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The dream swept over her. She could not escape it no matter how she twisted and turned and writher. His laughter tracked her, followed her. If she paused and looked up at the sky she saw his eyes watching her. How could she keep an open heart with something like this? She stared in horror at the landscape that met her eyes and saw the future. She knew that this blackened and charred mass of a city was what Rubeus intended to do to her home. She saw the living corpses of her friends, turned into his mindless servants of the undead, she saw it all through eyes that couldn't see anymore. Screaming silently in rage, in despair, in horror she clawed at her eyes with her nails, wanting to banish the sight she had seen, wanting to hurt herself, knowing she could never hurt herself enough. He had taken it from her. Deep in her soul she knew she could never become Sailor Moon again…nor the Moon Princess either…he had won.
"Usagi! Never mind the darkness, we still can find a way!" a voice came frantically to her through her fevered dreams.
Usagi glanced at a blood red sky, saw his narrowed green eyes staring at her, heard his cold cackles as she fell to her knees, unable to take any more torture. Power built up inside her until it exploded with her scream. Snatches of voices came to her. "Grab her quickly!"
"By the goddess she's strong!"
"Hold her down!"
"She's going to hurt herself again!"
"Tie her hands together!"
"Usagi!"
"Usagi!"
"Usako!"
"USAGI!!!!!!!!!"
She couldn't stop screaming, her body contorting in the dream, clawing at her face. The power flowed out of her, she wondered where it all came from, and through it all was his scream of "Victory at last!"
She had failed. Her only task to protect the world – the horrid truth was revealed…she had really been protecting the world from herself and this latent power. With the release of power she had given, she had destroyed everything she had fought and suffered to save. Unable to even kill herself, she felt a tremendous pressure on her and sank into oblivion.



Rei breathed a sigh of relief as Usagi fell still as the dead. She refused to move or stop chanting the incantation that had granted Usagi peace at last. Haruka was panting as Michiru held her up. "By the Goddess I never knew she was so strong. I didn't think she had it in her."
"She can't fight him in her mind." Makoto said mournfully. "She's losing the battle."
"It's worse than you think." Mamoru said grimly. "He just showed her that she is really protecting the world from herself. She is the ultimate enemy, the true deadly power and that is why he targeted her. He just made her destroy the city, destroy us and she would have destroyed herself save that Rei intervened."
"You know all that?" Makoto asked, incredulous.
Mamoru nodded tiredly. "I have been going into our link, our bond, hoping to shield her in some way, wanting to see what it is he puts her through. How she has managed to make it this far without losing her mind is beyond me, but I hold it as a testament to her strength that she has been able to do it."
"She is strong." Artemis cut in. "She has to learn how strong."
"She cannot fight him on this plane can she?"
"Once he regains his body then she can fight him, but he is more wraith than man. He will retreat to her mind and then he will begin again."
"So she has to fight him in her mind."
"Since he first reintroduced himself." A voice cut in. The senshi turned to see a grim faced Guardian of Time and a furious Senshi of Silence.
"This whole bit of foreplay has been to wear her down. In the future Rubeus wanted Serenity for himself, but Dimando had his eyes set on her. Hatred and bitterness are what drove him, when he sated his pleasures on the Four Sisters he managed to stay in control, but Usagi healed them, made them good. His fury at her grew. Usagi kept him from succeeding, knowing he had been damned to death if he returned, he made one last desperate attempt to succeed and failed because Usagi foiled his attempts." The senshi of death explained, sighing. "It was foreseen that he would return. He has come for her. Only her. He doesn't give a damn about any of you and you know it. She has offered to go to him willingly. He is ready to accept that, to let her be his avatar, to let her be his mate. Like a mouse inside a maze he toys with her. It's a crazy man's utopia."
Setsuna leapt in to explain. "No matter how strong you are, she always has been and ever will be more powerful, you know it, he knows it, the galaxy knows it."
"But Usagi doesn't know it." Ami said quietly. "And therein lies the problem."
Setsuna nodded. "Usagi knows she has the strength inside herself, but she doesn't believe in it. She has no faith in herself, in her abilities, in anything she does. Her self confidence and esteem have eroded to the point that she longs for death, yearns for it, yet something undefineable keeps her alive, keeps her going."
"Love." Minako said abruptly. "Love is the only thing that keeps her going. Her love for this world, for this life, for us and our love for her."
Setsuna nodded again. "But it's not enough. You can encourage her and give her love until time ends and she won't believe a word of it."
"How do we help her?" Mamoru asked, smoothing some hair off her sweaty brow.
Hotaru opened her mouth to speak when Rei's alarmed voice cut through the chatter. "Get the hell away from her now! I can't hold this incantation any longer!"
Rapidly moving away from her, Usagi's body glowed with radiant power much like when she turned into the Princess. The ginzuishou glowed as Usagi drew on it, lending it's power to it's mistress, sensing her peril. Unable to look at her, they shielded their eyes looking away from the radiant and beautiful sight. When they looked at the bed again, Usagi was gone.




Rubeus paced, he rubbed his hands together in glee letting large blackened flakes of charred flesh fall to the floor as he watched Usagi accept the unenviable, but unalterable truth. The true enemy had always been her, the true destroyer her, the bringer of destruction was her – she was not the salvation, she was not the Light. He whispered into her brain driving her closer to the brink of madness. How he had hated her from the first time he saw her! How he had yearned and desired and lusted for her without luck! He hated himself for his arousal towards her, he had flagellated himself regularly because he could not control his thoughts of what he wanted to do to her. When he had found out his brother Dimando had an attraction to her, he grew ever more disgusted with himself. His desire overrode any other thought so when the chance came to destroy HER back in the past he had leapt at it with a eagerness he had never before displayed when it came to things. Seeing her young self in the past before she had been burdened with the weight of Crystal Tokyo had inflamed his senses. He wanted her. When he had captured the senshi his goal had been to use her body and sate himself before killing her. She had destroyed that chance and destroyed that life. He had resigned himself to death.
His shock and surprise had come in discovering that hatred could keep him alive. In a sense he had become what the Wiseman had once been. His hatred kept him in limbo, let him heal, let him gather strength, let him torment himself further by watching her. The first time she had let Mamoru make love to her, his fury had been overwhelming. She would be HIS before he inhabited her body. He wanted her power. The child was insignificant, never going to come near the power her mother had. Usagi was the destroyer of nations – if he could get her to realize it. In startlement he realized she had managed to evade him once again, her body vanished, her mind a blank. He could not sense her, he could not torment and torture her. He did not live inside her head. Where had she gone? His howl of rage echoed through the vast nothingness he had consigned himself to live in. 'Merltak!' he barked. 'I don't know where she is, but find her and bring her to me! I want her taken alive!' he ordered, barely able to form coherent words.
'It is done.' Merltak replied in a hissing voice.
Rubeus' face contorted in a furious sneer as he cursed fluently. Where the hell had she gone?



Luna smiled affectionately at the child she was beginning to think of as hers. "Well what we need to do is take the ginzuishou from her and make her realize that her time has ended, and the day will start with you as the new Queen. It is only right my darling."
Chibi Usa sighed and nodded. "She can amazingly stubborn at times though Luna."
"Don't I know it." Luna groaned. "We must think of something. In her mentally delirious state it should be no problem. She is a worthless baka idiot, good for nothing, with no point. She is a waste of breath, a waste of skin, a waste of a Lunarian. You will never have these mental problems and for that I am grateful. She is an exasperating and useless bitch."
"I know Luna." Chibi Usa nodded. "How I goddamn well hate her! She is unworthy of the ginzuishou, unworthy of Mamoru, unworthy of anything. If she is being tortured and tormented by Rubeus – a fact I highly doubt…"
"Then it's no less than she deserves for being such a stupid ass all the time." Luna finished. "I've thought about that too, but you know she's a lying, brainless, hopeless drama queen. She's making it up to get sympathy, to make up for her mistakes. She refuses to take responsibility for what she has done, for what she has to do. She has no credibility in my eyes."
"No integrity." Chibi Usa agreed. "So, how do we go about this? How ashamed I am that she is my mother!"
"Try not to think about it sweet thing." Luna consoled. "Let me think…"




Usagi's eyes opened to a world of white. There was nothing but there was everything. Things she had never known before coursed through her with the force of an electric current, making her twitch. She felt a balm over her agonized mind as she took deep calming breaths. Where was she and how had she gotten here?
"You know where you are." A calm and soothing voice told her.
Usagi jerked, turning instinctively towards the voice since there was no back or forward, up or down in this place she was.
"You know who I am." The voice was amused. "Indeed I would be hurt if you did not."
Usagi's eyes widened in recognition. It couldn't be. It was impossible….
"Why is it impossible?" the voice questioned. "I have come to help you, perhaps to save you."
Usagi shook her head, her body trembling. How had she got here? She knew where she was now.
"You know how you got here." The voice reassured her. "Why seek you answers which you already know. Instead, why don't you focus on the problem at hand?"
The voice confronted her with implacable logic as it always had, as she knew it always would. She glanced down at her body, not surprised to see herself naked.
"Does clothing matter here?" the voice questioned. "What does matter?"
Usagi drew in a breath and let it out, her last exhalation as she realized the truth – and gave up her soul.




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