::MIRAI::
(future)
Himura Kawaii
Chapter Twenty
Disclaimers apply..Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
Those cold blue eyes I wish to embrace them in this heart This courage lost Remember it once again
Maki stared numbly at the TV, her eyes unmoving.
"Aoshi-sama."
Could it be true? Maki thought for the hundredth time. Is he. is he.
"In love with her..?"
Maki looked back at the last few weeks, trying to remember anything that might shed light to what was happening.
"I couldn't see the signs. Was it the way they looked at each other? The way they held on to each other? Have they been together all along?!"
She squirmed at the possibility of that thought. Kaori was her best friend, how could she do this? Maki couldn't picture the two of them, sneaking around her back. But when she saw the way they danced two days ago, she knew their secret was out. She tried to forget the way Arashi's eyes changed from stormy gray to sky blue while he held on to her. She pushed the hurtful thoughts away from her brain.
"The feeling.. it is so painful. I cannot bear it."
Maki leaned forward, her eyes wide and tears flowed out of them. She kneeled on the floor, shaking.
"H-how. how could you do this?"
She sobbed uncontrollably, her wails echoed along with the TV.
"I loved you.. with.. all.. with all of my heart."
She thought of all the times she felt Arashi warming up to her, and all those times she had been patient with him, waiting for him. Sometimes he acted as if he loved her, but wasn't sure. She honestly believed that what he needed was time, and she was willing to wait for him. No matter how long it would take. Because in the end, they would be together.
"But you didn't love me. you didn't need me.."
How wrong she had been, she now realized. He didn't need time. He needed Kaori, not Maki.
"How could I have been so blind?"
The simple truth hit Maki like cold water. It was so simple, yet she couldn't understand why it was so painful. Why she wanted more than anything else to die. She cried her heart out, rocking herself amidst the turmoil she was in.
"Aoshi-sama."
"I loved you with all my heart.."
"Aoshi-sama.."
"Why do you not love me?
"Aoshi-sama.?
"Aoshi-sama!!!!"
Those cold blue eyes I wish to embrace them in this heart This courage lost Remember it once again Hiding in the shadows That follows your back afar Anger, unspeakable sadness Keeping them to oneself... In the dark forests you wander Purple scars At a falling star gleaming in the night Staring Ice Blue Eyes Those frozen blue eyes I wish to embrace them in this heart This courage lost Remember it once again The pain of that wound does not cease Just cry it out Warm tears Melt the ice harvest rain I am waiting... I ask only for strength Coldness that burns Throw away the pride, and hate This time, stop it... A battle, asking for tomorrow I am a fighter, defending love To the heart that flees the darkness But turns don't look back That solitude, anger, scream Let me feel them too Taking back this This true courage once again Melting those frozen blue eyes And wiping off the tears from this heart Warm tears Melt the ice harvest rain I am waiting... Ice Blue Eyes This chapter took me a long time to write.. cuz it was sooooooo angsty.. and sooooo saaaaaaadd.. :'o Okay,, hehe.. it also took me a long time to write because I just started college and I'm kinda still adjusting.. so I sort of forgot my fic. To be honest, I suddenly remembered cuz I'm here at home becuz of my allergies!! And I thought, why not continue? Hehe.. I admit, I never really paid much attention to Maki, and how she would feel in the first chappies.. sorry for my neglect, and now I feel as if I should write something about her. but I think this was kind of on the edge a bit.. I mean, Maki was thinking of suicide!! I just assumed that's how any girl would feel if she loved a guy her whole literally life and thinks that someday they'd get together, but finds out that he loves someone else. And to add to the tragedy, he loves one of her best friends. It's really painful to think of, and it would be really a lot more painful if it happens to you. I know you guys were expecting the outcome.. like, will Kaori pick Arashi or Kenji..? All in good time, I suppose. I plan on inserting Soujiro to the fic.. is it too late for that? And yeah, if you're thinking what I'm thinking, you're right. He's gonna be in for a purpose. ;) So please R and R.. I really really7 appreciate all of your comments and suggestions and time and effort on this fic.. Elspeth and Keth.. this is for you guys!! Muaaah
Chapter Twenty
Disclaimers apply..Blah blah.. RK's not mine.. Hail the Great Watsuki- sama... I'm now a college stud, but still poor!!..... Don't sue me! ^_^
Those cold blue eyes I wish to embrace them in this heart This courage lost Remember it once again
Maki stared numbly at the TV, her eyes unmoving.
"Aoshi-sama."
Could it be true? Maki thought for the hundredth time. Is he. is he.
"In love with her..?"
Maki looked back at the last few weeks, trying to remember anything that might shed light to what was happening.
"I couldn't see the signs. Was it the way they looked at each other? The way they held on to each other? Have they been together all along?!"
She squirmed at the possibility of that thought. Kaori was her best friend, how could she do this? Maki couldn't picture the two of them, sneaking around her back. But when she saw the way they danced two days ago, she knew their secret was out. She tried to forget the way Arashi's eyes changed from stormy gray to sky blue while he held on to her. She pushed the hurtful thoughts away from her brain.
"The feeling.. it is so painful. I cannot bear it."
Maki leaned forward, her eyes wide and tears flowed out of them. She kneeled on the floor, shaking.
"H-how. how could you do this?"
She sobbed uncontrollably, her wails echoed along with the TV.
"I loved you.. with.. all.. with all of my heart."
She thought of all the times she felt Arashi warming up to her, and all those times she had been patient with him, waiting for him. Sometimes he acted as if he loved her, but wasn't sure. She honestly believed that what he needed was time, and she was willing to wait for him. No matter how long it would take. Because in the end, they would be together.
"But you didn't love me. you didn't need me.."
How wrong she had been, she now realized. He didn't need time. He needed Kaori, not Maki.
"How could I have been so blind?"
The simple truth hit Maki like cold water. It was so simple, yet she couldn't understand why it was so painful. Why she wanted more than anything else to die. She cried her heart out, rocking herself amidst the turmoil she was in.
"Aoshi-sama."
"I loved you with all my heart.."
"Aoshi-sama.."
"Why do you not love me?
"Aoshi-sama.?
"Aoshi-sama!!!!"
Those cold blue eyes I wish to embrace them in this heart This courage lost Remember it once again Hiding in the shadows That follows your back afar Anger, unspeakable sadness Keeping them to oneself... In the dark forests you wander Purple scars At a falling star gleaming in the night Staring Ice Blue Eyes Those frozen blue eyes I wish to embrace them in this heart This courage lost Remember it once again The pain of that wound does not cease Just cry it out Warm tears Melt the ice harvest rain I am waiting... I ask only for strength Coldness that burns Throw away the pride, and hate This time, stop it... A battle, asking for tomorrow I am a fighter, defending love To the heart that flees the darkness But turns don't look back That solitude, anger, scream Let me feel them too Taking back this This true courage once again Melting those frozen blue eyes And wiping off the tears from this heart Warm tears Melt the ice harvest rain I am waiting... Ice Blue Eyes This chapter took me a long time to write.. cuz it was sooooooo angsty.. and sooooo saaaaaaadd.. :'o Okay,, hehe.. it also took me a long time to write because I just started college and I'm kinda still adjusting.. so I sort of forgot my fic. To be honest, I suddenly remembered cuz I'm here at home becuz of my allergies!! And I thought, why not continue? Hehe.. I admit, I never really paid much attention to Maki, and how she would feel in the first chappies.. sorry for my neglect, and now I feel as if I should write something about her. but I think this was kind of on the edge a bit.. I mean, Maki was thinking of suicide!! I just assumed that's how any girl would feel if she loved a guy her whole literally life and thinks that someday they'd get together, but finds out that he loves someone else. And to add to the tragedy, he loves one of her best friends. It's really painful to think of, and it would be really a lot more painful if it happens to you. I know you guys were expecting the outcome.. like, will Kaori pick Arashi or Kenji..? All in good time, I suppose. I plan on inserting Soujiro to the fic.. is it too late for that? And yeah, if you're thinking what I'm thinking, you're right. He's gonna be in for a purpose. ;) So please R and R.. I really really7 appreciate all of your comments and suggestions and time and effort on this fic.. Elspeth and Keth.. this is for you guys!! Muaaah