L)
I sat by V as we waited for my sister to return; stroking his hair back from his face. I couldn't believe he was finally here beside me. "L," He murmured his voice strained with pain.
"Yea babe?"
"As soon as I'm well enough to walk we are getting married."
"Whatever you want," I said wanting to scream on the inside. I'd been waiting for this day to come for years it seemed. It didn't, matter that we weren't going to be in a church the way I'd always dreamed, just as long as we were together.
"Was Dom right?"
"About what?" I said leaning closer to hear him better.
"Does Lad really have kids?"
"Yea a little boy, and a little girl."
"How's Leon handling it?" I shook my head as I listened to his questions. Typical V always needing to know what was going on. No one would have guessed he was this darn nosey.
"He's doing well, the kids already knew who he was, it wasn't a suprise. "
"I want some you know?"
"Some what?" I asked wondering if the pain was starting to get to him.
"Kids Leighanne, I'm ready for a family of our own."
"Let's just get through this first," I said smiling as I gently kissed his lips.
"I'm serious, L ," he said as looking me in the eyes.
"I know baby, I'm ready too." (Lad) I rested my head against the steering wheel after I pulled in to the driveway. If i was lucky maybe Leon would be asleep when I got there. Ever since last night he'd' been sticking to me like glue. He was making me doubt my previous beliefs; hell maybe he hadn't gotten the letter, at this point I was down right confused. I don't know whey he'd lie, but it killed me to think that we'd been apart so long for no reason. If only I hadn't waited so long to send the letter. If only I'd called, so many what if's running through my mind. Pushing my problems aside I got out of the car. Knocking before I entered the room. "Hey , I got it," I said holding up the brown paper bag.
"I 'm sure I dont' want to know how you got it," V grumbled, ever the big brother.
"Hush I just owe someone a free car job."
Walking over to him I checked his bandages, seeing no blood I took out the needle, filling it with morphine.
"First I need you to take this," I said handing him a penicillin tablet to help fight infection.
"L when I get done, was his wounds, and re bandage, it can not get infected, cause then we'd have to go to a hospital."
"Got it," she said nodding as she gulped. I knew she was wary of me caring for V, and I didn't blame her. Even though I had knowledge I wasn't' a nurse like Mia would be soon. Tying his arm with a plastic glove, I had him make a fist so I could find a vein.
"Here we go," I said injecting the drug.
"Now it'll take a few minutes to work V," I said cleaning the area, and throwing away the garbage.
(Lad)
Exhausted I stepped from the shower surprised to find Leon waiting in my room.
"Letty, and Dom. wanted to be alone," he said from his place on the bed. I felt glued to the spot, water running down my body. I was going to have to spend the night with him?
"You filled out," he said referring to the stick thin body I had left him with.
"Well, having kids will do that to you ," I said chuckling as I pulled the towel tighter.
"You look good," he said making me blush despite my resolve to keep my heart hardened.
"I Need to change Leon ,"I said feeling naked despite the protection of the terry towel.
"Lad, we need to talk," he said ignoring what I'd said pulling me to stand in-between his legs.
"Le..."
"No Lad, we need to settle this, I have thought of nothing but you these past years , and I will do whatever it takes, cause I know you're worth it."
"Le," I said my voice quivering as I thought back to the song he'd said reminded me of him in his last letter; the letter that I knew by heart l the one smudged by my tears.H e'd written out the song, breaking my heart with his side notes.
*Flash Back*
Dear Lad,
So I've been thinking about thigns latley , still wondering why you arent' back yet. I miss you so much its pratically hard to breathe. I never really realized how much a part of me you really where. I still wake up in the middle of the night reaching out for you . GOD Lad just come home, and whatever is wrong we'll fix it. I know we can work this out, cause I can't stand being apart from you anymore. I was listeningto this song, and it made me think of us. There's a thousand words that I could say ( was it something I did, was I not understanding enough?)
To make you come home (yeah)Seems
so long ago you walked away
And left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change ( I can see it now, that you needed to get away from the team, but i guess its to little to late)
Was it something I said, to make you turn away
To make you walk out and leave me cold(Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh)
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here right now
Chorus:I've been sittin here
Can't get you off mindI try my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
(touch your face)
But the truth remains you're gone(you're) Gone(baby you're) Gone(girl you're gone. Baby girl you're)Gone(you're) Gone(you're)
Now I don't wanna make excuses baby ( I've been tryign to run through reasons in my mind,but none of it matters)
Won't change the fact that your gone (no, no)
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know ( Just say the words , and I will do whatever it takes)
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess, that's my life without you ( The hours just tick by, and they all blur together)
(Guess, that's my life without you)And maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to ( GOd lad i just want you right back, with the team again)
So I'll just hang around and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you (take my mind off missing you)
And I know in my heart you can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you doYeah...
Chorus:I've been sittin here (sitin' here)
Can't get you off mind (get you off my mind)I try my best to be a man and be strong
(my best to be a man and be strong)
I drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
(Wishing I could touch your face)But the truth remains(truth remains you're)gone(you're) Gone(you're) Gone(you're gone)(you're) Gone(you're) Gone
What will I do If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby, who will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart
Baby why can't you see
That I need you here with me
Ohh...I've been sittin here (sitin' here)
Can't get you off mind (Can't get you off mind)
I try my best to be a man and be strong(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
(Oh could you baby)But the truth remains(the truth remains you're gone)
I've been sittin here (sitin' here)
Can't get you off mind (Can't get you off mind)
try my best to be a man and be strong(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insane (ohh)
Wishing I could touch your face (ohh)
But the truth remains(Ohh ohh baby the truth is you're)gone(you're) Gone(you're) Gone(you're gone)(baby girl you're) Gone(you're) GoneBut the truth remains you'reGone :gone By Nsync:
I sat by V as we waited for my sister to return; stroking his hair back from his face. I couldn't believe he was finally here beside me. "L," He murmured his voice strained with pain.
"Yea babe?"
"As soon as I'm well enough to walk we are getting married."
"Whatever you want," I said wanting to scream on the inside. I'd been waiting for this day to come for years it seemed. It didn't, matter that we weren't going to be in a church the way I'd always dreamed, just as long as we were together.
"Was Dom right?"
"About what?" I said leaning closer to hear him better.
"Does Lad really have kids?"
"Yea a little boy, and a little girl."
"How's Leon handling it?" I shook my head as I listened to his questions. Typical V always needing to know what was going on. No one would have guessed he was this darn nosey.
"He's doing well, the kids already knew who he was, it wasn't a suprise. "
"I want some you know?"
"Some what?" I asked wondering if the pain was starting to get to him.
"Kids Leighanne, I'm ready for a family of our own."
"Let's just get through this first," I said smiling as I gently kissed his lips.
"I'm serious, L ," he said as looking me in the eyes.
"I know baby, I'm ready too." (Lad) I rested my head against the steering wheel after I pulled in to the driveway. If i was lucky maybe Leon would be asleep when I got there. Ever since last night he'd' been sticking to me like glue. He was making me doubt my previous beliefs; hell maybe he hadn't gotten the letter, at this point I was down right confused. I don't know whey he'd lie, but it killed me to think that we'd been apart so long for no reason. If only I hadn't waited so long to send the letter. If only I'd called, so many what if's running through my mind. Pushing my problems aside I got out of the car. Knocking before I entered the room. "Hey , I got it," I said holding up the brown paper bag.
"I 'm sure I dont' want to know how you got it," V grumbled, ever the big brother.
"Hush I just owe someone a free car job."
Walking over to him I checked his bandages, seeing no blood I took out the needle, filling it with morphine.
"First I need you to take this," I said handing him a penicillin tablet to help fight infection.
"L when I get done, was his wounds, and re bandage, it can not get infected, cause then we'd have to go to a hospital."
"Got it," she said nodding as she gulped. I knew she was wary of me caring for V, and I didn't blame her. Even though I had knowledge I wasn't' a nurse like Mia would be soon. Tying his arm with a plastic glove, I had him make a fist so I could find a vein.
"Here we go," I said injecting the drug.
"Now it'll take a few minutes to work V," I said cleaning the area, and throwing away the garbage.
(Lad)
Exhausted I stepped from the shower surprised to find Leon waiting in my room.
"Letty, and Dom. wanted to be alone," he said from his place on the bed. I felt glued to the spot, water running down my body. I was going to have to spend the night with him?
"You filled out," he said referring to the stick thin body I had left him with.
"Well, having kids will do that to you ," I said chuckling as I pulled the towel tighter.
"You look good," he said making me blush despite my resolve to keep my heart hardened.
"I Need to change Leon ,"I said feeling naked despite the protection of the terry towel.
"Lad, we need to talk," he said ignoring what I'd said pulling me to stand in-between his legs.
"Le..."
"No Lad, we need to settle this, I have thought of nothing but you these past years , and I will do whatever it takes, cause I know you're worth it."
"Le," I said my voice quivering as I thought back to the song he'd said reminded me of him in his last letter; the letter that I knew by heart l the one smudged by my tears.H e'd written out the song, breaking my heart with his side notes.
*Flash Back*
Dear Lad,
So I've been thinking about thigns latley , still wondering why you arent' back yet. I miss you so much its pratically hard to breathe. I never really realized how much a part of me you really where. I still wake up in the middle of the night reaching out for you . GOD Lad just come home, and whatever is wrong we'll fix it. I know we can work this out, cause I can't stand being apart from you anymore. I was listeningto this song, and it made me think of us. There's a thousand words that I could say ( was it something I did, was I not understanding enough?)
To make you come home (yeah)Seems
so long ago you walked away
And left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change ( I can see it now, that you needed to get away from the team, but i guess its to little to late)
Was it something I said, to make you turn away
To make you walk out and leave me cold(Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh)
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here right now
Chorus:I've been sittin here
Can't get you off mindI try my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
(touch your face)
But the truth remains you're gone(you're) Gone(baby you're) Gone(girl you're gone. Baby girl you're)Gone(you're) Gone(you're)
Now I don't wanna make excuses baby ( I've been tryign to run through reasons in my mind,but none of it matters)
Won't change the fact that your gone (no, no)
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know ( Just say the words , and I will do whatever it takes)
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess, that's my life without you ( The hours just tick by, and they all blur together)
(Guess, that's my life without you)And maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to ( GOd lad i just want you right back, with the team again)
So I'll just hang around and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you (take my mind off missing you)
And I know in my heart you can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you doYeah...
Chorus:I've been sittin here (sitin' here)
Can't get you off mind (get you off my mind)I try my best to be a man and be strong
(my best to be a man and be strong)
I drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
(Wishing I could touch your face)But the truth remains(truth remains you're)gone(you're) Gone(you're) Gone(you're gone)(you're) Gone(you're) Gone
What will I do If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby, who will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart
Baby why can't you see
That I need you here with me
Ohh...I've been sittin here (sitin' here)
Can't get you off mind (Can't get you off mind)
I try my best to be a man and be strong(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
(Oh could you baby)But the truth remains(the truth remains you're gone)
I've been sittin here (sitin' here)
Can't get you off mind (Can't get you off mind)
try my best to be a man and be strong(my best to be a man)
I drove myself insane (ohh)
Wishing I could touch your face (ohh)
But the truth remains(Ohh ohh baby the truth is you're)gone(you're) Gone(you're) Gone(you're gone)(baby girl you're) Gone(you're) GoneBut the truth remains you'reGone :gone By Nsync: