Broken Inside
By: Atsureki
Disclaimers : Weiss Kreuz ain't mine and they never will be either *sighs*
Paring : Ran(Aya)/Ken
Warnings : Yaoi, Lemon, OCC, angst (as always *mutters*)
Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts.
Chapter 10. Becoming Lovers
The four members of Weiss were all in bed but they weren't all asleep. One of them carefully freed himself from the body he rested against and slid off of the bed. His brown eyes were worried and a little bit scared but they also shone with determination.
Silently he snuck out from the bedroom and headed to his own. He hadn't slept there for a long time but he would now. Ken sighed. He had three problems. The first one he intended to take care of right away. For the first time in two months he was going to sleep on his own and that was scary.
He crawled into his own bed and shuddered. His body had forgotten what it was like to lie in a bed without Aya next to it. The second problem he had was missions. He had had five missions since he became drugfree and the panic was still there after every kill, threatening to take over and push him into an anxiety-attack.
The third problem was asleep in the room next to his. It had been two months since Ken and Aya had admitted to loving each other and still nothing had happened. Ken just didn't understand. Why hadn't their relationship moved on? Aya hugged him, held him, kissed him, caressed him but nothing more.
Ken huffed and buried his face in his pillow. The redhead was driving him insane! He loved Aya with his whole heart and he knew that his feelings were answered so why the hell didn't Aya move along? What he wanted was that tall slender body pressed against his, sweaty, panting, shivering from pleasure but for some reason that hadn't happened yet.
Ken huffed again. Maybe Aya just didn't know what to do? Well he wasn't going to get any help from the brunette there because Ken only had a few clues of how those things worked between two men. Frustrated and cold he snuggled deeper under his covers and fell asleep, nightmares long since forgotten.
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A huge yawn was the only sign of Aya being awake. Something felt wrong though. Confused the redhead opened his eyes and reached out to pull Ken closer.
"Ken?" he asked when he found nothing. Except for himself the bed was empty. A glance at his alarmclock made him frown. It was only 3 am so where was Ken? Yawning again he stood up and pulled on a sweater. He padded out of his bedroom and downstairs.
The brunette's jacket and shoes were still there so he hadn't gone outside. Both the kitchen and the living-room were empty. Frowning slightly Aya went back upstairs. After a moments hesitation he opened the door to Ken's bedroom. On the bed was the brunette, sleeping peacefully. Aya smiled.
Ken had beaten the nightmares at last. Still smiling slightly the redhead went back to his own bed to try to go back to sleep without that warm body next to his.
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Sunshine should be banned in the mornings, especially when it hit people straight in the face. Ken muttered sourly and pulled the covers over his face. He was cold and he felt lonely. Grunting he moved further to the right in search of the body he knew should be there somewhere. With a yelp he ended up on the cold and very hard floor.
"What the hell?" he frowned and looked around. He was in the wrong bedroom that much was obvious. It took a while before Ken got a grip on why he was there and not in Aya's bed. He had made it! He had slept a whole night alone without a single nightmare.
Feeling pretty darn proud of himself the brunette stumbled to his feet. One problem down, two to go. Shuddering from the cool air he left his bed behind to go back to the one he'd rather be in. Aya was still asleep and looked so cute hugging Ken's pillow tightly to his face.
Chuckling softly the brunette closed and locked the door behind him before he climbed in next to Aya. It was Sunday which meant that the shop was closed, no one would be up for hours yet. A perfect time to take care of another one of his problems. He was nervous but dammit he wanted the whole nine yards of their relationship!
Ken huffed and wiggled his pillow away from the redheads arms. Since they had started sleeping in the same bed Ken had learnt a few tricks. By tickling Aya's ear he smoothly got the redhead to flip over to his back.
"No more stalling Aya," he muttered quietly and ran his brown eyes over the pale chest infront of him. His hands were placed on it carefully as he leaned forward to softly brush his lips across Aya's. Amethyst eyes fluttered open and their owner answered the kiss even though he was still half asleep.
Ken deepened it and coaxed open the mouth he wanted to taste. He was given access and used it to run his tongue against the redhead's. A soft moan was his reward and it made him smile. The kiss broke and Aya's eyes drifted close again. Oh no you don't! Ken muttered in his head. Frowning slightly the brunette moved so that he was straddling the other man's hips.
"Ken, what are you doing?" Aya asked quietly and set his sleepy eyes on the brunette.
"I'm not sure," Ken answered truthfully but made no attempt of moving. "I… I want you Aya," he added after a while and tried to will away the blush he knew was spreading across his face. A hand pulled down his face and his lips were claimed. There was something in that kiss that told Ken that what he wanted he would get, if he just asked for it. Slowly the brunette pulled away and met Aya's eyes. "Aya… make love to me."
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"Aya… make love to me." Those words made the redhead shudder inside. He had waited patiently for the right time, refused to push himself or Ken and now he was asked, told to… to… Aya's head spun. Sure he wanted nothing more than to make love to Ken but the truth was that even though he understood the basics he was unsure of what to do or how to do it. He had never been close to a man in that way before.
To buy himself some time Aya pulled down the brunette's face and kissed him again. His hands automaticly found their way underneath Ken's shirt and started caressing the soft smooth skin. He ran them over the strong warm back that he was so used to press against when he was asleep.
His tongue danced with Ken's in a playful war that made him moan softly. Without thinking he moved his lips from the brunette's mouth and nipped his way across a tanned jawline on his way to Ken's ear. His actions drew a moan from the slightly shorter man. Aya smiled and lapped his tongue over the sensitive skin on Ken's neck. The way they were positioned hindered his movement so he gently pushed the brunette to the side.
"Aya?" Smiling softly the redhead caressed the other man's face.
"I want to see you Ken," he murmured and quickly got rid of the shirt that kept Ken's strong tanned chest from his eyes. His fingers moved over the newly exposed skin in small circles causing the brunette to moan again. Aya lowered his face and drew in the smell of Ken's skin.
It amazed him how the brunette always smelled of sun-warmed skin, grass and that special smell that he only could describe as Ken. It was sweet but masculine just like the brunette. His lips brushed against the smooth chest and Aya heard how Ken's breathing hitched.
Smiling the redhead kissed and nipped softly at the tanned skin moving here and there to claim more territory. A gasp escaped the brunette when soft lips brushed over a small nipple that hardened under the light touch.
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The things Aya was doing with his mouth were driving him insane. Ken fought to keep himself still but it was impossible. He wanted more, much more and he wanted it now. The redhead's tongue played over his nipple and was making his whole body shudder.
Other parts of his body started screaming for attention but he didn't know how to direct Aya there. Luckily for him the redhead seemed to understand. A hand was placed on his thigh and gently caressed him through the fabric. Oh God how Ken wanted his pants gone, burned, ripped to shreds anything as long as they were somewhere else then between his skin and Aya's warm hand.
Again the redhead seemed to pick up on his unspoken desire and started working on the hindering piece of cloth. Ken lifted his hips from bed to help and soon his pants were discharged and forgotten. The brunette blushed and shut his eyes. It was one thing to want to be naked before Aya's violet eyes but it was a whole different matter to see it with his own eyes. Better to keep them closed.
Soft fingertip brushed over the skin on his thigh and Ken instinctivly spread his legs to allow Aya access. The gentle caressed moved upwards and stole the brunette's breaths away. Aya's lips were back on his, kissing him softly as the palm of the redhead's hand came into contact with his erection. Ken's hips bucked up and he moaned hoarsly into Aya's open mouth.
He had never felt anything like that before but he wanted more, something else. What it was he wasn't sure of but he wanted it fast. Slender fingers wrapped around his arousal and made him gasp for air. If Aya kept that up he wouldn't last long. The hand was removed and Ken could breathe again.
"Aya, please," he begged not really knowing what he was begging for.
"Are you sure Ken?" the redhead asked softly and looked him in the eyes.
"Please." Aya nodded and left his side for a moment. He could hear him moving things and waited impatiently. The redhead returned with a familier jar in his hand and lacking his pants. A bit confused Ken looked at it. What did Aya need vaseline for?
"I… I think this will hurt a little," Aya said with hesitation. Hurt? Ken swallowed. Well no pleasure without pain, he decided and just nodded. A little bit scared he watched the redhead open the jar and coating his fingers in the slippery ointment. Aya kneeled between the brunette's legs and again met his eyes.
Ken trusted that man with his life so he willingly spread his thighs wider. The redhead leaned forward and softly nibbled on his lips while his fingers sought their way between muscular buttocks. Ken tensed for a moment but relaxed when Aya brushed his finger over his entrance.
It felt a bit strange but not unpleasent. Slowly and carefully one slender digit entered him. There was no pain just a feeling of something unfamilier. Gently and slowly the redhead moved his hand back and forth. A low moan spilled from Ken's lips. Encouraged by that Aya inserted another finger. The brunette tensed again but pushed away the slightly awkward feeling. The movement soon turned it into pleasure and he moaned again.
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Aya's body shivered as the brunette's body hugged his fingers. Slowly and as carefully as he could the redhead started stretching Ken. He didn't know how well he could do it or if it would eliminate all signs of pain but he was going to do the best he could. The more he moved his hand the more Ken relaxed.
With slight hesitation he slid a third finger inside and stopped when the brunette tensed. His lips brushed over Ken's, telling him that everything was okay. As soon as the brunette relaxed again Aya started moving his hand. The moans came back and brown eyes drifted close. He decided that he had stretched Ken enough and withdrew his hand.
"Are you sure about this?" he asked softly.
"Yes," Ken breathed. "I want you Aya." That was all the redhead needed to hear. Carefully he coated himself and again kneeled between the brunette's thighs.
"If it hurts tell me." Half-lidded brown eyes looked at him with love.
"I can take a little pain Aya, just please…" Ken's voice trailed off. Nodding the redhead moved forward pressing himself against the slightly short man's entrance. With every muscle tensed almost painfully Aya started easing himself inside the warm body.
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There was pain, enough to make Ken want to tell Aya to stop but he refused. He wanted this and he would have it! Forcing himself to relax he closed his eyes and put all his trust in the hands of the silent man he loved. It felt like it took forever before Aya was completely buried inside of him. All movements stopped as he was giving a chance to adjust to the new feeling of having someone inside of him.
Carefully Ken opened his eyes and looked into amethyst shining with passion, lust and a tender lover that made his heart pound faster. Slowly Aya pulled out slightly and then gently pushed back inside. It still hurt a little but there was another feeling that drowned out the pain. The next careful thrust made him moan.
Aya shifted slighty and when he pushed back inside he hit something that made Ken's senses spin with pleasure. No one had ever told him that it could feel like that. He wanted more. In time with the next thrust he moved, pressing against it. His moan mixed with one that fell from Aya's slightly parted lips.
The redhead picked up the pace a little and leaned forward to claim his lover's lips. Ken didn't think he could last very long and frowned slightly at that. He wanted that moment to last forever but no such luck. The pressure inside of him was already building up quickly. As the thrusts came faster a warm hand found its way between their bodies and gently wrapped itself around Ken's erection.
He let out a low cry and moved against the sensation. Aya's breathing was hoarse and fast between the moans that fell from his lips. Again the pace picked up and the brunette was falling apart from the pleasure. One well aimed thrust caused him to scream out Aya's name and climax into the gentle hand that stroked him.
The brunette's body tightened around Aya and pulled him over the edge. With a hoarse cry that called out Ken's name the redhead spilled himself inside his lover's body.
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Rapid heartbeats and hoarse breaths filled the otherwise quiet room. Sweat glistend on ivory and suntanned skin as the two lovers recovered. Gently and unwillingly Aya withdrew from the warm body that had been harbouring him. His arms shook slightly as he settled down next to Ken and pulled his lover into his arms.
"You okay? Did I hurt you?" the redhead asked with concern. A lazy smile played over the brunette's lips.
"I'm fine but I think I need a shower." The smile was returned as soft lips brushed against Ken's.
"I don't feel like moving," Aya mumbled into the brunette's mouth.
~TBC~
Whoa another Lemon! I'm turning into some Hentai-maniac *shakes head* Oh well I suppose it could be worse right???
Well I have one chapter to go and Ken has one problem left *sniffles* I'm so gonna miss this fic *crying* Anyways, you've read the crap um chapter no go review because I love reviews *nods* Ja/Atsureki