Lad, The kids were my saving grace that day. There inquisitive nature taking the attention of me. I struggled to remain the same around them even though I was falling to pieces on the inside. I was worried about V just as much as L was, we'd kept in contact though the years. I smiled as we all sat down to dinner together. Despite everything else that was happening It was good to finally see my family together. I smiled at Kyle Leon, and Amanda Jane Lein who were sitting on either side of Leon, making sculptures out of their mashed potatoes, and peas like they always did. The wonder and amazement I saw in his eyes made my heart ached. He couldn't get enough of watching the two, and I knew the right thing to do would be to let him help me put them down for the night. It was also the hardest thing to do, I had been a single parent for so long, it felt like I was losing something. Memories began to surface as I saw Leon stroke our daughters head. He used to treat me like that once.

:flashback: I smiled as Leon held my hair back from face.

"You almost got oil on that," He said smiling as I worked on the engine of the small Tercell left for us to fix.

"Thanks," I said smiling up at him. I would never get tired of that gentle touch he possessed. The one people rarely used when they were with me.

"No problem," he said kissing me on the forehead after placing my shoulder length hair in a braid. Hearing Kyle Leon giggle I glanced up, and it was total dejavu as I saw him kiss his forehead. Leon It was a struggle not to look up even though I felt her eyes on me. Those browns could scorch a man. The more time I spent here, the less things made sense. Everything was set up like I was coming to stay. When she hadn't been looking earlier I had even checked the cupboards. She had things that I loved, but she didn't even eat, chuncky peanut butter which she detested, Prego spaghetti sauce, cashew peanuts. I wanted to know what had happened that I had clearly missed. Why did I see so much distrust in her eyes when she looked at me? Dinner ended way to soon, and after a quick bath it was time to put the twins to bed. I was lounging on the couch along with Mia, and Letty when Lad stuck her head out of their room .

"Come here, and say Goodnight," she said before disappering back into the room. After kissing the kids goodnight, and hitting the night light we both headed out. Grabbing her arm I stopped her walk towards her bedroom. "We need to talk."

"About what?" She asked snatching away her arm.

"What the hell is your problem?" I asked dragging her into the bathroom and closing the door so we couldn't be heard.

Lad Did he just have the audacity to ask me what my problem was?

'"My problem!" I hissed slammming him against the bathroom wall.

"What's my problem? Leon, its you! " " I asked you to come here, I needed you ! I was alone, sick ,and scared with the twins! I Asked you to come, and there was nothing, no letter no call!" " You said you'd wait ," I said my voice cracking.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Leon asked shocked as he reached out for me.

" I never knew Lad," he whispered bringing my face up so our eye s would meet.

"Don't you know I would have been here?" he asked .Those blue eyes I loved begging me to trust him. I winced as I turned away , dont' fall for it leaindra, dont' be a fool twice. I tried to push him away, but he only held me closer , letting me pound on his chest as the tears come . " Let me go , " I said weakly as I tried to get away. "Just let me go." Leon I felt bad for her holding her agaust her will, but I couldn't do it twice. Let he go , watch her walk away . "I can't ," I whispered in her ear as she tried to pull away. "I can't."