Walking down the street out into the crisp New York autumn, Chandler
squeezed Monica's hand.
What had just happened between them? He had said he loved her. surprise was an understatement. Somehow it just slipped out. He knew he felt strongly for her. more so than anyone he had ever met in his life. but love? Yes indeed. There it had been. just billowing right below the surface, waiting just spill out. He slightly cursed himself for just how it spilled out. He had tried to pretend he didn't say it but he did. He always thought that when he told Monica that he loved her, that it would be a special moment, something that they would remember as special. Her, standing in the middle of his kitchen with a turkey on her head was not exactly how he pictured it. And yet it was still amazing. He hadn't been poked or prodded he just simply said the he loved her. It was like he was saying something that was a natural fact. The sky is blue. The grass is green. I love you. It was as simple and complicated as that.
He felt her eyes fall upon him and could not help but look at her and smile. He couldn't even begin to tell her how good it felt when she looked at him that way. God how he loved that rush of looking into her eyes. It was almost like lightening was running all throughout his veins and he couldn't help but keep smiling. After she had looked away again, he looked back over to see her face become covered in a far off wonderment. She was thinking about it too, wasn't she? He knew he should probably explain himself because one minute he was freaking out the next, they're walking calmly through the park. Somehow he knew she had to understand. Somehow she would have to understand. His nerve was suddenly lost because he knew he could never put it into words for her to understand. It would just have to become an understanding between them. Sure, he could say those three little words again. But would she really understand the intense feeling of passion, love, fear, and friendship all rolled into that? He was never good with words anyways. and so they walked on.
Suddenly, Chandler was pulled back by Monica's sudden stop.
"Chandler?" She asked, as she looked him straight in the eye.
"Yeah?" He replied as he looked deep into her eyes and briefly lost himself.
"I. well I . uh. I uh."
"Yes, Mon?" He was dying to say something, anything. But daring not to seemed the safer vantage. He only prayed that whatever he would say, that his words would not fall short.
"Well. what I was going to say was."
".yessssssss?????"
"Look, I've been thinking a lot about tonight and. the incident. and I know we shouldn't talk about it-----god he didn't want to say anything stupid---- -because there is the chance that it could ruin everything-----he wanted to scream out loud that he loved her-----and I know I wouldn't want that because you mean so much to me-----he would rather die right now knowing that he loved her right then in this moment than to ever have to say goodbye----- and its just become something so much bigger than I can control that I need to know somehow that you feel the same way too-"
Before she could go on, Chandler had cupped her face in his hands and kissed her soundly. He kissed her with every fiber of his being; after all, it was all he could do to show her everything inside. It was passionate and loving all at once and it clearly stunned Chandler just as much as it had Monica. Cautiously and slowly, Chandler broke the kiss. He looked for a sign or glimmer on her face to see if his meaning was understood at all. He watched her eyes open slowly. and she smiled at him.
She had understood.
Silently she took his hand again, with a smile on her face. "Let's go home," she said calmly and the smile he was trying to contain escaped and spread across his face. That same tingle of lightening escaped through his veins once they clasped hands.
Chandler smiled to himself as well; she understood how he felt and there was nothing better on earth than knowing that.
Please Forgive Me
BY David Gray
Please forgive me If I act alittle strange For I know not what I do. Feels like lightning running through my veins Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you
Help me out here All my words are falling short And there's so much I want to say Want to tell you just how good it feels When you look at me that way When you look at me that way
Throw a stone and watch the ripples flow Moving out across the bay Like a stone I fall into your eyes Deep into some mystery Deep into that mystery
I got half a mind to scream out loud I got half a mind to die So I won't ever have to lose you girl Won't ever have to say goodbye I won't ever have to lie Won't ever have to say goodbye
Yeah na na na na Yeah na na na na
Please forgive me If I act alittle strange For I know not what I do It's like my head is filled with lightning girl Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you
What had just happened between them? He had said he loved her. surprise was an understatement. Somehow it just slipped out. He knew he felt strongly for her. more so than anyone he had ever met in his life. but love? Yes indeed. There it had been. just billowing right below the surface, waiting just spill out. He slightly cursed himself for just how it spilled out. He had tried to pretend he didn't say it but he did. He always thought that when he told Monica that he loved her, that it would be a special moment, something that they would remember as special. Her, standing in the middle of his kitchen with a turkey on her head was not exactly how he pictured it. And yet it was still amazing. He hadn't been poked or prodded he just simply said the he loved her. It was like he was saying something that was a natural fact. The sky is blue. The grass is green. I love you. It was as simple and complicated as that.
He felt her eyes fall upon him and could not help but look at her and smile. He couldn't even begin to tell her how good it felt when she looked at him that way. God how he loved that rush of looking into her eyes. It was almost like lightening was running all throughout his veins and he couldn't help but keep smiling. After she had looked away again, he looked back over to see her face become covered in a far off wonderment. She was thinking about it too, wasn't she? He knew he should probably explain himself because one minute he was freaking out the next, they're walking calmly through the park. Somehow he knew she had to understand. Somehow she would have to understand. His nerve was suddenly lost because he knew he could never put it into words for her to understand. It would just have to become an understanding between them. Sure, he could say those three little words again. But would she really understand the intense feeling of passion, love, fear, and friendship all rolled into that? He was never good with words anyways. and so they walked on.
Suddenly, Chandler was pulled back by Monica's sudden stop.
"Chandler?" She asked, as she looked him straight in the eye.
"Yeah?" He replied as he looked deep into her eyes and briefly lost himself.
"I. well I . uh. I uh."
"Yes, Mon?" He was dying to say something, anything. But daring not to seemed the safer vantage. He only prayed that whatever he would say, that his words would not fall short.
"Well. what I was going to say was."
".yessssssss?????"
"Look, I've been thinking a lot about tonight and. the incident. and I know we shouldn't talk about it-----god he didn't want to say anything stupid---- -because there is the chance that it could ruin everything-----he wanted to scream out loud that he loved her-----and I know I wouldn't want that because you mean so much to me-----he would rather die right now knowing that he loved her right then in this moment than to ever have to say goodbye----- and its just become something so much bigger than I can control that I need to know somehow that you feel the same way too-"
Before she could go on, Chandler had cupped her face in his hands and kissed her soundly. He kissed her with every fiber of his being; after all, it was all he could do to show her everything inside. It was passionate and loving all at once and it clearly stunned Chandler just as much as it had Monica. Cautiously and slowly, Chandler broke the kiss. He looked for a sign or glimmer on her face to see if his meaning was understood at all. He watched her eyes open slowly. and she smiled at him.
She had understood.
Silently she took his hand again, with a smile on her face. "Let's go home," she said calmly and the smile he was trying to contain escaped and spread across his face. That same tingle of lightening escaped through his veins once they clasped hands.
Chandler smiled to himself as well; she understood how he felt and there was nothing better on earth than knowing that.
Please Forgive Me
BY David Gray
Please forgive me If I act alittle strange For I know not what I do. Feels like lightning running through my veins Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you
Help me out here All my words are falling short And there's so much I want to say Want to tell you just how good it feels When you look at me that way When you look at me that way
Throw a stone and watch the ripples flow Moving out across the bay Like a stone I fall into your eyes Deep into some mystery Deep into that mystery
I got half a mind to scream out loud I got half a mind to die So I won't ever have to lose you girl Won't ever have to say goodbye I won't ever have to lie Won't ever have to say goodbye
Yeah na na na na Yeah na na na na
Please forgive me If I act alittle strange For I know not what I do It's like my head is filled with lightning girl Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you Everytime I look at you