Notes: OKay folks, this chapter gets a bit icky. Self mutilation, which explains the upping of the rating. Also Doushite means "Why" in Japanese. ENJOY!
Chapter 11
The three were taken aback at how violently the two had reacted to their presence. They were even more surprised that Eve was in Erek's house, sharing a cup of coffee with an old friend, who was currently using Erek as a buffer.
"If you don't shut that door, I'll kill you." Came his raspy voice, almost too soft to be heard.
"Why?" Rachel's voice wasn't loud, but she cringed as it echoed in the far too quiet room.
"Because we have hangovers....." the giant blanket in the corner hissed, as dark storm clouds moved to cover the sun and make the rain pour.
"That makes sense....." Cassie moved to close the door.
"Sometmies I wish I didn't hate alcohol so much.. the drunken stupor might be just what I need."
"I doubt it. The hangover you'll get doesn't make it worth it. Besides, I'm a philosophical drunk. You'd be psychotic." Neko said, sipping her coffee.
"How do you figure that?" She inquired, makeing herself a cup of coffee.
"I took an online test." Neko knew what Cassie was doing. Cassie was using the same voice she used when she was calming frighten animals in her barn. "I think you all should leave."
"Why?" Again, it was Rachel who asked. Jake was obviously not going to be of any help, he was too busy staring at the rain as it fell.
"Doushite doushite! Is that all you ever ask?! I swear you sound like Suichi!" Neko grumbled.
"Ummm, wha?" Jake said, snapped out of his trance.
"Nothing." Neko rose and walked into the livingroom. Eve followed and they curled up on the couch as Neko rewond the tape she knew was in the VCR.
"What is her problem?" Rachel said, annoyed. The stupid bitch had no right to be mad at them. They were saving the world!
"You." Chaos' answer was short,. simple and curt. "You are her problem. and Mine. We hate you. Leave."
"Erek's our friend too." She snapped.
"Rachel..." Jake said, his voice full of warning. Chaos looked ready to kill, and Rachel would be his main target.
"Oh please Jake.. what can he do to me?"
"You'd be surprised, Rachel." Erek answered. "He can do many things. One of them is erasing my programming without the crystal."
They looked stunned, "They.....?"
"Yes we know. We know everything. Neko believe's Marco's dead. I don't, but I'm not about to break her mind by telling her otherwise. So stop your lies. I'm sick of them." Chaos walked to the doorway to living room and leaned against the door jam to watch Neko and Eve. Neko was explaining to Eve the glories of sexy cartoon boys with long hair/blue hair/personality quirks.
"It's what makes them so adorable! See, look at Kurt, he's german and fuzzy."
"And he has blue hair."
"Right! By George, I think she's got it! We are going to go on an anime fest one of these days, and I'll introduce you to Duo and Suichi and Tamahome and Tasuki..."
Chaos turned to them, glaring over the tops of his glasses, "You see? She's just starting to be happy again. You'll destroy that, but it'll happen anyway. She'll find out. And if she dies because of it, I'll kill you all."
"Right.... we hear." Jake said, torn between being extremely amused, and frightened. "Listen..... maybe you could help us fight the yeerks..."
"Help you? We told you about Eve didn't we?"
"Erek did that..." Cassie pointed out.
"We told him."
"Who told who what?" Marco said walking in. He spotted Chaos and blanched, "Oh shit....."
The TV turned off. "Oh Shit...." Erek, Chaos, Jake and Cassie said. Rachel merely readied herself for what was going to be the destruction of someone that she hated, and that wasn't Marco.
Neko appeared in the doorway, ".............Marco?"
"Uhhh, hey Christina..... long time no see?"
".....................you're alive?"
"Well you see, it's like this....."
"You're alive." She was shaking visibly. "You asshole! I've been fighting the YEERKS twice as hard to pick up what I thought wouldn't be taken care of since you were supposed to be dead! And here you are, alive and well and feeling just PEACHY!"
"Christina, who the fuck told you to fight the yeerks?! And how the hell are you fighting them anyway?! It's not a game, Chris!" He shouted at her, upset that she had been fighting the yeerks. He never knew she was actually FIGHTING them, he thought she was merely spying. She was too fragial to do anything else, wasn't she? "You are so stupid sometimes! What do you do, go after them with a stick?! Do you even know what you've gotten into!"
".................... I hate you...." she whispered.
"And I hate you, your point?" Marco retorted, unthinking.
Neko was a blur as she ran past them and out the door into the rain.
Jake glared at his friend, "Meeting at the barn. NOW." He spun on his heel and left, Cassie right behind him and Rachel sending Marco a congraulatory grins as she followed.
"........Carlos?" Marco said, flatly, "I just screwed something up, didn't I?"
"My threat still stands. If she dies because of you, I'll kill you all." He said and shut his eyes. "Go after her, Erek. I'm not the person she needs right now."
Erek was already gone.
~~~
Neko walked slowly into her house, locking the door. She made her way slowly up the stairs, trailing her fingers on the dusty banister. She had been living on her own since her mother and sisters moved out. Her parents sent her money every month, for bills and food and such. She didn't mind, it was easier like this. She picked up a box cutter as she passed the table in the hall, walked into the bathroom and locked the door.
/he's alive, and he hates me./
She dragged her clothes off, folding them neatly on the toilet seat. She sat on the floor, nude, and stared at the box cutter, pushing the blade up and down.
/how can he hate me..... doushite*?.... he can't hate me....... he was supposed to be dead..... i had to fight... i thought they were one man short, they needed me! doushite.....doushite doushite doushite doushite?!/ The blade open, she started tracing complex celtic knots on her legs, deeply cutting them, watching the blood spill down her them to the floor.
/if he's not dead, maybe i should be....../ she made tiny cuts on her feet, broken lines and whole ones. Symbols that in Taoism, meant "heaven" and "earth".
BANG BANG BANG!
/they always knock so loud..../
BANG BANG BANG! "NEKO! ARE YOU THERE?! NEKO!" BANG BANG BANG!
/oh.... it's Erek...... he'll break the door down if he keeps knocking like that.../ The blade in her hands danced across the skin of her arms, just barely touching it. /...?....this is too much... i can't do it anymore...../ a deep gash welled up with blood so dark it was almost black. /wine.... it's like red wine..... does it taste like it?/ a cat-like swipe of the tip of her tounge swiped across the gash. More blood welled up and dripped down her arm. /more like copper than wine......./
BANG BANG BANG CRACK! The door had slintered and broken under the force of Erek's blows. /did he follow me when i ran from them......? doushite? he's always so caring... oh Erek, forget me, please..../ "NEKO!" Feet rushing around the downstairs, "NEKO! God, please don't be dead.... NEEEEKOOOOOOOO!"
/he'll never find me here...../ she giggled softly, like a five year old that's playing hide and seek with an unknowing parent, as more gashes appeared, crisscrossing on her shoulders, to her arms, down to her wrists, her palms, her fingers. The pain was an exsquiste reminder of what her end was to be. /...ahh, poetic melodrama, even in death.... Sam would be annoyed.....heh../ the blade slipped between her blood coated fingers and clattered to the floor, into the pool of blood around her body. /so tired... so so tired...... goodbye Chaos.......forgive me...../ Blood flowed in a tiny stream under the door into the hall as she fell to the floor, looking almost as if she was sleeping.
The door was flung open, and fell off it's hinges to the hallway floor. "NEKO! Oh God....." The smell of blood was almost overpowering to Erek's sensors. He knelt by her still warm form, feeling for a pulse. He almost cried out with joy when he found one, weak, but still there. Slipping on the blood as he ran back into the hall way to call an ambulance, Erek cursed the Animorphs in every language he knew. /They will pay with their blood if she dies. I swear it./
Chapter 11
The three were taken aback at how violently the two had reacted to their presence. They were even more surprised that Eve was in Erek's house, sharing a cup of coffee with an old friend, who was currently using Erek as a buffer.
"If you don't shut that door, I'll kill you." Came his raspy voice, almost too soft to be heard.
"Why?" Rachel's voice wasn't loud, but she cringed as it echoed in the far too quiet room.
"Because we have hangovers....." the giant blanket in the corner hissed, as dark storm clouds moved to cover the sun and make the rain pour.
"That makes sense....." Cassie moved to close the door.
"Sometmies I wish I didn't hate alcohol so much.. the drunken stupor might be just what I need."
"I doubt it. The hangover you'll get doesn't make it worth it. Besides, I'm a philosophical drunk. You'd be psychotic." Neko said, sipping her coffee.
"How do you figure that?" She inquired, makeing herself a cup of coffee.
"I took an online test." Neko knew what Cassie was doing. Cassie was using the same voice she used when she was calming frighten animals in her barn. "I think you all should leave."
"Why?" Again, it was Rachel who asked. Jake was obviously not going to be of any help, he was too busy staring at the rain as it fell.
"Doushite doushite! Is that all you ever ask?! I swear you sound like Suichi!" Neko grumbled.
"Ummm, wha?" Jake said, snapped out of his trance.
"Nothing." Neko rose and walked into the livingroom. Eve followed and they curled up on the couch as Neko rewond the tape she knew was in the VCR.
"What is her problem?" Rachel said, annoyed. The stupid bitch had no right to be mad at them. They were saving the world!
"You." Chaos' answer was short,. simple and curt. "You are her problem. and Mine. We hate you. Leave."
"Erek's our friend too." She snapped.
"Rachel..." Jake said, his voice full of warning. Chaos looked ready to kill, and Rachel would be his main target.
"Oh please Jake.. what can he do to me?"
"You'd be surprised, Rachel." Erek answered. "He can do many things. One of them is erasing my programming without the crystal."
They looked stunned, "They.....?"
"Yes we know. We know everything. Neko believe's Marco's dead. I don't, but I'm not about to break her mind by telling her otherwise. So stop your lies. I'm sick of them." Chaos walked to the doorway to living room and leaned against the door jam to watch Neko and Eve. Neko was explaining to Eve the glories of sexy cartoon boys with long hair/blue hair/personality quirks.
"It's what makes them so adorable! See, look at Kurt, he's german and fuzzy."
"And he has blue hair."
"Right! By George, I think she's got it! We are going to go on an anime fest one of these days, and I'll introduce you to Duo and Suichi and Tamahome and Tasuki..."
Chaos turned to them, glaring over the tops of his glasses, "You see? She's just starting to be happy again. You'll destroy that, but it'll happen anyway. She'll find out. And if she dies because of it, I'll kill you all."
"Right.... we hear." Jake said, torn between being extremely amused, and frightened. "Listen..... maybe you could help us fight the yeerks..."
"Help you? We told you about Eve didn't we?"
"Erek did that..." Cassie pointed out.
"We told him."
"Who told who what?" Marco said walking in. He spotted Chaos and blanched, "Oh shit....."
The TV turned off. "Oh Shit...." Erek, Chaos, Jake and Cassie said. Rachel merely readied herself for what was going to be the destruction of someone that she hated, and that wasn't Marco.
Neko appeared in the doorway, ".............Marco?"
"Uhhh, hey Christina..... long time no see?"
".....................you're alive?"
"Well you see, it's like this....."
"You're alive." She was shaking visibly. "You asshole! I've been fighting the YEERKS twice as hard to pick up what I thought wouldn't be taken care of since you were supposed to be dead! And here you are, alive and well and feeling just PEACHY!"
"Christina, who the fuck told you to fight the yeerks?! And how the hell are you fighting them anyway?! It's not a game, Chris!" He shouted at her, upset that she had been fighting the yeerks. He never knew she was actually FIGHTING them, he thought she was merely spying. She was too fragial to do anything else, wasn't she? "You are so stupid sometimes! What do you do, go after them with a stick?! Do you even know what you've gotten into!"
".................... I hate you...." she whispered.
"And I hate you, your point?" Marco retorted, unthinking.
Neko was a blur as she ran past them and out the door into the rain.
Jake glared at his friend, "Meeting at the barn. NOW." He spun on his heel and left, Cassie right behind him and Rachel sending Marco a congraulatory grins as she followed.
"........Carlos?" Marco said, flatly, "I just screwed something up, didn't I?"
"My threat still stands. If she dies because of you, I'll kill you all." He said and shut his eyes. "Go after her, Erek. I'm not the person she needs right now."
Erek was already gone.
~~~
Neko walked slowly into her house, locking the door. She made her way slowly up the stairs, trailing her fingers on the dusty banister. She had been living on her own since her mother and sisters moved out. Her parents sent her money every month, for bills and food and such. She didn't mind, it was easier like this. She picked up a box cutter as she passed the table in the hall, walked into the bathroom and locked the door.
/he's alive, and he hates me./
She dragged her clothes off, folding them neatly on the toilet seat. She sat on the floor, nude, and stared at the box cutter, pushing the blade up and down.
/how can he hate me..... doushite*?.... he can't hate me....... he was supposed to be dead..... i had to fight... i thought they were one man short, they needed me! doushite.....doushite doushite doushite doushite?!/ The blade open, she started tracing complex celtic knots on her legs, deeply cutting them, watching the blood spill down her them to the floor.
/if he's not dead, maybe i should be....../ she made tiny cuts on her feet, broken lines and whole ones. Symbols that in Taoism, meant "heaven" and "earth".
BANG BANG BANG!
/they always knock so loud..../
BANG BANG BANG! "NEKO! ARE YOU THERE?! NEKO!" BANG BANG BANG!
/oh.... it's Erek...... he'll break the door down if he keeps knocking like that.../ The blade in her hands danced across the skin of her arms, just barely touching it. /...?....this is too much... i can't do it anymore...../ a deep gash welled up with blood so dark it was almost black. /wine.... it's like red wine..... does it taste like it?/ a cat-like swipe of the tip of her tounge swiped across the gash. More blood welled up and dripped down her arm. /more like copper than wine......./
BANG BANG BANG CRACK! The door had slintered and broken under the force of Erek's blows. /did he follow me when i ran from them......? doushite? he's always so caring... oh Erek, forget me, please..../ "NEKO!" Feet rushing around the downstairs, "NEKO! God, please don't be dead.... NEEEEKOOOOOOOO!"
/he'll never find me here...../ she giggled softly, like a five year old that's playing hide and seek with an unknowing parent, as more gashes appeared, crisscrossing on her shoulders, to her arms, down to her wrists, her palms, her fingers. The pain was an exsquiste reminder of what her end was to be. /...ahh, poetic melodrama, even in death.... Sam would be annoyed.....heh../ the blade slipped between her blood coated fingers and clattered to the floor, into the pool of blood around her body. /so tired... so so tired...... goodbye Chaos.......forgive me...../ Blood flowed in a tiny stream under the door into the hall as she fell to the floor, looking almost as if she was sleeping.
The door was flung open, and fell off it's hinges to the hallway floor. "NEKO! Oh God....." The smell of blood was almost overpowering to Erek's sensors. He knelt by her still warm form, feeling for a pulse. He almost cried out with joy when he found one, weak, but still there. Slipping on the blood as he ran back into the hall way to call an ambulance, Erek cursed the Animorphs in every language he knew. /They will pay with their blood if she dies. I swear it./