Entry One
June 11, 1973
7:30 PM
It was painful to watch my father strike my mother like that. It was even more painful to hear her screams. Why did he do it, though? I never understood that.
It's kind of strange to see your parents argue, and then watch it turn into a battle. A one-man battle, really. My father would hit mum, and she'd take it, without a word.
I know their arguments are about me. I've eavesdropped, if you could really call it that. I don't really understand why they argue about me though. I'm never around.
Always at Hogwarts. That cursed school, the school where I have no friends. And Potter. I hate him so much! He thinks he's so perfect! Strutting around in his bloody Gryffindor robe, bragging about being the Seeker! I hate him so!
Of course, I have my advantages. I'm rich, for one. He's got a pretty Sickle, but not nearly as much as my family owns. But money isn't exactly everything. It can't buy you friendship, passion… it really can't get you anything you need, except food, shelter, and clothing.
I learned a long time ago the difference between needs and wants. Needs are a necessity. Wants are just cravings, things that you can live without.
I never understood why Love wasn't qualified as a need. Without Love, you are nothing. But I've been raised to be cruel and heartless, and if I'm not, I'll receive the same thrashings my mother gets.
As I hide in the living room closet, watching the battle my father and mother are having, I recall a certain Slytherin boy who has the same sort of problems I do.
He's rich, being born in such a wealthy family. But his parents are constantly arguing and fighting. His mother is, as we speak, in the nearest hospital, no doubt in the ER. That's how much his father could do.
Come to think about it, I can't recall that boy's name. He has a bad attitude, for sure. But don't all Slytherins? Don't answer that!
Oh, we haven't been properly introduced yet, have we? I seriously wouldn't mind remaining anonymous, but if you must know who I am, I shall tell you.
My name is Severus Snape. I'm only twelve but I've come to the conclusion that my life's a living hell.
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This entry uploaded on: 8.27.02
A/N: So, does it seem like an interesting start? I do hope you like it, but it won't be updated as often as Change of Heart. The reason's obvious. I want to finish Change of Heart before I go too deep into this.