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I'm dreaming, I hate dreaming, to many memories…

"Hey Dad, can I get my license?"

"For what?"

"Driver's license, silly."

"Well, you need a learner's permit first."

"Well, can I get my learner's permit?"

"You have to be sixteen."

"I'll be sixteen the day after tomorrow!"

~I see a bright light, it's unusually quiet.~

"Daddy, why don't you want me to sit on the roof to think? It's not to high, I'm not scared."

~the light goes out, I hear a noise behind me, turn and see Rory~

"Take me with you. I want to go to Seattle too!"

~Rory disappears. I see a calendar that says September 2o36, between Bling and Cindy.~

"What's wrong, Bling? Cindy, why are you crying?"

"We need you to come with us, down the hall…"

~they disappear, it is dark. I can hear crying, though.~

"Cindy, why are you crying?"

~A gunshot rings out, but I don't know where it comes from, because it is to dark.~

"What's wrong Bling?

~Another gunshot~

I sit up quickly, breathing heavily. The memories are quickly fading away, but not quickly enough. I hear the rain outside. I hate waking up to the rain, too much like Seattle, and I hate getting wet when I drive. I get up and quickly shower and dress. Another hotel that doesn't believe in hot water or heaters in the rooms. God, it's cold in here. Ever hear the expression 'someone is walking over my grave?' that's the feeling I have. I quickly leave the hotel after settling my bill, not even bothering with breakfast. I think I'll spend tonight in my tent if it stops raining.

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I glance at my watch, barely taking my eyes off the road. It has almost stopped raining, and it's five, time to stop for dinner, since I didn't have breakfast, I'm starving. I'm traveling through a small forest, so I stop and go off the road. I build a small fire and start to boil some of the water from the bottle I bought yesterday. When it boils I add the macaroni and cheese. While it is cooking, I cut up some hotdogs, part of the pepper and some of the pickles, adding them when it I cooked. To my meal, I add a mug full of soda. After I'm done eating, I have to set up the tent. Since it's getting dark and I am really tired, I set the alarm on my bike and crawl into the tent to write some letters and sleep.

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