyed. This wasn't how it was supposed to turn out. Kenji was supposed to understand, right? But Kaori also knew that something was not right with her, that's why Kenji wasn't at ease either. "Listen, Kenji, I still have tons of work to do. I'll see you tomorrow, okay?"
"Yeah, sure." Kenji replied quickly, as if stung. "I'll pick you up, okay?"
"Okay. Aishiteru." Kaori replied automatically.
Kenji noticed this but let it go. "I love you too. Sleep well." Then he put the phone down.
Kaori clutched the phone tightly and without notice, started sobbing. She thought when she told Kenji the truth, it would be okay. But instead she felt rotten. Kaori knew she was being unfair, thinking Kenji would understand. "How could he understand? What I'm doing is so wrong! And it's even wrong to expect him to understand!!" Kaori wept. "I'm so confused…" She didn't know what she felt, the perplexity and chaos inside her made her cry harder.
In the darkness, she wept.. she knew she loved Kenji with all her heart, but these feelings for Arashi are unrelenting and insistent. But the fact is, they are also most unwelcome. Kaori knew that all too well.
The moment Kenji put the phone down; he knew something was terribly wrong. It was similar to the way the rurouni in his dreams felt before a fight would occur. He specifically remembered the last time the guy felt this way was before the white-haired guy took the rurouni's girl away from him forever. Is this the same? Is someone going to take Kaori away from me, too? Kenji's mind swam in a whirlpool of thoughts.
It was his idea for Kaori and Arashi to become friends. He saw some potential between the two and he wanted friendship to blossom between them. But he didn't expect this to happen so soon. "Shopping buddies?!" Kenji breathed to himself. He scratched his already rumpled hair and tried to make sense out of it all. He sighed and paced around his room, trying to sort out his thoughts. He loved Kaori so much, and Kami knew what he'd become if he lost her. Above all, he trusted her with his life. He knew Kaori wouldn't do anything to hurt him.
"Damn, why is one shopping trip driving me nuts?!"
He flopped onto his bed and stared at the ceiling.
"This I going to be a loooooooong night."
Arashi peeked into the refrigerator and took out a can of beer. He sat down in the kitchen and fiddled with the can. He thought of school. He thought of his homeworks, projects, quizzes, his teachers, his classmates, his schoolmates – Kaori. "No" Then he thought of Kendo, the awards, his training, his competitions, his kendo captain – Kaori. "No." So he thought of home, his mom, his dad, their house, his car, even his dog- just to take his mind off Kaori.
"It's no use, mate." He muttered to himself. "You're captivated by a certain blue-eyed girl, plain and simple."
But he knew it was neither plain nor simple. He could have anyone he wanted, why on earth did he have to want Kaori?! He knew she was taken and from the way he saw things, both of them were so much in love.
He was also aware that the same force pulling him to Kaori was also taking some kind of effect on her. They were like yoyo toys.. Not knowing whether to go up or down.
He knew that he could turn back and not talk to her ever again. Temptation would be lost and his problem solved. But he'll confuse her in the process and hurt himself. Besides, he knew that it would take more than distance to place his mind off Kaori.
He could turn to Maki.. but, no, that would be unfair. And he wouldn't forget Kaori that way. It was like trying to correct a wrong with another wrong.
He was slowly going crazy.
What could he do?!
A few days ago, he didn't even know she exists. Well, he did, and she was one of the few girls he admired. But that was all. Now he didn't know what to do because of her.
He took one last gulp of his beer and threw it in the open trash can.
"Kuso." He stood up and left the big cold kitchen.
Okay.. this is kinda like a POV chappie.. The lead characters' dilemmas and fears and oh, so complicated!!! Sorry.. I just found out my college course.. and it was not what I really7 wanted, so I'm a little crabby.. hey, I'm only fifteen.. :p I'm excused, right? ;)
It was hard to write this.. imagining how they all must've felt.. -_- I knew I was a bad writer in this chap.. making them all sad.. but, hey! Maybe the next chappie would bring better days.. *sigh*
As usual, C's and C's are so welcome.. you guys motivate me to write.. ::Sniff sniff:: Arigatou minna!!