::MIRAI::
(future)
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Eighteen
Disclaimers apply..Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now an incoming college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
And what a memorable night it turned out to be.
Kenji
Do you know how much it hurts..? To see the person you love happy.. Happy with someone new. And what hurts more is that you know she's happy because you're no longer there.
He looked for Arashi in the buffet table, hoping to make small talk with him while getting some food. But he wasn't there and he caught a glimpse of his form going through the gym's back door. He hesitated for a moment, debating whether or not to follow him, sensing he was about to witness something.
His curiosity got the better of him and made his way through the exit. What he saw literally almost killed him.
Arashi and Kaori were engaged in a passionate kiss that could tremble the earth. Kenji stood there, unable to think, unable to breathe. He wanted to kill Arashi, something in his veins were rushing back. He wanted to turn around and run as fast as he could, but he stood there, watched and let the tears fall from his eyes.
He saw Kaori open her eyes and see him. He didn't know what to think. Those eyes enchanted him, enthralled him, but now they pain him. How much sorrow she caused him, he didn't know. It took all of his energy, all of his might to turn around and leave.
He heard her whisper his name, but he couldn't turn back. He ran as fast as he could to his car and once inside, his whole body trembled. He revved up his engine, tears blinding him. He didn't know where he was going; all he knew was that he needed to leave.
He drove around aimlessly for hours and soon found himself driving to her house. He stopped a few houses away and saw her bedroom lights were on. He wanted to hold her and to hear from her that it was all just a bad dream. But he can't, she already belonged to someone else.
The first day he saw her, he promised himself that no one would take her away from him. But now someone did, and he couldn't do anything. He thought himself unworthy of her love. He wanted her to have the person she really wanted.
And if that were not he, he would not complain. He would step aside and let Arashi have her. That was how much he loved Kaori.
He started the engine and sped off towards God knows where.
Arashi
"It actually hurts to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable. But what hurts more is the fact that you have to hold it back, because it was a right love at the wrong time."
He danced with her like he had never danced before; he felt her closeness and warmth like he had never felt anyone else before. There were a lot of people on the dance floor, but he felt they were the only two people there. The scent of her hair made him go crazy, her tenderness made him crave for more.
When they kissed, their lips and bodies spoke what they cannot say. The proximity confirmed the feelings the tried to deny. He opened his heart to her, he poured out what he's been trying to deny. His guarded heart became vulnerable. His rational thinking became unreasonable. His heart spoke and he listened, unaware of the consequences he might face afterwards.
And what a huge consequence it was. Even his cold aura melted when he saw Kenji's eyes. His guilt nearly killed him, his heart stopped and for a moment, he thought of running away like a coward.
He took her home and drove to a place he used to go to when he was a kid. There was a pond and grass, and he sat down there to think.
He didn't know what it is with Kaori that made him fall for her. He loves her, that much he knew. He wanted to be with her, but it was so wrong. How could he do that to Kenji? How could he not stop his emotions from showing? It was all too wrong. He was screwed up.
He didn't know whether to leave her or to continue loving her. He didn't know how to explain to Kenji and to everyone else how he could've done such a thing.
He didn't know what it is with Kaori that made him fall for her. He shouldn't have called after her when she stomped off that day. He shouldn't have offered her what seemed like a harmless cup of coffee back then. He shouldn't have turned back and invite her. He should've turned back when he could. Now there was no turning back.
He knew he was willing to suffer the consequences if that meant being with her.. but he didn't knew if she loves him back.. or if she loves him enough to make her choose him.
It was all too much for him to bear. He was overcome with guilt and shame and love. It was like a roller coaster ride that doesn't end.
Arashi continued to stare at the pond, as if awaiting answers to the sea of questions on his mind.
Kaori
"It hurts to be trapped in the middle of two people special to you, and one wrong move would mean having to get all the blame. But what hurts more is knowing that these two people are suffering because of you."
What has she done? She didn't know.
She loved Kenji with all her heart, and she truly felt he was her soulmate. He complimented her every move, he understood her. His warmth and concern filled her until she was so full. Fate drew them once in the past but it did not last. Fate drew them once again, but fate was now also drawing them apart.
She felt strongly for Arashi. His intense icy blue eyes take her deep into the owner's soul. She exposed him for what he really is. His nature made him mysterious and Kaori ventured to find out more about him. But she knew she was in too deep and she couldn't come back. She knew these feelings weren't temporary.
Something has begun and something has to end. Kaori didn't know which one is which. Her mind was clouded. Every time she closed her eyes she could see Kenji's hurting eyes, she could smell Arashi's scent, and she could feel guilt overcoming her.
She looked up to the sky, tears flowing freely in her face. The future looked bleak.
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Sob.. sniff.. Kawaii is sooooooo bad!!!
How'd it go? I told ya guys it was gonna be sad for a while..
Thanks for the comments and reviews.. a lot of you guys told me that Aoshi and Kaoru make a good pair so I'm starting to think what'll happen next.. I dunno if she'd end up with Arashi or Kenji!! This is sooooo hard.. so I'm opening a poll.. please tell me in your reviews whether you want it to be Arashi or Kenji in the end, okay? Thank you soooo much!!
Please review!! Thanks everyone!
Elspeth and Keth.. this is for you!!
(future)
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Eighteen
Disclaimers apply..Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now an incoming college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
And what a memorable night it turned out to be.
Kenji
Do you know how much it hurts..? To see the person you love happy.. Happy with someone new. And what hurts more is that you know she's happy because you're no longer there.
He looked for Arashi in the buffet table, hoping to make small talk with him while getting some food. But he wasn't there and he caught a glimpse of his form going through the gym's back door. He hesitated for a moment, debating whether or not to follow him, sensing he was about to witness something.
His curiosity got the better of him and made his way through the exit. What he saw literally almost killed him.
Arashi and Kaori were engaged in a passionate kiss that could tremble the earth. Kenji stood there, unable to think, unable to breathe. He wanted to kill Arashi, something in his veins were rushing back. He wanted to turn around and run as fast as he could, but he stood there, watched and let the tears fall from his eyes.
He saw Kaori open her eyes and see him. He didn't know what to think. Those eyes enchanted him, enthralled him, but now they pain him. How much sorrow she caused him, he didn't know. It took all of his energy, all of his might to turn around and leave.
He heard her whisper his name, but he couldn't turn back. He ran as fast as he could to his car and once inside, his whole body trembled. He revved up his engine, tears blinding him. He didn't know where he was going; all he knew was that he needed to leave.
He drove around aimlessly for hours and soon found himself driving to her house. He stopped a few houses away and saw her bedroom lights were on. He wanted to hold her and to hear from her that it was all just a bad dream. But he can't, she already belonged to someone else.
The first day he saw her, he promised himself that no one would take her away from him. But now someone did, and he couldn't do anything. He thought himself unworthy of her love. He wanted her to have the person she really wanted.
And if that were not he, he would not complain. He would step aside and let Arashi have her. That was how much he loved Kaori.
He started the engine and sped off towards God knows where.
Arashi
"It actually hurts to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable. But what hurts more is the fact that you have to hold it back, because it was a right love at the wrong time."
He danced with her like he had never danced before; he felt her closeness and warmth like he had never felt anyone else before. There were a lot of people on the dance floor, but he felt they were the only two people there. The scent of her hair made him go crazy, her tenderness made him crave for more.
When they kissed, their lips and bodies spoke what they cannot say. The proximity confirmed the feelings the tried to deny. He opened his heart to her, he poured out what he's been trying to deny. His guarded heart became vulnerable. His rational thinking became unreasonable. His heart spoke and he listened, unaware of the consequences he might face afterwards.
And what a huge consequence it was. Even his cold aura melted when he saw Kenji's eyes. His guilt nearly killed him, his heart stopped and for a moment, he thought of running away like a coward.
He took her home and drove to a place he used to go to when he was a kid. There was a pond and grass, and he sat down there to think.
He didn't know what it is with Kaori that made him fall for her. He loves her, that much he knew. He wanted to be with her, but it was so wrong. How could he do that to Kenji? How could he not stop his emotions from showing? It was all too wrong. He was screwed up.
He didn't know whether to leave her or to continue loving her. He didn't know how to explain to Kenji and to everyone else how he could've done such a thing.
He didn't know what it is with Kaori that made him fall for her. He shouldn't have called after her when she stomped off that day. He shouldn't have offered her what seemed like a harmless cup of coffee back then. He shouldn't have turned back and invite her. He should've turned back when he could. Now there was no turning back.
He knew he was willing to suffer the consequences if that meant being with her.. but he didn't knew if she loves him back.. or if she loves him enough to make her choose him.
It was all too much for him to bear. He was overcome with guilt and shame and love. It was like a roller coaster ride that doesn't end.
Arashi continued to stare at the pond, as if awaiting answers to the sea of questions on his mind.
Kaori
"It hurts to be trapped in the middle of two people special to you, and one wrong move would mean having to get all the blame. But what hurts more is knowing that these two people are suffering because of you."
What has she done? She didn't know.
She loved Kenji with all her heart, and she truly felt he was her soulmate. He complimented her every move, he understood her. His warmth and concern filled her until she was so full. Fate drew them once in the past but it did not last. Fate drew them once again, but fate was now also drawing them apart.
She felt strongly for Arashi. His intense icy blue eyes take her deep into the owner's soul. She exposed him for what he really is. His nature made him mysterious and Kaori ventured to find out more about him. But she knew she was in too deep and she couldn't come back. She knew these feelings weren't temporary.
Something has begun and something has to end. Kaori didn't know which one is which. Her mind was clouded. Every time she closed her eyes she could see Kenji's hurting eyes, she could smell Arashi's scent, and she could feel guilt overcoming her.
She looked up to the sky, tears flowing freely in her face. The future looked bleak.
********
Sob.. sniff.. Kawaii is sooooooo bad!!!
How'd it go? I told ya guys it was gonna be sad for a while..
Thanks for the comments and reviews.. a lot of you guys told me that Aoshi and Kaoru make a good pair so I'm starting to think what'll happen next.. I dunno if she'd end up with Arashi or Kenji!! This is sooooo hard.. so I'm opening a poll.. please tell me in your reviews whether you want it to be Arashi or Kenji in the end, okay? Thank you soooo much!!
Please review!! Thanks everyone!
Elspeth and Keth.. this is for you!!