Hi again. This is the next chapter. ^.^ Thanks for the reviews, now I know I don't completely suck!!
disclaimer:: I don't own gw or the g-boys or anything.
A.N.:: This is really angsty because Shini, my angst muse made me do it!!
Shini:: yes i did
sakura:: ::sighs:: I couldn't help it... but then eiko (my sap/not angst muse) popped in near the end...sor of
Eiko:: cause i am the maste I am ythe master....
Wufei saw Duo's friend Sakura, her face was ashen and had visible tear tracks down them. She was wobbling more than just a little, probably because her ankle more than twice a healthy size. Her hair, which had recently hung flawlessly behind her in a ponytail like mass, now floated around her. The ends dripping in water and parts had broken blades of grass in the hair. The skin around her eyes were puffy and she didn't look well. She took one look at Wufei before keeling over like a Sack of flour.
Luckily Wufei hadn't been too surprised and he caught the girl before she could hit the ground. She was un-naturally light. It was almost as though she didn't weigh anything. While her face looked full, Wufei could feel her bones through the thin fabric of her dress.
A concerned look was all it took before her started to carefully walk back to the house. All of the pilots were staying there for the moment so he would see if Duo knew what to do with the girl.
However he felt a connection to the young woman lying limp in his arms. A connection with the woman like the bond he had felt with Merian. Feelings that he had locked inside him years ago raged back to the surface as he looked upon the girls face.
***
Quatre woke up in a warm bed. He had barely fluttered open his eyes when Trowa's concerned figure came before his eyes. It was another moment before he could hear his voice. "Quatre…are you Allright?" A small nod and that cheery smile which seemed t lighten the mood. "I'm fine koi." "Quatre, what happened…I mean what was that?" Quatre thought back and rewound the scene in his head. The scream so filled with emptiness. It had held such emptiness, such feelings that he had blacked out. "Trowa you heard that scream right?" "Yes" "Well, it's like the feelings…or rather lack thereof." "I'm confused" "Okay, the scream had an undercurrent sort of like another wavelength. I can hear- feel that wavelength. It's my Ability." "Okay" "Well you see there was almost a lack of feeling, it was the pain, and the emptiness and the loneliness is what made me pass out." At these words Trowa did not answer but blanched. Quatre looked at him concernedly. "Trowa what's wrong?" "Quatre, the scream…" "Yes" "Wufei brought the girl in from the gardens" Quatre tried to sit up in bed and the anxiety rolled off of him in waves. "Who was it?" "It was Duo's friend Sakura."
Duo looked down at Sakura and sighed. What had happened? The girl he had always known was still there but changed. She had bags under her eyes and was much thinner than could ever be possibly healthy.
'What if what happened to Noriko has happened to Sakura?' The American paled at the thought. Noriko had been so brutalized that she had never really been the same. Is that what happens to everybody? Duo didn't want to contemplate that thought. A whimper from the girl in front of him however brought him from the contemplations.
Her voice was weak and frail, so, so frail. "No… P-please stop d-d-d-don't" "Shh saku-chan" the American gently whispered into her ear. It calmed her as it had calmed Noriko. Her face relaxed once more and wasn't scrunched in pain. When Heero walked in behind Duo the American didn't notice. At least he didn't until her was drawn up in a hug from behind.
He relaxed as much as was possible. Then Heero spoke to him softly. "What's wrong duo?" "It's Sakura Heero, I- I" "Don't worry she will be fine" "It's my fault…" The words were spoken with so many emotions intermingled it was scary. Then Duo was whipped around. "Duo it is not your fault Duo!" His eyes flashed and strong arms wrapped around him and rocked the slightly smaller boy in his arms. "It's not your fault Duo" "But I-I" "Shh, it's okay Duo but it's not your fault, it's not, it's not"
Duo pressed his head up against his lover's chest. "I was supposed to protect her dammit!! It was me!! And I failed her! I did! So it's my fault-" A distinctively pissed off voice muttered hoarsely "It sure as hell was not your fault Duo Maxwell." Duo turned dumb founded and looked at Sakura who green eyes were flashing angrily.
"I promised-" "Bullshit! It's bullshit and you know it Duo Maxwell!" Sakura's eyes were narrowing dangerously and Duo still tried to insist his way weakly. "Duo this isn't your fault and you know it!!" "I-I-I" That's when Heero butted into the conversation "She's right duo" Duo was about to yell at his lover when Trowa, Quatre and Wufei walked in.
It was Quatre that spoke first. "Glad to see you're up Miss Sakura?" "Oh, please call me Sakura, to need with formalities." "Oh yes, you don't know any of us other than Duo though do you?" "No, I'm afraid not" "Well I'm Quatre, This" he pointed at Trowa "Is Trowa Barton" He then pointed at Wufei "That is Wufei Chang and…" Duo piped in at this point. "This is Heero Yuy" "Well it's nice to meet all of you."
It was at this point however that Duo broke through the pleasantries. "Sakura…what's wrong?" Sakura's mood changed drastically. Her green eyes changed to more of a yellow color. "I don't know what you are talking about Duo, nothing is wrong with me." This time it was Duo's eyes that narrowed. "That's a lie and you know it Sakura." She was sitting up in bed now and a cold fire burned in those eyes. Her shoulders were back and head held high with her dignity. Her face was no longer cheerful but a cold mask.
"I. Am. Fine. Duo." Each word was punctuated perfectly and filled with anger. "Sakura" "Don't 'Sakura' me. If I needed help don't you think I would have asked?" "No." "And why wouldn't I?" "Because your pride and dignity would have been at stake." "Duo Please" Her voice had begun waver. "You probably haven't even told anybody you needed help Sakura…you always keep things bottled up inside."
"I-I do not keep thing b-bottled up I-I-I-Inside Duo." Her green eyes were slowly starting to fill with tears and Heero put a soft hand on duo's shoulder to calm him down. In the corner Quatre was running a hand absently over his chest. The agony that was filling her was so intense. Quatre spoke softly. "Sakura…please let me, us help you…" "I-I don't need any help" the words were spoken with pride even if they were through gritted teeth.
That's when Wufei spoke. "Yes you do need help." The words were spoken softly and yet all the eyes in the room instantly went to him. His black onyx eyes were not as cold or as subdued as usual but instead where swimming with emotion. "You do need help onna" "No. I. Don't" Wufei walked over to her. "Yes, Sakura You need help." "N-no, I'm fine…I'm fine…" Her voice was getting weaker and soon she was subdued to tears.
The surprising thing though was that it wasn't Duo that held the weeping girl. Wufei did. As he held her Quatre, Trowa, Duo and Heero all left the room. Wufei had held the small girl in his arms in a bear-like hug. Her pain had become his until they melted into something else. She had been hurt before, Wufei knew that. Yet, because of that he felt a fierce want...need to protect her.
Wufei's head was spinning. Even as she cried and he fought to help her his mind swam. He loved her…and yet he couldn't. Everyone I love dies. First Merian My family, my friends... I can't love her. If I do, I'll lose her. Lose her? When did she become mine? Wufei couldn't answer that question. He did the only thing he knew. He simply held the girl as she slipped into sleep from the exhaustion of crying.
disclaimer:: I don't own gw or the g-boys or anything.
A.N.:: This is really angsty because Shini, my angst muse made me do it!!
Shini:: yes i did
sakura:: ::sighs:: I couldn't help it... but then eiko (my sap/not angst muse) popped in near the end...sor of
Eiko:: cause i am the maste I am ythe master....
Wufei saw Duo's friend Sakura, her face was ashen and had visible tear tracks down them. She was wobbling more than just a little, probably because her ankle more than twice a healthy size. Her hair, which had recently hung flawlessly behind her in a ponytail like mass, now floated around her. The ends dripping in water and parts had broken blades of grass in the hair. The skin around her eyes were puffy and she didn't look well. She took one look at Wufei before keeling over like a Sack of flour.
Luckily Wufei hadn't been too surprised and he caught the girl before she could hit the ground. She was un-naturally light. It was almost as though she didn't weigh anything. While her face looked full, Wufei could feel her bones through the thin fabric of her dress.
A concerned look was all it took before her started to carefully walk back to the house. All of the pilots were staying there for the moment so he would see if Duo knew what to do with the girl.
However he felt a connection to the young woman lying limp in his arms. A connection with the woman like the bond he had felt with Merian. Feelings that he had locked inside him years ago raged back to the surface as he looked upon the girls face.
***
Quatre woke up in a warm bed. He had barely fluttered open his eyes when Trowa's concerned figure came before his eyes. It was another moment before he could hear his voice. "Quatre…are you Allright?" A small nod and that cheery smile which seemed t lighten the mood. "I'm fine koi." "Quatre, what happened…I mean what was that?" Quatre thought back and rewound the scene in his head. The scream so filled with emptiness. It had held such emptiness, such feelings that he had blacked out. "Trowa you heard that scream right?" "Yes" "Well, it's like the feelings…or rather lack thereof." "I'm confused" "Okay, the scream had an undercurrent sort of like another wavelength. I can hear- feel that wavelength. It's my Ability." "Okay" "Well you see there was almost a lack of feeling, it was the pain, and the emptiness and the loneliness is what made me pass out." At these words Trowa did not answer but blanched. Quatre looked at him concernedly. "Trowa what's wrong?" "Quatre, the scream…" "Yes" "Wufei brought the girl in from the gardens" Quatre tried to sit up in bed and the anxiety rolled off of him in waves. "Who was it?" "It was Duo's friend Sakura."
Duo looked down at Sakura and sighed. What had happened? The girl he had always known was still there but changed. She had bags under her eyes and was much thinner than could ever be possibly healthy.
'What if what happened to Noriko has happened to Sakura?' The American paled at the thought. Noriko had been so brutalized that she had never really been the same. Is that what happens to everybody? Duo didn't want to contemplate that thought. A whimper from the girl in front of him however brought him from the contemplations.
Her voice was weak and frail, so, so frail. "No… P-please stop d-d-d-don't" "Shh saku-chan" the American gently whispered into her ear. It calmed her as it had calmed Noriko. Her face relaxed once more and wasn't scrunched in pain. When Heero walked in behind Duo the American didn't notice. At least he didn't until her was drawn up in a hug from behind.
He relaxed as much as was possible. Then Heero spoke to him softly. "What's wrong duo?" "It's Sakura Heero, I- I" "Don't worry she will be fine" "It's my fault…" The words were spoken with so many emotions intermingled it was scary. Then Duo was whipped around. "Duo it is not your fault Duo!" His eyes flashed and strong arms wrapped around him and rocked the slightly smaller boy in his arms. "It's not your fault Duo" "But I-I" "Shh, it's okay Duo but it's not your fault, it's not, it's not"
Duo pressed his head up against his lover's chest. "I was supposed to protect her dammit!! It was me!! And I failed her! I did! So it's my fault-" A distinctively pissed off voice muttered hoarsely "It sure as hell was not your fault Duo Maxwell." Duo turned dumb founded and looked at Sakura who green eyes were flashing angrily.
"I promised-" "Bullshit! It's bullshit and you know it Duo Maxwell!" Sakura's eyes were narrowing dangerously and Duo still tried to insist his way weakly. "Duo this isn't your fault and you know it!!" "I-I-I" That's when Heero butted into the conversation "She's right duo" Duo was about to yell at his lover when Trowa, Quatre and Wufei walked in.
It was Quatre that spoke first. "Glad to see you're up Miss Sakura?" "Oh, please call me Sakura, to need with formalities." "Oh yes, you don't know any of us other than Duo though do you?" "No, I'm afraid not" "Well I'm Quatre, This" he pointed at Trowa "Is Trowa Barton" He then pointed at Wufei "That is Wufei Chang and…" Duo piped in at this point. "This is Heero Yuy" "Well it's nice to meet all of you."
It was at this point however that Duo broke through the pleasantries. "Sakura…what's wrong?" Sakura's mood changed drastically. Her green eyes changed to more of a yellow color. "I don't know what you are talking about Duo, nothing is wrong with me." This time it was Duo's eyes that narrowed. "That's a lie and you know it Sakura." She was sitting up in bed now and a cold fire burned in those eyes. Her shoulders were back and head held high with her dignity. Her face was no longer cheerful but a cold mask.
"I. Am. Fine. Duo." Each word was punctuated perfectly and filled with anger. "Sakura" "Don't 'Sakura' me. If I needed help don't you think I would have asked?" "No." "And why wouldn't I?" "Because your pride and dignity would have been at stake." "Duo Please" Her voice had begun waver. "You probably haven't even told anybody you needed help Sakura…you always keep things bottled up inside."
"I-I do not keep thing b-bottled up I-I-I-Inside Duo." Her green eyes were slowly starting to fill with tears and Heero put a soft hand on duo's shoulder to calm him down. In the corner Quatre was running a hand absently over his chest. The agony that was filling her was so intense. Quatre spoke softly. "Sakura…please let me, us help you…" "I-I don't need any help" the words were spoken with pride even if they were through gritted teeth.
That's when Wufei spoke. "Yes you do need help." The words were spoken softly and yet all the eyes in the room instantly went to him. His black onyx eyes were not as cold or as subdued as usual but instead where swimming with emotion. "You do need help onna" "No. I. Don't" Wufei walked over to her. "Yes, Sakura You need help." "N-no, I'm fine…I'm fine…" Her voice was getting weaker and soon she was subdued to tears.
The surprising thing though was that it wasn't Duo that held the weeping girl. Wufei did. As he held her Quatre, Trowa, Duo and Heero all left the room. Wufei had held the small girl in his arms in a bear-like hug. Her pain had become his until they melted into something else. She had been hurt before, Wufei knew that. Yet, because of that he felt a fierce want...need to protect her.
Wufei's head was spinning. Even as she cried and he fought to help her his mind swam. He loved her…and yet he couldn't. Everyone I love dies. First Merian My family, my friends... I can't love her. If I do, I'll lose her. Lose her? When did she become mine? Wufei couldn't answer that question. He did the only thing he knew. He simply held the girl as she slipped into sleep from the exhaustion of crying.