I don't own Harry Potter, JKR does. Get it through your head.
+ What caused Severus Snape to become such a bastard? Was it his hatred of the Marauders? His time with the Death Eaters? Or was it something else? +
This story coincides slightly with Not Myself. There are a few things different than Sev's story there and here.
And many thanks to my wonderful beta Laura. Many bear hugs and chocolate frogs for yoooouuuuu.
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I'm standing on the bridgeI'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
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Cold.
It was so cold.
Snow swirled around him as he ran, lights from the village below appearing and disappearing as the snow nipped his eyes.
The tall, dark trees of the forest loomed up ahead, seeming to open before him like the jaws of a great beast ready to swallow him into darkness. He was not supposed to go inside.
But she was in there.
He had to get her.
Had to.
He plunged into the darkness, racing even faster; his heart was hammering furiously against his ribs, his breath coming in sharp gasps. Still he ran.
Then there was the scream, a sharp, blood curdling scream that made the hair on the back of his neck stand up and his stomach twist in sheer terror.
He knew that voice.
It was hers.
Crying out her name, he ran even harder.
He had to get to her.
Had to.
He cried her name again but the whistling wind drowned him out.
Then he was there.
He saw her.
And then…
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Severus Snape awoke with a gasp and sat up. The first thing that assaulted his senses was pain. The second was the dream.
No. Not a dream. Never a dream
"Severus."
He turned and faced the man standing beside his bed. Severus saw he was in the Hospital Wing but his mind was still spinning. He shook his head hoping to clear it and spoke.
"Albus." It came out as a hoarse croak, a mockery of his normal voice. What had happened to him?
"Severus, do you remember what happened?"
"No," croaked Severus.
He added to himself, at least not what you want me to remember.
He remembered that night.
They said he lost his soul when he became a Death Eater, when he took Voldemort's Mark willingly. When he was branded like an animal.
But they were wrong.
He had lost it that night.
He had lost everything that night.
His soul.
His light.
His will.
His heart.
It was all gone now like her.
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It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I
I'm with you
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The first song is I'm With You by Avril Lavigne and the second is the same. I don't own that either.